How you feeling Veeky Forums?

how you feeling Veeky Forums?
>not good here, and it's mainly my fault
>failling college
>want to take a year off and get shit together
>parents threaten to kick me out if i take a year off
> dragging myself through a horrible experience
> might just drop out and join navy
> i want to die

Why would your parents kick you out?

>tfw she broke up two weeks ago

because they're brown
>i'm sorry user, in the tfw no gf life right now too

same here brother. were gonna make it. your lifts increasing since then? Ive been having trouble eating since we broke up so i feel like im losing all my gains

I think I have high social inhibition. I literally can't beemyself in front of people. Also have some self destructive habits that I need to work on. I don't think I love myself. I jerk off to tranny porn every now and then, but it's not that I'm ashamed of. It's that afterwards I fap again, but because I just came I have to fap really fast and tense my muscles and stop breathing otherwise I can't feel it. It would be fine if I was beating it to regular girls, but its dudes with fake tits and a dick in their ass. Also about to graduate highschool and not sure exactly what my goal is in life. At least I can bench 185 for reps on incline when I'm not suffering from insomnia.

Gym and studying is good.
Going to plan a new routine.
Hope you're holding up well.

Wouldn't kick my children out, if they're in need of help.

i think it's like throw them to the wind and see if they fly mentality.
worked for my sisters who are both doctors no, me not so much. i just feel like hell all the time, and only when i'm on that workout high am i kinda happy

Do what the fuck you want user. Dragged myself through 3 years of hell because my parents did the same thing to me as your parents are doing to you.
Ended up with me trying to kill myself 2 times, still failing college, being miserable screaming for help and eventually got into an argument and get thrown out anyway.
One year later and I'm happy as fuck I wish I just moved out myself at 18 and saved myself alot of hurt.
It might seem hard and impossible to take this step but oh user it gets so much worse if you dont follow your own path.

Do you have strict parents?

It's not bad you dont know yet and you shouldn't worry about it. I'm 25 and only figured out what I wabt/like to do a half year ago.

Also even if the fapping was to regular girls at your age this isn't normal. Time to quit porn it really messes up your mind.

No, I think I'm just ashamed of what I am now. Maybe it'll go away when I get a job and have my own income.

Not good senpai. My whole life might be fugged.

>Person lied about their age
>Now on the state's private family services dept. database for "abuse," all because of consensual sex

It's not like the public registry, but still restricts me or makes it really hard from healthcare job, teaching, adoption, etc.

I have like two weeks to decide if I want to try to appeal it. Lawyers I talked to see split I'd it would work or if it's worth it. If it doesn't work I lose a lot of legal money for nothing. If it really backfires could be put on public list. If that happens I'll probably kill myself.

Don't know what to do and it's really eating at me.

thanks user, might have to find a job and shit during winter and an apartment
>only have $200 to my name

fight it
say that she was lying and both parties did agree or some shit
are the parents fighting it or the girl
>also are you the jailbait user in /fraud/

I'm not that user, don't know about /fraud/ honestly. I really did think they were 18, dating site said so and they talked about going to college.

>fight it
>say that she was lying

It's not that simple. These sort of things have "mandatory liability" or some legal shit. Doesn't matter if I didn't know or not, all that matters is that someone overage had sex with someone underage.

It's really frustrating. The laws seem so messed up but what can I do? If shit gets really real I'll just kill myself. I'm not going through life with some Scarlet letter that I don't deserve.

Why are so many young people forcing themselves to go to college. Just pick up a trade goddamn.

About the trouble to eat.
I have the same problem, having zero appetite. But you have to force yourself.

i would say enlist, and obsess about a dream. Be good to those you're stuck with and define yourself as a person while you're enlisted. When you get out you'll have a nest egg, and you might be done schooling.

Cause we’re forced
I was really smart in high school but the work keeps piling on and waking up a 5:00am to take an hour train ride to not be paid money but instead pay to fail some dumb shit that doesn’t even have to do with my intended major. I thought I would just learn what I need to know I don’t give a shit about history

Still. I would assume more people would snap out drop out and pick up a more traditional job but they all seem to double down on failure

>Cause we’re forced
If you're 18+ you can't be forced.

Idk anymore man
Maybe it’s the popular concept of degree=success

Does the navy house you?

Hah
I live off their income and they have made it abundantly clear that if I stop learning I’m dead to them

Good plan, try to atleast get enough money for a deposit, one month rent and groceries for 2 weeks. Or you might end up homeless.

My parents kicked me out and I had 7 grand on a joint bankaccoint with them, I was stupid enough to keep their names on it. They withdrew it and "will give it to me when THEY feel like I could use it.". Ifit wasn't for my good friends I wold've ended up homeless.

What are you ashamed about user? Shame is the most useless, toxic emotion you can have. If you're ashamed of something you'll think there's something incoherently wrong with you that you can't change. Convert your feelings of shame to feelings of guilt. Unlike shame guilt gives you some agency. Yes you did something wrong but you can make it right again or do it better the next time. You can learn from feeling guilty, feeling shame is only beating yourself up more.

Poor guy.

I walk around proudly with mah bomb af 17yo gf. I'm 24. I can't have nudes of her but I am allowed to fuck her, the fuck. Also have the best fucking deal ever. She's in a boarding school 400m from my appt and is only allowed out from 4-5 and I come home at 4 aswell. And on the weekends she has to go home on friday and is allowed to sleep over from sat to sun when she has to gi back to the boarding school.
Literally just comes over to fuck everyday and then has to go. They also have gsm rules and is only allowed to text/caml from 20.00-21.30 so no constant nagging.

