Al/ck/ thread

My shits are a mystery every day. How can I possibly poop this much.

I need to go to the doctor. Fuck.

That's 4+ days to a bottle.
Practically nothing by the standards of these threads. Good job, man.

Shut up namefaggot. No one wants the support of a ego driven idiot.

How bad is a 12 pack a day. This is essentially what I drink and I'm beginning to feel it impact my health.

Fine. Kill yourself then. I don't fucking care.

Le 14 and drunk af xD hows it hanging fellow al/ck/oholics???

About middle of the pack for an alcoholic

I drink about 10 standard drinks of vodka on any given weekday and 15 on Friday and Saturday

Who else here /looklikeshit/

>red puffy face
>need a haircut/shave
>mostly work from home no need to get dressed up or look nice most days
>local bars in walking distance starting to act like judgemental assholes

i fucking hate bartenders. like 1/3rd of the population has an alcohol misuse disorder. Dont' give me shit about drinking my drinks fast.

Sober for three weeks so at the moment, no not at all.
I look better than I have in years actually.
But ask me in a day or two and we'll see. Usually the skin just starts to fall off after a day or two into a bender and all my weird, for now groomed, facial hair makes its comeback.

>red puffy face
>need a haircut/shave
yup
>work
>bars
nope
I am the NEET

Anyone else have to get plastered before they go to sleep or else they'll get horrible nightmares?

The nightmares I have are usually accusatory or humiliating in nature

I was sorta like that. It was more of the fact that I wouldn't sleep if i didn't drink and I would just lay there, fall asleep for 3 minutes, wake up terrified for whatever reason. Repeat for hours.

Had a cool dream I was in some resistance army fighingt communists. My grandpa was the gunny sgt or something.

You're right haha actually I meant a 5th of a bottle, no way someone could down a whole bottle o' that!

>trip acid Saturday
>drink a 12 pack in 8 hours
Fun!

sounds like a bad comedown

Not him, but I find alcohol helps me during the comedown of psychedelic trips

that's like two glasses of red wine
that sounds healthy actually

best song about alcoholism/written by an alcoholic?

>youtube.com/watch?v=malJUMz2A9Y

This one doesn't necessarily directly reference alcoholism, but I gotta wonder if it has it's references

The whole place is dark
Every light on this side of the town
Suddenly it all went down
Now we'll all be brothers of the fossil fire of the sun
Now we will all be sisters of the fossil blood of the moon

Molina was one of the good ones. Pic unrelated. Some tacos i ate in san diego.

You do know there are some people on here who are 20-24 and have been addicts and alcks for 4-10 years already at that young age.
I can even think of a few off the top of my head.

I don't really get the alcoholic pissing contests.

Once you get WD's once, it really doesn't matter how much it took you to get there. Once you hook a fish, it's still on the line.

My applejack turned out well. One of my four gallon batches stopped bubbling early. So its a little sweet. 120 Proof on a first run is stong.

Good job user , keep up the good work.
>bags under my eyes have reached critical levels of "I look like I got punched in the face"
>Haircut and shave is decent
>Red tortured skin with acne from all the sweating but I picked it to death and now I got these trendy scabs
>I haven't dressed up in so long , I look like I dug rejected clothes from goodwill out of the trash

how is everything you own clean

Man I have been starting to have the accusatory ones recently.
Last night:
>fall asleep
>random stuff I don't remember, then suddenly
>Random Aunt of mine berating me for leaving beer cans under the back porch
>how did she even know
>suddenly we are in the house
>REMEMBER WHEN YOU SHOUTED AT YOUR GRANDMOTHER HOW DO YOU LIKE IT WHEN I SHOUT AT YOU
>wtf how did she know I raised my voice to her
>Suddenly friend shows up
>"I am very disappointed in you for smoking dope in your house when you should be saving that money"
>How does every know what I have been doing
>Why is everyone I know and love berating me for being a fuck up
>"wake up"
>Now people are standing over the couch hitting me, telling me to stop sleeping all day and I look like drunken shit
>feel physical pain
>Wake up for real this time
>still on couch but no-one around
>puddle of sweat and nervous to fall back asleep
>look at clock
>only asleep for 35-40minutes

Well the pot didnt seal and it sprayed steaming hot ghetto cider everywhere. Ive been cleaning it up for awhile now.

I don't like the alcoholic pissing contests either but to say that people 20-22 cant be alcks or that their experiences and advice doesn't matter is dumb.
I doubt that many people are larpers on here, maybe 10% at most.

Not that I am supporting
or anything.
Only reason I disregard his post is
>look at how much I can drink and not get wds
> Al/CK/ ?

just got to the liquor store 3 minutes before close. got 12 x phoenix beers from mauritius ... tell you what man they aren't fucking bad. $11 a 6 pack in aus is almost giving the shit away and it's at least 430000x better than american corn brew.

