/ddlc/ - Doki Doki Literature Club! #379

Sigh...

it's never too late for cuteposting!

I like to talk about stuff, it helps me understand it and get over it.

I'm not someone who can cry without being drunk.

I still have backups... I'm not exactly an unpopular man. I can pretty easily have something going on, I'll just be down this one person I love and this one person I liked... I bet they will be girl

You think anyone you know irl would come here? You aren't obligated to tell us anything true, but if you want honest advice tell the honest story.

I highly recommend Death Parade. Not exactly a thinking protag but similar dramatic theme.

Other animes: Shinsekai Yori, Magnetic Rose (movie), Kisejiuu, Steins Gate (the first third is boring, other 2/3 is fucking brilliant, then they choose the shit ending from the VN), Valvrave (people meme on it but I saw potential, great art), and Elfen Lied (suffers from 90's anime syndrome but the plot and execution is otherwise easily the best anime of all).

The cuteness might die at one point, but tonight is not that night!

I should just call you violet
Like ultra-violet
Because I need sunscreen to be around you
Because you make me feel sick
Because you suck the life out of me
Because you are like the warm rays of the sun
As you slowly and surely kill me

No more violet
No more sun touching my face
No more skincancer

What're you listening to? What would your doki think?

youtube.com/watch?v=7mdIWaRi-7c
I hope Sayori would like it

Childhood Sayori!
You're both riding bikes!
Trying to ride without hands to impress Sayori!
She's really clumsy!
Oh no!
She fell off her cute pink bike!
She got a scratch on her knee!
She's crying!
Hugging Sayori and holding her hand to calm her!
She's more calm now!
Buying some ice creams the way home!
Childhood Sayori!

Childhood Sayori!
Her mom is always working so she's always alone!
This makes her very sad!
One day (You)r mom ask her mom if she can spends the evenings at (You)r house!
She says yes!
Playing videogames with Sayori every day!
She likes Mario Kart!
Watching chinese cartoons with Sayori!
She enjoys Pokemon!
Sometimes (You) even go to the cinema with Sayori!
Watching shitty B horror movies!
Now she's scared of giant moths from the space!
Nevermind, nothing that a few candies and some hugs can't fix!
She doesn't feel alone anymore!
Childhood Sayori!

Too cute, try this:

>Countryside with Sayori
>Ywn drive out to your countryside property for a weekend with Sayori
>Ywn spend the day in the country town and down by the river, swinging into the water off of the old rope and diving in from the rocky outcrops with Sayori
>Ywn come home to a roasted dinner prepared lovingly by your parents for your guest with Sayori
>Ywn cook marshmallows by the fireside and watch the embers gracefully dissipate in the night's air with Sayori
>Ywn lie atop your property's roof and stargaze at the vast, brilliant expanse pondering your place in it all while holding hands with Sayori
>Ywn turn your head to face her, just as she does the same, before slowly moving in for a kiss with Sayori
>Ywn unify your souls for a brief but phenomenal moment where you both realise that through it all, you will always be there for each other, looking after one another with Sayori

We're not usually this dead during comfy hours

Childhood Sayori!
Halloween is getting closer!
(You) just want to stay in your home and watch some movies!
But she wants to go Trick-or-treating!
She finally convinces you!
It's time to search for a costume!
Sayori says you'll look cute dressed as a milk box!
What?!
A milk box!?
She's gonna dress as a sheep!
Like a sheepyori!
Sayori says that was a really bad pun!
It was!
Going to every house in the neighbourhood!
In one of the houses you could swear there was a shy purple-haired girl looking at both of you!
Nevermind, maybe it was nothing!
You both get lots of candies!
Eating candies the whole night while watching cartoons!

>cut the word yuri into my leg as a meme
>now i cut myself a lot because it gives me energy and happiness for a few minutes
t-thanks

user! we warned you not to do that. why are you still cutting yourself?

