Al/ck/ general

I would rather have diarrhea.

What drugs did you take? I always felt like shit after MDMA, like completely suicidal for a day lol.
>emailed aa
Have you seen a doc about cutting back?

I fucking love my Rubik's cube.

Would it be a bad idea to drink a little to alleviate horrible anxiety i've been having for hours due to alcohol withdrawal? Can't handle this, lads.

have you tried just sleeping it off?

Feel too afraid to just lie down and try to sleep. I tried to sleep earlier but my face went all fuzzy like how you get if you sat on your leg and it's gone a little numb and woke me up.

im still not drunk just a little tipsy

I drank 900ml of cheap vodka last night and then slept for 11 hours, now I can't stop shitting. I love a good after grog bog but it's getting out of hand. Got some rice simmering away on the stove now, hope it blocks my hole.

should add some protein to the rice if you haven't already, whatever you have in the fridge
and some soy sauce to get back at least some electrolytes

I had some instant noodles for lunch, so the sodium aspect has been well covered. Started feeling better straight after that.

Have also refilled my brita jug in the fridge about 4 times today, thirsty as fuck.

Depends. It's a good idea to taper instead of going cold turkey, but tapering too slowly and for too long can result in just continuing drinking if you're not motivated enough.
If you've been dry for 3 days or more, don't drink. You've been through the worst, now you just have to wait it out. Do meditation and stuff for anxiety.

>Got wasted by 10pm, chugging whisky cokes
>Started randomly starting on guys in the club for 'looking at me wrong'
>Smashed into people for fun and blamed people behind me
>Shouted obscenities at the bouncers for being poor and not having a real job
>Made a friend cry by repeatedly calling her a massive slut nd laughing in her face.
>Feel like utter shit today

This happens every time I drink. I'm not sure why but i turn into an utter cunt.

The West End is a small place too and everyone knows each other, so fuck knows why my friends still decide to go out with me lol.

Got nice drunk but started hitting up some dumb bitch I used to fuck with awhile ago

Thanks user. Gonna pour away most of what I have so I don't end up just drinking a ton.

holy shit. thanks for this thread. no fucking around i have been tapering off of whiskey after about a year of pretty hard abuse. i had two deaths in my family in pretty rapid succession and hit the whisky bottle pretty hard. i have been trying to cut back hard by only drinking beer and i have been feeling paranoid and panicked but i;m starting to think i;m just kicking the bug. i'm only drinking 1/4 what i was and only at night.

I used to do this until I started following the cardinal rule of always, ALWAYS jerking off before doing shit like that

Tits pls

You've misread his post.
>Started randomly starting on guys in the club for 'looking at me wrong'
I think he means he arks up when people give him a greasy look.

Because apperentpy all your insecurities come out when you're deunk and you try to reverse-psychology that 'bitch', by acting like a cunt.

No human male can afford to live in the west end, it’s either an illuminat, who wouldn’t come here because they’re petrified of having their conspiracies revealed by the children on /pol/, or it’s one of the human grils they’ve bribed into laying their eggs.

>my neighbor's child next door cries all day
>my neighbor upstairs clomps around in heels all day
>faggots on the street out the front of my block talking shit all day, doing faggoty things
As soon as I play music slightly, slightly, loud all hell reins down upon my flat and I get multiple intercom buzzes and people knocking on my door telling me to turn my music off.

>2008 was 10 years ago

oh fuck you. i graduated high school ten years ago. fuck me running.

>people born in 2000 will be in college this year

>babies born before 9/11 will be in porn this year

Again?

>babies born in 2000 will be having sex and I was born in 1991 and never even kissed a girl

fucking hell i'm so ssick and full on wd's I need a beer or something but I'll puke and can't get off the floor anyways flsafj;dajfd

Watching the supermoon with coffee, cigarettes and beer

This thread is a nice warning

I am that guy that stopped getting drunk with other people when going out with them. Alcohol is a shit drug wiyh barely euphoria for me and only makes me feel like shit, literally BadWeed

I prefer it to weed and oxi, and yes it is a shit drug. You'll be lurking here in no time.

been there. i ended up in hospital. you're withdrawing and need it but the body just says 'nope'

Just lots of codeine and waaaay too many of these muscle relaxants (not Valium) hoping to stop the shakes.
I'm not in a good way right now.

i'm a fat drunk neet and i hate seeing these threads in the catalog

why do you guys do this to yourselves? stop drinking, NOW!

Thrilling tale there user

Oh and no doc. I wouldn't get the drugs (I do legit have a bad back) if he knew. He only knows 'I was' a massive alco

Sod off ignoramus

lel no

>what is filter
>I wish junkies would stop shooting up

lel thats the worst argument ever. you cant even compare junkies to drunks, it doesnt work that way

just stop drinking

>what is filter
something to avoid the hate?

