/mental health general/

let us know how it went breh

>studies are going great
>never been stronger
>never been more aesthetic
>lots of attention and fun from girls
>never been more miserable

anyone else?

Scratch the attention and fun from girls and replace it with a job thats going great and im in the same position user
How do you process it?

Some nights I just add whiskey to my protein shake to take off the edge. Never really understood alcoholics but damn I have to make sure not to hit the bottle hard.

Wow man, thats rough
Alcohol doesnt help me at all so im shit out of luck there

You tried prescription meds?

>not sure if i'm in love with my gf of 3 years anymore
feelsbad man

Literally me.
Comepletely dead inside.

Physical gains are through the roof though and I'm lifting for 2 hours 6 times a week and just stopped smoking and started running 3 times a week.

we will never be satisfied

I'm actually tapering off of Citalopram (anti-dep/anxiety). On 10mg a day atm hoping to do 10mg every other day in a few months.

>tfw you feel unity by being miserable with you user Veeky Forums bros

I'm not suicidal because I indulge in how pathetic I am. And, boy, I am pathetic.

...

is hating women a mental disorder bros?

Depends....if it gets to /r9k/ levels of hate probably.

Its not working then?

Idk it always seemed the rational reaction to me

Thoughts of hanging myself has begun to creep up. Feels bad man

my mental health has gone down significantly since I arrived at Veeky Forums.

>tfw been here for over a decade
>tfw last time I can remember being genuinely happy with life was over a decade ago

Pure coincidence

right

It was. I was on 20mg a day for 6 years. I just don't want to be dependent on a drug for the rest of my life.

Hopefully what I'm feeling now is just the withdrawal effects. Been thinking of taking up weed for a bit to maybe counter the effects. I know a cousin of mine who could hook me up with a steady supply. Not sure though.

>tfw the suicidal thoughts wont go away

This is scary brehs

be careful man, your brain chemistry is all jacked up at the moment

Same user here. Yeah, I know what you mean. I've got a stable job, lift regularly and eat healthy, have 1 best friend I see regularly a loving family. Still want to kill myself.

Is there any reason why you all want to kill yourselves?

Specific to you individuaIly I mean

While I don't have any desire to do it the thought constantly crosses my mind.

I guess I just feel like I'm drifting aimlessly and only keep going because of inertia

>have crippling social anxiety
>often have panic attacks that cause me to pass out
>when I pass out I go into a fit for a couple of minutes
>have had multiple ambulances called for me because of this
>have been on prozac for the last few years
>only ever had one gf who mentally abused me and threatened to physically abuse me if I broke up with her
>still feel bad for having left her

At least things are starting to look better, going to start studying business and finance and have some plans for my future

How do I stop being anorexic?
I don't like it anymore.
I am a 6'0 male of 104lbs. I am obsessed with calories.

I have several habits I undertake to make myself feel 'better' about my horrible attitutde

>Food Youtuber Mimic
This is basically a game where I spend the whole day watching people eat food on youtube. I eat nothing, then 5 minutes before bed have a bowl of tomato soup. Before I eat I mimic the food youtubers mannerisms and pretend I am them and have had the calories they had in their video. For example I watched a German guy eating burger king all day then before I ate my soup spoke in German accent and pretended I ate burgers and the soup was my midnight snack, not my only meal

>Rib Viewing
I always cut my food into the shape of ribs. Then after eating (usually carrots and cucumber) I look at my ribs in the mirror and pretend I ate so much food it is trying to escape

>Its not vomit its veggies
I make myself vomit into empty vegetable soup tins and pretend the soup went out of date so I didn't eat it

>Its all MAYO!
I have about 10 mayo jars. I only use hot sauce and lime juice as garnishes for food because they have so little calories but I store them in mayo jars and pretend they are mayo so I can pretend to get more calories than I am.

Eating is hard.
I don't want to die.