Force
Force myself to listen to you insult me
Force myself to just whisper softly
She'll be herself again tomorrow
And she will cry
And she will say she is sorry
And she will apologize to you
She will make it up to you
And you will forget

Force
I had to force you to tell me how you felt
I had to force you to admit you're not ugly
Because I couldn't handle you repeating lies
And that kind of thing wears a man down
Forcing myself to look at someone so hot
And hear the world has called her ugly
Because the world is retarded
It's so retarded
Fuck the world

I just wanted you to know the truth
I'm just a man
Sue me, I'm a man
Some men are not sexual
I'm bog standard sexual man
No modifications
No alterations
Not low sugar
Not cherry flavored
Bog standard man

Some days you have to roll your eyes to me
Some days you have to just let me me a perv
I'm harmless
You know I am harmless
Some days you just roll your eyes
Because some days you want that perv
And I know you do
I was there for that

Force
I didn't force myself to love you
I didn't force myself to care about you
It just happened and it makes me sad
It makes me feel so very very bad
What if you were a red flag
What if there is nothing I can do?
Force
I force myself to not think about you

Force
You force my heart open with force
Force
I forced myself up to you so I could hold you
Force
I forced you to admit what happened to you
Force
You forced yourself to try new things
You didn't force yourself to laugh
Or love me
Or enjoy when you took a risk on a man
You didn't force yourself to show me you
You didn't force yourself to tease me
Force

Force
I drink the Monster with force
Force
You drink your alcohol with force
Force over and over
Force

Childhood Sayori!
Both of you got out of school earlier today!
That means you can see that new anime about the wandering samurai!
There's someone knocking the door!
It's Sayori!
Her parents work so she's always alone!
But she get to spend time with you so it's okay!
It's a beautiful sunny day!
And it's really early too!
Maybe you two can go to the playground!
Sayori loves the playground!
You can see that anime in the saturday morning anyway!
Playing in the sled!
There's a purple haired girl who's too scared to slide down it!
Anyway, maybe the sandbox is empty!
A really small pink-haired girl is making cakes with sand!
You want to buy a castle there but she's kinda mean!
Playing in the swings with Sayori!
She wants to flip over the bar!
She doesn't make it but it was fun anyway!
It's time for a snack!
Going home with Sayori and eating cookies while watching that anime about the basketball team!
Having a fun day with Sayori!
Childhood Sayori!

I love her too.

it makes me feel really good, better than i do when stoned out of my mind, drunk, or both

it only lasts a few minutes though

Running can also give you that good feeling, but stronger.

I can fucking feel the emotion radiating out of my computer reading this. I don't know who it's for but it's brilliant user!

yeah but running is gay and i spend all my energy lifting heavy on a highly restrictive diet so ???

I'm the guy who just got dumped. She is never going to read this.

Shhh anons are sleeping

>but running is gay
But cutting is mega super gay. That and cardio for your gains.

A movie night? Sounds exciting! Where abouts is this plug room?
A friendly service reminder that the somewhat setback poetry festival begins in a mere 21 and a half hours! At that time polling will open and you’ll all be able to submit your poems through the thread, to be collected for later voting. Make sure your poems are not only proofread and grammatically sound, but also full of the passion that makes love poetry what it is!

A full list of what happens over the coming days can be found here:
pastebin.com/rPzWUZ8A
But until then, good luck!

(updated) TL;DR
>Submissions begin 8:00 PM US pacific time Jan 16th and last the whole 24 hours
>Every poem is to be submitted with the name of the doki it pertains to at the very bottom
>Submissions are entirely anonymous, please no tripcodes or avatars
>Once polls close, poems will be sorted into respective pastebins, from where voting will commence
>Voting for the final four will last 1 day, giving every user chance to read over all the poems and select a favourite
>Once the last four are selected, they will be announced in-thread and voting will begin on the winner
>Polls remain open for 12 hours this time, and will close with a winner selected
>Winner will be announced in-thread
>Thread Pastebin: pastebin.com/rPzWUZ8A
Any and all questions regarding the process or details I encourage you to direct to me, sorry to all who were inconvenienced by the shift in date! Think of it as all the more time to perfect your odes to your dokis!

I'm glad some of our MIA anons have crawled out of the woodwork, it's good to have you back
Once again, best of luck and happy writing to you all!
Will you write your way into her heart?

Did you actually get dumped, or are you going by what your asshole friend said?

forgot to add that even when i did cardio not even the best shit (sprinting at the end of a 5k) compared to cutting

Dead hours best hours

Leave this place

I doubt anyone I write poems for will read my work, but it's a brilliant way to vent. It reads like you really loved her, user?
If you don't mind my asking, what happened?

I love Mistress! It feels so nice to be submissive to her!

>Movie night
nani?

He was talking about it in the previous thread and linked it earlier in this thread.

Mating press Monika!

My girlfriend fucked off, she left, and I am blocked on several channels.
Go over this bread and the previous bread, you will find what I said.

I'm in a similar spot. This godforsaken game made me curious to see what cutting was like again, which snowballed into me doing it a bit more often cause of how it felt.
I don't do it much, but still.
I think I might genuinely be developing a bit of a fetish for it, too.

i aint it just gives me adrenaline n what not

purely physical response, but that whole body warmth and mental stimulation is nice

...

