>got home from my extremely low effort white collar job at 5.45 pm >mindlessly browse internet for 3.5 hours >going outside in to central London for no reason other than maybe eating junk food and browsing internet on phone >aged 26 >zero social life, ugly loser beta no one talks to at work, never had female attention ever, can't give up junk food or coffee because they dull my ennui, tortured by the sight of Chads and Staceys everywhere, no passions, go to gym but too ugly to reap social rewards, read books mainly out of a feeling of being held hostage >extremely blackpilled, know women get 500 tinder matches a day with Chads, society considers me a disposable battery, I'll never fit in with normies because of ugliness and lack of normieness >make enough to save £200 a month after expenses yet know that higher paying jobs I apply to will fill my time with shit and I will look back on today with nostalgia and regret >procrastinated learning programming and (more) maths for over 4 years
I can't believe I think this: Maybe staying completely non-Spooked all the time wasn't such a great idea after all. If this is "real life" then I need some sort of mentality or ideology that can help me.
Is Ayn Rand good?
My (rigorously) reductionist outlook leads me to see all philosophies as vacuous pep talks. I abhor theory. I have epiphanies in evenings about simple, all encompassing possible life philosophies for myself that I cold implement to find success ("Have constant challenges", "Focus on a few things", "Do what you enjoy"). I set reminders on my phone for this the next day yet always find myself seeing them as stupid. The underground man is like me. But I have to accept that "default me" may be a fucking zero motivation waste of a life.
If I followed my tastes and intuitions, I'd give up most books within 10 pages.
William Sanchez
You need religion.
Colton Diaz
Ecclesiasties followed by the gospel of John.
Unironically
Jaxon Sanchez
Isn't it depressing how common this is now? Is there any media that addresses it?
Camden Wright
>no spooks >speaks in memes >"no spook" ideology is a meme, literally a spook to this fucker
Look, you're retarded. Do what makes you happy. Do it in public. Be honest with people as often as you can stand, or at least write about your honest feelings, make yourself vulnerable in relatively safe ways, and progress. You're sitting alone wondering why you're sitting alone. Read less, or read new literature that challenges your core rather than reaffirming your biases.
Cameron Davis
I was in a similar situation, what I did was write a list of everything I wanted to do, learn and places I wanted to go. Wrote it over the course of a couple months just thinking about it. It ranged from learning how to sail, learning to play the Oud, camping on a secluded beach, climbing on the rooftops of San Francisco, steal an artwork ect ect. Everything I've ever wanted to do since I was a child. Basically a bucket list. It's pretty cliche but it worked for me to start getting out of the house, my problem was I wanted to do so many things but I couldn't pinpoint something exactly. Putting it down on paper and giving myself time to think about it made it seem attainable
Brandon Wood
>steal an artwork How'd it go?
Justin Morris
Sometimes I feel like rebelling, going full amoral, and joining a gang. I get the appeal of ISIS to a small extent
Sebastian Anderson
>staying completely non-Spooked this is the most dangerous spook of all
>Do what makes you happy this is also a dangerous spook
Brandon Sanders
Literally Notes From Underground >hide away from society, sperg out when forced to confront it, constantly justify yourself even though you know you're not satisfied with the state of things
Jace Turner
Write poetry for poetry's sake man
Jose Wright
I've actually laid out a plan to steal a Canaletto because I'm obsessed with the Venetian Republic but I need more money and items for my plan to work perfectly. I'm actually seriously considering it
Andrew Bennett
>sees all philosophies as vacuous pep talks >has epiphanies about simple all-encompassing life philosophies >always finds himself seeing them as stupid >needs some sort of mentality or ideology that can help him The spirit of contradiction is strong here.
Ryan Morris
>non spooked >Gives into anxiety and self pity "No"
Landon Jenkins
Anxiety is as an emotional state. It's not changeable through logical argumentation, like an opinion. Anxiety can't be a spook.
Parker Myers
are you still making these threads op? jfc
James Hill
What's your low-effort white collar job? Been trying to score one of those but no luck.
Matthew Gomez
when did this turn into /r9k/
James White
I would say you've failed to grasp and apply egoism if you've fallen into the anxiety self pity trap.
John Barnes
You need to drop media consumption and start doing more things. Any activity that is different from what you are doing now. Your "epiphanies" are just another form of procrastination.
Austin Walker
>now People have been alphas and betas since we were animals. There's really nothing special about these days.
Michael Evans
Rigorously adhering to morality lends the same sort of isolation within a select group.
Isaiah Torres
Your job sucks. Get a better one.
Gavin Murphy
>goes to gym Do you actually lift, though? Using a bunch of machines and being a loner at the dumbbell rack isn't going to get you any muscle gains or social gains. Start doing compound exercises with a barbell and you will gain a ton of confidence, because it takes confidence and willpower to do difficult exercises like deadlifts and squats: you are lifting weight that would send a majority of the human population to the hospital, and you as well if you mess up. People will start socializing with you too, both because you're taking up a lot of space in the gym, and because they can actually see some damn confidence and masculinity from you. Stop being a beta and get in the damn squat rack, user. And don't forget to start with the greeks as well. Maybe they'll mold you into a person that has some degree of interest rather than the complete void you are right now.
Ryder Wilson
It's always been this way
the only difference is that the internet makes it easier for the alphas to find each other
Wyatt Turner
I envy your dreams
Ryan Ward
> what I did was write a list of everything I wanted to do What if i don't want to do anything? Travelling is boring shit - never again.
Jayden Long
Stop posting these threads
Nathaniel Morris
I've started filtering the word "London" because of these threads. Fuck off.
Sebastian Moore
see: pic related
Gavin Cruz
Chill out, dickwad. Your autism reeks from miles away, I'm not even that good looking and I've gotten 289 matches on tinder since July 1st. Just don't be a pity party dweeb.
Gavin White
>caring about Tinder matches other people supposedly have >non-spooked