Leipzig / Napoli on TV, 4 more hours to drink 12 beers. It's ok.

My favorite is chris stapletton - was it 26

The 'lism waxes and wanes with me. So many rock bottoms, DUI, gout, falling down the stairs, disappointing so many people and being absentee from work...

I should stop, but I just don't want to. Drank all Tuesday, and Wednesday morning was tearing out carpet in a flooded basement. Co-workers said that I was just reeking of booze from the sweat and exhaling. Didn't drink last night, and somehow slept pretty well without waking up in a pool of sweat and having the night hag visit. Had half a light beer this morning, probably will have a vodka red bull before cleaning my mother's house before she gets picked up from the airport today.

I don't want off this ride, but I should.

I drink for 1 year like 4-5 days of the week. On weekends I get drunk in the club, weekdays I drink about 2 sixpacks of (german) beer.

>predestined to be an alcoholic by genetics

Here. Man last 2 weeks I had such nightmares, I coudlnt even sleep. I unironically thought there were ghosts or some shit

I get hungover, but then after the hangover I'm like okay let's drink more

I've been getting them when I stop drinking more than anything.
>day 4
>horrible nightmares ending
>very foggy mornings
>but getting clearer each day

I've already lost so many friends to drinking,
now I'll lose more to not drinking

It's a lonely crossroad but I'm happier for trying to get better then be a lovable drunk

>suffer through the hangover until around 12pm
>Go eat "lunch"
>Down 4 beers before I even order food
>Finally not sick and I can eat, drink another 4 while eating slowly
>8 beers and sandwhich with fries is 25 dollars before tip.
>buy a twelve pack on the way home, shitpost

Western Pennsylvania hangover recovery in a nutshell. The beer is so cheap and everyone is an alcoholic in the rust belt. It's like accepted.

Caught a flu last Thursday, turned into pneumonia, haven't drunk or smoked since.

I'm so fucking on edge bros.

So I'm new here, can anyone tell me about the withdrawals you keep talking about?

I am currently 24, started drinking at 14, at 18 no social gathering of mine was sober, and the last 2 years I am pretty much on a banter, sometimes I take days off, but mostly I don't, most of my past few years I've been drunk, tho I have some control over it, I have a good job, and live with my gf, she's mostly not okay with me drinking, but I am harmless when I drink.
TLDR I drank almost everyday for 4 to 5 years, no WD. Tho my hangovers have gotten way worse than it used to be.

Any other alckys have problems getting sick all the time? Got a bad cold twice this year already and now I have the flu. Shit sucks upside is I dont even feel like drinking atm. Might just stop now while I can only had 2 beers at night over the last 3 days only cause I was worried of wds.

>flu
Y-you have influenza?

I'm in a similar situation. Almost 26, good job and live with my gf. WD's are often something you will miss.

For me it all starts with the fear. It's just sheer terror of existing sober. You'll feel detatched, constantly on edge and maybe experience panic attacks or brain zaps, like sudden moments of being hyper-aware and it's all horror.

Then come the sweats. Your forehead will get drops of sweat on, probably get pit stains and swamp ass, but you'll be sorta cold at the same time.

I don't get the shakes really, but I will feel weak. I'm a big binger, I'll crush tons of booze from friday to monday, and then recover and do it all over gain.

I'm working on cutting it out though. The WD's are not worth it, but you're brain tricks you when you're sober that they're not that bad because everything is so boring.

Pay attention to the hangovers. When you start getting the fear, it's too late. You don't want to get there. Hang in there.

yeah, being afraid of sobriety is probably the number one indicator that you're an addict. pretty much applies to any drug. even when i sober up for a few days, i'm still stringing my intoxication along with weed, or if i'm lucky, benzos. the line between using other drugs to assist with WDs and using other drugs to ignore reality can get pretty hazy, another thing to watch out for. trading vices is much easier than giving them up.

Last week i bought a car, so i got 50 months of debt, cause college starts next week.
Drove the car home, drove it into my house, cause the clutch had a problem, obviously I only discovered that after crashing, now i have debt, more debt from the mechanic, and am going to lose maybe the first month of classes
Worst part, i wasn't even drunk when i crashed

>Worst part, i wasn't even drunk when i crashed
No excuses desu.

do you think you could quit for a week or two? if so, would you? WDs for me generally include:
>shakes
>anxiety
>severe insomnia
>racing heart + sweating, hot flashes and chills
>high blood pressure

and it's pretty much a given that some organ or part of my body will be in serious pain. stomach, pancreas, toes (gout), etc. shitting is miserable. i've only experienced the very beginning of DTs, because when i think i'm starting to experience them, i start drinking. anyway, it sounds like you have a stable career and personal life, so by those measures alone i'd say you're doing fine.

