Anyone versed in psychology of any kind want to give me their theories as to why throatfucking with lots of gagging...

Anyone versed in psychology of any kind want to give me their theories as to why throatfucking with lots of gagging, spit and slime (but below facialabuse bullshit levels of intensity)
Is such an overpowering fetish for me?

love is a madness

You don't like women very much. How's your relationship to your mother?

same here deus

it's pretty clear he wants to facefuck her

I love her in such a way that sometimes when she calls me it makes me hopeful and loving toward all of my life however she is often lost in her world and I was fucked over by a woman who had similar but ultimately much less noble disposition to my mother. Like if my mother decided to give in to struggle and sadness rather than attempt to live with it and be happy even though she's clearly sad. The last part is a big part of why I love her so much

If she likes it, who cares?

i like the idea of having my dick in my woman's throat, and it becomes a sort of joystick for her whole body. i control her now, and my exercising that power sends convulsions through her because it blocks her airwaves. she's totally a victim of my pleasure. it's great. then you get the cum that fills up her whole skull, leaks out her nose and eyes because of the back pressure, and she can only roll her eyes back and go limp because of the loss of oxygen.

then i nurse her back to health and lay her down to rest while i shitpost on Veeky Forums.

You are an autogynephiliac who secretly wants to be facefucked.

Not saying it's necessarily bad but my porn history consists of 90% throatfucking, 10% anal and 0% pussy fucking. Pussy fucking isn't even a consideration when I watch porn. Just seems odd. Though I don't expect anything from this really. People's thoughts would legit interest me

Why do I want choke bitches while I fuck them

What do you get off on? Is it more the 'dirtyness' of all the slobbering, drool, etc, i.e. seeing a woman love sucking dick? Or seeing a woman humiliated and dominated?

I am in the same boat, OP

I go through phases of collecting porn and deleting everything

it's all I look at, I don't think there's a deeper repressed meaning to it - I have a distant relationship to mother but nothing out of the ordinary, I don't fully by into that freudian crap anyway, wasn't he debunked? doesn't psychology get all it's theories fucking shitcanned every few years anyway

not him but I just see it as the ultimate pleasure, it's not always about the degradation or sordidness

It's the ultimate form /way a woman gives you power - she gets no pleasure (mostly) complete surrender, love

what I want more than anything is true, requited love - thats the best I can do

me btw

You want to see a woman who allows herself to be more concerned with pleasing you than with dignity.
/thread.

I think it's the sense of ownership, also humiliation and control but she has to be into it or sort not into it but into it if that makes sense unless it's vicious throatfucking where her dick sucking personality is essentially nulled.

E.g. I've got to do this so I'll do it (it's important) or I want to fucking wreck myself and get wrecked by you on your dick (good lord) that's why throated.com's material, I don't even look at because it feels so performed and like no emotion is at stake that I don't even care how spotty her face is.

In my worst moments I think it's about inflicting pain, almost traumatising them so that they will stay small and not grow a personality. I think that's why ones like. Ashli orion throated, alex grey and gina valentina swallowed and mrichard44's catalogue are so unbelievably uncontrollably hot to me

are you me

That's a very good take I think.

its surface level at best

And you are generally unsuccessful with women? Then it should be pretty obvious why you have that fantasy

woomp there it is

Could a psychologyfag explain to me why my previous degenerate fantasies of femdom in particular and maledom occasionally are being entirely consumed by fantasies of spooning, cuddling, holding hands, and being whispered "I love you" into my ear as I wake up next to a woman?

I'm not memeing, this has happened to me over the course of the last half year or so.

I was successful in that when I was 16 I was in a secret relationship with my 29 year old English teacher who told me she was head over heels in love with and was we'd lovingly shared everything until the pressure got too much and she ended up settling for her fsggot bf and breaking promises.


Sinice then I've essentially waked off alone in a room to not deal with the pain, I think I had a panic attack when she left though only now that I come to reflect do I think that. I.E. at the time I just thought this is how I will now feel in life.

I have been doing fuck all for about 5 years since so I have both felt like a transcendent, loving, caring, capable sexual god and now a degenerate deadbeat who has alienated all his close ones and though I am (if I say so myself) pretty physically attractive I see on the rare occasions I encounter women, them sink into disappointment she they see how odd and detached and shameful I am throughout my whole being...

>insecure
>gf dropped you
>feel like you disappoint women
>deadbeat loser

And you want someone to surrender to you and see you like a full phallic presence, whose cock and entire being she MUST have?

Yeah that's a hard one to crack :^)

So you want to cripple them and assert dominance so they stay with your and don't leave you like your first love did?

Honestly I enjoy some weird stuff, like getting throat fucked or choked or beaten but it's just all good fun escapism. I just enjoy slipping into these situations now and then. It's like horror films. It's not an issue that I have with myself or others and which doesn't impede my life.
Try to seek therapy, talk to people, professionals or write about it. That was statutory rape and it was clearly damaging on some way for you.

Eh...

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But it would be better if it were something deep and angsty like the denial of death or something so that I can mope around because I have figured out life rather than because I am deeply broken because if my own circumstances.

In the former I win because I've figured out life and everyone who's happy is wrong. So...

>In the former I win because I've figured out life and everyone who's happy is wrong.

Ahh, gotchu senpai. Go to /r9k/ or /pol/ and take the redpill if that's what you're after.

OP have you ever had a chance to live out your throat-fucking fantasy? Either in "real life" or with en escort?

It would be terrible

>t. Lacan

Kek, though sincerely, I did essentially come to your conclusions as any normal person would, your phrasing was way better put and felt more like it hit the nail on the head than any of the ways ive ever put it. So, thanks.

Thanks. Yeh it was. I still never think of it as that, as though the word rape is so far off base of the events but I suppose my fucking plumit afterwards may be evidence for it. Or perhaps I'm just an overly sensitive puss..

Honestly a bit but not really. I lime the security and scapegoating of responsibility in watching them get throat fucked but not having to deal with the awkwardness and wider personality that inevitably comes with real action.

My imagination is pretty fried now anyway. When you drink caffeine/take focus pills and wank on average 5 hours a day, your, or at least my brain stops bringing up images or words. I find myself going for hours without being aware that I haven't had a thought. I feel a lot of relatabulity to those porn stars despairing lost kooks before the scene funnily enough... maybe I want to throatfuck myself. That'd be Freudian af

No is that non long answer. Misread your comment

Give it a go, might reveal something. If not, YOLO, at least you can tell your m8s a sick story

Might get a throat-like fleshlight to ease myself into it and see how I cope with that. There's even one with teeth which I never even consider when jerking. So perhaps that will ground it closer to reality, dealing with fake teeth

Maybe you should address the fundamental trauma that your throat-fucking obsession is a symptom of, rather than keep repeating the same pathological behavior.

Is not a fetish, it's just something that is"on" nowadays. I can't find it disgusting or anything like that. I read on this thread something that women doesn't feel pleasure and yes they do. Just by looking at the face of the guy they feel a tenderness pleasure and they feel good because their couple or whatever feels good. Don't mix sexual activities with love and caring. What is denigrating is that you are watching porn and over thinking about your silly fantasies.

Sounds too hard. In all seriousNess this is what I'm trying to do. Though the issue is that I feel I have to become some incredibly amazing person who by the magnificence of his own being makes those around him and his girl eternally happy. I know that that is impossible but after floundering about cobbling together snippets of life advice from many philosophers I feel I have a real, actionable answer as to the question of how to be, it's just fucking hard to start and fucking hard to stop. But I am progressing albeit not fast