How you holding up, Veeky Forums?

>debating whether or not i should shoot her a friend request or not
do it or you're gay

pretty close to another suicide attempt, just kidding.

Never give up hope man. Always keep working

Doing all right. Tweaked my back a bit from deadlifting half asleep. Pretty pissed by that.

I have a massive crush on a guy in my program but I don't know him and he's probably straight

he's so qt what do I do Veeky Forums

>do it or you're gay

Nice man, that's it. Just continue being awesome and doing what you love regardless of whether a girl's around, people love other people that are focused on their dreams, especially the opposite sex.

>he's so qt what do I do Veeky Forums
nothing
it feels shitty getting flirted at by gays.

That's the dream

Yeah I know, I have no intention of hitting on him. I just want to know that he's not gay so I can push the delusions out of my head

im trying to find something to live for, i know ill be ok for a fair while because im still young, but everyone reaches a point and theres only two ways to go, hopefully everything works out well enough.

also i hope everyone here going through a rough place finds peace, Veeky Forums can be a really great place and you're all part of that. you deserve to find happiness, just don't stop trying because you're lucky to get the chance.

wow i guess that's all it took, thanks

>it feels shitty getting flirted at by gays.
No, it's flattering

>No, it's flattering
if your gay

good.

Was supposed to start a new lifting routine today, but am forcing myself to wait until I figure out what the fuck is going on with my skin.

Been watching Stranger Things on Netflix all weekend trying to not think about her. It's not working

Feels like I just waste my life working to pay my bills and occasionally buy something I want. Shits gay. Gonna have to work till death too

Just had an arguement with my dad cause I called my cousin a whore which turned into how much I hate girls. He got silent and left.

told some girl online I lived with my parents at 26
>was a neet for 3 years because my friend died
>dropped out of university
>went back to school and got a shitty associates degree
>went to the gym to improve myself. found out later that I have scoliosis and stopped lifting for a year
>graduated and got a good job with my degree and go to the gym because all I do is sit in a desk all day
>meet girl on the internet and somehow make her laugh through text when I just want to die
The girl just gave me her skype name and wants to talk to me on saturday
>havent had sex since 2014 when I saw a prostiute on valentines day.
How do I talk to women on skype fit
I am just trying to make it and it seems I am Jobe for some reason.

Doing alright, had a bender the past few days just been drinking too much in general skipped out on the gym the past week and have Ds in all my classes at midterm.. hopefully things pick up soon in my life

why don't you give him the blowjob eyes, gay guys always give me that look when they talk to me, if it's a qt twink i jerk off to it later (still say no because no homo).

make kids

Fucking hate them and they steal what little shekels I get to spend on myself and homegym shit. Making a bunch of lifestyle changes. It seems to be helping

dreaming about how i will look

lol who uses skype in 2017 besides scammers? stay safe

>Fucking hate them
good luck with your mental disorder

fingers crossed that i made a good enough first impression that she'll be interested too

I don't hate them just don't want any. They fuck up your shit and dirty and scream and cry and who the fuck wants to deal with that

>2000 word essay due tomorrow
>written 43 words so far

>fingers crossed
you probably did, don't think like a loser

let a few tears out tonight

gotta stick with it though

hes in most of my classes I don't want to be that faggot who's giving guys blowjob eyes

it might be worth a shot though desu

people who don't live in the US?

Not too bad. I shouldn't speak so soon but my shoulder injury seems to be healing up quickly thanks to so rehab exercises. On a negative note my family tells me I'm so emotionally flat they're worried about me.

>girl I've been seeing for less than two months says she's pregnant
>she wants to keep it
>my life is fucked

Welp, time for sudoku. It was nice knowing you Veeky Forums. Only hope is that it's not mine.

get to it homie

preview your main points, make your main points, make your conclusion the thing you want remembered most

start shitting out words now go

Are you both ready? Has she thought about adoption? Fuck man, I can't imagine being in this situation. If I'm ever sexually active for some reason I think I'm going to freeze some of my sperm and then get snibbety snabbed.

Feeling lost, stuck, and confused for no reason.

>Just lost my virginity to an escort.
>Years of fapping gave me death grip syndrome.
>Couldn't cum. Not sure if she did or not
>She told me for a virgin I was pretty good.
> I know she's just saying that because I'm paying her.
>I might go see her again.
>Hopefully I'll be able to cum

wage slavery is right around the corner and I feel utterly alone, no gf. got a qt's snapchat from my class on wednesday but after watching her snap stories of going to bars and out to eat with other dudes at midnight I am completely uninterested despite her always laughing at whatever I say and twirling her hair around me. It seems like all that makes me happy is the gym, art, and a few friends that all live in different cities now.

Why the tears, user? Want to talk about it?

Hip/knee/ankle mobility is comically bad.

Constantly results in achilles issues.
Rehab that
Now it feels like a peroneal longus Injury.

Fuck tendons forever. I just want to pick things up.

Amazing. Someone gave me a cupcake filled with cream cheese, I refused it, she insisted, I took it, had a tiny spoon and found the whole thing disgusting so I trashed it. Feels good not to miss processed food and other sweets from hell.

