im on the verge of fucking up college for the second time. I cannot make myself study and the absolute worst part is that how my life unfolds depends entirely on how i do in college this year.
>if i fuck up ill have to work some shitty low paying back busting job and i did that already and its a one way ticket for suicide
>if i fuck up i will ruin relationships with my family AGAIN and maybe kick me out because i've been lying to them AGAIN
>my girlfriend who goes to college with me and is 2 years younger wants us to through it together will do god knows what if i drop out and this scares me because i love her so fucking much
these are just the big issues. Im aware of all that shit. I told myself i will start studying 6 fucking weeks ago, i havent touched the god damn book. 2 days ago i had to take my first exam i didnt even go. In 4 days i have to take my second one and in 5 the third and then i have 3 more after that. On top of all this since all this is last minute if i dont study well enough and i fail there are no do overs. I had SO MUCH GOD DAMN FUCKING TIME to take all these tests and i was messing around playing fucking league and browsing this shithole.
WHY AM I SO FUCKING STUPID Veeky Forums WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO TO EFFICIENTLY STUDY AND PASS THIS SHIT I CANNOT LOSE EVERYTHING I WAS WORKING TO FIX THE PAST YEAR, BECAUSE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME I AM HAPPY
please guys, help me out, i have nowhere else to go with this...