Im not thinking about suicide at all but if i was it would probably be because of my lack of a future
School is going good, job is going good, lifts are progressing but my happiest time is in the past
I had an amazing gf who only wanted to fuck and watch movies, it was insane and i was so happy with this

Ill never have that again and it makes me sad, no matter how far i go and how much i achieve girls and fucking is way out of reach and i cant bring it any closer so why bother?

Wew.

GOMAD
>go meet a doctor

Seriously though thats fucked

user please get help I don't want you to hurt

I mean... I don't know.. I've had some pretty rough nights where I couldn't sleep and just cried on and on and this shut me up so I guess that's why
I'm glad summer is ending because I fucking hate people pointing shit like that out

Not going well. I actually have to stop myself from thinking about all the problems too much since I might have a panic attack. Pretty much every area of my life except physical fitness is a desaster

I wouldn't say I'm suicidal but if I went to bed tonight and never woke up again I wouldn't mind

You are pretty fucked in the head

hahahahahahaha what the fuck man, print your post out and hand it to your doctor

You mean the ones I willfully ignore while chanting to mysel lifting will fix everything even tho I know better that they won't?

atleast I'll look good when I climb out of this depression, most people come out of depressions like fat fucks

5-htp is some really good shit

Same boat here user

Thinking about ending it

But then I realize that I have no other prospects

But then I realize I also have no future with this girl

And stuck I remain

>Tfw you wasted 3 years of your prime

>>Tfw you wasted 3 years of your prime
how old are you?

22 famalam

She left me because she's not ready for a boyfriend.

I dont like holding harsh feelings for anyone, but love is slowly turning into resentment

So you were 19 when you met her?
doesnt seem like youve hit your prime yet mate

I cant advice you here, i had a relationship up to last year and when it ended i realized how hard it is to replace even the shittiest of gfs or to get laid when youre single

Only thing i can tell you that makes sense is that if you think youd be happier alone and with no chance of sex then you should end it and focus on getting stuff that makes you happy

>qt 7/10 trad gf for 5 years
>finally getting shredded
>last year of uni
>did an awesome summer internship
>have many interviews for my dream job post college
>have many friends, some of them rich, they invite me to parties/beach houses/mountain houses/drive their supercars
>getting even more cool friends through my job, in the upper echelon of society
>live in the best city in my country
>my football team is one of the strongest in europe
> my family supports me and is all around great

feels good, man!

>I finally get to know if I have a disorder

I've seen 4 psychiatrists and gotten a different diagnosis each time. Psychology is just guessing game bullshit.

Shit not this thread again. I went down a dark spiral last time reading this. IM OUT
U FAGETS STOP READING THE CHANS TOO MUCH IF U WANT ANY CHANCE AT NOT FEELING MISERABLE

seek help user, fast. You're gonna die.

>tfw everything is going beyond great
>except no gf
a-at least I can focus on getting a gf, which means I'll finally prevail, right Veeky Forums?

broke my no fap of 3 months last night.
could've closed the computer but I felt so shitty, also that I might not wake up today, but hey I still woke up and feel even shittier.

please eat something

Does anyone else have trouble justifying being alive?

Why should I be alive when I could be dead? I'm going to die anyway

>go cycling alone all the time
>try to make friends with people I meet on the trail
>just appear as some desperate weirdo instead
>continue being lonely at everything I do

I'm trying life I'm trying ffs

this

Attend biking events.

Also, bikers are fucking weird, so you probably don't look as bad as you think (I would know since I'm one of them)

Your need for a justification is the problem. Do algae worry about their purpose as they absorb sunlight, clone themselves as long as they can, then die?

I actually do go to some events now and then but I guess you are right cyclists in general are just ass to talk to. I do enjoy cycling a lot though.

>work out three times a week
>meditate daily
>uni going fine
Feeling comfy 24/7 tbqhwy senpai.
I was in a bad place a year ago so the gains have been significant.

