Al/ck/- Alcoholism General

ive been drinking 20+ shots a day for 2 weeks and the paranoia and insanity are really creeping in. i'm legitimately scared and everybody that still feels attached to this sinking ship wants to help. any time another person offers a hand i just slap it away . i did an an inpatient detox and it did NOTHING. i hate their buzzwords and euphemisms. i hate being lectured about addiction by somebody that doesn't have first hand experience

longest i've been sober in 6 years is 36 days

That's the only thing that kept me off the sauce for a while. Now that I'm trying to cut back I can't because I don't have a job and if I get hired I know a drug test will be involved, so then I drink more and forget about both sobering up or finding work.

A week, but I was just high th whole time. Literally waited until midnight outside of a liquor store on the eve of my 21st birthday, bought 2 Fosters and drank every night and eventually every morning too ever since.

started drinking when i was 15, started getting carried away when i was 19, am now 26 and the longest spell since then was about 6 days. even when i try to cut it out for a while i'll have a friend get in touch and ask to grab a beer or something and i can never just say no. i dont know whether to call it an addiction as i never wake up with an intense craving for alcohol or anything of that magnitude, it just seems to creep into my life time and time again somehow.

my biggest problem is my favourite time to drink is the morning after a heavy session, when i just wake up and feel rough as fuck and know the only thing that's gona sort me out is a nice vodka or something, that buzz you get after you get back off the wagon is just the best, music sounds so great, cigarettes are orgasmic etc. love of that feeling has led to plenty of 5-6 day sessions that have sometimes ended me up in hospital. oh well. i wont be drinking tonight but i think i'll indulge myself in a tall glass of cold water extraction codeine water. cheers

how do you guys feel about decanters?
for whatever reason, i became somewhat obsessed with the idea. so i bought a couple from Crate & Barrel
i think they're pretty nice for the cost, but to be honest i only used them for a few days
i don't have the budget to always drink what i want, but i didn't fill them with Jim Beam either
thoughts/comments?

do any of you have a bar or a bar cart or at least a section in your kitchen or somewhere in your living space that's a designated liquor area? pics?

decanters are really a thing from the past, when matured wines used to gather bad or undesirable fermentation smells and needed some air to disperse them. Now wine is full of sulfur compunds and they were matured in perfectly clean caskets, so they don't develop weird smells.
It's fancy, tho, decanting a matured wine for your friends or family

Didn't witness it directly, but yeah a suicide has to do with me drinking a lot more.

I keep a stash of beer in our extra bedroom downstairs and usually keep my empties there for a few days before I take them out to the recycling. My wife never goes in the extra bedroom but the other day she just walked by the door and commented on how it smells like old beer cans. Now I have to take the empties out every night. Wife doesn't usually take the recycling out, but I put them all in a paper bag just in case she does so she doesn't see dozens of can in there.

I didn’t witnessed it, but a friend hung himself because he couldn’t find a way out of his crippling alcoholism.

So he sort of ruined drinking about it for me.

>tfw the restaurant you worked at used to switch labels of cheap and expensive wine
Owner loved watching the wealthy people talk about how exotic and aged the $8 barefoot Merlot was

It's a bit freaky to find a friend just splattered on a rock. I want to be strong but it's just so hard. Especially looking back and thinking I was going to do the same at one point in my life.

Am 3L of wine down. Quite drunk right now. What the fuck do I do?

14 days
Been drinking 17 years.
Apart from that one time mostly 2-4 days, and that 2nd day recks me as I am mostly still pissed the 1st day.

Order a pizza then pass out before the delivery guy comes

I've done that with burritos, don't want to do it again.

text everyone in your contacts, especially if they have a vagina.
That's one of the reasons I have no social media or friends :)

>decanters are really a thing from the past
yes, i know........
but, for whatever reason i thought i'd like the idea of having a couple around with spirits in them.
generally, i just drink by myself, so it's not as if i was attempting to impress anybody
i was thinking about getting a bar cart of some sort too
the whole idea is on hold for now and i've just gone back to pouring straight out of the bottle.
i guess i was unimpressed with my own pretentiousness

>local indian corner store owner becoming less and less friendly each time I come in at noon to buy two cans of the cheapest strongest malt liquor

It's okay I'm only an alcoholic ironically

Did tou try professional help?

12 hours.

