Veeky Forums advice and feels general

So you'd rather he embrace sodomy?

Shamo, you're in for a wild ride buddeh

My girlfriend is going back abroad in 5 days. I will see her again on christmas/NYE, but damn if I won't miss her.

Is there life on Mars? Can a long-distance relationship work, if you put work into it?

You get to watch new guy friends pop up on her social media. The ones she's there with.

End it, clean and quick. Long distance does not work.

My fit question: HOW the fuck do I get a better deadlift? My deadlift is JUST tier, due to grip strength. Even if I readjust my grip after each rep, my legs seem to just lock up and give out after like 3-5 reps on 250.

My feels:
>Qt invites me to the fair
>go on a run today with her this morning, was nice
>make jokes about winning her a teddy bear at the fair (we've already been on a date so it's no too weird)
>go home, nap and study some
>time comes she told me she was going to go (2-3)
>waiting for her to give me the signal to leave
>eventually she just says she's going to the fair as a family thing at 3:30

A-at least the gym will never bail on me

Yeah but it takes a lot of work user. I know people it's worked for and they've done. I've also had it fail. It honestly depends how you feel

>t. guy who lost his hs sweetheart from long distance troubles.

>my best wasn't good enough
That's it. You simply failed because you are inferior in your struggle. This happens to some, so accept it and live with it instead of whining like a little degenerated numale.

At the moment I do drink much too much alcohol like a bottle of wine 3-4 days a week. Yesterday I shifaced my self with a bottle fo wine and 2/3 of a bottle of medium sherry. This fucks up my cut and I need to stop it.

I'm 6'1" and slightly overweight, and I want to get swole. I started lifting a month and a half ago and I'm noticing that I'm gaining muscle, but not losing fat. Wat do???

>tfw oneitis leaves her boyfriend for you but you don't want her anymore because he was a good guy and what she did was degenerate.

She wouldn't stay with me, eventually she'd do it to me too. She wouldn't be my one and only, it'd only be my turn.

who else here /dyingalone/

Trying not to stalk my ex's social media. The temptation is so bad, but it's gonna make me feel even worse if I check. Next week is one month from when we broke up. Give me strength bros

You're a good guy user

Happened to me and now my eyes have been opened - best mate got his gf after he became her friend, while she was in a relationship. Guy I work with got his girlfriend by being the friend through the arguments. I lost my ex the same way. Fuck that shit.

Don't bro. And forget when you's broke up. I broke up like 6-9 weeks ago and honestly life is so much better. I've even stopped trying to just get girls and now just go out to have fun. I think I'm making it. Though the drinking and takeaways are fucking my diet up so I'm stopping that shit from now on.

I've been doing
Bench
Ohp
Bent over barbell row
Deadlift
And sometimes squatting

Should I add anything else in or am I chill with this? I just want functional strength and some weight loss?

GSLP my friend.

>hyper-liberal bestie
is she unmarried? a feminist? childless? single mother? whats her age relative to your wife?

I think ou enjoyed providing for your family, that was your role and how you defined yourself, your purpose in life was effectively bread winner, her getting a job is her also destroying the image and purpose you have built of yourself.

You need a new way to define who you are and what you do.

Get whatever diplomas or certifications you want, then ditch that shit and find out what you really want, you go and find your passion nd let your wife have her "career"

actually, it sounds like a pretty good thing

i mean, your wife seems to have a midlife crisis of sorts and her going back to school and having a career seems like the best outcome that you could wish for

>fit advice

Ask on advice. The entire board for advice. This is not a relevant topic.

It'd be so much easier if I wasn't socially maladjusted. I feel like I'm having a beginning life crisis or something because I didn't do much in my high school years and I'm going to be 20 soon and my fears of real life are mounting higher and higher. I'm in a constant state of panick if I can't go to work, classes, do lifting or running, take care of my dogs and parents (they're nearing 60,) and work on this side project that I have to commit to if I ever want to have a chance of making it in the field I wanna be in or ever dream of being a slightly valuable human being everyday. It doesn't sound like a lot but I don't even play video games anymore because there's no time. I might research or watch some fitness videos while I do other things. I want friends so bad.

