Write what's on your mind

write what's on your mind

I keep tottering between wanting to do great acts of love and great acts of hate.

This picture makes me want to go live in a cave.

I only wish for love, eternal love

Why does this picture make me so sad?

why do i sound good on the microphone, but shitty on the recording? ://///

Usually, the only interesting people I meet are the ones who habitually read or travel.

>all those people not taking pictures/recording just looking all "the fuck is this"

We're fucked, the dystopia win

Pussy

I don't want to be a bad person, but I believe I'm inherently dispoposed to doing bad things. I wish for redemption. What can I do to help people?

I am in the exact same boat user.

I don't have any answers either.

OP is a faggot

Check your privilege, friend.

The fact that nature is as arbitrary as it is fills me with so much despair that I have trouble doing anything. I also think that any effort to write is a result of vanity; I only want to be perceived as someone who writes for a living.

I'm really happy to hear that user. What'd you do?

I've never seen Volcano with Tommy Lee Jones... I didn't even know it existed.

We all sound shitty over microphone.

Don't worry about it too much.

No one is predisposed to be inherently bad. What is bad, or evil is simply the lack of good. You have a choice, to do good or to fall into sin.

You're not bad people, bad people wouldn't be here lamenting their supposed wrong doing. You're good people, go out and do good things. Focus on your own nature, apart of the divine. Focus on being good men, and doing the right thing. There is nothing more you can do.

God bless you Anons

personally, i've been at odds with a lot of conflicting emotions and decisions.
a lot of stuff has happened really quickly in my life to where it feels like i'm watching a movie I don't like on fast-forward, for like a really rushed movie where you can tell the CGI is off and the acting is terrible ( sorry, i'm trying my best to explain things ). i'm really losing a sense of self and it feels like I can switch personalities in a heartbeat and can't even get a grasp on myself or what/who I really am, making it really hard to cope with everything going on right now.
for the most part though, i'm lonely. I have plenty of friends but i'm really seeking an emotional/compassionate bond with someone.
at times it feels like i'm limiting myself. stopped eating a lot and stopped taking care of myself, almost as if I don't deserve to be normal or clean or happy. it feels like everything has lapsed over into a weird, pathetic apathy and I hate it. I just want to be stronger than this like everyone thinks I am.
what happens when the shoulder to cry on doesn't have a shoulder to cry on ? I feel like i'm gonna let it all out one day and lose everything so I keep it tucked inside.
it hurts, really. really really bad. but at the same time it doesn't ? I don't even know.
i'm still sailing down the river with nothing to stop myself from going down the waterfall.

Don't want to be perceived as anything. Simply do what you enjoy, and it seems that its writing. Wanting to be perceived as something will only cause confusion and falseness.

Nature is arbitrary, it's ordered. So massive is this order that it seems arbitrary. Everything fits in place, everything connects and reacts to everything. The pieces fit the puzzles. Do not despair user, have Faith. The world has meaning, and so do you.

Have Faith.

Lacrimal apparatus

user. Be straight in all you do. Have Faith. The wind may try to take you this way or that, stand firm.

You may feel lonely, you're not. Those are emotions, passing, constantly changing. What you feel is the passing of what you perceive.

Everything is out of our control, that's okay. Its out of our control, we cannot do anything.

I wish you the best user, understand that everything is outside our control except us. Do what is right. Good luck. We love you.

I just instantly bully every single person no matter what and I can't stop

First love of my life now won't talk to me because I called her a stupid cunt and told her everything her friends said about her behind her back in front of all her friends. Now I'm just an alcoholic recluse who reads alone for fun/fulfillment because everyone I know doesn't enjoy spending time with me anymore, even though I am actually actively trying to change.

What did you did user

I had an experience like this once.

I was in control of my own life, but it was in a very weird sense. It felt like a kind of cosmic maintenance, to remain myself; and yet the person I was did not feel like a self at all. And it was really stressing me out. I felt overwhelmed with expectations that I couldn't satisfy, or even understand.