Now that baseball season is almost over, what am I going to use as an excuse to get out and drink on the week days

I am on probation, so I can’t drink in the “”Land of the Free””
How can I go about drinking during this year of my life, preferably without getting caught and going to jail? I will be on etg tests.

Don't go to jail in the first place.

5 months when I went to boot camp and then immediately to spec ops selection.
Failed out and have been drinking every day since for the last year and a half to forget the shame of it all.

Dude that's fucked, I can't even imagine. Please go talk to someone. If you can't afford a therapist go to a church or something. Just find someone to talk to. Please.

Nah man, don't let this faggot discourage you. I've got one filled with some woodford reserve. I love having it. Just looks nice and feels cool.

Fuck the losers.

This is why I go to different places. The social anxiety of cashiers realizing I'm an alcoholic.

The only people who call any unit in the military "special ops" are larping cod fags.

As a add on to this, I'm starting weekends only drinking next week and starting to train again to go the fuck back and pass this time. Long term gonna figure out if I need to go full on clean or not. Until then I'll keep having a couple drinks at night to fall asleep.

I've been working in the restaurant industry for 16+ years and I have never seen anybody do that.

Try getting v&nned in high school, the cops coming to your house at 6AM putting your family in zip ties and then having that fuck up any steps towards formulating a career.

Fuck off faggot, I was generalizing because I didn't feel like getting into specifics. Easier to say "spec ops selection" on a Eurasian knitting forum than "pararescue indoc" if I'm just having a conversation with strangers.

instant panic attack every time i try to smoke weed

literally after the first couple of hits i start breathing manually, my hands go clammy, start shaking

it just aint for me

Vanned in high school for what

>The autism is real

it's nice to have one with red wine in

like the few times i've gone to someone's house and they've had a decanter of red just sitting there i've been very impressed. does make it taste better too

I dropped out of boot too

The shame never goes away
>tfw thinking of all the people who were so impressed and all the girls that were mirin

>come home and be a drug abusing faggot with a basic bitch insurance job
welp here we are

How the fuck am I supposed to hang myself in my room if there's nothing to attach the rope to?

supposedly having cheese pizza on a HDD in 2007.

Oh no I'm still in. I'm just in a different job than I came in for. They've got me fixing c130 engines in Japan.
How the fuck did you wash out of basic?

I love to take a few beers the morning after when I'm horny and watch some porn and fap. But I've had the tendency to don't keep drinking after I've cummed. Yes I'm a degenerate.

We'll maybe you shouldn't have been a pedophile, you pedophile.

I'm not, but I guess thats what happens when you're fucking around with huge swathes of torrents that you dont know exactly which each file is.

Oh fuck that sucks

Every time I talk with someone about how fucked up the child porn laws are in this country they look at me like I'm some deranged faggot who watches CP.
Guess that's why those laws don't get reformed.

2 weeks without a single drop of alcohol to work on a deadline due today.

and today my deadline got postponed to next week. How do i fight the urge? I got all the papers done but im sure they expect more with this deadline extension.

severe depression/anxiety mainly. I really should never have joined.

Yeah. Court papers got mixed up somehow and they never called me in, but I don't want to bring it attention to it either.

Can't pass a background check because it comes back with an outstanding unresolved issue, and I have panic attacks when I think about the whole ordeal and about how to get it solved.

So instead I avoid the issue and drink alot.

I'm sorry, man. That's super rough
At least you put yourself out there and gave it a shot. That's a hell of a lot better than almost everyone else.
The "man in the arena" and all that.
What did you come in for?

I joined the army wanting to be a 12B, but at the very last second before I swore in my recruiter came up to me and said I failed the colorblind test so I had to be a 13D. I enlisted anyway because I was already there and went through all the bullshit. I know i’m just making excuses but that was part of the reason I was unmotivated because my dream was being a combat engineer for a long time.

No, man I totally get it. That's why I've been drinking so heavily. Just the sense of disillusionment that comes from being so close to your dream only to see it fall away in front of you.
It's hell.
That's why I'm swearing to myself to give it another go. The only sense of purpose I've felt in the last maybe 5 years of my life was when I was going after it. Might as well see it through.

How's life on the outside been treating you?