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You sure do seem ignorant for an expert. What happens when DTs hit, I have a seizure, kindling irreparably damages my brain and it kills me?
>grabs notebook, waits attentively

I’ve been both. Do please elaborate, I’m eager to hear your learned advice.

lol I remember when I still lived at home and my parents tried to force me through a taperless withdrawal. I tried explaining to them what kindling is and they told me it was "witch doctor science" and to just "tough it out". These are college educated, working professionals mind you

Buy headphones?

Couldn't drink tonight, had an awful stomach bug that kept me confined to the bathroom. Now I am withdrawing. Luckily I have weed, so no nausea atm.

I hallucinated wasps buzzing in my hair, like they were caught up in it. Now I am experiencing some awful kidney pain.

I don't have DTs thankfully, and I'm keeping hydrated with water and baby pedialite, but have no appetite at all.

I have my spouse with me, they didn't know how bad my alcoholism was. I'm glad we don't have kids yet so I can use this opportunity to stop and better myself.

I'm on day 2-3, will it get worse or better? When should I go to the hospital if I need?

>Arrived at the gas station 9AM, the minute beer is allowed to be sold
>QT working there has a crush on me
>Have to ask her to go to the backroom to get a case of my brand
>She tells me to have a nice day
>tfw qt knows that I'm a drunken degenerate

If you think you might need hospital, you need to either go now, or have booze on hand just in case. The symptoms will hit in waves out of fucking nowhere, and can go from tolerable to fatal in hours.
Have you had DTs, or just withdrawal symptoms like anxiety and nausea? (If you’ve had the former you’ll know)

If I were you I’d buy a load of cider/beer, and chug one if shit gets too real. Allow mild to moderate discomfort, but if it gets too intense then kindling will fuck your brain. I’m partially sighted for life because of withdrawals, and tried to kill myself the first time I had DTs.

>that first drink of nice cold ice water right after waking up
Feels so good.

bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-42533927

Withdrawals usually top around day 3.

I noticed. I know what DTs are and I definitely haven't had them, just very bad kidney pain, anxiety, zero appetite, slight pelvic pain. I have a couple of beers and a cider still in the fridge, but looking at alcohol just makes my stomach churn.

My spouse will keep an eye on me. What symptoms should I look out for that are really serious?
Explains why even though I slept all day I don't feel I slept at all.

I once hallucinated I was getting fucked by one of my friends. It was fucking weird.

Why can't everyone else wear headphones?

If you start seeing faces in the dark, pictures and light switches seem like they are sliding down the wall... not good signs. I have withdrawn could turkey after a bender that was days and gallons deep. You will most likely live, as has everyone else here saying how dangerous and scary it is. It is just uncomfortable, and you are used to feeling drunk. Grow balls.

I'm in for a rough NYD boys. Wish me luck.

Ayy lmao, Tex? I know that feel too well.
>arrive at store today
>New Years day
>walking in the store to get my booze, see store clerk unpacking stock
>she smiles at me, I say:
>"must be on double time today hey"
>she starts talking up a conversation
>I don't care I need alcohol so I don't die please process the sale
>at the checkout she's scanning my bottles then looks at my face
>I can tell she's looking at my sunken eyes, deadpan stare
I didn't mean to hurt you bb have a good year.

Warning signs for me are extreme confusion, uncontrollable shaking, seizures, memory loss, hallucinations, out-of-control anxiety and extreme sweating. The real problem is that I completely lose control, I don’t know what the fuck is going on, so it’s near enough impossible to take appropriate action. I couldn’t keep a damn thing down just a few months back, and was conscious of the fact that I was about to lose it. I used a pulled pork marinade syringe to squirt pure vodka up my ass, and as such didn’t die. I knew I was moments from running screaming into the street and ending up back in police custody, where I’d probably have died. I had to get new glasses afterwards because it presumably further damaged my brain (I was averaging 6 new brain lesions every 6 months before I stopped bothering with neurologist appointments) and I no longer have full control over my hands. If I reach for something i miss - they just won’t go where I tell them to. I have to use speech recognition to type. Shiz doesn’t play games.

Thanks for the tough love advice, I only hallucinated the once and I'm not sure if I was asleep or awake. I've taken shrooms a few times before so I know when I'm not of sound mind.

No DTs or seizures, all I could hope for so far. I just am embarrassed because my spouse had no idea my addiction was that bad (I hid my alcohol. Only did 2 shots before work, one at lunch, then would binge after I got home by sneaking into the kitchen and downing shots, while acting like I was casually sipping a beer in the living room). I maybe showed being drunk like once every other month, so that is why they didn't know.

I feel so guilty because they forgave me and are being so supportive and worried, even though I'm a garbage human.

I'm ashamed, really

>memory loss
Sums up 2017 for me, no idea how I managed to get my degree - it still feels like March '17 to me. All I can remember are bits and pieces but as soon after I take some high dosage (thanks doc) B12 flakes the year comes flooding back to me. Weird shit yo.

Shit in glad the stomach bug kicked in before I got that bad. Are you still drinking?

>shrooms
Have you taken extreme doses? (Like over an ounce) Because that’s a damn good illustration of how DTs feel, just without the screaming, puking and pouring with sweat.

