i'm not that guy but i can agree, after 4 years of therapy, that it *can* indeed be a total crock. once you are sufficiently aware of health and mood boosters, e.g.––
varied diet with lots of fruits and vegetables
exercise
stable routine
enough sleep
short and long-term goal setting
hygiene
hobbies
drug-free living
going outside regularly
socialising
(all fucking obvious, right?)
––and are familiar with the way psychs deal with negative thoughts (adding positive thoughts to the end of them, de-escalating, viewing the bigger picture, etc) then therapy is only valuable for the opportunity to vent and (hopefully) have someone listen
this may seem obvious, but therapists can't fix your reality, only your perception of it. i talked to a phone counsellor once and he said "if you don't want to FEEL better, but instead BE better, then why are you talking to me?" and i stopped seeing my psychologist after that. being upset is a valid response to my shit life, i don't need to feel better about it, i need to improve it. and it's getting better, at least slowly, now.
i'd say OP has got a very real problem, and the way he's feeling is completely justified. a therapist might help but he just needs time, however long that is, to process it, and know how to move forward.
i used to just sit in my bed most days and think about my life and what to do, making zero progress on my depression. but when i began to consume more art, films, books and music, i started to gain perspective on life in general. it takes a refined, mature mind to be able to process great problems, OP, but i know you can do it. good luck friendo
