'Mirin thread: autism edition

Havent had a single mire in several weeks. I dont know whats changed.

Decided to up the ante last night in tinder and just start telling girls I want to have a threesome.

Got 3 girls to agree to one in less than an hour, and only one of them looked like a trashy thot.
The one on the left is in a city in visiting in December and I'll meet her then, the one in the middle gives me STD vibes so I doubt I'll meet with her, the one on the right is the hottest and coolest of the three. She started hitting up her hot friend and an Insta chick who wanted to bang her a while ago to set something up.

All I had to do was ask.

Hahahhaahhahahaha
>Haven't spoken or seen her for 4 years

God user time to move the fuck on, did literally nothing of any substance happen in your life the past year?

Holy shit this thread is pathetic. I know a few guys that became idle and have personalities and life experience comparable to that of a chair but there can't really be that many guys like this right?

Oh, I never dwelled on it. I had a gf in college and got laid and all that fun stuff. But I became nostalgic a few days ago. Thought about her and realized that there were hints that I didn't pick up on.

>I have a specific type for girls.
Holy shit, I'm triggered.
Got this exact same line from a girl a while back - she showed up with a fat fuck.
She made the fatty go first.

The pussy was good, but it was not worth what I did.

kinda in a similar situation and I am almost sure I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder. The only girls I am interested in are the ones that arent interested in me and as soon as they are I drop them because for me it is just a game to boost my ego which is incredibly inflated at this point.

and the better I look and more successfull I am in my career the worse it gets, I am at the point where I dont even notice what I am saying in the moment. I will shittalk people who earn lower wages than me by say that I would "literally shoot myself in the head if that is all I was capable off" while sitting at the table with people that will more likely than not never earn more than that. I know a lot of these people fucking hate me by now because I keep telling people how disgusting fatties are even when one of their fat friends is nearby. I dont even know what is going on I was always the fat, funny and nice guy in school and people loved me for it. Now it seems by becoming a chad the filter in my head broke and I literally dont give a fuck about anyone else and will just straight up say what I think like I am Donald Trump.

I have similar story... I am proud of you, when it happened to me first.... I looked past the crigne and was really happy for the rest of the day.

Yeah I was worried, but it turns out she just likes fit chicks with firm butts.

The blatant use of “thot” was the first warning sign. Now I just assume at least half the people here are teenagers.

>he has to ask
>doesnt just get drunk and high and get led by the hand upstairs by two girls
beta boi over here

Noice.

I don't get it though, the girl was beautiful and she brings a beef goblin.
Sure I had to dick it, but she went muff diving in the yeast mines of planet oobleck.

Just wondering, why don't you say "how about you ?" ?

and to add to that it is really bizarre because on one hand I think I am the second coming of Christ on the other hand I do crave attention from other people and am deathly afraid of rejection. Which is probably the reason why I would rather put these girls down and make them look like idiots instead of making a move myself. And I cant get help because my immense ego prevents me from seeking help and admitting it. This is the only place I feel comfortable writing about it because you fags dont know me and I dont give a single fuck about a single one of you NEETs. So this might as well be an inner monologue as far as I am concerned with the added benefit of getting the occasional response that might on an off chance help me.

>be retail wage slave
>stocking 35lb buckets of cat litter
> a couple in their twenties come onto isle
>keep stocking buckets
> guys asks his gf or wife something
>no answer
>he asks again
>i turn to see if they are finding everything alright
> as soon as i turn she starts looking down at the floor
> ask if they are finding everything alright
>sure are thank you for asking
> stock the last couple on my cart
> the wife or gf starts talking again
> you two have a good evening
> her face starts turning red
>the guy thanks me
> i walk away feeling amazing

>tfw ugly 6'0 manlet and a virgin
i will never get 'mired desu

Because I have no desire to know the answer. I just want to get out of the conversation as soon as humanly possible.

Your delusional mate. Not going to happen. Tinder thots are just thirsthy for attention. If you knew how to use this as game talk face to face you could have some major twosome succes thou.

>I dont have anxiety
>Avoid if you want to live

Yeah that sure isn't anxiety.. Try befriending a girl first with NO intention to gf/fuck or even kiss her. You'll learn to talk to women and that women aren't that different from men and are easy to talk to once you're comfortable around one.