I can't use doll and I used up the other two words. Can I get another word please, friendanon?

Feeling sleepy after cutting for a while feels good desu

TACHYON

Something teach brought up after I knocked off last night.
Here's the post:

>not "and his irresistible game"

>Wanna write again
>Staring at a blank pastebin for hours
I require assistance!

Snow drifts past your face
The sky is as grey as the day
Its cold
Its really cold
The frozen air around you is broken
As a familiar face comes into view
A Doll
A Doll from ages ago
Recognizing this Doll you pick her up
She's beautifully made
And
The Doll is Warm
The Doll is Warm and the day is not so Grey anymore

What happened with sleepyanon?

Toddposting is a blessing
>inb4 shut up Todd

How does that feel, actually? Is it similar to that kind of sleepy you get after just the right amount of alcohol?

they fell asleep

I don't know but I miss him.

Damn, user, I'm sorry. How long were you together?

He is asleep. Forever. The goblins got him.

He got killed by his Tulpa.

That might just be from blood loss

youtube.com/watch?v=PGxv_n40Hzk
I honestly don't remember Burnout 3 well. I will need to play it again. This stuck out though.

Maybe two or three months, we flirted and were friends for longer. Relationships can be really unstable, they form and die almost for no reason sometimes.

Alone, the doll sits silently on her shelf.
No one to admire, no one but herself.
What good is a doll with no one around,
To exist simply to exist, not making a sound?
What good is the lace wrapped so carefully around her dress,
When no one is here to watch and obsess?
A doll is a doll, meant only to look cute.
But without the presence of another, there's nothing to repute.
I can't blame her for this life, the decision was resolute.
So alone the doll sits, silent and mute.

user how're you feeling?
Because it's probably the direction you should go.

>tfw 5'1"
>Natsuki and I find things around the house to bend each other over on and then fuck

But the last two greens I've written were sad and edgy, respectively! We don't need that atmosphere cultivated, I want to write wholesome!

I know it's from blood loss, user, but I'm curious as to how it actually feels like in a bit more detail and whatnot.

Awww that's cute.

I thought we weren't supposed to post about Trapsuki on here.

>In a parallel universe, natsuki is sitting at her computer after looking at user's weight and height and just thinking to herself "Imagine..."

I don't cut but I lost a lot of blood one time. It gave me a chill, made me lightheaded, and slightly nauseous. Then you just wanna lay down and fall asleep so your body can recover presumably.
I didn't enjoy it, so keep your blood inside you. You need it to live you double dummies.

Holy shit I just now noticed all the OPs have suicide prevention stuff.

Oh I relate there.
Start that way, then go all out to save it and turn it around. If you want, allude to how much worse it could have gone. Put the problem squarely on the character and have user play the hero, if the problem's on user you're going to start relating and it's just going to run deeper and deeper until you defocus and realize that it's technically unsolvable given the limited insight and characterization of the dokis.

>in a parallel universe, natsuki is probably overweight and jacks off to pictures of user while she drinks her coke and her potato chips

I don't know how to explain it but is different from the alcohol
like when you hit your head and get dizzy, then your body starts feeling lighter

Considering how many depressed people this game somehow managed to attract, it shouldn't be surprising.

>All this talk of parallel universes
pastebin.com/uwPU9Dru

It probably started when /ddlc/ starting making suicide pacts.

>in a parallel universe Monika is writting ficts about daddy user bf with a big dick and milkie

How do you cry, if you only cry when you drink?

>in a parallel universe, user is probably gay for another user that is a fictional character there and jacks off to him

Are you the nibba who salted your cuts?

ya

Don't cry user, there are other things you could be doing.

He drinks obviously, duh.

>in a parallel universe theres SheepAnon

I want to get this out of me.

And I'm back. How's everyone doing tonight?

>in a parallel universe there's a multiversal sheep slaying user who slays both Sheepanons and Sheepyoris

>how do you cry?
I rewatch this youtu.be/u-dagR13REA

Pretty bad. I got a lot of things going right for myself and I'm not suicidal or clinically depressed like a lot of us, but I still feel bad...It's been a rough day.

Interesting.
Why does this kind of stuff have to be so stupidly tempting at times?

What's the scientific name of this beautiful creature?

>in a parallel universe, there's a sayori that bullies user and calls him a retard all the time

>in the infinite parallel universes there still isn't one where Monika is best girl