What helped me was realizing that I was still in control of my own life, and that what was expected of me was not only very simple, it was also very sane and reasonable. The things I had to do were really not difficult at all. And, realizing this, I enjoyed some of them. What was really bothering me became much less like a tragedy to be won or lost (and the loss would have been unbearable) and more like a kind of a game, where really it was impossible to fail. Even mistakes were okay, if I engaged with the process with sincerity. It was all much more harmless than I thought. It was my thoughts that were making things really intense and stressful.

Things may not really be as difficult as you think. You are in control of your life and your future. You always have been, but sometimes we can forget these things. Maybe, despite your apathy, you feel too much in control, this responsibility of holding yourself together. If that is the case, it's okay to step back.

Whatever is before you that you are required to do, you can do. It's never as difficult as it seems. Some of those other things can be let go of and returned to later.

That boat that you are on has a rudder. It is not hard to steer. You won't hit that waterfall. Why would you? The only way that could happen would be if you fell asleep completely. But that's not going to happen.

Fuck my fucking part-time job. I fucking hate it. I hate working retail and I hate that my hours are so irregular, and I hate interacting with customers. I also make more money in a few hours as a freelance writer than I do in two weeks' of schedule at this job. Fuck it, I'm only working it because my parents want me to.

The only vices left in my life are slight laziness, I swear a lot, I drink about once a week, and I look at pornography maybe once a week or so. I eat healthy and feel healthy and live an active life style. I enjoy reading and fishing and watching sports and anything outdoors. I barely use social media and try to keep my screen time to a minimum every day. I am studying finance and have a great GPA and a summer internship lined up. My family is loving and wealthy and big. I look about a 6 out of 10, maybe more maybe less depending on how I dress. I should be at least kinda happy.

But I have only three people who I would call friends, a few more acquaintances. I have nightmares every single night about past loves moving on while I can only watch. I have no love prospects. I think about killing myself often enough to worry me. I either feel fantastic and energetic, or completely distraught (mostly distraught) with no middle ground. Do I need adventure? Perhaps a new wild lover. But I just can't seem to find the motivation to do anything to change my ways but complain to myself on an anonymous image board.

That asian guy knows what's up

you aren't a special snowflake.

His sentiment to get away from civilization, even if not lasting, makes him a special snowflake?
Very thoughtful of you

to live is to want and sometimes I feel like I was better off not wanting anything at all. However in the same vain I pity those that are contempt with mediocrity. I'm constantly unsatisfied and that's what separates me from the average man, for better or for worse.

pretty girls all around me. maybe some day i will get to date one.

Dang man. Only 3 friends and no girlfriend? That's definitely grounds for suicidal thoughts. I can't imagine how much you are suffering right now.

I'd rarther not say for legal purposes. I've stopped it, but I cannot change the past.

user I think you can make it. It sucks having to rebuild a social circle, but it's not impossible. What you did to your love was wrong, but not unforgivable. I don't think you can get back with her, but you know who you wronged. You've probably said it already, but I think you should apologise to her and tell her that you were in the wrong. Then try to move on as best you can manage.

Nothing wrong with the first part, if she is a stupid cunt. Chances are she was, you just made the mistake of telling a woman the truth. Never tell the woman the truth. They can't handle that shit.

If she asks you what you think, tell her what she wants to hear.
If she asks what you did, tell her what you think she would have wanted you to do.
If she asks why you do something, tell her it is for her.

what's on your mind

I am consumed by ideals which cannot be met by the real world.

I wish I was dead. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to exist. I wanna get through this but I don't know how. Time will move on but I can't. Time to hit the gym.

How old are you?

