/feels/ thread

Yeah, you know what, I've been wanting to do it for a bit but I'mma pick back up Morrowind. That game has so much magic and mystery to me, and I've never beaten it.

Gonna give it that ol' DL right now.

>lost 50lbs
>take accutane for 6 months

>now leaner, but have gyno
>now acne free, but have a wart infection

>love lifting and playing drums
>terrible tendon injuries prevent me from doing either

i truly never asked for this

I'm 30 and never had a gf

And it's obvious you are a girl

As I read this I was actually tugging on my dick, no joke.

But are you wizard?

yes, also I'm depressed since 2010 so that means I can't get a proper erection, I could have fucked 3 girls since 2010 but I could not get hard because I am depressed, the last girl was in 2013, I'm trapped in a vicious circle

I don't know why I don't kill myself

Please don't man. People who struggle with suicidal thinking are beautiful. Their lives are so much richer than those who don't. You of all people have the most to gain. Your potential is the greatest. You are experiencing the lowest of the lows and you can experience the most sublime serenity. People who are okay with their shit lives will never know the things that you can know. At the risk of sounding like more of a fag than I already am, I wish I could hug you and convince you that it can be better.

When I used to be depressed, gay shit like this would make me insanely furious. It still does now, but then too.

So this happened today..
>Be at uni gym
>Chad, Brad and Stacey are there
>Chad and Brad are blasting shitty music on their phone, lifting heavy weight with shit form, slamming weights and acting like tools.
>Whatever, I brought my headphones
>Stacey does nothing. Literally sits on the bench across from Chad and Brad watching them workout and giggling to herself.
>Literally every other set, Chad flexes at her and she giggles and gets up, comes over to him
>Stands on his toes and touches his chest and they make out
>He's smacking her ass and everything
>Can't believe this is happening in the gym
>Be lifting my shit trying to ignore it
>Be skeleton mode trying to make it
>Chad and Brad eyeing the shit out of me
>Laughing to themselves at me and my lower weight
>I stop my music with my headphones still in and listen to them
>"Bitch weight"
>"Fucking pathetic man"
>"What a fucking twink"
>Stacey is on Chad's toes again
>"OMGGGG your muscles are so big!"
>Chad motions to me with his head
>"Would you still love me if I looked like that?"
>She looks at me and back to him
>"Pffffft!!! Hahahaha!"
>She just starts laughing, literally fucking laughing and buries her face in Chad's chest
>Chad and Brad chuckle
>They leave
>I finish my lifts and get out
>Sit in my car for like a full 10 minutes in silence before going home.

It's not my fault I was born into the royal skeleton family, I never asked to be the prince of bones.

H-hold me Veeky Forums

Then it's a good thing you're lifting and not sitting on your ass. Now you have a goal body.

I stopped playing video games as I found them to be a waste of time. Not to say that wasting time is necessarily a bad thing by definition, but when I have uni, work, and the gym, it's very difficult to justify setting aside valuable time to something that means so little. I've never looked back and said "Man, I'm glad I played that video game that one time and I'm a better person for it". I can say that with books and exercise, even social outings, but never video games.

>things that happened

I guess it's true in your head.

>not crushing his face with a dumbbell

is not your fault you are a skeleton but you are a beta faggot

Did this actually happen?

>It's /girl is indecisive as fuck/ episode
I hate that

This might not be the longest, or most quality story, but I've been having a bad couple of weeks trying to balance diet/work/gym, so this really meant a lot to me. Hopefully it'll be just what I need to get my ass back on track.

>in class
>it's friday, people are all sitting around waiting for the day to end
>guys are talking about women near me, while I'm sitting there playing a tower defense game that I found that isn't blocked
>hey user, you got any girls?
>nah man I still got like 50lbs to lose
>whaaat? man how much you weigh?
>(5'11) 200 pounds
>man you're not that fat, I think you'de be fine at like 190

I'm in the military too, so it's not like the guys I was talking to were fat fucks.

As a recovering ambulocetus (350lbs at my worst, two years ago), it felt pretty fucking great to hear that normies think that I'm only 10 or 20lbs overweight.

Feels good, man.

Yes it did.
And I still feel awful about it.

God bless you user. Spending time with your father is the most Christian and good thing you can do.

Fuck......

Ah well, I legitimately intended the opposite reaction. Hope you find something that brings you relief.

>6 months ago, last quarter at uni
>take a 180 with my career goals/desires
>graduate 3 months later, try to get an entry level job in my field while existing in some sort of post-graduate haze
>finally snag an internship
>still have to live at home

It's funny how when you fall out of love with your passion, you can make all sorts of compromises about your life. I kind of resigned myself to a career that would have no noticeable impact on anybody anywhere. A thankless job, maybe even soulless, but one that pays just enough to keep me yearning to move up the ladder. But then it's tricky--I ask myself, "to what end?"

