[Veeky Forums feels thread -/oft/]

its time for an Veeky Forums feels thread:
im so sorry edition
you didn't deserve this edition
i didn't want it to be like this edition

post you feels, whatever they are
ill start:

tonight is a great tragedy
my prized shitbox has been grievously wounded
it was my own hand what dealt the blow
it was my first car and i love it
it has been ailing for a while but it came to a head on my nightly drive an hour ago
it is the definition of a shitbox
any problem a car can have it had
>dents
>rust
>very little paint left
>the left running light was held in with bungee
>struts shot
>suspension bounced and rolled like a land yacht
>cheap early 90s jap plastic interior falling apart
>parking brake almost completely useless (could only hold the car on the slightest of inclines and would sometimes just snap forward and the car would roll(i just ordered wheel chocks for it(still havent come)))
>steering wheel would shake alarmingly at speed
>exhaust leak made it fucking LOUD
>power steering hydraulic pump was going
>nigger rigged sound system i installed myself
>shift knob kept falling off while shifting
>ac non functional
> more rattles than i could count
basically it was an adventure just to get it down the road
it was a blast to drive

but a month or so ago
it started having serious trouble
whenever i would take a sharp turn there would be a shuttering in the front axles
i took it to my mechanic and he found that a transfer clutch was seizing whenever the wheel was turned all the way
this made the diff lock up and was causing the shuttering
he basically said that along with all its other problems it would be so costly to repair that it would;t be worth it and advised i start looking for a new car
the car drove fine normally but i just had to treat it like its a big truck when turning
taking big wide turns
this worked fine for a while but i knew sooner or later i would slip

cont.
mechanic also said that if i were to crank the wheel while giving it gas or while at speed i could potentially snap the axle

well guess what the fuck i did tonight

>going for a drive in my usual spot
>couple miles on a twist road into thew hills and then turn around and head back
>driving how i usually do
>pretty fast but the road was still pretty straight with big swooping curves
>forgot that the next curve is tighter than the others
>dont slow down enough
>have to crank the wheel to stay on the road
>terrible banging sound and the whole car starts shaking
>i know at that moment exactly what ive done
>pull over to get my bearings
>cant stay there as its not even a shoulder
>turn around in the middle of the street and the car lurches and pops with every revolution of the wheels
>home is only a mile away
>decide its my best bet
>start limping the car towards home
>moving at 15 miles per hour in a 45 mph with hazards on
>apparently everyone has somewhere to be at 8:30 at night
>10 or so cars have to pass me on the left and see my shame as my car lurches home, crying out in pain
>longest mile of my life
>arrive home and park and just sit in my car

even if i fix the axle the problem wont be solved
the axle is a symptom
i dont have the skill/time/space/funds to fix it myself
i fear she has driven her last mile
the plan originally would be to sell someone a running driving car
now i fear no one would love it enough to want to fix and give it a home
it may be destined to be scrap
to be cannibalized for parts to keep other shitboxes alive
and maybe there is solace to be found in that
my car will live on in others
my shitbox died so that others may live

farewell ditch
may your rust be washed clean
may your paint be polished
you will ride forever in Valhalla
shiny and chrome

Might as well.
>Just got car about a month ago (from incident)
>Loving the hell out of it
>Promise myself I wouldn't keep it long since it's a vert and I wanted a hatchback
>But whatever, it's a car and it's mine
>Didn't know a hell of a lot about cars at the time
>Driving to work one night
>Coming off the freeway into the main road downtown
>Just letting the engine slow me down
>Reach my turn, a one way street, right turn
>Didn't realize just how bad the shitty Ching Chong tires on it were
>Take corner too fast for it
>Understeered right into the back of a Mercedes
>Decide not to get insurance involved for my car, and let them repair the Merc
>Slight paint damage and a pushed in reverse sensor
>My car had a pushed in bumper, slightly dented gender and hood, broken light and turn signal
>Work on getting the parts for cheap while driving with lights always up for a while
>A month after the first accident, beaner in a Charger backs up at a stop light and smashes in my fender
>Lies to his insurance and they refuse to take a side, so no pay out of any sort
>Whatever, new one is $65
>3-4 months later, I finally had gotten all the parts together
>Finally have them all installed
>First week with it back, get a ticket
>Thinking I'll have to sell the car if I don't win it (I won, fucking cops)
>A few months later, the transmission seems to be whining more than usual
>Pull into work one day
>Stalls as I let the clutch out
>Start car, repeat
>Stalls again
>Transmission is seized, have to get it towed home
>Find a new tranny fairly quick, but takes a few months to get around to swapping them
>Now car has bad idling issues that are somehow related to the tranny
>Can't figure them out atm
>Figure it's time to sell her after a year
>Shit is more painful than I thought
>Find a buyer
>Girlfriend said she'd buy it when she moves to the country, so I essentially get to keep it
Had a happy ending, but this car has been an emotional roller coaster.

What car was it OP?

i don't know how much my shitbox can take anons.

i know how you feel
i always knew this car was a beater
and treated it as such
>revving the hell out of the engine for kicks
>light offroading/mudding
>pushing its limits in twisties on shitty bald tires
>bottoming out the shot suspension on bumpy roads
but no matter what i did to it it kept running, never broke down, always started
whatever was wrong with the diff and the transfer clutch was my fault
it was either from driving it like a rally car on logging roads or from climbing 4x4 trails or might be from when i spun out after hitting a patch of gravel and stalled while sliding backwards because i didnt clutch in in time

i feel more remorseful than i should for what i did to this beater
it could have driven so much farther
if i had the space i would keep it but i can only have one car at the moment

oh and its an old legacy
should have stated in the OP

bumping with pics of my fallen comrade in hopes that anons will contribute

well i need to go soon
hopefully this thread will be up when i get home from work tomorrow

I recognize this pic...

probably from my first post months ago

Its dead?