Who else here /motivatedbyexistentialdred/

Who else here /motivatedbyexistentialdred/

i'm not in grade 12 philosophy so not me lol

I just turned 28 and have come to realize that I'm probably going to die alone unless I grip up something wifeable soon so I'm probably going to turn in my natty card soon

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pffffftt

>using tippy toe to gain heights

when will womanlets learn

Suicidal ideation a regular, and occasionally daily, basis.

It comes, I lift, I don't feel so suicidal, then I punch it in the face until it decides it wants another beatdown

Just k-keep moving. Y-yeah!

I'm motivated by self loathing.

I've disliked myself a decent amount over the years but I've finally gotten angry enough about it to start fixing it.

shes obviously using it to flex legs

Are we all just broken on this board? Is this why we lift?

Most people on Veeky Forums are somewhat broken. Truly normal people don't stick around.

I don't consider myself broken
I don't wallow in an idealized self pity that I can't have a fantasy

Being driven to succeed doesn't happen without reason, but to assign that fuel as a negative is why many others will never attempt what that fuel drives

For as long as I can remember

i thought you guys told me black girls weren't hot

Its 95% the hair and face.

kek

...

Did for a while, then I did a diy purpose thing which seems to work a bit better for me.

>ass to my family
>lazy
>dui
>dont know if im depressed or suicidal or dangerously apatheitc
i go to the gym because sometimes i feel like its penance for the shit things ive done in life

Who is she

My evenings usually go:
>go to bed
>think about what a sweet release death would be
>think how I would kill myself, what it would feel like
>think about my lifts tomorrow and decide to wait till after gym because I can probably add a few kgs to one lift or another
>browse fit
>fall asleep 3 hours after going to bed