27

theres this real cutie (i think shes cute) who works at the used bookstore downtown. all throughout high school i went there with my mom, and the qt always recommended me books, commended me on my choices of books
stopped going for a while, i went in a few weeks ago without my maternal unit and she was real happy to see me, wanted to know what ive been up to etc
im 18 now, and shes 29
the last time i bought some books i was a dollar and 17 cents short, and i told her to just put one back but she paid for my book.
i really want to take her to lunch or somethig and i dont think it would be too creepy as it seems like she shows genuine interest in me, im just scared. one of the books was an italo cavino book, "cosmic comics". she said to let her how it is, shes only read one book from him. i think i should say something like "id love to talk about it over lunch sometime", something like that
should i do it, /lit? i dont really have a reason not to

I truly wish I had a '97 toyota corrolla.

do it d00d

I'm always anxious that my friends hate me. It's fucking irrational but I always think I'm a burden to them, I'm "that silly cunt we sometimes have a drink with". It happens especially when I really like them: when I don't really care about them, I think they really like me. The problem is that it makes me do weird thing, socially, and I think it kinda ruins my relationship with my friends.

What the fuck is going on in this picture.
>inb4 "pictures"

>He thrusts his fists against the post and still insists he sees the ghosts

It's a bunch of reporters during the Trump inauguration protests taking pictures of a trashcan that protesters knocked over and lit a fire inside of.

Fake news, huh.

because you never hear your voice how other hear it unless it is disconnected to you and comes from an outside source. that's because you usually hear your own voice not by soundwaves but by vibrations of your skull bones. that plus most recordings alter the sound atleast slightly if not completely change it.

Fake outrage

Kill all niggers
Woops

>tfw you swing between trying to fix your social life/education etc and simply giving in and becoming a lazy leech.
I'm in work mode now but it changes by the week it seems.
Sometimes I simply can't or won't look to the future, I go for the immediate pleasures(drugs + video games/tv/youtube) and of course when I regain my motiviation I just get pissed at how much time I wasted doing nothing but going full ''pleasure'' mode.
But when in that mode I resent the world for denying me this way of life (for the long term) the thought of work repels me and I get easily annoyed by other people, I want to be left alone.
The thing is you can't swing between these two modes of thoughts, you're going to have to pick either one of them and the choice seems clear yet I turn a blind eye when wasting my time indulging in every vice I know.
It's not just the drugs, I was like this since a small kid, which means to turn this around will take a great amount of work, I hope I choose to work hard or else the result will be me becoming a hermit, closed from other people and filled with a sense of guilt.

ANARCHY IN THE US

idk what i am doing. time seems abstracted, removed. im terrified of intimacy and im torn between facing my fear and just severing my ties with all ive ever known, fleeing to some distant land, and just, live till i die.
sometimes i think that'd be for the best; other times i can tell my reflection is lying

i feel you, that shit sucks. and neither extreme brings satisfaction, its like you cant do anything right

Begin disciplined has really improved my quality of life. Over my winter break I would barely eat, play Runescape for multiple hours a day, and go to bed really late. Since I've gone back to school, I've gotten a part time job at a small chinese place near my house, doing a 5x5 routine and eating 3k calories a day, sleeping plenty and getting up early, finishing all of my homework promptly, and engaging with my philosophy classes and the professors. All of this has given me time to actually read during the day instead of thinking that I would and then playing runescape for 6 hours. I'm reading Brief History of greece and its great. Mythology next. Jerking off in the morning has also helped me focus during the day.

I no longer feel physically ill all day from lack of food and constant computer use, and I am overall very satisfied at the moment.

Also, I quit video games completely. After playing runescape for like 7 hours straight and failing some boss again (jad) something inside of me snapped and I canceled my membership and haven't thought about it since. RS and other video games just feel like a complete waste of time. I might still play every once and a while for entertainment, like going to see a movie, but it won't be multiple hours daily to achieve some goal.

Just stay away from MMOs, man. Those are such massive time sinks it's unreal. The whole point is to keep you playing for longer and longer so they can wring more money out of you. Most normal games at least end.

Thats what I'm thinking. I can enjoy shit like Morrowind and not fall too deep in but I can't with MMOs. This was really the first time I got super deep in one and it lasted a few months. If I find some new game with an interesting story I will give it a shot, but Runescape is too tedious and pointless.