Thanks for the motivation though bro, I appreciate it.

Por qué my friend

She is having a midlife crisis, she can't see herself as a mother anymore, in so far as the kids are growing older, she wants something else to define her too.

Sort of how you no longer can define yourself as breadwinner when she gets a job, you need to find something else to define yourself by.

>6-9 weeks post breakup
>finally stopped caring about chasing women
>now setting my life up to benefit me

now have 16 rules I will follow
>stay true to my word
>always go out showered and well dressed
>never let someone outside my circle know how I really am
>give sound but neutral advice
>eat clean
>study
>never chase a girl
>watch your finances
>read more
>8+hours of sleep a night
>lift heavy 3x a week
>don't be an asshole
>work hard
>no porn
>tidy up
>be productive

Am I finally making it? Also, is GSLP with incline dumbell shoulder press, curls and tricep pushdowns enough to really blow out my shoulders and arms? They're lagging behind quite a bit already

>hurt my back squatting last week, took time off lifting
should i start light and work up this week or take another week off and start heavier?

A wise man doesn't fear the truth user

this user.

For those of you with GFs, where did you meet them? I got a decent body and face and I can curb my 'tism long enough to talk to a grill but I'm out of college and my workplace is 90% male.

>I'm in the tech field and have been single most of my life

Never really dated or had much friends but now I'm 30 sitting on a pile of cash and don't want to be that guy who is traveling the world for sex tourism.

I've always been into religion and want a woman who has her life on track, has a good career, and like me understands the value of children and hopefully understand that the family value structure is one of the most important things....

Any tips? I'm single, rich and looking to mingle but don't want to meet a chick and tell her right away yea I'm only interested in having 3-6 kids and living a good suburbia life...

Don't worry bro. I had never kissed a girl till my ex. First everything. I'm turning 20 in February as well mate. I know the feeling about no time - I'm a 2nd year Mech Eng student. See my other post Just go out and talk to people. I stopped giving a fuck and it's hilarious seeing how other people handle themselves now I don't care what people think. Went out with work ones last night, set a girl up with a guy (they both liked each other) but they sat beside each other awkwardly for 2 hours. I left to go dancing and when I asked anpther work one why tf they hadn't done anything
>"we're not all as confident as you user".

Don't give a fuck, and just talk to girls anywhere any time for the craic. Don't ask them out or for their numbers though. Just talk for the practice and make them want you. Eventually one will ask you out somewhere and that's how you know you're getting somewhere.

>should i start light and work up this week
in my opinion, this is the best way, also, if back hurts, don't just skip leg work, try reverse lunges they have good carryover and don't strain back.

Go to church, get a job at a restaurant and meet waitresses, volunteer, join a gym and talk to people, break your leg on purpose to meet a nurse, make friends with girls you know, then you'll meet their friends and get to know more grills.

I'm running GSLP so would just be going back with it.

read the sticky

Thanks user, is there anything specific I should talk to them about? I usually blank out, there's this one black girl I can kind of talk to at my work, but that's because I gained a foundation w/ her because she started talking to me. What's a good plan of attack, or will it come easier to me as I practice? Thanks, hope your studies are goin well

Narcissistic fuck. If you really love ypur wife you'd encourage her to grow as a person. But narcissists are uncapable of real love so you're fucked.

Don't be a cuck and get your cert.

It's only over if you've lost the respect of your woman. If you want it, do it.

It'll come with practice. I work in retail and used to be a social autist, but when I realised girls weren't scary this whole past year has been a flirt sesh. My ex used to tell me off for 'flirting with other girls in front of her'. Talking to customers about having a fry for breakfast for example, and saying sure why don't you bring me is apparently flirty. Topics to talk about? Relevant shit where they spend more time talking. A few of my most recent examples.

