Finish a diary entry

>finish a diary entry
>read it before saving and closing the document
>suddenly have the urge to kill myself

anyone else have this problem?

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I cross out whole sections and write "whiny little fucker" on them with a red marker..my biographers gonna love this

>nothing important in my life
>diary is just whining
Feels great man

>wake up
>suddenly have the urge to kill myself

get back to me when you want to kill yourself every hour of the day

>write super deep diary entry about how sad i am
>read it the next later
>its so melodramatic and stilted i cant even believe i fucking typed it

>have nothing interesting going on in your life to write about so you write some shit about your lack of self confidence or relationship bullshit instead of your pretty good idea from earlier
>look back on it later
>it's actual garbage

literally ME desu

I have this exact problem. I think its because every entry I write is so beautiful and complete I rather it be the end of my diary desu

You know what's weird? I miss being depressed and gloomy.

same
you could rate my diary here
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You should handwrite your diary, it provides a much more fluid stream of thought.

Please stop plagiarizing from my diary desu

>saving and closing

what a pleb.

>Write my diary from 6 years ago
>It's like a mentally insane man wrote in it
>Constant non-sense talk about delusions
>Get spooked


What do.

Fucking why?

You write your diary in your computer? Lel Jesus, that seems so bizarre.

The NSA guys are laughing reading it.

>have the urge to kill myself
>still have the urge to kill myself

I have a motor condition that makes it almost impossible for me to write legibly.

me at uni

Shitty handwriting

I just finished a dirty entry, too OP. Asses need to be douched. . .

Be happy you've grown enough to notice how shit the younger you was

Why do worthless people write diaries?
No one will ever care about you and you won't improve yourself by writing your worthless thoughts down

Fun to vent

It's part of being introspective and reflective, someone who believes in such spooks as 'worth' wouldn't understand that.

I do this too. Makes me feel better about myself. That I've grown as a person and that feelings come and go

Misery is pretty comforting once you've grown accustomed to it. There's days where you feel uncomfortable if you're not down like your usual self.

>you won't improve yourself by writing your worthless thoughts down

No. I write a diary because I would kill myself unless I let it out.
I wish I had friend or could talk to people instead..

I don't know why but "the next later" has me sitting here laughing hard as shit
Am I alright

It's a practice of half conscious untermensch enslaved by ego and vice, unthinking of such

>try to write a diary entry
>it's suicidal self loathing and frogposting

>try to write a dream diary
>I can't read it because I wrote it in the dark with my bad hand upside down at 3 in the morning, with a carrot

>try to write thoughtful, intertextual prose
>the diaries are actually of higher quality

END ME

That's LITERALLY what you just did, cuck. Stop posting anytime.

>I can't read it because I wrote it in the dark with my bad hand upside down at 3 in the morning, with a carrot
quality kek

you know that making big claims with words doesn't make you smart and what's important is your reasoning, right? feel free to expound on what you've said, but i highly doubt you can manage

>being such a pretentious fag that you have some sort of superego need to write "omg so thoughtful and impressive prose" in your diary
>not using it to just vent and reflect on previous thoughts and ideas when you want to look back at how you felt back in a certain point in your life
Stop being a bunch of college cunts.

>try writing short story
>write the first paragraph
>just stare at the page for an hour, then give up

Anyone else know this feel?

>try writing short story
>instead writing diary excerpt
kill me

>tfw write something spur of the moment
>think it turns out pretty decent
>come back to it in a couple of days
>it's disgustingly cringy
>delete the whole thing out of embarassment

it's faster desu

Reading old diary entries creeps me out somewhat.
I guess I did that because I wanted to gain introspection, learn about myself and whatnot.

But the older I get and the more I observe my thoughts I realize that I (and probably people in general) just don't work that way. There's usually no meaningful introspection from some thoughts/feels you had years ago and it's often basic and boring stuff that affects all people (like tfw no gf).

You can't really learn about a human mind the same way you learn about a computer, where the more you dig in the more you know how it works and how to troubleshoot it.
The human mind is a mess, its content largely depends on the environment and basically if you want to avoid suffering get your life together and also cultivate a decent relationship with your body. This already sounds spooked and/or vague, but just do what feels right.

Nowadays I mostly stick to writing data/knowledge that might be useful in the future.

Get your oil changed

Yes, I just stopped documenting my life at all.

Better to let it slide by unnoticed.

>non-encrypted diary

Enjoy getting vanned.

Immaterial introspection is way better.

What did he mean by this.

Wait, you people actually write in diaries?

It would probably be too painful to keep one in the first place, so I don't.

I've attempted suicide in five different ways.

I fail at literally everything.