The clutch just went full retard when I got home, the mechanic asked how I got there without crashing at every stop sign after he looked at it.

>current year
>buying a car that's manual

>not being drunk in a third world shithole

automatic transmissions still have torque converters.

Welp. I just blew another job opportunity after being fired from my brothers company 3 years ago.

Had a job lined up today to start, An crippling anxiety got the best of me an hour before I was set to start. I can't even fucking go grocery shopping during the day....I have to go at night and walk because I'm hammered.

Fucking anxiety has ruined my life....I would be making close to 80k a year if I didn't have anxiety.

It's why I drink, Why i hate myself, Why I'm poor, and soon why I'm going to be homeless.

I'm such a fucking disappointment to my family, I can't wait to eventually die of alcoholism.

>Decide to sleep sober
>Lie down
>Close eyes
>Immediately get audio hallucinations
>Overhearing a thousand conversations
>Feels like a convention center
>Open eyes
>Sounds go away
>Close eyes
>Sounds come right back

If I manage to get through all that I'll have the kind of nightmares you feel in your skin when you wake up. The kind where you have to move around to get the nightmare out of you.

I unironically crashed someone on 1 first gear in a car park. Also a friend crashed someone with automatic being sober.

I AM IN THE SAME BOAT user I DRINK BECAUSE OF SOCIAL ANXIETY SINCE I WAS FIFTEEN TILL NOW THIRTY THREE I CANNOT GET A JOB OR SOCIALISE I HAVE TO GET TIPSY TO DO NORMAL THINGS MY LIFE IS FUCKING HELL

It's the worst feel man.

I'm 29 and have had severe social anxiety since about 17. I had a job where I had literally zero human interaction outside of telling a few kids once or twice a month to fuck off (I was a security guard at my brothers towing business overnight). Got caught at work drunk about a dozen times before my brother finally shitcanned me

Was making serious cash because my brother felt bad for me and he is rich as fuck. Was making 58K a year to sit in a fucking singlewide and watch 20 cameras for 12hrs a day. I could even play video games and jerk off and I still squandered that opportunity because I couldn't stay sober for 12 fucking hours. Because of how much his business has grown I would probably be making close to 80k a year if I hadn't fucked that up

>because I couldn't stay sober for 12 fucking hours

I'm not gonna lie, that is a lot to ask.

It's fucking hard when you're an alcoholic, I would literally pour sweat...shake...crippling anxiety.

I had a few courage drinks each day in the trailer then that turned into just getting flat out hammered.

I miss that job....

Too bad my brother would never give it back to me, I've tried asking.

Now down to only 375ml a day, no longer need the extra 100ml bottle in the morning. just want it.
If I can consistently drink only 375ml a day I think I'll just stay that way instead of going any lower.
Now that the racing heart and 75% of the sleeplessness and nightmares are gone away,
All I am dealing with is profuse sweating and overheating, shaking and the normal intensity of cravings.
No fear and minimal worrying too, as long as I get to drink that sweet pint of vodka.

Been trying to clean/work around the house and find new hobbies to keep occupied.

As long as I don't get the heart palpitations/racing heart doesnt come back, and my sleep keeps improving, then I think I will make be able to just drink a respectable amount each day.

First time I have felt hope instead of despair,in longer than I can remember.

Also
>I am running out of ideas on things to clean/ new hobby ideals

Any suggestions?
What do yall do to keep the boredom at bay and stay busy?
If I get inactive I go right back downhill.
Idle hands are the devil's playground

Anyone got bags under eyes from drinking? I wonder if they will go away if I stop.

I do terribly right now, I look like I just got into a full 12round boxing match.
All I know is that you can limit them with
>proper hydration
extra water to metabolize all the alcohol
>proper sleep hygiene
lol good luck as an alck but hey it's important
>proper nutrition
If you cant stomach eating that much fruits n vegetables, just take a multivitamin to supplement what you can eat
>proper skin care
Rinse off your sweaty face with some water sometimes and take breaks away from the computer screen sometimes.

Water is #1 on the list, Alcohol ravages the body of its hydration.
Puffy red cheeks can stretch out the skin around your upper cheeks and give you a gaunt black undereye look.

If you drink ultra-bottom shelf liquor in excess without proper hydration than you have a recipe for disaster for your face. All the surviving impurities in the cheapo alcohol need even more water than normal to metabolize.
So your body gets a fucked up look when it is low on water.

The nightmares suck, but the horrific things I see in the dark with my eyes open are far worse.

I get that shit too. Sleeping the the dark is comfy but initially I have to sleep with my ceiling light on.

Just get into guns, it's a new thing to clean and a hobby.

Yup whole family has it.

I was saving up for new guns, as I made the horrible mistake of selling them for cash while drunk. This is the third time I have collected guns and something happened and I lost them all. Except this is the first time it was absolutely my fault.