>last night, girl in bar, talking about IDs and ages because friend had taped ID to his forhead(no idea why), involving us swapping IDs, having a laugh and then you can go onto so where do you work or shit like that.

>girl on train putting fake nails on for concert, i chuckled and then she called me over to talk and showed me her ass in some nice shorts saying "i wouldn't normally wear something this slutty".

Keep everything jokey and light hearted, gently taking the piss. Response to 1st girl just general shit poking fun at ID pic etc, 2nd girl about how yes I'm sure you couldn't find anything else etc haha.

It will come with practice, don't over analyse, just walk up, if in a club, and say how's your night going. Talk about shit like that, where your crashing, cheeky kebab after, how the music is, what other clubs you prefer etc.It's easy to keep it relevant with practice. Don't buy them a drink though. Too many girls just want the free drink, don't fall for that trap.

For the girl in work, if it won't make things awkward, ask what she's doing next thursday and suggest going for a coffee or a drink. But first see if you can get a group of people from work out, just to make it less awkward then you can try it on in a non-work setting as well. Just don't get too drunk.

Sorry it's a ramble and a formatting shitshow haha

My ex and I broke up because of problems that stemmed from her unhealthy emotional dependence on me and our relationship. It was a big detriment to her self-esteem and she'd have depressive episodes which would put a strong strain on the relationship. She recently reached out to me asking if we could be friends again and I don't know how to feel. I had mostly managed to move on and now I feel like I've been thrown months into the past in terms of progress. I miss her a lot still, and I want her back.
But I'd never tell her, she needs the time alone to develop herself as an individual and I know if I asked her to she'd agree, albeit reluctantly. What do you think about my situation Veeky Forums? Am I doing the right thing? Mostly just needed a place to write down my thoughts.

2 years older than my wife. She does what she wants in her marriage including cheating a few times I heard. she's always on the cusp of divorce with her husband so I'm sure she preaches independence and has zero control over her kids.

All in all a bad influence. But my wife prefers "real" people to the uptight "fake" variety she was raised around.

Maybe I should sabotage the friendship?

I guess if it brings in more money, but I had that covered already. Plus I'm a jealous guy and she's hot so there will now be a constant wave of nice guys trying to be her pal. Always hated that so much even though she politely turns them down. I think she eats up the fucking attention.

But yeah, if she goes full retard, well, I can leave her ass they day the last kid grows up.

why was it degenerate? according to this logic anyone that ever breaks up a relationship is a degenerate. fucking retard

>did nofap to quit porn
>worked like a charm, so detached from porn I get urges to fap just from thinking of hot girls I met
>mfw literally cannot think of a reason to do NoFap anymore

Anyone feel this way? Used to be I'd feel guilty about it but it turns out it was just from watching porn. Now it just feels as natural as scratching an itch, especially since I decide I'm holding out from sex until I get married now.

If she did anything with that poster before leaving her bf she is degenerate. Can't tell from his details though.

Been 5 weeks at it with mindfulness meditation. Had a 6 hour mindful day kinda thing in the group class I'm doing and shit was comparable to dropping acid.

Heaviest thing was when we meditated in pairs, looking into the eyes of a stranger girl for 3 minutes gave me all kinds of feels.

ok that i agree with, but just leaving her bf, even if he is a "good guy" is not automatically degenerate behaviour

>how wonderful it is in this day and age for her to be a homeschooling stay at home mom
Might as well send the kids to public school, unless you live in a nigger area

breaking up a relationship for a new guy immediately

Duh send your kids to fucking school so they aren't asocial weirdos like you... All white school preferably

Going to have to now. Yeah decent amount of nigs and spics so I need to turn these kids into red pilled aces so they can stay separated in advanced programs.