My chest feels cold. Don't like this.

How do I get out of New Years Day dinner at my Dad's house?

I could just get drunk and tell him that is why I'm not coming over. He has already told me that he doesn't want me showing up to his house wasted. Staying home and getting drunk is what I want to do today anyway.

I just feel bad. My dad is a nice guy and he is looking forward to having the family over for dinner.

My favorite part of rock bottom is the fantasy I could just be a super criminal, continue to dink forever, steal a motor home and go live in the woods with the liquor.

Just don't drink. You will no longer have it to hep control your mood. They magic does not work anymore, and there will always be something missing form what you enjoy. It gets easier in time.

Could it just be an anxiety attack? The first time I had one of those when I was 21 I went to the ER because I thought I was having a heart attack.

What are the worst part of withdrawals to you guys? I've gone over 24 hours puking every 5 minutes. Shit is awful.

Biggest dose I did was a 1/2 oz of cubensis from some biochemistry lab tech at uni that bred shrooms. I almost felt out of body and the walls were breathing and I felt extreme anxiety. Haven't done hallucinogens since, though if I had to pick I'd do psylocibin one more time, I felt so happy for weeks after and it literally improved my motivation. It helped me get through the grief and trauma of my mother's recent death

There is some science behind using psylocibin in PTSD veterans.
Thanks for the motivation. For secondary income I write for fiction magazines. I dreamed about some weird shit recently I'd never come up with on my own, maybe I'll use it to my advantage.

Thanks for the support guys. It really helps.

My partner didn't know when she met me but eventually found out when I was trying to quit. I felt pretty bad because I thought she might've fallen in love with someone that didn't really exist. She forgave me for lying but I still drank behind her back until I got sick of it and wanted to quit, which is what I'm in the process of
>tfw tapering and med ward
If your spouse is with you this far they must really care for you, and so does this mongolian basket weaving forum of internet strangers. All the best for your new year.

I see and hear things that aren't there, and I wake up with severe cramps in my arms and legs. It feels like concrete in your veins.

My girl has been with me for over two years now despite my bad drinking. It's amazing how loyal some people are. It makes me feel like garbage.

101 days sober. I still miss it and have trouble with motivation. I still smoke pot, and have anxiety and laser like focus on it when I run out.

The worst part of withdraw is the inability to get comfortable at all. The best part is the two seconds after a good heavy vomit, and the best thing you can do to feel slightly better is take a fucking shower.

Please God kill me. It just won't come out.

rock back and forth. You can do this. Who does #2 work for?

Oh god finally. That was hell.

i shit a pool ball made of weeks old grilled cheeses one time. gave me a new respect for faggots... not really.

Finally got some food down!
Also blood pressure went skyhigh and I am covered in nose blood and ruined a shirt.
A couple light beers at the bites of eggs , toast, vienna sausages have gotten my morning to finally feel manageable
I do feel like all the drinking on an empty stomach the past week has irritated my stomach lining.

Most likely. Had acute withdrawals all night.

Your body and mind will be sending you a lot of bad data for a few days. You have nerve endings and receptors that are used to, and miss being soaked in booze. Did you know your body starts using alcohol to control certian processes, and when you remove it, it is like removing the ability to breath and you go into shock?

Yes I am aware.
I am currently drinking 1 beer an hour to keep calm, cool and composed.
maybe by the end of the night I'll have it at 1 every 2 hours.

thanks though ya definately aint a gnome.

get into the science of it... best thing you can do when time starts moving slow and painful is use it to learn. Remember all of this and use it next time you think you are better than the liquor.

I'd totally give you three bowls if I could. You are getting better every minute.

>tfw i slept past the store closing time and now it's a holiday
Today is not going to be fun.

wut, t-thanks? i think

luckily i am avoiding gnomes cus i bought 2 , 30packs yesterday. now i don't need to go out and drive.

You had your fun buddy. Fun bank is overdrawn. The past you stole from the future you, and the present you is paying for it. Past you is an asshole. Don't be that guy anymore.

you replying to the wrong dude i think.
and first of all
t-thanks?

Hey guess what present me is still an ass too.
I will always be a fuck-up
It just matters how I deal with and control it.

if it gets way too bad and you are not ready, Scope mouthwash is everywhere and better and cheaper than vodka. Don't do it though if you have big manly balls and want to get better.

only you control you. no one else can, and you cannot control anyone else either. There is POWER in that if you own up to it and start piloting yourself around like a badass mech.

weed (or anything to look forward to for mood control) helps greatly.

drinking mouthwash is low
I once but a bottle of the brown mouthwash (highest cost to alc ratio) and did shots of it throughout the day and ended up suprisingly good.
I did get kicked out of my buddies house by his grandma for drinking her mint mouth wash cus the bottle was apparently 6-7 bucks and she got mad.
It wasnt even that strong but like 35proof.
So I was getting more sick off the eucaylptus oil than i was getting drunk.

She would have never found out if I had I would have not have forgot to flush the toilet full of mint vomit.