I wish I felt like doing anything when I'm sober. I've just been lazing around watching the ESA marathon and twitch and sleeping for the last 5 days

Fuckin got a bottle of nikolai two days ago, talked on the phone with my alchi uncle, stupid females, girlfriend, and wrote 3 pages of junk and ranted on my audio recording for an hour.

good night. bottles about gone now, but it was a success.

i would like to say probably. old, old alcoholics have that tell tale bloated face and that might be a similar thing.

anyway thats just my thoughts. my biggest issue is chapped lips even with obsessive 1:1 water alcohol ratio. theyre disgusting. luckily for me ive been cutting back to (mostly) trying to do friday/sat. drinking and my lips are back to normal.

shiiit I'm pretty paranoid about getting it this year. Did you get a vaccine?

Nope I never have. My mom got the vaccine and she was the first one to get it and ended up spreading it too all of us.

haven't been sick in years

I got the fear before any other WD symptom

Nikolai burns. At least go Burnett's. It's almost as good as Smirnoff.

Nah, get Seagram's. It's around the same price as Burnett's and superior to Smirnoff.

Do you spend all of your time at home? I guess NEETs don't get ill often

At my current job I have been in direct contact with other people almost every day for at least the last year and a half.

>9th day sober
>explosive diarrhoea for one week as of today. on the elusive occasion that i do sleep, i'm woken by the latest imminent anal detonation
make
it
stop

1.75l user here.
I’ve been away/ lurking for a while because for some reason my wireless carrier’s internet had been banned.
I’ve managed to cut it down to a little more than 1l/ day during the past month, but mornings are incredibly rough, it only takes me six hours tops to go into DTs, so if I get any sleep at all I’m a complete wreck in the morning/ can’t drink quickly enough to stabilize without lots of throwing up for about an hour.
I’m feeling decent about life lately, though.

did u shit when u drank too? when will i have a normal shit again send help

>drinking anything that costs more than 9 dollars

>be me last week
>all settled in in my new home
>drunk and having a nice day, out and about, around 1:30pm
>see bunch of employees behind a restaurant on a cigarette break
>walk past
>have sudden “you know what, fuck it” moment
>turn around and approach them, ask if they’re hiring
>”you know what, hang on a minute let me see what’s up”
>score impromptu interview with manager
>list references that are YEARS old, but am knowledgeable enough about the service industry that I get hired on the spot
>worked my first two days, and all anyone there does is smoke dudeLMAO all day (including manager), and they close at 3:00pm so I get my day to myself
>everyone there loves me because I bust ass and the manager is already speaking of promoting me because of shit I’ve fixed/ streamlined/ taught dumber employees
The only downside is I already sweat BUCKETS and working in a kitchen doesn’t help, and I have to be very sure I keep my shakes in mind before I head in (because prep/ knife work).
But this has been a huge morale booster.
tl;dr
All I needed was anyone to give me a fucking chance, but I had to have the gall to ask for one in the first place.

You earned it man, congratulations on finding work like that.

I got very drunk. Both on the good stuff and the shittier tail end. But my wifes home now so alll is good.

Not to the point of barely/rarely leaving the bathroom. I'm getting through 2 toilet rolls a day ffs, my ass is on fire

Sorry for the blogposting, I just missed these threads. I really hope some you other anons are looking up.
Thanks dude. I’m pretty happy, and even if I get sick of this job I’ll still have a solid reference after being a NEET for almost two years.

Lol that wasnt even blogposting
blogposting is typically
>terribly formatted run-on sentences
>uninteresting "how I am" rambling
>is a waste of time to read

You told the story of how you got your newest job , not your personal blog.
Quit worrying

Bought 3 pints and 2 six packs of Asahi スーパードライ. Because I"m a weeb.

guess it's not a bad deal being a sociopath. at least i don't have much anxiety. i drink because the increased apathy it gives me

>tfw the one woman I'm in love with it married to my best friend

She's literally a 9/10 all around, an alcohol as well, perfect personalty, patience of ghadi, and so beautiful I stutter like a retard around her.

I ALMOST fucked up the other day when we were drinking and kissed her, Whew....Glad I didn't

Should I finish off the rest of my meth tonight, (im well rested but most of my dopamine is depleted from the other day.)
or try and save it for 2-3 days to let my dopamine replenish some?

Kind of want to just finish it and get it over with but I don't know. I've only been up 9 hours after a 10 hour sleep.

Last time I had any meth I flushed it

Crashing at my parents place cause I'm a colossal fuckup, drinking this and arizona 50/50 iced tea.

I learned how to moderate mysefl now, after having a previous 3-4 year addiction to speed. Now I get it once every 2-4 months just for a 1-3 day bit of fun