Maybe I should wish her luck after graduating and quit my job to stay at home with them. Good fucking luck babe, now go make 110k without suiciding from pressure.

Interesting

branch swinging

noporn > nofap, brother

fapping is healthy, conditioning yourself to enjoy other people pleasuring others is not

Homeschooling your kids is going to fuck em up socially

my only worry would be that it might lead me back to watching porn again. i mean i got bored of my imagination once before, hence watching porn in the first place. i'd hope i now have the mental strength to resist but who knows?
if you think you can keep doing it without ever needing porn again, go for it

I was looking at some pretty degenerate shit when I hit my low point, Im at the point now where I'm actually repulsed at the thought that I ever fapped to that shit. Even then, I don't find myself getting turned on by regular porn ever since I embraced the "porn=cuck" line of thought

Ok this is a complicated and long one but I'll try.
>Good friend of mine, lets call him Mclovonin, dated this girl, lets call her Cameltoe, for a month 4 years ago. Bad break up etc
>They didn't see eachother for years and my mate is still in love with her
>Mclovin literally has no job, no hs diploma, ugly and smokes weed all day playing vidya
>His best friend, lets call him Dennis, is also bedties with Cameltoe but he got into a relationship and drops her like thrash
>ffw to 8 months ago. The relationship ends and Dennis and Cameltieoe hangout again.
>The girl "makes up" with Mclovin to not make it awkward when everyone hangs out.
>This is where I meet her and we get along but nothing special.
>It's obvious Cameltoe is in love with Dennis but everytime she confesses he refuses to give her an answer and gets mad at her.
>Mclovin also often confesses to Cameltoe but gets rejected alot of times but he still has very, very severe oneitis. She even tells him he hates him but she tolerates him because she fancies Dennis.
>Ffw 5 weeks ago. For some reason me and Cameltoe get really close. Mclovin hates this because he knows the shit I've done with girls and what a player I can be.
>Holy shit this girl has a heart of gold. She even lost a shitload of weight since I met her (she was a 5/10, now a 7/10 w/o make up and baggy clothes).
>Tells me it's because of the steess Dennis gives her.
>Out of nowhere whe brings along a new girl, let's call her Craycray, absolute stunner.
>She just came out of a relationship and heard about me. I became her target.
>We fuck but aren't dating. Holy shit she turns out to be a psycho, diagnosed borderline.
>Once I saw and realized how psycho she was I back off and didn't want to fuck her znymore but she strikes every saturday with her perfect ass and tits when I'm drunk.
>At this point me and Cameltoe are besties and Cameltoe and Craycray are besties as well

>Actually really like Cameltoe for her personality, who the fuck thought this was possible.
>I ask Dennis why he doesn't want Cameltoe since she's still madly in love with him. She even declines other mames advances etc, didn't fuck anyone or date anyone since Dennis was single.
>Tells me she isn't pretty enough. He's right before the weight loss but you can't notice it because she always wears baggy but stlyish clothes.
>Dennis tell Mclovin he declines her because of him
>Mclovin starts challenging me.and get mad at me because I'm close to Cameltoe.
>Ffw to this friday. I talk to Craycrays ew and someone send her a pic of it on snapchat.
>We were at a party and everyone was there but Craycray
>She freaks the fuck out and hates my guts. Whatever I wanted to get rid of her psycho ass anyways.
>At the end of the night we all decide to ezt something at a gasstation but it's on the road home to everyones house. I'm the only one that lives by myself in the city.
>Ask Cameltoe if I can crash at hers since we are besties and her parents love me.
>She complies and I joke around that we're gonna spoon
>Mclovin is fucking furious and threathens me. Kek I'm Veeky Forums and he's a dyel nightrat. Anyways we talk it out and he's okay with me stzying there if I promise to not do shit.
>I comply
>We get at her house and ofcourse I lay in her bed and we do spoon, I'm kust that sly
>End up talking for 4 hours. She asks me why Dennis doesn't want her. Tell her it's because he thinks she isnt't pretty enough. I saw her get changed and she was lying in underwear in my.arms and goddamn she looks really good since losing the weight.
>She gets mad af and tells me she and Dennis fucked a month (when she was still chubby/average) after Dennis his last relationship.
>Everything made sense now. Dick moce of Dennis to just pump and dump her and theb keep emotionally manipulating her for attention.