Enjoy the false confidence while it lasts bro.
Also you're not telling the truth you cunt.

You have some major issues user. Work on it, it's scary but it'll.do you good. I'd highly advice counselling if, and only if, you want to change this. But I'm pretty sure you do, you just keep telling yourself that you dont in the hope that one day you maybe really dont want to change that. This while numbing down your primal urges with ladies of the night. But you know that day will never come and emptiness inside keeps growing.

>be antisocial but Veeky Forums
>get done with my run and am hungry
>order a pizza from local place
>go inside to pick it up
>cute blonde girl in a pixie cut at counter
>had changed into a US soccer jersey before I went inside as it was the only clean shirt I had.
>girl asks me if I play soccer
>reply only when I was younger
>she says the pizza is going to take a few more minutes, so I can go hang out at the bar
>order a beer
>couple minutes later she comes over touches my forearm and asks if I need anything else
>smile back and say I'm good.
>finish my beer
>she brings the pizza over not to much longer
>asks me my name before I leave

didnt think anything of it until about a week later.

Thank god xoxo

>Try befriending a girl first with NO intention to gf/fuck or even kiss her. You'll learn to talk to women and that women aren't that different from men and are easy to talk to once you're comfortable around one.

not that user but that hasnt worked for me as much really. I just tend to not give a fuck around girls I dont consider that hot and will still sperg out towards hot girls. on the plus side 6-7/10 girls and below like me. the rest is an unsolvable puzzle for me. I think the only way is getting my goal body and looking down on 8/10s eventually so I dont give as much of a fuck about them anymore.

I do use this game to land twosomes all the time, and had a threesome with two girls on my hall in college. This shit isn't that hard, I got turned down by a lot of girls, but it's a numbers game.

>claims to be antisocial
>socialise with other about his social encounter he had which he clearly gives a fuck about

at least remember to tip your fedora

>Work at library
>get Veeky Forums
>Get mired by 70yr old women

I could be worst.

I was in the same boat as you user. Used to be obese, became Chad and even when I was fat I had NPD. When I became Chad I started using NPD not only to protect my paperthin inflated ego but also to manipulate people to satisfy my cravings for validation, respect and attention.

Do you love yourself user?

I know I didnt't but once I learned to love myself I truly enjoyed life. Started to use my "manipulation" skills and people knowledge to motivate people and lift them up instead of putting them down to feel superior. Then the validation, respect and attention came from others in tenfold. People like me for who I am and how I make them feel. I literally satisfy my narcism by helping others. Once you're that deep yoir narcism will never go away but you can find a way to use it positively.

You should get counseling but be sure to NOT fucking manipulate the therapist. NPD's are so good at appearing better that they can even fool the best of therapists.
What helped for me was to get into a serious relationship with a BPD, she broke through my wall and fear of initmacy and then just tore me apart. I realised just how pathetic my self image and selfworth was. It did hurt, I didn't know who I was anymore after that relationship. But it was really good for me, I got the chance to rebuild my ego and self worth again into something positive.

You're still to focused on the sex part. You dont give a fuck because you dont want to fuck them. With befriend I really mean getting to really know them and enjoy their company like you would with your homeboi. Having a close non sexual female friend is a real bonus in life for advice, learn about women, get introduced to other females and have some preselection action going on. The reason why you can't "solve" hotties is because you are intimidated by them, otherwise you wouldn't feel the need to look down on them. And let's say you get shredded 10/10 body and DO look down on them. Theb what? You'll start acting and behaving around them like you are now with 1-6's. There's a deeper underlying issue here that lifting wont solve.

My man. Going to use this tommorownight at the bar btw.

>Do you love yourself user?
Honest answer here ? No not at all I derive my entire self worth from my achievements and how other people view me.

>Started to use my "manipulation" skills and people knowledge to motivate people
I know this sounds strange but this only really works for my closest family for me, I can motivate my brother and my little niece and improve their lifes through it.

>You should get counseling but be sure to NOT fucking manipulate the therapist.
I never talked to a professional therapist because honestly it scares me to death to open up and see what's inside. I have talked to people that seem to know me really well and one of them even finished studying psychology but noone suspects in the slightest that I have deep rooted issues.