Didn't know being a retarded idiot is a diagnosis nowadays.

Decent life, good job, hobbies, making gains. I can honestly say I'm only alive because I don't want my parents to mourn. Once they go, it's say hello to sweet nothing.

I think a lot of what people are saying here is that they are leading rather 'normal' lives, from their societies point of view. E.g. Job, Car, Friends, Active lifestyle etc. But this doesn't stop them from feeling something is wrong, something is missing, they aren't fulfilling their true potential and are perhaps overwhelmed with the idea that they are destined to live out their lives just as their parents and grandparents and great grandparents have done before them. That we are just here to bite the bullet and continue to grind out each day. What's sad is that we are pretty much taught that this is the way we live, we do things we don't like in order to go on living and maybe even obtain some sort of treasure at the end of all the struggle. What helped me through such times was reading this book. It was written in the 1920s I think, or around then, but what the author has to say hits home hard. To sum up the book, he explains that the real value in life is not outside of ourselves, but within ourselves. That great clarity, serenity, calm, peacefulness of mind is what every human being is capable of. And some may even go on to hit pure euphoria and ecstacy through channeling themselves inwards, turning all their attention within. I was sceptical at first, like it was some religious hocus pocus. But he explains the method of meditation to numb nuts like us so that we can experience what many millions of other humans on this plant will never. It's simple, easy and it works. My mind used to be a tornado of thoughts, mainly negative, until I started to practice some of the methods he describes. I noticed myself starting to see things differently, taking greater care to pay attention to the positives and simply accept the negatives and let them flow away like water off a ducks back. My mind state changed, thoughts were clearer. And if your aware of the law of attraction I believe this goes hand in hand.

TLDR; read this book faggots it'll make you feel better.

Top kek. Come back when you're 28, faggot.

I got a DUI this summer after barely scraping through my first year of grad school because of depression and being rejected by the girl I love.

I was visiting my only good friend and bad 3 beers. I only blew a .08 and only got pulled over because a tail light went out while I was driving.

Lawyer says I will get it plead down but I've never felt so shit tier mentally bros.

Just take it as a learning experience and be glad that nothing worse happened. Shit like this can fuck your life over.

>start getting fit
>lose 60kg of fat
>feel suicidal bc. loose skin

Yea thankfully I'll get to keep my license, but my job prospects/PhD options are likely fucked.

After a few hours with the psychologist going through doctors notes, drugs and other things had a diagnosis of bipolar type 1.

I wish it was just being a simple retard. Make life allot easier to deal with.

I'm constantly depressed unless I'm lifting. I'm disliked at work, all my friends are busy with life, I have no girlfriend, so basically the same as before I started lifting.

Can't complain really. Putting on 45lbs of mass and spending three years around mostly girls and hot women has done wonders for my social skills.

t. ex-nursing student.

feeling better user. Getting mires by the day and getting shredded by the day. I still have feelings of having a black hole in my stomach but i've learned to just live with it.
What helped me was realizing life isn't a fairy tale and that it is hard. Most of your unhappiness in life is because you think life is fair and that their is some spiritual fairness in life that will treat you well later but its not true. When you accept that your life moves foward because you start to take responsibility.

I've been here since around 2010, and while I did start feeling depressed around that time, I think it was more a combination of religious doubt about what I grew up believing and being thrust into the adult world.

It was also the end of puberty for me, so I was still trying to recover from the mental stress that process put on me.

I barely use this sight now. Your life will change and you'll need this place less. Don't worry about "being here forever" if your working on making progress in your real life.

> my wrists tho

Does anybody here wish sometimes that they could get in a huge car crash and die, just because they want to know who would visit them at the hospital and who would come to their funeral?

I still can't find an older man who was or is massively obese and wants to be happily ever melted together.
It feels like so many guys in this situation have a girlfriend or wife.