>Note, Dennis is NOT handsome, chubby derpy looking motherfucker.
>Obviously we fuck, the atteaction was always there, we were besties and now she finally got over Dennis.
>Nobody knows, literally nobody.
>Haven't had the "les stay friends" talk with Craycray. And she and Cameltoe are still besties.
>Mclovin is still frustrated.
>Cameltoe wants to go further but is scared of Craycrays and Mclovins reaction (Mclovin is Elliot Rodger tier)
>Dennis suspects Cameltoe and I did something and his emotional manipilation intensifies alot.

Wtf do I do now. First time in.my life I found a gir' I actually like and is decentlooking so I will go further with her. I have to confront Mclovin with this but he has no right ti act like this, his love for Cameltoe is sickly, she literally tells him she hates him in his face. Dennis literally had his chance for half a year and now hs acting like Cameltoe fucked it up and is a slut, also he's mad at me but he never told antone they slept together and he's putting fire between me and Mclovin even thou he betrayed him and kept silent. Literally want to punch his face in. Cameltoe stopped replying toto his manipulation for me thou. We're all in the same group if "friends". Also I still have to tell Craycray I want to be friends and she will freak the fuck out. If I tell her I slept with Craycray she will prpbably fucking try to murder me. I know this sounds hs tier drama and it is but I'm the oldest at 26 and Craycray the youngest at 20.

...

these are all red flags, like serious red flags, people become like the people the people they befriend, you should talk to your wife.

I agree. No idea how I would approach that shit short of "I hope xyz isn't rubbing off too much on you because her life choices have made her and her family miserable, and you guys are so close now that I'm concerned the free spirit way she acts is going to run off on you"

Hmm, maybe that's it actually.

sounds like your entire group of friends is absolutely fucked up, maybe just keep having sex with a few of the girls and then just abandon that sinking shitshow

Yeah man I knew Mclovin was a shitshow but never suspected it from Craycray and Dennis. Cameltoe is the only decent human in there but she is supergullible, it's cute af. I want to abandon them but she doesn't because she's too good for this world. If it doesn't work out between us I'm just leaving them all behind, already had all the pretty ones and I got alot more friends outside this group anyway.

To people with a succesful tinder game, what makes yours work? what kind of pictures do you put up and what is your general mindset going in the conversation?

i have a symmetrical looking face but i cant help but feel like a tryhard by having a selfie like pic related, or a picture of me in the gym for that matter. am i overthinking this?

Is 24hr fitness a good gym or should i shop around for a smaller kind of dealio?

So here's my deal:

>doing well at the gym, got the body type I want
>i'm not a lifter, i prefer "functional" strength and other such memes :^)
>however, i'm 24 (male) and not married
>i was brought up to view a family as the most important goal in life
>not having one, my life feels pointless and wasted
>as a result, feeling depressed almost all the time now
>vidya and alcohol barely do anything to distract me, find myself using them less and less

It's not even about sex, I turned down a wide-open opportunity for no-strings-attached sex this weeked. I just want to start a family and have someone to live with me like my parents did. Doing the same routines of fitness, cooking, and work day in and day out is feeling more and more futile each passing month. I don't know what to do about it, not even where to start. I'm not going to meet someone worth starting a family with on tinder or at a bar, and I can't go to church more than once every other week thanks to my work schedule.

I know I don't leave a lot of room for suggestions, but I have no one to vent to about this. I don't want to call my parents just to tell them I hate my life.