23

I made this

I think I'm going insane but if I was aware that I'm losing my mind that would mean I'm still sane, right?

Nice man. I've been following a similar path. Stopped smoking, started a better diet and sleep 6 hours a night. Unfortunately, I can't seem to find a job, but a volunteer gig has kept me occupied. Coupled with some meditation and reading from more diverse lit I feel more at ease with the present and future. Cut down playing vidya, usually about 45mins on Overwatch after I get back from school and I'm good.

i predict that with another week of nofap i'll have developed the ability to manipulate matter with sheer mindpower

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laugh it up. i was laughing too, a few years ago. but maybe someday you'll give it a try. i'll be waiting on the other side.

I laughed

ive spent the last few weeks on-and-off wishing i was dead because i have no talent or creativity and i feel like i'll never get any better. it's all i care about at all too, there's nothing else. seeing other people get attention for their work when mine is politely ignored makes me so angry. i hate it a lot and i feel completely without hope. nothing can comfort me. nothing can make it alright, because i refuse to let it. i refuse to forget about it, shrug my shoulders, move on and give up. this just reads like the petulant whining it is. i don't see any point to existing. i don't feel like i can matter as a person if i can't create worthwhile things

Please text me back

Shit this resonated. At least you haven't given up
Keep going user, I'll do it if you do

sent
;)

I'm an emasculated faggot and I deserve to die.

I wanna get out of my house and do SOMETHING but there are severe weather warnings in my area

How long have you waited for a person?

When will my struggle end?

Never, the person I needed came at the right time.

that person is engaged

I'm gonna try be focussed for 12 hours straight, even if it kills me

Then come to a decision and see if it's true

Violence needs to be done so that something may truly change. These pussies with their peaceful protests do nothing. We, the proletariat, outnumber any bourgeoisie or their agents that would stand against us. We could not be stopped.

She said she like me, but she can't now. I only like her. I tried to do something with 2 other girls, but I dumped them.

Keep your head down, polish your mask. Make sure the smile is accentuated on the mask. Tie the strings tight. Feed into your primal desires, function according to your programming. When you hear the tune of music filling your ears, grab a partner with a mask of your liking, feed into the vanity and commence to step to the tune of the music in a blissful waltz that will soothingly carry you all the way to your deathbed. Enjoy the spinning and gratify yourself the reward of having done something truly you wanted. This is your freedom, you're a unique individual, all of your thoughts and emotions are surely more real and original than those who came before you. This is what living is all about, all of this was bestowed upon you, just for you, all for your enjoyment. Have a blast, friend.

t. dostoyeski

It's the only way to be

I have to try really hard to not to masturbate so I can cum for my girlfriend it's already hard enough to cum because of medication I'm on but we keep fucking without me getting off and so I feel the need to masturbate but it makes a bad situation worse

I want to become a hero. Where should I volunteer?

With the military though I think you're misguided in your desire

I hope the growth isn't cancer...

Why do I keep coming to Veeky Forums when I should be out there instead.

the true horror is when you realize that Veeky Forums isn't a place that you go but a thing that you do with your time

Some day I will read The Brothers Karamazov, until then my book will joke haunt me with guilt for being a pleb.

I felt as though I was drilling through a lake of crushed ice with a screwdriver, displacing all of my problems and responsibilities, only to have them fall back down on top of my hand until eventually it was buried, and then my arm, and then my whole body. Slowly but surely, I am going to drown.

>Go outside
>Browse Veeky Forums on the phone
>Talk to no one

I really hate seeing this threads dying.

I wish I could hug the problems out of people.
Why isn't life easy as my favourite games and chink cartoons?

Will have fully converted into the Catholic church by Easter.

i caved, friends, but it was for your benefit. i am not yet responsible enough to wield that sort of power.

Metaphysics...... Should I let myself go mad studying metaphysics, or gastronomy? I don't fucking KNOW!?/1?!?!??1/ 2

I feel so hopeful and full of energy but I have no place to put it.

put it in ur benis :DDDDD