Al/ck/ Alcoholism General

Make me

no more alc for me tonight, because i will need some tomorrow.
gonna take a xanax bar and try to ease my mind. cant stop freaking out about this girl, dunno how to cope.

hope y'all are doing well

Drinking is the singular thing I enjoy in my life.

Without it my days would be unending drudgery in which I slowly collect money for no real purpose aside from keeping myself alive so I can maybe collect even more money in the future.

As such I have drank what was left from a bottle of cheap red wine I had from yesterday and have started into my homebrew.

I cooked Japanese curry with pork katsu last night around 2 am and didn't wash up after. I hate waking up to a mess.

did a shot of 190 proof a few hours ago and im still in pain. cant drink anymore would recommend as method to stay sober

>xanax bar
This expression always sounded so appetising/comfy/appealing to me. I've never taken Xanax or anything like that, but, "Xanax bar" is a beautiful phrase. It makes me want one.

>I hate waking up to a mess.
might not want to be an alcoholic then mate

sounds like space candy

Not him but if you're the nervous anxious type it lts literally gods gift to you. I'm a more outgoing type but with a hardcore repressed hatred of myself so i'm an opiate man myself, not that I do them anymore, i switched addictions to alcohol out of ease of acquirement and price, and its killing me way faster than oxy or vicodin ever did

>space candy

You could call it that.....

It works like a time machine

I dunno, you say that now but Vicodin and oxys really only lead to one thing if you stay on that path

life is supposed to be suffering, with moments of elation

I'm usually not too bad. Even when drunk off my ass if I cook something I usually wash up or at the very least leave the pan to soak overnight.

I'm quarter way through a liter of vodka right now, wish I wasn't but also enjoying it. I'll probably finish it all in the next 5 hours. So much for sobriety lmfao

also irc is ded

Oh I know that, we all know our substance abuse kills us eventually, thats why we do it. Because in our current minds we hate ourselves and want to die but are too scared to pull the trigger, so we numb ourselves.

I drink 2 fifths a week how long do I have to live.

you're literally fine. that's 1.5 liters a week. i don't like to tolerance shame but even the beginner level alchies go through at least 4 liters a week.

I've drank 3 handles a week for the last 7 years and I'm still OK

>ok

kek

I should have specified.

I'm OK physically

ty

but don't get content, because everyone starts somewhere. your 1.5 liter could slowly turn to 4-8liters a week or more within half a year and then you're fucked.

i used to drink 8 liters a week + beers, got down to 3 liters a week now. it didn't happen overnight when i got to 8 liters, i just suddenly realised i was doing an absolutely horrendous amount.

so i'd suggest cutting down now honestly, especially if you're asking here.

What fucking elation?

when i get a good size of drunk and listen/watch old wrestling stuff, i feel genuinely happy and feel like a kid again. it's an amazing feeling. doing it right now, i regret it in the morning tho.

I kinda hope a year off will give my brain time to heal/reset, then I might go at it again. :/

Sitting with my doggo and tying one on while I struggle to adapt to a new vidya game while listening to Tom Waits. Wish me luck, y'all.
Every day when I wake up my organs kind of hurt, I'm pretty sure I can feel my kidneys when I flex my abdominal muscles, anyone else going through this/ what could it mean?

Have you been throwing up lately? My entire torso hurts after that from muscle ache and I freak out about it sometimes.

No, I haven't thrown up in a while. In an odd way, when I do I somewhat enjoy it. It feels like I'm flexing my entire body when I dry heave and I know that I'll be able to sleep for at least an hour or two after. Morning drinking has eliminated hangovers for me, though.

It exhausts me, and that's the part I liked.

Now that you mention it I can immediately fall asleeo after a good retch, often empty the puke pitcher after I wake up.

Puke pitchers are next level drunk accesories by the way. Operated with just one hand by the handle. You can lean over the side of your bed, grab the pitcher while laying on your stomach and go to town.

