So i've been feeling like pic related. Give me educated and intellectual reasons why i'm wrong and retarded for thinking like this. Some background: I'm a philosophical noob when it comes to these things and also english is not my first languange so excuse my possible awkward wording. I haven't adopted these views from any source, only discovered after i began to realize someone must've thought all this shit out before me, and sure enough, i was right. Schopenhauer, Nietczhe, Mainlander, etc. I haven't deeply read any of their works yet but will do so in near future. If you know any not-so-mainstream authors on the topic you're welcome to suggest. AND if anyone knows the exact gatecory for this way of thinking please do tell - is it something like extreme material reductionism? As i said, not really an expert on this, just discovering all the main authors and people behind this kind of philosophy.
Tl;dr is this just babby's first existencial crisis part II (material reductionism when seeking the objective truth behind all the spiritual nonsense?) and if so what arguments there are that prove this viewpoint wrong?
Also i'm aware of all the religious / spiritual viewpoints that there might exist and i think we're all intellectual enough to not need to go that route.