>Has to get high and drunk to get laid

You're the beta boi dog

>NOT fucking manipulate the therapist.
This might sound dumb but I dont think I can do this, whenever I talk about myself I lie to people. I never let them see myself I only show them the "facade" I built up and show them what I think in my mind they want to see. And people actually seem to like that because I am like a fucking mirror I only show them what they want to see of me. It's not in a way that is totally obvious because I will still disagree with them on some points but I will always do it in a way that I know they will see as rational. My mom and people that know me always told me I was a master at manipulation even as a kid I would play my brother out against my sister so I get what I want. I am not an evil person but if I have to manipulate people to get my will I have absolutely no problem achieving that and sometimes I will feel bad about it but usually I just see them as dumb for falling for obvious manipulation

>What helped for me was to get into a serious relationship with a BPD, she broke through my wall and fear of initmacy and then just tore me apart. I realised just how pathetic my self image and selfworth was. It did hurt, I didn't know who I was anymore after that relationship. But it was really good for me, I got the chance to rebuild my ego and self worth again into something positive.
I'm gonna be honest here user reading this already scares me to a point that is irrational.

>pretty good looking but skinny
>get swole after years of consistent, boring at times lifting
>go to music festival
>find pretty cool girl there, stunning looks, we hook up and continue talking afterwards
>go out on a few dates, gf her up
>lying in her bed after fucking her both naked
>'your arms are amazing, i don't normally like muscles but I do now'
>she kisses my biceps up and down
Worth it lads. At that moment I was fulfilled for a short time

And then what?

>Yeah that sure isn't anxiety.. Try befriending a girl first with NO intention to gf/fuck or even kiss her. You'll learn to talk to women and that women aren't that different from men and are easy to talk to once you're comfortable around one

I'm comfortable around women when it's a professional situation or there are other people around AKA there's no way it could or should become sexual/romantic. I suggest you take your shitty boilerplate incel advice back to R€ddit.

Then we cuddled and talked about life.
She will break my heart eventually, it's how girls work. But I am prepared and now I'm just enjoying it as it comes

Whats more obnoxious is that he politicized his story when it wasn't relevant and it's difficult to believe that an 18 year old has enough of an understanding of politics to really give a shit either way. It's like he just threw that in there to try and sound cool.

I'm so fucking glad I went through my "I browse Veeky Forums and know everything" phase before the /po/ invasion. I probably would have been just as insufferable if not more.

Knowing and realising you have NPD is.a giant step and succes to recovery. Most of us are so selfabsorbed we even manipulate ourselves into beleiving we are superior, while we're just shallow, insecure, scared and scarred fucks.

This works for your niece and brother for a very dark reason. NPD's see their family as a direct extension of themselves and if they do good they make the NPD look better to the outside world. You literally use them the same way as you are usibg your achievements and money. That's fine if they do well but once they are having difficukties and are underperforming or even bringing "shame" to you you will fucking despise them and hate their existence.

Well I can't really tell or give you advice on how to tackle this on because like I said I got torn down randomly by a BPD. But trust me if you succesfully recpver from this you'll become a beacon of might for so many others. An intense relationship with a BPD is actually one of the most common reasons NDP will get help.

Have you read up thorpughly on this subject? Would be a very good place to start and to learn who you are as a person and why you are like this.

Also I put shame in quotation marks because FUCK shame. It's literally theost useless and tpxic emotion anyone can have. And for people with NPD shame is literally the reason for all the good and bad things you do. Try to get rid of that emotion and self worth and love will follow. You and everyone else literally have NOTHING to be ashamed about. I know you think you need to be perfect but you really dont. Aslong as you have people that truly love you in your life you are perfect.

Veeky Forums is still good but it was far better before the /pol/ invasion. That really is the cancer killing Veeky Forums

Best days were those of zyzz, or after during the time of tiny, quad etc.

I can't think of one decent trip here in the past year.

Christ, are you a fitter version of me?

Then it might be fear of intimacy. Not trying to break you down mate.
Like you describe it the "wall" you have aepund females only comes when there might be an expectancy to develop a more intimate relationship. Getting rejected isn't bad user, you dont have to be perfect.