Yeah, I've seen many a friend do that during an awful hangover.
Throw up/ pity sleep/ eat anything fatty with proteine/ sleep again is the shit I live by, I've had many a normie friend thank me for that regimen.

*protein
And also sorry for saying "many a friend" twice.
I've kept a beer stein on my nightstand, I usually fill it with water for waking up and drinking, but I've definitely vomited in it once or twice.
I consider myself a seasoned alcohol, though. I haven't vomited or had a hangover in ages.

>gf is shivering at 78 degrees (aka always)
>made her touch my head when at the peak of /daysweats/
>finally changed the thermostat from 76 to 70
>fans running 24/7
Feelsgoodmane.jpg
Holy fuck, I haven't been this comfortable in a while.
It should be mentioned that I live in FL, extra /daysweats/ edition.

Looked up my shit online: clay coloured.

Wat do?

Look it up online

Fuck I hate the whole human race. But I love cooking and drinking alcohol.
Also, some of you are alright.
Now go fuck off and die.

It took me 13 years from the time I drove into the woods with a handgun intending to blow my brains out till a couple months ago in the depths of a stupor to realize that.

What's wrong? You couldn't cut it as a normie? lil bish

This may be the best place to as/ck/ this

Basically my situation is a live alone and drink copious amounts of alcohol, by product being hundreds of empty vodka bottles etc littered around my house

Has anyone had to discreetly get rid of lots of bottles? how did you go about it

I can't load them all into the rubbish where I live as my neighbours will notice and I don't want that for reasons

I've considered going out at night with bottles and dumping them in other bins but it would be hard to do this discreetly

I could also find somewhere to hide all the bottles during the inspection but I'm not sure there's space big enough in my house for that

any tips or stories of similiar situation al/ck/?

Eat it

I'm in the same boat. I'm considering loading all my empty vodka handles into trash bags and leaning them in bins out front on recycle day. If anyone has a better suggestion than this, please state it. I missed recycle last week and have amassed 30 handles.

Take them out at night and start being more proactive and throw away a bottle when you finish it

>loading all my empty vodka handles into trash bags and leaning them in bins out front on recycle day
this isn't an option for me unfortunately, I have nosey neighbours that would likely look at the bags etc

The problem with dumping them in someone elses bin at night is that it'd take like 6-7 trips of garbage bags full of clanking loud bottles and I couldn't drop them into a neighbours bin I'd have to go away from home a bit

>start being more proactive and throw away a bottle when you finish it
lol where do you think you are

>General

You got to be "smart" with your drinking otherwise it won't be fun even though I want to kill myself

I'm coming off a 3 day vodka binge I feel jittery and I'm freaking out internally like I want rip my own face off, I want off this ride.

My Neighbour bought me a bottle of 100 proof Southern Comfort, do I drink it straight orrrrrr?

Drink it with dr pepper

Could I put it in coffee too?

You could if you like

>family members birthday celebration
>already drunk before i show up
>get wasted
>piss on a wall
>break a bunch of shit
>shit myself
>pass out on the floor
>they just throw me out when i wake up in the morning

I think I fucked up

Did you eat.
I kinda wish i day a month off to drink vodka again, but I kinda don't at the same time, can't trust myself, too destructive.

Straight, you can chill it or add ice, but it goes down real easy.

The the odd sandwich but in no way a balanced meal, I know what you mean about being destructive especially with vodka I don't even drink around people anymore I hate hearing the stories.

Does anyone else get drunk and stare at the wall while being angry about shit?

No that's just weird i just angrily watch youtube vids

No but i send angry/dirty texts to hookers my shat history fills me with shame.

*chat

Is there some sort of hooker app where you can text them?

How does it feel that you're on some cops date base?

I enjoy the silence

Backpage/Craigslist and a phone.
I never show I can't imagine the amount of filth an escort receives though I can imagine some pimps/biker gangs wanting to get a hold of me.

How bad is blanco tequila for sipping? Is it really necessary to shoot or mix it? Also does anyone have experience with either of these?