Thanks for the advice, Im sure they have some idea that I'm drinking or something. Somehow I got caught up in the routine of drinking at lunch and it's snowballed so to say. I'm sitting in my car right now on my afternoon break, feeling soberish so having another drink. I'm about half a 750ml deep today. I really want to curb drinking at work but this job makes me so misrible. I work at corporate in customer service for a retailer so I take the angry customer calls that can't get serviced overseas or by our call center supervisors. I'd find a new job but anything paying more requires a lot more skills/experience and anything much less I'll be back in poverty.

anyone else a big fan of wild turkey american honey? apparently one of the only brands that uses real honey (instead of honey flavor liqueur)
to me tastes a bit like spicy orange tic tacs, only liquor i can just sip straight for hours...

>Fuck the losers.
lol thanks bruh
i think i'm going to have to get a bar cart or *something* to truly appreciate the decanter thing
i do agree with this though:
>Just looks nice and feels cool. Just looks nice and feels cool.

maybe i just need to get a silk bathrobe

Over 300 days without a drop, almost 2 years not counting small relapses.
Was drinking over 75cl of 37.5% vodka for years. Now vaping pot.

You went to inpatient detox and were the only tox there?
Also you need rehab, not detox.

Try smoking, stop drinking, then stop smoking, then find a job.
It's not like they'll hire an alcohol either.

Just give a quick rinse to the empties, they won't smell as much.

Ask /diy/, tell 'em you want to install a sex swing. Or do it in another room or in a forest.

Have you asked a lawyer if there's a way to resolve this?

It’s been okay, but unfulfilling as you’d imagine. I’m just living paycheck to paycheck, lonely as any other motherfucker in these threads. Trying to find a goal to pursue but I’m too comfortable just going home and drinking.

I really hope you can get to where you want to be man. I think it’s considerably impressive being where you are right now.

>Ask /diy/

I have no mechanical tools

>Hiding your drinking from the people you live with edition.
I'm 98% sure they know, sorry to break it to you anons

Not him but I definitely agree
Sometimes it's nice to have a display in which you have spirits in a decanter without all the commercial labels.
Don't entirely understand why you'd want one if you're just drinking alone, but you do you

All you need is to locate a beam strong enough to hold your weight+kinetic force.

There is no beam, that's the problem, there's fucking nothing

Thanks man. You're right that I'm in a good place right now. Sometimes I forget the good things in my life and take them for granted. I'm sure you've got a lot of good that you just aren't thinking about right now too.
You already know this, but the first step is getting outside your comfort zone. If you've got to do it one inch at a time, do it one inch at a time. But make a promise to yourself to make progress every day. Start putting yourself in new situations and I guarantee you'll find something worth living for. There's more in this life than just drinking and depression.
We're all gonna make it brah.

>Don't entirely understand why you'd want one if you're just drinking alone
i don't live alone.. married w/ kids & stuff.
my wife usually drinks beers or wine, so technically not drinking alone, but i' am generally the only one drinking Whiskey/Whisky
yea, just something i thought was cool until i actually went ahead with is.
i think i just need to set up a dedicated liquor area.
not necessarily a full-sized bar or whatever, but a bar cart, small table or something

Seek help. Don't listen to these edgy faggots online. I've had too many people close to me commit suicide. Find someone to talk to.
Hell if you want to give me a call even, go for it. But don't do this.

go to home depo, buy a stud locator.

Fuck off, I'm drunk and I can't find a place to hang a noose from, I have a thin rope, I could double it so it would hold my weight but there's nothing to attach it to

>Have you asked a lawyer if there's a way to resolve this?

He said it was best to let sleeping dogs lie and wait for the statute of limitations to run out on any possible charges.

This could be 10-15 years, so I guess I'm closer to the finish.

This guy's walking down a street when he falls in a hole. The walls are so steep, he can't get out. A doctor passes by, and the guy shouts up, "Hey you, can you help me out?" The doctor writes a prescription, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a priest comes along, and the guy shouts up "Father, I'm down in this hole, can you help me out?" The priest writes out a prayer, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a friend walks by. "Hey Joe, it's me, can you help me out?" And the friend jumps in the hole. Our guy says, "Are you stupid? Now we're both down here." The friend says, "Yeah, but I've been down here before, and I know the way out."

try hiding your girlfriend underneath 6 feet of dirt

>buddy takes a swig out of my bottle
>little particles floating around in it now

I hate people but i’m so lonely

I live in a complex that doesn't allow drinking or drugs. I basically just drink indoors and try to hide my beer cans and boxes.