I meant, at what point were you no longer fulfilled?

start up the gore then

Yeah you are right but I dont even know if I can even towards my friends I dont really open up and show my true self to them. I hate talking about myself and never bring up my problems or get into deep conversations about me and my feelings. I hate showing weakness, I will only show signs of it to friends that I have known for ages and even then only hinting at it not outright talking about it. This leads to the fact that I dont really feel I have any friends apart from my few best friends back from school that I know forever. I have many people that would consider me their friend but I dont consider them mine because I dont feel like they know me because I never open up to them.

I am sorry user I dont even know why I am writing this but what I want to get at I have deeper rooted issues than what lies on the surface. Atleast I can talk to 6s without and problem and come off like a nice and funny person so I can atleast have some casual fun although it will never amount to a longer relationship because I am too arrogant and think I am above them, also I am pretty sure in my current mental state I am incapable of a relationship anyway.

Here’s one for you
>Dad is slightly shorter Manlet than me he’s 5’6 and I’m 5’9
>wherever we go woman always want to talk to him
If I go into a shop the cashier will basically throw me away when we’re done but if he goes in she’ll want to talk to him
>made me super jealous and somewhat afraid to talk to women
>never hated him or anything just jealous.
We even look the same so why do the girls want his attention and not mine?

I don't fear getting rejected, I've experienced that plenty. I also don't fear intimacy, I've had enough sex in the past. As I said, I fear false accusations.

Zyzz was so much of an over-the-top annoying fuck that he got rangebanned, it's only after his death that his veneration began. Of course he inspired some people before that, but it took off after he died like nothing else.
He's actually a lot like Jesus in that way.

Ps. I have a feeling that your advice is rooted on you believing that I'm some kid who's just taking his first steps. I'm not. I'm 27.

Yes yes :). I know the masks all too well.
To be honest I can't give you anymore advice as it's been 3 years since I was into it as deep as you and just reading it I almost forgot how bad it was. I'm also not qualified to tackle on something like this but this needs fixing bro.

About the relationship thing. It hurt man, it really really really hurt. Accepting I'm not perfect and loving myself was so hard it literally made me physically ill. It was a 3 year on/pff relationship and her being a 9/10 and appear perfect to the world really didn't help me defend against her. BPD's are even better at manipulation than NPD's abd whatever you try as an NPD, the BPD is ALWAYS in control. They really shake you to yoir core and that's the one part we so desperatly want to hide. But obce it's fully out you'll see it ain't so bad. It feels fucking good actually.

Don't do it m8. Don't fuck anything that is within reach you'll regret it. These whores have probably fucked so many other guys.

>Knowing and realising you have NPD is.a giant step and succes to recovery.
I just recently realised this and this sounds like a meme because it was when I randomly rewatched a scene from American Psycho and I realised that the guy that is comically portrayed there is actually me or this side of him - the NPD - is almost exactly how I act and think. I dont know what clicked in my brain but it was like something finally made sense to me so I started looking it up a bit more and it was scary to find. I still try to convince myself it is a good trait to have in our capitalist world but I know it has its downsides too.

And the part about my family also seems to fit if I am honest to myself, I have a cousin who was a fucking mess for a while in his late teenage years and I actually hated him for that period of time to a point where I convinced my parents I was sick on christmas so I didnt have to go to visit that side of the family and see him. I feel so bad typing this because it makes me look like a miserable human being. I never had a rational reason to hate him and as soon as he turned his life around I was ok with him again. This all sounds so petty when you type it out like this...

BPD is borderline disorder right ? I almost got into a relationshiu with a bipolar girl once but I get out of that like I was stung by a hornett because I couldnt really deal with it.

Thanks for the advice user, I am still trying to figure all this out and you are a great help.

Sex isn't intimacy.

I'm just wondering why you even wrote your first reply if there is nothing wrong with you. I'm just curious as why you treat women as handgrenades and snakes?

>tfw a girl randomly hugs you and you don't know how to react because it's the first time you've been touched in a year and a half

It wasn't meant like that. But you and I both know people can stay emotionally immature and underdevelloped untill they retire if they really are afraid of something.