Find that ultra traditional girl man. She's gotta be more so than you.

Maybe there's a dating site you could get on and lay it all out, you want a no-bullshit woman who hasn't been brainwashed by this progressive culture. I guarantee you there are girls out there who what that.

I'm pulling for you. I married an Asian who is more white girl by the day and has no relationship with God, no internal checks and degenerate friends as her influnencers.

You can do it!

Kek dude. You literally waste your days playing vidya and get drunk and you say you wont meet a girl worth marrying at a bar? Wholesome social people also go to bars. Most girls there aren't vapid whores unlike this site would like you to believe.

Sounds to me that you are the one not worth marrying. Entitled,.depressed and uninterresting. If finding a SO is your main goal in life you truky are sad. I understand you want a partner but goddamnit why would a woman want a man that has no goal in life? Also being that focussed and obsessed with marriage will make any girl dry up and run away from you. You got to take it slow and get to know a girl first through dating, then start a relationship and waaaay down the road consider marriage. You can't just skip all the steps and effort it takes to find a match.

Hahahahaha ofcourse she isn't.a degenerate. You are the degenerate pathetic lowlife that has to take an asian just to score. Nice fucking delusions you got there, you couldn't get a normal.white girl so now you tell yourself you choose the asian chick because of your values. Cute but sad.

Also you should consider adopting. Breeding hapa children js setting them up to fail in life. They have no chance whatsoever

All I want is a girl to make me feel that fluttering again. Look at her and remember why I wanted this so badly.

What are some basics to loose thick thighs and either loose weight or tone down my ass? I feel like I could easily do it with the right approach!

You'll get 80% of those results in the kitchen. Vegetables.

Delete this please

What said, also squats, biking, calf raises, all the basic shit.

get a haircut, shave the pedo stache, and dress better.

I want to start lifting or even just going to the gym and doing cardio but I know deep down i wont do shit and just sit at home since i;m so used to it

Dude honestly don’t fuck around with a back injury. Even at the slightest sense of pain, stop doing the exercise. What starts out as a muscle tear could end up as a ligament tear or herniated disc if ur muscles can’t support your back.
t. Dude who has had back pain for the past two months

Share some

In a way, Cameltoe is broken too. Low self esteem, doesn’t think highly of herself, and gives in to others. She was also super clingy towards the Dennis dude and not assertive enough with Mclovin it seems like. No one is perfect.
Don’t put her on a pedestal or try to fix her. She has to be healthy on her own, only then would it make sense for you two to date. If you think she’s there and you’re there mentally, then go for it and fuck the other people.
It seems like your whole group of friends is super immature tho. How old are you guys?

I'm stuck living with my mother. I only make 12.50/hour at my shitty grocery store job. I'm already 34k in debt from student loans from going to college for my shitty associates of business administration degree that didn't get me anywhere. I am on medication for severe depression and anxiety, and between my meds and psychiatrist visits I'm easily spending 200-300/month on medical expenses. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to afford to move out and most days I can't come up with any reason not to kill myself. I'm just sort of coasting by with no idea how to change my situation and I have no hope for the future. On top of all this I just learned I need $4000 worth of repairs on my car that I bought for only $2500 in the first place, so I have to choose between shelling out the money to get it fixed and wipe out my savings that I'd take classes with, or I need to buy a much more expensive used car and get a large monthly car payment I couldn't afford to move out with. What kind of jobs can I get that pay halfway well and don't necessarily require a degree?

Someone please offer some words of encouragement?