Just pull a D'Angelo or an Aaron Hernandez

There are beams under the plaster.
Unless it's solid concrete, then you can drill anywhere (but will need a power tool)
Also don't kill yourself. Plus this way sucks ass.
OK, sober up and plan it better. This is going to be a disaster otherwise.

People kiss your buddy on the mouth.

>complex that doesn’t allow drinking
Is this in utah or some shit

Don’t kys.

If you absolutely must, buy a 200 dollar shotgun and blast yourself right in the forehead with buckshot.

I'm planning on being really drunk when I finally do it, also I have no power tools of any kind, plus the noise would attract attention (I live in a dorm), the rope I could salvage isn't long enough to fit around some furniture I had in mind, and I don't think a single nail in the wall could support my weight, plus the height problem and that I wouldn't just stand up on my feet

>I live with my parents and they don't allow drinking or drugs. I basically just drink indoors and try to hide my beer cans and boxes.
ftfy

i don't share mouth stuff with anyone, water, utensils, nothing
i don't have the herpes and i'm not gonna get it neither

You sound like you plan to sprain an ankle.
You need a real rope, screw anchors/dowels and eyes or whatever metal loops are called, several feet of drop to break your neck (you don't want to strangulate for minutes. During executions, when the drop doesn't kill, the executioner has to shoot the prisoner, because the wriggling puppet is too pathetic.), etc. Hanging is hard.

>right in the forehead
That's how you remove your face and frontal cortex off your body but stay alive and are "saved". You're too damaged to attempt again and have to live until you die of old age.
Survival reflex kicks in as you press the trigger and you turn your head away or aim too high.

As a rule of thumb, suicide isn't easy, but hurting yourself is.
Heck, I literally drank a litre of 37.5% poison a day for years, and am still here to talk about it.

There are communities like that, but they're supposed to be for post-rehab patients. Or monks.

>several feet of drop to break your neck

I plan on being so drunk I won't give a shit what happens while I'm strangling, but yeah

This is awsome!

>haven't left house in a month
>finally muster up the courage today to drive to mcdonalds (sober)
>roastie whore working there is on the phone
>taking my order while she's on the phone
>can't tell if she's talking to me or on the phone
>"were you talking to me...or"
>huffs, "YES!" under her breath says "dumbass"
>takes my order
>another 13 mins later still waiting
>only ordered a fucking double cheeseburger
>no one else in line or in the drive though
>finally get fed up and ask for my money back
>gives me the wrong amount of money
>go to leave and 3 of the whores in back laugh at me

Why the fuck do I even leave my home anymore?

I have an alcohol still and frozen food to last months, There is no point to leave my home anymore.

That's really nice. I like that.

Failed hangings can take a while. I've worked on a few.
One of them lasted for close to two months after the attempt. It was drawn out and painful for the family but probably still worse for him. Not that he could tell us, being in a body rendered useless from anoxic brain damage but, judging by all the crying, still capable of cognition.
No business of mine what you do to yourself but I would not go with hanging if I were you.

>There are communities like that,
k user

My brain should stop working after a few minutes of oxygen deprivation, and I'll be, hopefully, too drunk to care, or preferably, drunk enough to pass out at the last moment

how does this compare to myers rum?

they taste similar or totally different?

After a few minutes of total deprivation, yes.
The guy I mentioned was up there for something like half an hour and had just enough blood slipping past the rope to keep him alive.
Again; it's none of my business. Just giving you the facts so you can make an informed decision.

He was 42. Had a wife and two kids.

>going cold-turkey, hard-break on Friday
Fuck am I scared. I'm sure I can do it but fuck am I scared. I just can't anymore and it's better to quit before you hit the bottom of the well.

If I pass out while a noose is around my neck and I'm laying on the ground while the tension on the neck is strong enough to suffocate, it wouldn't take more than a few minutes would it, considering I would be passed out drunk I wouldn't even notice it right?

>takes your money
>doesn't allow drinking
Where do you live because it can't possibly be America.

Not him but I used to work for the county coroner (I drove the meat truck). I saw a lot of hangings that "didn't" go as planned" and they spent weeks/months brain dead before family finally pulled the plug.

If I was going to kill myself I would not use suspension hanging, At all.

Plus If you've ever seen a video online of someone hanging themselves it does not look peaceful or painless at all.