;)

>be me
>computer programmer for a location-based social startup
>start training my grips at the desk
>notice gains and can type +10 WPM now
>now I do kettlebells in the office during zany hour
>accidentally break a window one day
>my CEO/roommate wants me to pay out of pocket
>I tell him I'll pay for it in vacation time
>mfw one of the "perks" is infinite vacation time
>the receptionist/his sister gives me a hard stare and glances to the door
>I ask aloud if she has to go to the bathroom
>fuckkkkk

>manipulate ourselves into beleiving we are superior, while we're just shallow, insecure, scared and scarred fucks.
This is the only part I cant really agree with because I still have a deep belief that I am superior to most other people and I am special. I dont consider myself a psycho just because I most likely have NPD. I might be insecure, shallow, scared and scarred to some degree but I also know for a fact that I am objectively better than most people around me. The only part I am really inferior is when it comes to meaningfull relationships with other people but when it comes to success in life as far as carreer/looks/intelligence and other factors go I know I am superior to a vast majority of people I hang around with.

I am sure you will try to tell me this is just my NPD speaking but I can objectively say this is simply a rational evaluation and I know I am even capable of way more than I have achieved up until now.

>I'm just curious as why you treat women as handgrenades and snakes?

How many times do I have to say it? Fear of false accusations. You do know what "false accusation" means, right? But in case you don't:

>false=not according with truth or fact; incorrect/made to imitate something in order to deceive
>accusation=a charge or claim that someone has done something illegal or wrong/the action or process of accusing someone

I'm going to bed now, it's 2AM here

study humility and stoicism more. whenever I find myself thinking like this, I remind myself that I've only just achieved enough total beauty as a basic plain/ugly woman, and the best way to improve is to become ever more refined, not like a thot

> smoke crack
> fuck dog
> eat crackers

I could be worst.

So for the past week, I’ve been hanging out in this quiet area in order to work on my novel. There is this QT 3.14 who comes in every day around one, and always sits right in front of me and keeps shooting me glances.

Today I got up to leave, went upstairs just out of sight to get a drink of water, and came back downstairs to leave within five seconds. She was packing up and leaving. She was literally waiting around for me to talk to her.

How was your family situation? You probably always took care to keep others peoples emotions in check and whenever you had a problem they shoved it aside as unimportant. Teaching you to not bother dealing with your emotions because they're not worth it.
Not being able to open up is a severe emotional handicap that you need to work on, which is hard af, and maybe try an outsider like a therapist or me.

Yes BPD is borderline.

Atleast you weren't thick enough to even ignore the symptoms when you're confronted with them and to admit something isn't right and that you're not perfect.

NPD is a bad thing for your own mental health and that of your spouses. Like with your cousin it only needed to deviate a little bit of your perfect image to decide to not go to christmas that year.
Imagine if this happens with your kids and wife user? They are a true extention of you and if they aren't perfect or are in a rough patchs, the feelings of guilt and shame come a 1000fold. You'll vent it out on them despising them, hatibg them. They'll even preform worse and the shame and guilt becomes even worse and you'll hate them even worse. The result is mentally fucked up kids a depressed drained out wife and you hating and pushing everyone close to you away while wallowing in self-pity and despair.

I really need to sleep guys. This is my anonymous email [email protected]
You said you didn't want to open up yet here we are, hope it was of some help and I strongly urge you to keep trying to work on it. I'm avaible if you want, otherwise with a counsellor/friend. I know.it's fucking hard but I swear it's oh so worth it.

Hahahaha wow I thought you were telling me I was falsely accusion you. It's.pretty late here.

Also no need to act superior. Humbleness is the best trait a man can have.

> cute girl keeps saying I’m good looking
> she’s dating someone
> have to just say thanks and never make any advances
Life just gets harder doesn’t it

My fear of being hurt again and again is getting harder and harder to overcome... it hurts Veeky Forums. I need a hug.

...

I always want to openly scold women who behave this way. Women are just indecent.

Well yes and no to your last statement. We value and judge ourselves and other on basis of shallow things because of NDP. But does money and things really make you a better person?

Who'd you think is the better man. The one in a castle eating luxurious food, that works as a CEO with his main concern to collect more statusobjects or the one working 9-5 and spending his time lifting others up and volunteering in soup kitchens?

