>its a difficult process, but its really hard, whatever
I can't even imagine. It must be a torturous dance. How it must feel? That desire for intimacy, that fear of what their reaction will be? Fear for your life - physically and metaphorically.
Sounds like hell, though I imagine the fruit is that much sweeter when you do find someone who accepts you and connects with you.
No judgement, it's fucked up but so is a lot of the world.
>I want to reduce my waist by as much as possible.
You're basically as light as you're going to get at 6'2" - you really can't lose any more weight and remain healthy for long.
Your best option is tasteful corset training. With that you can help carve the curve of your waist with subtlety. It's an investment - you'll need a custom made corset but over time it will reshape your ribs and organ-placement.
>and increase my bust my as much as possible.
Your tits are fat. The only way to really increase their size is to eat more and hope that the fat is stored in your breasts. You can assist this process through daily massage (increase blood flow to the tissue, increased nutrition, more building) and some herbal extracts which activate estrogen receptors in breast tissue (fenugreek specifically has been used for thousands of years by dozens of cultures for this reason).
Then there's breast enlargement surgery, but that's trash.
>if it's possible to widen my hips i'd love for that also? but no surgery for that exists, correct?
That's bone structure. However, as above, if you gain weight your feminine hormones will prioritize fat storage in breasts/hips/buttocks.
If you want my suggestion?
Trappy-Chan has a routine floating around for mtf lifters.
Hopefully someone posts it, run the routine, and try to build your weight up to about 165.
This allows for you to build some muscle mass in your ass and your legs, while also providing some fat which will hopefully be deposited to your liking.
Good luck.