What if I move up the ladder? I'd just be like the guy one rung above me: trying to move up the ladder.

You write like a loser

That sucks. But it's just fuel for the fire, dude. Next time just rationally call him out on it. Ask him why he's being a dick to you.

That's a horrible idea. Rationality might work with rational people who don't make fun of people at the gym. You need to go apeshit and get right up in his fucking face so intensely he doesn't know what the fuck to do.

I'm glad I aint suicidal anymore because I'd fucking off myself if I read this then. Gayest shit written by someone who seems very uneducated kils me.

Funny man because I'm also a published author, so, whatever floats your boat man.

Lol fuck off faggot, talk to your man in the sky. I just played some games with my old man, no need to compare it to some bullshit religion.

Are you me? I fear if I be myself I'll end up looking like an autist so I end up being very reserved so people just think I'm ignorant. (also a 25y.o. virgin) Girl I'm interested in is already taken. Woe is me.

Brah it'll be fine.

And my dad works for Nintendo man, okay, man

Who is that guy typing like a stoner and giving horrinle advice to everyone

posted this a lot tonight
>got close to oneitis i thought about for months
>realized she's insane and a slut
>like spending time with her because oneitis, wanna fuck but not the whole reason i like her
>close to finally getting that abundance mentality
>still rustled that i know oneitis is probably getting railed by some fuccboi's tonight
that would have killed me months ago but now it's just like "eh okay whatever". at least its fuel for the thread

i'm going to sleep, try not to let the feels get you anons

>Bought a smith machine but am missing parts.
I hate talking to customer service, I keep wanting to have cyber sex with them and they ignore me.

>be at work
>challenge a britpaki to an arm wrestle for a bit of fun
>it's a stalemate
>he tells one of the other pakis there and he wants to arm wrestle so we do
>he is deceptively strong, flatout lose
>he wants his weaker looking cousin to arm wrestle me
>well surely I can't lose to this guy, he doesn't look very strong
>we have a match
>flatout lose
>they speak to each other in their own language
>one of them makes a cat noise
>realise they are mocking me

I'm sick of being weak, it's time I do something about it.

Well I'm glad you're still alive even though you seem to have some unresolved issues. Dunno where you get off calling me uneducated when you say "aint." Chalk it up to trolling?

Who's that guy who can almost express a coherent thought yet simultaneously assume an attitude of superiority

Oh wait it's you :^)

>at bar, chilling with friends
>literally hottest girl I've ever seen starts talking to me
>have conversation and I'm visibly boring
>I shrink back into my shell
>she turned off
>she walks away
>now I'm posting on Veeky Forums
>im still here
What the fuck is wrong with me

>have porn induced ED
>after years of porn, only get hard to rape
>attempt no fap every few days
>finally get a week and a half fap free
>relapse
>go no porn but still trying to no fap too

MAKE IT STOP. I fucking hate it now.

I at least had my first morning wood in like 2 years a few days ago, I fucking hate uncontrollable boners but I realized id take them back so I dont have to fap like a madman to just get hard.

Hahaha! I'm not him, but you come across as a fag.

Nothing wrong with helping people but you seem like some social retard, who can't understand why metaphorically sucking strangers dicks over the net isn't welcomed.

>have conversation and I'm visibly boring
make her talk bb, they like that.

Kirk. Pls do dis and post results.

>that feeling when you come to Veeky Forums to shitpost but the regular users are already doing a great job

what's the point of working out if you're stupid, ugly, and have zero social skills?

Yeah okay. Try saying some of the shit you say on Veeky Forums in real life and let's see who's socially retarded. You are the epitome of antisocial behavior. You sound like you need professional help. Literally no one who is socially well-adjusted is -this- assblasted over someone trying to be compassionate to another person.

prayin 4 u mate

Ok I talked to her again, got her number and a hug. I'm literally shaking why am I so fucking autistic boys

Don't panic user-kun, whatever is going on in your head just let it go. Act confident, even if you are pretending.

Chalk it up to whatever you fucking want, point I was trying to make is your retarded beliefs about what suicidal people experience feels like and how "serene" that is (can't bring myself to re-read it) is not only baffling in terms of stupidity but also penned down gayer than Oscar Wilde and Michael Cunningham co-writing a pullitzer prize winning novel about two male lovers going ham.

>Once you stick your wang in a chick you'll realize "Wow, uh, so... That was it?".
Either you were having bad sex, or you've never had a meaningful emotional connection with a woman, or both. Probably both.