At least I know that I’m probably a 8/10
And when I get Veeky Forums I’ll be chad tier
> let’s just hope no girls try and use me to cheat

my family situation as kind of like you describe, my dad had very high expectations for me especially when it comes to football and when he drinks he tends to have a short fuse. not like he is violent but I would really have to watch what I say not to make him angry so he would shout at me. He also didnt really care when I would start to cry when he was critisizing me

How do you know she’s making a pass at him and not simply complimenting him to boost his esteem?

I know this is not what you want me to say but my first thought was without a doubt the CEO. Everyone can work a regular 9-5 job and work in a soup kitchen, but not everyone can be a CEO.

But I understand what you are getting at here because I know there is more to life than power, money and status. but I dont know maybe I am getting too much in my own head it is already half past 3AM here and I am not sure I am thinking clearly anymore. good night user and thanks, I am not sure if I will write you but I will save your address atleast.

Interesting...

Because by definition Self-Esteem is how one esteems his or herself, and perceptions of others are completely distinct and separate. Paying someone a repeat compliment has nothing to do with esteem, once the fact is known repeating it progresses it onto flirting.

Flirty women are whores begging for men make a move.

>let’s just hope no girls try and use me to cheat
He jokes as society is collapsing.

>I would rather put these girls down and make them look like idiots instead of making a move myself. And I cant get help because my immense ego prevents me from seeking help and admitting it.
Your ego is actually tiny. That is why you are a douche. You live in fear of failure so you make sure that failure is the only option because at least then it is on your terms.

...

not op but what the fuck you saying
get your brain checked mate

Meh, i think once this site started getting notoriety it was doomed, like all good things in life

Probably the way he carries himself.Or the way he dresses. Or the way he smells.

Or, and I'm not joking, it's because he has a wedding ring on.

So are you going to talk to her you autist?

This.

>used to be manlet
how tall were u user and at what age did u grow to 6'4? i ask because i just turned 19 and im fucking 5'4

>muh /pol/ invasion
Good job outing yourself as a newfag.
/pol/ was always here, and everywhere.

fucking off yourself.

>wedding ring
As in girls want what they can’t have or it makes them feel safe?
My brothers in the same spot, and I might start wearing a ring to keep up

Go back to your fucking quarantine board Jesus fucking Christ.

gibberish

>catching the bus home from uni
>first hot day for a while (ausfag), wearing a singlet
>a tasteful singlet though, with arms cut out and normal crew neck
>its exam revision period so not many people are at uni except for nerds like myself
>when i get on the bus its full of high school kids
>walk to the back section and sit next to an old man
>not much room so my leg is hanging out into the aisle, have to scrunch myself up when someone wants to get off
>bus empties out a bit more but i'm still sitting in the same position, with a highschool girl on the seat across the aisle from me
>tall, brunette, petite, summer dress, definitely underaged
>she has her back to the window with her legs crossed, positioned so she can talk to her friends in front and behind her
>her crossed legs mean that her foot is hanging out into the aisle too
>sorta feel like she's looking at me because of the way she's sitting
>her leg keeps poking out further, until eventually her foot bumps my knee, presumeably unintentionally (or she's making it seem that way)
>want to recoil but don't because i'm not a lil bitch that's scared of girls
>her foot bumps into me a couple more times as the bus rocks up and down going over bumps and around corners
>pretend i'm looking at shit out of the window on her side, then follow it with my eyes until i'm looking through her (at her)
>she's looking at me
>turn back to straight ahead/looking out the window
>do nothing
>she later gets off

I'm pretty sure another girl at the front of the bus was staring at me too until I made eye contact with her and she turned around. What the fuck was I supposed to do? I'm not going to jail.

He's right though, t. been here almost a decade

If they're over 16 they're legal to fuck, just don't film it.

Daddy issues

You're basically a cheap knock off of your dad.

Autism

high schoolers saying they're 18 means they are underage

Was out for a rare night out a couple of days ago and a girl grabbed me and started saying hi and that her friends had said i was the hottest guy in the club. She was caressing my face which was just bizarre and i have a gf so i was awkwardly looking away and saying 'sorry im taken'.

I wouldnt have ever gotten with anyone else but i wish i talked more for an ego boost.

Fuck off. Go back to /mu/.