So my friend took his own life Veeky Forums and I'm not sure what to do to lift these feels away...

depression, which i didnt see coming - he was a smart guy too, but I guess it was all too much for him

How did he do it? Any pics of it?

its too big for me but i'm still going to wear it for my deadlift session tomorrow

I feel you user.

There is nothing 'right' to say. There is no truth that will magically heal the wounds , only time will.

Something similar happened to me: one thing that can keep you going is knowing that behind the pain lie all the good times you had together.

If you are in great grief, that grief must come from the love you felt before.
It's goddamn hard, buy stick to that love, don't let the pain overwhelm you.

it's not your fault.
stay strong.

You should have seen the signs. You must be a bad friend

Don't have much to add to the advice in this thread.
Still wanna post, so you know we're here for you user.

thats rough man, i guess gotta give it time to heal like what said

Fuck off edgelord, nobody likes you.

Sorry to hear that user. Just remember that you've always got us.

PR your deadlift tomorrow. Do it for him and do it for yourself. God bless user.

fuck you.
don't put that kind of blame on OP

fill out the shirt, for him

Did he neck press 3pl8?

Neck yourself you fat douchebag edge lord

This. Instead of updating your social media profiles and feeding vanity, one call asking "How you doing man" could have made a difference. Facebook and instagram too important and the usual "me me me" -mentality. Your friend is rolling in his grave

Kill your fucking self. He said he didn't see it coming at all .. don't you think he would've done something if he saw some signs that he was suicidal? Don't you?

I can't help but feel that OP could have prevented this.

>held it together till it was just me and her and I broke down.
She's gonna leave you now because you showed weakness.

Everyone sees the signs of depression and suicidal intent. They just ignore it because they don't actually care what happens to anyone but themselves. Helping self destructive people is a hard job, often thankless job that never ends, so most people avoid thinking about it.

Your friend was weak, his death was for the better.

I had a friend who killed himself, this was when I was a kid, I was 14 and he was 16.
It was rough in the beginning but it gets better with time. I still think of him every day.
I'm sorry about your friend, user.

Jesus fucking Christ OP, your friend needed you and you weren't there, surely you noticed his depression? Did you even spend time with him?

thats not true, not the guy youre talking to but guys like ops friend dont cut them selves and say/post shit about how depressed they are, they just put on a happy facade and kill them selves. i assume ur just trying to be edgy though

You should have died instead of him OP, where were you when he needed you? Some fucking friend you are.

you can tell these are the same person

Unique IPs didn't increase lol

Depression isn't about just being a whiny turd or putting on plays for attention. It is a very obvious series of progressively more difficult and obvious habits that everyone should be familiar with enough to notice if their best fucking friend is suffering. I'm not sure you understand how incredibly hard it is to maintain a mask like that on a daily basis.

Look for declines in personal and general hygiene, sudden shifts in organizational habits, eating habits, physical habits, etc. Those are often the most visible signs. However, if you really know a person well, listen to how they speak and especially how they laugh. If they are genuinely miserable, they will not be able to laugh naturally and you can pick up on that.

Give yourself time to grieve. It is no easy thing to lose someone close to you.

Let it play its course, but do not lose sight of the fact that life goes on.

>dude even left me one of his training shirts
I would wear that as a gym shirt for the rest of my life, to honor his memory.

have this shitty webm to cheer you up

NOT FIT RELATED

some people dont show much emotion you can still keep good hygiene and socialise when depress without people picking up on it, as for eating habits and organizational habits, i personally dont keep track of my friends eating or organizing, im just saying a lot of people can just fly under the radar and commit suicide before people even know they have depression

If you don't know anything about them, they aren't your friends. You're just not paying attention. Severe depression WILL show. If it's not strong enough to show, they are just looking for attention. Plenty of idiots accidentally kill themselves just because they're bored.

Grief is the price for love, user. Sounds like you owe quite a bit. Time to pay up. Consider yourself luck to have been in its debt.

Did he leave 13 audio cassettes to his friends detailing all the edgy reasons they were vaguely responsible for his own delusional inadequacies?

In most (not all, but most) cases, the loud and out there "Im suicidal! im gonna kill myself!" people have no intention of killing themselves. They want attention. The closest they get in most cases is taking a few pills and few sips of vodka after texting all their friends and updating facebook to let people know they're totally doing it this time.
The actual suicidal people are quiet and don't talk about their feelings and then end it in a much more final and violent way.

you should deadlift him

Been through the same thing, user. Don't listen to the edgy fags in this thread, some people intentionally hide their depression, and they can do it very well. Your friendship probably helped him fight it as long as he did. The pain gets less intense with time, but there will always be that void in your life.

This user gets it. The good memories are always there

Keep going, man. I'll be thinking of you

Bruh....

Write him a letter and, if possible, throw it in his casket. It's surprisingly therapeutic to write of your feelings, especially when writing to someone. I know it sounds gay but it helped me user.

Also this, fill that nigga up whatever it takes

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True I've been batteling with depression and suicidal thoughts for a long time. Yet I always smile and joke around when I am with other people. No fucking one even has a clue about it.

Though I know I could never take my own life, I want to live more than die.

And it's almost impossible to talk about your feelings because I see every fucking day how two faced people are. It sickens me.

Probably could only talk with someone who is/has gone through same shit I have. But because of reasons it is almost impossible to know who are like that.

not the best thing to tell someone in this kind of thread

( is an asshole though)

ahahahah I love Veeky Forums

Coming from someone who tries really hard to fake everyday that I'm fine.

I went to college yesterday and went through my normal routine while the entire day I was thinking about going out into the woods and eating a handful of pills so that I would die and the whole time I was thinking to myself how funny it was that I was taking all these steps to make sure everyone around me had no reason to think I was going to do it.

It's gotten to the point where I'm less worried about how everyone is going to feel after I'm gone and more about how I don't want to suffer day to day anymore and it's starting to seriously worry me that I'm going to kill myself and not know what kind of future I might have if I just fight it.

Most people who kill themselves tend to seem happy until they leave a note explaining how they really felt everyday. They don't want to burden others with those emotions.

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I'm not suicidal-tier but I've been pretty depressed the last year or so. It's more of an emotional rollercoaster for me though which is weird cause I was never like this. Still nobody would know what I'm feeling

Yet here you are, burdening us with your emotions.

Your random niggers on the Internet I don't care how you feel about me.

Well I hope you go back to the woods cus no one wanna clean up after someone from /pol/ anyways

It's time to talk to someone, user. See a professional

Hope you make it, your friend will always be there to spot you

This. Don't cry in front of your gf

Good luck raising your wife's son.

definitely don't listen to the song "It's not your time" by Streetlight Manifesto. wew that shit will fuck you up.

>do it. totally do it.

Lift for him brother. Let yourself grieve but get back on track and go back to lifting like a fucking animal

>down in dumps
>come to Veeky Forums

user that seems the last thing to do.

psychiatrist, and time

i was listening to sad music when i randomly found this thread, so it added to the sadness

i hope you feel better, OP :(

It will get worse unless you change something in your lfie.

I remember I once was like damn people who think about suicide they must be really fucked up stupid cunts, but then one day it happened to me.

I don't get it. What happened?

All good op my old partner just committed suicide this week. (medic)

I know how you feel guy was on his way to be a physician. Taught me alot.