Y'know, I want to tell her I love her and I'm miserable without her but I also don't want to make her feel bad while she's on her vacation with her husband. Those kinda feels.

Bad.Today is her sisters birthday. Watching her grow into a woman was one of the best parts of the 12 year relationship im recovering from.

doing great actually
im losing more weight as days pass.
soon im gonna bulk like crazy
life hasnt been this good in a while

i was a depressed POS before i found exercise

...

First time in years I feel pretty fucking good. Broke up for good with BPDex gf, after almost 2 years of abuse, 7 months ago. Was pretty emotionally scarred, felt really empty, worthless, depressed and insecure. Shut down offers from girls since I did not want to commit and was afraid of getting with a nutcase again. I didn't trust anyone really and couldn't open up anymore, isolating me from friends. Then 2 months ago I met my current gf. Took me awhile but I started to trust her after I got to know her and her family. 21 yo, 9/10 in law school and was a virgin. Was paranoid at first because this seemed to good to be true but just went for it and really happy I did.
Pretty fucking weird how a person can brainwash someone, they supposedly love, so bad they feel less than garbage and how finding the right person can just make all the shame and insecurities vanish.

Is this really the best time to solve puzzles user?

I finally hit a 3 plate bench this week. Did it for 4 and I was so happy for a few minutes. Then I looked in the mirror and realised im still a 230lb fatass who cant eat properly to save his life. I hate myself so much.

>you will never be a ideal
>you will never be a inspiration
>you will never have top tier genetics
>all your actual problems are encoded in your DNA

>slowly making gains
>going to college, doing OK
>I burn out easily, because infj
>not studying as much as I should be the past 2 weeks
>lost interest in all my classes
>only thing I really want in life is love
>I have a specific defensive mechanism
>due to certain girls in my past, anyone who shows interest is avoided
>it's a never ending loop
>23 now
>never been on a date, never been intimate before with a girl before
>not sure if I will ever get over it
>some days are better than others
>some days are REALLY bad though
>today I'm alright, but still getting over yesterday because it was a bad day
>going to go to sleep now though
>tomorrow is a new day though and I need to think positive
>goodnight Veeky Forums

I am on my shamanic calling

BRAAAAAAAAAP

>visit girlfriend across country at uni
>spend hundreds of dollars
>all going well the first 3 days
>doing all sorts of cute couple shit
>feelsgoodman.jpg
>fastforward last night there
>she says go drink with [my friend who flats in the same town]
>I say na I just wanna hang with out with you
>She basically tells me to go and have a good time since I haven't seen [friend] in fucking ages
>okay i guess
>"say goodbye to me when you go but ill see you in town"
>text her I was leaving, no idea where she is
>"Okay cya"
>seemsgood
>after drinking go back to her room
>shes not there
>okay must still be out
>wake up, flight in a couple hours, shes still not there
>feelsbadman.jpg
>snapchat and text her, seens both
>feelsworseman.jpg
>get home, angry/sad that she isn't replying and wont tell me whats up
>whatever ill go gym and feel better
>after gym text her friend and ask whats up
>shes crying, wont tell her why
>fastforward, apparantly its because I didnt say goodbye even though I thought I was gonna see her later
>she didnt say goodbye for my flight
>didnt sleep with me
>sperg out at her over text tell her its not fair etc
>barely speaking to me atm

I dont know what to do fit. At the moment I'm just leaving it until she cools off but fuck it sucks. I did all this shit for her and the one time I could have done something slightly better she has a meltdown.

Not bad I guess. Had an awesome camping trip with my bros last two days.

>mfw no hot gf to bang in tent, then cuddle and fall asleep together.

Not holding up good bros.

I'm 35y old virgin, but not the /r9k/ women hating kind.

The grip is slipping, not sure I can hold on.

My depression got worse. I distance myself from my friends and one of my roommates who was in the hospital for three months is pissed at me because I never visited him. He has no idea that I already hate myself for it, it's just that going out of the apartment has become a chore and I get anxious every time I have to. And I feel the same way about seeing people

If I had a car I'd have left without telling anyone but I don't even have that so I almost cry myself to sleep every night instead

But I finally got the motivation to start lifting somehow, maybe to keep some sanity. So there's that. But since I don't go grocery shopping regularly I'm not gonna make it

Well serves her right for being a whore.

You said what was needed. In the end your Father will have gained respect for you.

God speed, user.

Seems really sketchy. She was probably hanging with some other dude.

Not great, unfortunately
I've only ever really met one girl who I could say would be worth the time and effort to be in a relationship with but she was clearly out of my league and I ended up getting the response I expected. Still stuck with lifting though and the progress is one of the few things that keeps me going since I always hated how I looked. At least now I can have more confidence in myself. I've had some girls compliment my looks or how I've been getting "bigger" (I'm really not though because Arnoldmode was never my goal) and it's somewhat encouraging but it doesn't help that none of it matters because I still haven't been able to lift my heaviest weight off me: the knowledge she'll never care about me the way I did, and honestly still do, for her. I've never been on a date or really tries to pursue any other girls because even if I did meet a girl that would be "up to my standards" I'd be nervous to mess it up because it's so fun being an introvert with social anxiety and have never been on a date before so I wouldn't know what do to, this continuing this endless cycle of failure and self loathing. I don't know if I'm gonna make it bros.

