It's been almost 2 years since I've visited this place and it's almost as if this is the only place left to go
Let me take you back to 2014, I was an very active lifter My lifts were at the highest they'd ever B:130, S:170, D:205 I'd spend 2-3 hours at a time in the gym 4 days a week I was 19 years old, 6'4" and weighed 110kgs (242lbs) @ 16/17% bf and I'd competed in powerlifting a couple times before
I was always THE GUY at the gym I knew everyone and everyone knew me I always helped where I could and was there to talk to anyone of they ever needed it The gym was my life and I thank Veeky Forums for helping me
About mid 2014 from a combination of heavy weight, stubborness and bad form I injured myself I was training for a competition at the end of the year I had always had a bad back and I guess powerlifting didn't help plus with the competition looming near I had to bump up the weight I was training at - which contributed to the bad form.
The injury turned out to be a bulging disk
The pain was so bad I was literally walking with a cane and at a right angle for months I met with the neurosurgeon and after talking to him for a bit we decided on having surgery
The surgery is called a microdiscectomy, where they basically shave the disk back so it no longer is pushing on the nerve
I was put on a year waiting list but I was lucky and only had to wait 6 months ( ironically the day of the surgery was the day of the competition )
Thanks to a combination of endone and oxycondone I dropped from 110kgs to 95kgs I took about 4 weeks to recover to a point where I could stand
I kicked the drugs at 8 weeks post surgery as I didn't need them and didn't want to rely on them
After stopping the painkillers I regained the weight I had lost and more At this point I weighed around 120kgs I also just started my first year of uni and a new business at the same time
At 10 weeks I rentered the gym I started with light weights
Dominic Clark
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Ian Sullivan
At this point i had been out of the gym for about 9 months The weights felt different, there was no connection like I had before the rage that I used to train with, was completely gone
But I pushed through I couldn't spend hours at the gym like I used to 2-3 hours went down 30mins - 1 hour I couldn't train my lower body due to the pain and no weight /stress allowed on my back Surprisingly benching didn't place any strain on my back so I was left with that Bench had always been my favourite. I spend every 2nd/3rd day with benching in my session You'd be surprised how much your bench will fly up when it's trained 3 times a week I went from 70kg 1rm to a 140kg 1rm in 4 months (keeping in mind even though I had 9 months off my previous 1rm was 130kg)
But eventually the stress of my full time uni course and fI'll time business caught up to me 1 day skipped turned into 2 which turned into 7 etc months passed where I didn't even go for 1 session
Fast forward to this year I weigh 130kgs I joined a new gym stepping back in that first time brought back some great memories but I face the same issue as before the anger and hate that I drew my energy from, in which I used to feed off and take me to a place where no amount of weights or reps meant anything was replaced with doubt and self loathing I can barely stay in the gym for more than 30 minutes without wanting to leave The movements feel strange, the weight unforgiving What used to be a warm up is now my max I have nothing to feed off any more and I don't know how to train otherwise
So let me ask you again Veeky Forums How do you do it? How do you force yourself to go to the gym? How do you do it with no rage and hate besides what is directed at yourself? How do you pick up the pieces of what's left of your former glory, where at one stage your peak was not good enough and now you would give anything to have it back?
You can choose to believe my stats or not but at this point I don't think it matters
Andrew Fisher
>I met with the neurosurgeon and after talking to him for a bit we decided on having surgery neurosurgeon for your back?
Gabriel Robinson
fuck off with your essay.
It's going to be tough, but you're a big strong capable man and will be fine. Chin up old sport
Anthony Allen
He was a Brain and Spine Surgeon
Josiah Robinson
>How do you do it? just go >How do you force yourself to go to the gym? don't think much >How do you do it with no rage and hate besides what is directed at yourself? >self-improvement >How do you pick up the pieces of what's left of your former glory, where at one stage your peak was not good enough and now you would give anything to have it back? never had any
Jaxson Williams
I feel like you linger onto your past too much. Do you think you're depressed? if so, do you think that incident was the reason for your loss of mojo? I just do it because it's fun and I like having a muscular build.
Kevin Morales
shut the fuck up
Brayden Long
I went through a lot of things mentally in the last couple of years I definitely think my injury was one of the causes of that, but also because of the stress from my daily life (uni and business) It used to be fun for me but now not so everything is such an effort to which I have no energy or motivation
there are times where I get boosts ofor inspiration and want to get right back into it but when I go, there's nothing no feeling no motivation it feels unnatural and forced
James Long
bro just go. wake up and go.we cant help you you have to just go GO NIGGA!!!
Chase Brown
going isn't the issue its everything else
William Williams
tsun tsun onichan Try other sports. Lifting doesn't have to be your main workout. I used to draw full time and ever since I lost my mojo and back pain, I haven't been drawing anything. I found lifting so I'm happy again, sometimes it's good to start over and be a newb, gives you purpose.
Cameron Watson
lot of sports involve running etc a lot of movement get the injury flamed up again I'll look into it i used to play football (full contact though)
Asher Sanders
JUST GO NIGGA YOU WILL GET BACK THE SPARK THAT FUELED YOU TO BEGIN WITH GO AND TRAIN FAGGOT!!
Cooper Thompson
why do you write like this it's annoying as fuck
Jose Anderson
JUST GO NIGGA YOU WILL GET BACK THE SPARK THAT FUELED YOU TO BEGIN WITH GO AND TRAIN FAGGOT!!
Jack Long
i lift for fun, i don't force myself to do anything
maybe you shouldn't either
Brody Russell
Swimming is also great
William Phillips
this is pretty much why I feel if I go, at some point it'll behind a habit again it just seems to be really slow
writing off my phone sorry
I heard about that I've wanted to check it out for a while now
Jace Powell
>>>/blogspot/
Ethan Rogers
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Jason Jackson
> Record Scratch > Freeze Frame > (Teenage Wasteland/Baba O Riley synth starts to play) > whoa whoa whoa whoa...see that faggot there? That's me. Seems like he's hit the lowest point of his life. > It all started in the summer of 2014...
If you are hating the gym, do something fucking different. Stop lifting and go train for a triathlon. It will take you about 6 months to a year to become competent at swimming, running, and biking and the cardio highs will keep you coming back to the gym.