>be me
>28, married 2 years, 6 months old baby
>60lbs overweight, keep telling myself it's muscles
>it isn't muscles
>keep telling myself I'm intelligent because working in pharmacy as a technician
>couldn't even finish BA in history in five years
>sense of grandeur because i keep telling myself nothing really matters and we are all just stardust/ irrelevant temporarily clumped particles in a meaningless universe with zero chance of becoming something relevant
>watch Rick and Morty way too much but I've been feeling like this since elementary schoolboy who got bullied hard for no real reason
>thought I'd get fit if I'd lift a little
>I have to buy barbell, anons say barbell is da best
>buy barbell
>visit it thrice a week for first two months
>still eat like shit hence no result
>visit barbell once a week ever since
>periodically slipping into depression - like state
>not real depression, more like looking into the true mirror seeing what a fat lazy bitch I am
>since wife got birth and was banned from sex for two months because birth canal is an open wound fapping furiously to gelbooru shit and /gif
>can't stop
>wife okay now but lost my interest in fucking; fapping is faster and easier
>depression - like state incoming again

What do, anons? I have nearly zero motivation to even breathe.

>can meet plenty of girls who become infatuated with me but nobody who connects with me or understands me

Attraction is overrated, I want to be understood.

Don't listen to this guy
I'm in a long distant relationship with the girl im going to marry. I told her I'm going to marry her, she told me she's going to marry me. We are absolutely in love with eachother, and yes long distance can work. She's a tech for the navy, and I have one month of Uni left. I visit her as frequently as I can, but we only see eachother 1x/mo tops. It's been this way since july. It's do able, but you have to be ready to put in much more work than before. That means video chatting every night, and scheduling yourself to do so. That means making sure you're up at the same time to have a quick pre work call, and a share a chat a lunch time. For me and her, we spent 10+ hours a day with eachother before we moved in together. You need to maintain, if not increase the amount of communication between eachother. The worst thing you can do is let eachother forget why you started dating in the first place. That, and also, get shredded. Make it so she would be a fool to leave you. Hope this helps homie.

if you're not a competing powerlifter, use straps. If you are a competing powerlifter, use straps some of the time.

Are they actually your friends? It's ok to ditch people you don't want to be like right? If your surrounded by friends like that it makes me wonder about you.

I came in her last week while she was talking to you on the phone.

>"FeeIs" garbage
>94 posts
>50 posters
SAMEFAG OP: THE THREAD

>Non fit posting

Saged, repoted :)

>no one is allowed to be happy since I'm not!

pls put your kids into public highschool, please. You dont want them posting on /r9k/ in a few years because you made them miss out on highschool romance. I would say send them in the 8th grade

dude I'm gay and I've been hooking up with this guy that's 41. Sometimes, our pillow talk sessions will last hours. We don't talk about anything in particular and I listen a lot. I don't know if it's because I struggle to be vulnerable but the chemistry is somewhat there but isn't. I think I could really grow to fall for him. I think he's really sweet...We ended up cuddling, and spooning for an hour. I think I'm having feelings for a guy for the first time.

It was Friday night and we laid in bed until 2 and he had to work in the morning. He texted me last night and told me how great last night was and how he kept thinking of me.

The age difference bothers me though although i have yet to hang out with him in public. I asked him

>Someone please offer some words of encouragement?
My friend makes less than you at the age of 21, he makes entry level walmart pay and lives away from parents.
His wife doesn't work and he supports a child, life isn't super easy but as long as they save and don't eat out they are just fine.

Sounds to me like you just have to keep grinding.
Or move, at least temporarily.
I live in Appalachia where low-income housing is cheap as shit and food is practically free, just buy a 40 lb bag of rice and beans you're set for months.
Take a risk and move somewhere that has really low living costs, costs low enough where you can feel less pressure while still making very little money.
Living alone like this will also net you some financial assistance from the government, do this for a while to destress and then move on with a different degree or job.

Protip: In areas like this laborers make over 30 dollars an hour and the harder to get into unions such as millwrights can make over 50,000 in 6 months if they work non-stop. I have a friend who works half a year for 50,000 and the other half he tours with a band. It will be scary but move somewhere cheaper until you can save up money, get a new degree, or get experience so you can get a better job.

You'll make it brother.

PS: Used cars are less than 1,000 bucks here.