Na she wasn't doing that. She had plenty of time to fuck other dudes when I wasn't there. She was with her friends all night. There's also a few other reasons I cbf going into but I've basically crossed this one off the list. It was a worry for a while though.

right there with ya

Amazingly. Girlfriend and I dropped the L bomb this weekend and I've been in a state of bliss.

We're all gonna make it, bros.

Yeah lets fucking hope dog

Life sucks. Was thinking about how nice it would be to slit my wrists today. Failed mandatory courses in college while all of my friends graduated, 1 year ago. Still havent completed it out of sheer apathy and the fear of failing the courses again. Virgin at 25. No friends. Live at home, no driving license, no employement. Basically a NEET.

lmaoo
t. fat chad

Not well.
The better I get in the gym and on the scale, the worse I feel about myself. Kinda want to see if it's valley before the peak, but I also want to throw everything away.
I already burned every bridge with my family (for my sake mentally and emotionally), stopped talking to my fat and unwilling to change friends, all my coworkers are becoming extremely distant and spreading rumors about me having it good with managers (even though I never interact with them), and my two decade-long passion in music composition has been reduced to a smoldering ember. I want to drink away the pain, binge eat to morbid obesity again, and chain smoke cigars like I did before I got shit together.
I have no reason to feel this way which is the worst part. /blogpost

>Perhaps I can make some new friends like this at a new office?
>Fuck, I hope other people workout at this company

>She had plenty of time to fuck other dudes when I wasn't there
>implying she cares

I see where you're coming from, and it's very easy to be cynical about it, but I just don't think that's the case.

Then again I could be blinded by my dick and she's been slamming kids left and right.

>my family tells me I'm so emotionally flat they're worried about me.
iktf brother

>my professor probably violated some rules about grades for my class
>not sure if anyone else noticed
>going to talk to the university academic people tomorrow
>i just want to pass this class

>tfw thoughts about my childhood keep triggering depression episodes while at the gym or any other time when I'm alone with my own thoughts

I'm trying to get over it. Really what it boils down to is my parents doing a shit job of raising me because they didn't understand I was autistic. Dad in particular was expecting a jock like him. He instead got a fat loser who only wanted to play video games.

I'm a very different person now and I'm trying to develop a better relationship with my parents, but it's difficult.

About to head to work with tons of qts, it's painful because I'm a social autist.

Feeling you bro. Only 23 but I can feel myself zooming to the point you're at.

you too user.

Fit is my happy place. It often makes me feel sad but still better in the end.

Just take a chance even if you think you see it man. If you got a good relationship with a couple good friends, make sure you keep it.

I haven't seen any of my close friends in 5 years, friends I had a strong bond with. But thats more to with me and my own insecurities pushing them and family away.

>feel like a creep for pursuing a potentially straight guy
>at the same time will always have the "what if" thought in my head for not even trying

still have this hamstring injury that was mpretty minor in the beginning but I reinjured it a few weeks ago and I still can't play soccer. I also think that I reinjured it more today when doing light squats. All this is probably down to my insomnia over ww3 that's been going on for a while.

>insomnia over ww3
wait what?

I'm 24 and I have no idea on what to do with my life. I went to college for 6 years. I took a bunch of random classes and failed/dropped most of them. I think I'll end up dropping out at the end of this semester. I work in a restaurant as of now and its fucking brutal. We lost a lot of servers, so that means I have to work more. I tips I make are pretty good, but its not enough to where I can make a very good living.

I've been looking for a new job and I have found some. I'm thinking of getting an entry lvl hr/recruiting job. It might be nice, right? Idk guys, I'm just lost. A lot of my old high school buddies are pretty much in the same position, but they don't seem to care.

Also the fact that I've never had a gf is really getting to me now. The loneliness is kill me.

Just told my mom I probably have major depression, something she has suffered with a lot of her life. Gave me some books, one was "ask and you shall receive", its a bunch of mumbo jumbo desu.

I slipped during spring break, new stretch marks and probably gained 5-10 pounds, goodbye last two weeks.

You are literally me, just switch restaurant for Target.
I was thinking of just joining the Peace Corps or doing some volunteer farming..beats this shit I'm doing now.

do it or you're gay

>was given the run around and basically turned down
>was gonna go out for a walk to clear my head
>it fucking snowed and I didn't realize it

I just wanna die

worst kor3a has nukes and is fiends with the chinks

Think I'm finally moving on. Just scared I won't find a girl like my ex ever again.

>pale
>short hair
>firm C cups
>firm butt

finally nailed this black girl with H cups. she turned out to have really small nipples, somehow

got that weird post-sex blues. isn't sex supposed to be fun

you guys should join the French Foreign Legion.

Why the fuck not?