Is the average hooker attractive?
Asking for a friend, sorry

It all depends where you live, but I found with attractiveness comes with attitude and that's never attractive.

For recycling, you line the bottom of the bin with handles and line the top with cheap cans of soda, or other shit.
Just put a few bottles out with each bag of trash too. It'll take a while, but it'll eventually get done.

Why are you worried about them seeing you haul out empties? Aren't you concerned about them seeing you bring the bottles in?

aite, time to detox. got some strips of etizolam on hand so should be okay

I used to always love recycle day hearing all the glass bottles clang going into the truck music to my ears

I'm tired of waking up with a headache and stomachache. I wish weed was legal.

have to do it in next 4 days, I'd have to buy lot of soda and take out lots of "trash" to do this

could lose my job if found out to be alcoholic and that would be likely if I was seen taking 100 empty vodka bottles out

it is true, it's a satisfying sound

what games did you watch? im a speedrunner myself friend

Day 15 here. Maybe 16, too high to remember. I absolutely couldn't have done this without smoking from the instant I wake until the moment I fall asleep high. Total bliss. I can feel my whole body healing, everything is fun, I've got a crazy appetite, I'm not giving people new/additional reasons to hate me for the first time in years, im not getting arrested all the time, I'm not withdrawing, hung over, anxious or throwing up and I'm sleeping like a cosy babby.
I'm now back to being totally dependent on weed, it's costing me around 3 grams per day, but it's cheaper than rehab and it's comfy as hell.

>Shat myself during the night
>Put on new underwear when I wake up
>Shit them 30 minutes later

Fuck me

...

Mmmm I am living through your post. I miss weed so much. What do you prefer doing for fun when you're high?

A workmate of mine said any red wine below 15% is shit, is he right? I finally stopped drinking beer, now only wine, wine is healthier correct, or healthy as alcohol goes.

>fave high activity?
Everything is fun, but I've been feasting on these... m.youtube.com/watch?v=iM_KMYulI_s
and watching movies back to back, mind has been blown watching space/history documentaries, having deeply healing faps and generally just being a cosy hyperslob. A splat of self-aware meat melting with comfort, too content to do anything but bathe in the cosy, warm glow of honeymoon-period alc abstinence, combined with the orgasm-level nominess of strong weed. I've tried everything to stop drinking, I failed, but this works.

I am fucking certain I am creating a new race of superpowered fruit flies who feed on alcohol and live at least 5-10 times longer than normal fruit flies.
They are also quicker than their stupid inferior brethren, they are not easy to kill, there is one who has been bugging me for months.
MONTHS!
Fruit flies only live for a few weeks

my house is full of fruit flies

i dont even bother killing any of them

My mom was an alcoholic. Lost custody of me when I was 7. You know what was nice about her? Her boobs. They were big and warm. I loved using them as pillows. Her curly red hair was fun to play with. I wish I could go back in time with the degenerate mind I have now.

Why is it that whenever I drink, everyone in the fucking world wants to bother me?

"Yeah, I've been drinking X, you want some?"

>proceed to give her a hefty "tip"

Had surgery on my foot the other day for a drinking injury that occurred on NYE last year. Staying with family 3 hours away from any kind of socialisation/drunkenness/fun for the next month or so til I'm capable of looking after myself. This sucks so fucking much. Send help

Ouch :(

That’s the thing that scared me off drinking.

Building up the energy to walk to the slightly further away shop for beer. Probably the only time I'll go outside over the weekend.

Alcoholism crept up on me. I always loved to drink ever since I had my first beer, but the idea of physical dependence always seemed out of the question. Lately I can't relax at all without drinking, my arms/legs will feel restless and shaky. I'm drunk now and feel "normal", like my mind is at ease as it should be. First time in my life I've felt real withdrawals from drinking. It's weird because I never had this in my teens.

I do this too.

Mostly funny/dirty texts though, Just to waste their time and piss them off, Also for the keks..

>protip

Use a burner or pimps will be calling and texting you 24/7