I did act confident but I'm sure everyone noticed I was nervous. I left now, when should I text her?

don't text her fuck... Don't get attached, let her come to you. Tease her, fuck user i wanna slap you.

>I don't want to waste any more of my early 20s living like this
This exactly. (OP speaking.)

I'm going to be here until my late 20s unless I drop out of my program. I find that so incredibly depressing. Tinder sucks, too. And my work quality sucks because I spend all day trying to distract myself from my crushing depression and loneliness however I can. My brain feels like it's turning to mush from long-term depression.

Ok ok so wait it out? What about a week later should I text her then? Fuck man I'm 23 I should know how to do this shit

you sound desperate. chill out, make her want you. Don't go full pleb bb

>Death in family makes me take an honest look at my life
>Started doing some simple calisthenics and eating better to help with my depression/anxiety
>Been losing weight very slowly for the last year and a half
>Clients from work that haven't seen me in a couple months keep asking me if I'm on a diet, tell me I look like I've lost a lot of weight, say I look better
>Been a fatass for so long that I can't tell much of a difference
>Only reason I've been able to notice my weight loss is because my pants used to keep falling and I had to punch extra holes in my belt to be able to tighten it more
>People seem nicer in general, but that might just be me projecting more positive thoughts on to other people as I've been letting go of emotional baggage along with the weight
>Sometimes I swear girls might be flirting with me/dropping hints but I assume I'm assuming too much. Plus, it's at work, and I don't want to be unprofessional
>Got no before pictures to compare myself to now
>Kind of feel indifferent to my progress, but I keep doing it out of habit now
>Depression is winding down, but existential crisis is ramping up

>always do a cruel cut to get my body beach ready
>haven't been at the beach in 2 years
>or anywhere else really

My mom just told me my dad died tonight.

I don't feel anything-- I hardly knew the man. I wished I tried a bit harder to know his story before he passed.

All I remember are some childhood memories, a couple birthdays, and the days he would come home at night... that was the gist of it.

I can feel a seething anger rising up within me, but it keeps dispersing before anything builds up and I just feel empty and life goes on. I know my mom is partly responsible, and my final memories of him were quite pathetic.

I wish either of my parents were willing to spend time with me; I feel like I was raised on the internet and books. I'm socially stunted and feel like I'll never know what it's like to love someone and genuinely enjoy someone's company and to give them my everything-- to confide everything and build up some trust and love.

You guys are literally all I have to confide in. I've already drifted away from my friends after I've figured out that that they don't really tolerate me anymore... and the friends that I have remaining, I'm only friends with them because I keep up a facade.

I'm literally nothing. It's almost like no matter how hard I try, things never get better. I thought I would be accustomed to the loneliness by now, but it really just eats away at you.

I have. Just take a break. Eventually you will wanna play one again and it will be fun

>Not pulling out your katana and challenging him to a duel. Psssssssshhhh

I got rejected earlier today and it was one of the most liberating sensations I have felt in a long time. It was a girl i had known for a couple weeks, if it was meant to be she would of said yes. Shes just one down eventually if you keep trying you'll find what you're looking for. If you don't event try and rely purely on luck you'll never get what you want. I'm going to keep trying and not get dissuade and depressed, I'm actually happy for some reason. I'm not wasting my time and i feel closer to what i'm looking for.

Sorry to hear that, user. I didn't get to spend much time with my father, either, since he passed away to cancer when I was 10 (27 now). Although I have a lot of good memories about him, sometimes I'm still plagued by all the what ifs had he not died. Feels like a lack of a farther figure set me back at least a decade in development. Don't know what advice to give you, as I'm in the same boat as far as being friendless. I'm only just starting to learn how to let these things go and get comfortable with who I am. Don't want to say that you need to hit rock bottom to get back up, but that's kind of what has happened to me. It wasn't until I felt like I had nothing left to lose that I began trying to get myself in order. Like those people you see after a tornado has blown apart their house and everything they've worked for. You realize all you've ever really needed is you, everything and everyone else comes and goes. No sense in getting caught up in all the things/people you've lost or never had.

Split with gf about a month ago (thank GOD) and the last wee while I've been thinking about this girl I lost contact with when I was 17(?). We had mad chemistry back then but of course being the autist/betard I was pre-Veeky Forums I didn't do anything. Should I attempt to get back in contact with her bros?

Porn is terrible for your mental health, so good on you for quitting that. People will argue against this, but the fact is that 99% of all people need sicker and sicker shit over time just to get hard. Only being able to get aroused when you watch someone get harmed is very bad and dangerous for your mental health. Fapping a few times per week isn't bad though, so don't feel guilty if you jerk it every once in a while.