I beat my dick to tranny and gay porn every now and then. But the good things is that all of the asses look big and feminine, so it's not that gay.

So what you feel ashamed of exploring different aspect of your sexuality? Sex and fetishes are normal as fuck there's literally nothing to be ashamed about bro.
But if it's really bothering you should stop with porn, porn really skews a healthy young man like yourself.

>>want to take a year off and get shit together
Fuck that sounds like something I'd say after everything starts becoming an annoyance. Not something you are in a similar situation OP but I just wanted to vent.

>start college again
>suddenly it becomes tiresome and I just say I want to quit it so I can get my shit together
>get a gf
>suddenly it becomes tiresome and I just tell myself I want to dump her so I can get my shit together
>get a job
>suddenly it becomes tiresome and I just tell myself I want to quit so I can get my shit together

And then I do all of those things and end up not getting my shit together. I feel like the cycle will repeat itself again and like I have no direction at all.

I can relate to this.

How the fuck do you stay interested in shit?

I need a male role model, i:'ve only had my mom for the last 10 years. You'd think living in the hood and going to hood school's would toughen you up. But that's only if you're a normal person, I just chose to stay inside and browse the internet. I know for a fact that I'm going to be alone once highschool is over. I'mma probably kms when my mom dies, cuz then I'll truly be alone. I wasn't prepared for my life to turn out like this. Anime ruined me.

Learned helplessness. It is easily fixed if you're prepared to work on it and have patience.

I'm a pretty stable guy and actually counsil as a job, if you want we can solve this together for you. I dont want anything in return either.

[email protected] is my anonymous email.
I'm going to sleep, hit me up and we can start working on a better future. It could happen I sometimes reply later when I'm busy, working, lifting, sleeping or fucking.

Keep your head held up high bro.

I feel angry as shit, angry at the cucks and normies who are happy, and angry at myself for being dumb and autistic

kill them all, but put the blame on something dumb

>Shame is the most useless, toxic emotion you can have
t. shart in mart

Yea!

>tfw trying to make a webdev portfolio so I can get a job and drop out of college
>made one app and then lost all motivation
at least my gains improved kinda not really

I was looking for a thread to post my story.
>be me freshman
>Chubby, weird, didn't really have a lot of friends
>Gym class
>this weird kid is always yelling things and saying the n word but everyone seems to really like him
>Sat with my other chubby friends in gym because none of us did shit
>Always see weird kid and his friends and kinda wish he'd be my friend
>One of his friends comes up to me one day and says he thinks im cute
>automatically assumed it was a mean joke because I was gross
>but actually it wasn't
>this weird fucking kid that sneezed really loud and constantly did stupid reckless shit to make people laugh
>And we were perfect for eachother, years of hapiness
>eventually I found a way to screw it up
>now he has a girlfriend who's not me
>He's not going to break up with her and be with me
>We can't just go back to the gym in freshman year and pretend it never happened.
Hapiness is no longer in my future

Sounds like a sweet deal. How'd you two meet? I'm still in kissless virgin mode

>
>I beat my dick to tranny and gay porn
>so it's not that gay.
Wut

Maybe if you weren’t a fat cunt you could have been Stacy
In all seriousness though there’s probably someone in college for you

Just work on yourself. As a girl you usually don't have to worry about approaching guys because that is there job. The most attractive about a girl is being in good shape. If your face isn't fucked you are automatically a 6 if you are in good shape

>failing college
This has always wondered me. If you realize that you are failing, why not just pick your fucking shit up and do at least something and then beg your teacher and NOT get a failing grade?

Because teachers don’t care about begging
They are Satan embodied in dyels

Supposed to be sleeping and recovering.
Instead, thinking of ex gf from 3 years ago.
>fuck I miss her

pretty fucking miserable. tl;dr version after the first green wall:

>car problems (thought it just needed fuel injector cleaner, but a couple of days later it ended up driving terrible again and the engine basically stopped and i had to turn it off and back on FOUR TIMES on the way home, so it just doesnt seem safe to drive right now)
>need another job but now i'm limited to shit within walking distance (not a whole lot around btw)
>need said job so i can actually have money to do my from home job so yeah money problems
>want to enroll in school regularly but now i probably need a new fucking car so that first 4 figures is going to that
>car problems means i'm stuck with my home gym shit which is VERY limited (right as i'm making excellent fucking progress)
>major depression forever any fucking way, now i find myself thinking about and worrying about death pretty fucking often
>been feeling shitty bouts of anxiety as of late, so that's new
>"it's complicated" style issues between me and the woman i'm madly in love with (mutual feelings but, well, it's complicated)
>difficulty sleeping again
>don't spend nearly as much time socializing as i should
>technically "young" but i sure as hell don't feel like it (not early 20s, leaving it there)
>generally feel like i'm VERY far behind in life and there's no clear improvements on the horizon in ANY regard

tl;dr version:

>car problems
>money problems
>employment problems
>love problems
>education problems
>gym accessibility problems
>social problems
>major depression spanning YEARS

i just can't believe how quickly things got WAY worse in the span of a few days after everything has already been completely fucking miserable anyway. i was trying so much harder than i ever have.. and things just become SO much worse instead.

i feel INTENSELY hopeless, forlorn, infuriated, isolated and uncertain all at the same time. i am absolutely miserable.

Lonely

Am I the only one on Veeky Forums who has chronic pain? I have arthritis. Recent diagnosis. Want to know how people who have been dealing with arthritis for a while are holding up.