Im not sure if youre a boy or a girl, having problems finding a guy says boy but them having gfs or wives says girl
Anyway, if youre a girl hop on tinder. Its Basically jam packed with guys

severe money problems and going through rehab. the lack of money actually helps not relapsing, but life just seems so miserable..

I don't have the ability to use it, but I'll keep it in mind if I ever get a phone. Thanks, user.

I think the love of my life is gonna break up with me. Time to work on my Noose hangs for them death gains

youtube.com/watch?v=aUpbe7ysXw8

Uhm, why not?
And if you cant then use a regular dating site or facebook/instagram
You obviously have a computer and with that you could find a guy within 8 hours

no job as well. been applying but heard nothing but rejections so far. trying to move to another city to reinvent myself as well.

I just want a job, but they all want more experience.

You cut for attention, there is no other explanation

If you don't like people mentioning it you might have as well not put in the post.

But anyway iktf, Years ago I started doing it out of self hatred and to let out my frustation towards something (And I also enjoyed the sight of my blood), but that took a long time for me to understand why I did it in the first place.
I eventually stopped because even though I did it on my ankles and hid it under my socks, I still felt like a massive faggot (And I still do, even the thought of it makes me cringe tbf), and the scars were not really worth it for how low the pain from doing it was.

Want to kill myself everyday, but too prideful to take the exit of the weak. On the bright side i now only hear 3 voices in my head

In 2014 I crashed out of my Masters(Applied Environmental Biology) programme.
I was completely overwhelmed and had gained a silly amount of weight (a total of 289).
I then went on Cymbalta 60mg, and saw therapy. Got a job in a shop, forcing myself to put on a happy face and the socialising helped me.
For my christmas present in 2015, my sister got me a membership to a gym programme, called Beat the Bulge. Each round of the programme took 8 weeks. It has been around 8 months now, I have lost 84 pounds, and never felt better. The gym (cardio, circuit training, weights, clean diet and socialising) helped me immensely, so much so I've gone down to Cymbalta 30mg.
I've gotten promoted in work, working in a different area of the park, closer to my masters.
Life has gotten much better after starting to get fit, soon I'm gonna start going out with my mates, who are super supportive, and finally have sex for the first time in 5 years.

Your post is making me realize how I don't have an ounce of normie in me.
I was hoping to find someone from Veeky Forums all this time, and I don't use any of the regular social sites. I'll just have to suck it up and post on a dating site when I gather the courage to.

>I was hoping to find someone from Veeky Forums all this time
Then do it
Whats stopping you, seriously?

This site alone is 65% frustrated guys with great bodies, you can take your pic
Strike up a convo with someone who seems reasonable in some thread, ask if youre from the same country/state and swap info
Its not really hard, its probably harder for you to select just one

Your sister is awesome desu

Yeah man, that was me a couple of years back. I thank the world I was born into a socialist utopia with free healthcare so I had no restraints in going to a head-doctor. If you can, for the love of god do. Now into 4th month in therapy and shit has been so fucking dope. You can't realise how important it is to tell somebody EVERYTHING that is on your mind, there will never be any one person in your life other than a therapist that you can pour onto with reckless abandon with no consequences. Feels good man.

I have a hard time coping with bullshit. If I get angry with something and it has to go unresolved for a time, I start seething and boiling over and shut everything out. I rage internally until it gets to the point of being physically draining. Then I get really sad about it and how I can't solve it or resolve it with whoever made me feel that way. So I feel sadder until I could cry if I chose to. I usually choose not to and then feel numb.

Then, I can't deal with the numbness, so I do something self destructive and absent-minded. Break no-fap, eat a bunch of shitty food, skip workouts, sulk and don't leave my house even to buy groceries.

Usually when I feel that zombie-like numbness where I feel totally ineffectual and impotent, I can do a workout and by the time I'm warmed up for my worksets, I feel better. If it's a rest day I just don't want to do anything because nothing will make me feel better the way lifting weights will.