Greener grass

Long time lurker here. I need your advice, input, whatever you feel needs to be said. Dumping my life here, TL;DR at the end

>part 1/3

>be me during childhood
>lanklet nerd, but who only cared for WoW and my closest friends
>have decent face
>introverted but not completely autistic
>still thought I would never have someone who loved me
>missed the few shots I had with girls because I didn't get the signals
>age 15
>meet girl at school, she was a 4/10 at best and a smoker
>we started talking because she also played WoW, we started playing together
>somehow it escalated and I finally had found love, ofc I thought this was all I'd ever need
>lose my virginity, feel amazing
>started going with her to parties, social circle slightly expanded
>get concerned with her smoking, try to make her quit
>get her to cut down on it alot when I'm around
>then one summer I got to on vacation for 2 weeks to visit relatives
>she admits that she's been smoking alot
>feel like shit because now that I finally found someone who loves me she has shit habits
>cant handle not being able to stop her from smoking while away from her
>start smoking to suppress the pain I felt everytime she reeked of cigarette smoke, because now I did it too so it didn't feel as wrong
>also because I was fucking retarded
>age 18 now (6'5", 140lbs), been with gf for 3 years nearly every day
>realize how dependent on her I had become for happiness
>when she was pissed about something she often took it out on me by acting like a bitch
>if she wasn't happy, I felt like shit because I'd think it was somehow my fault
>now my gf had been talking alot to this new guy who started in our class, who had also become part of our group
>slowly see that she is getting into him
>up to this point I had never done anything in my life, average grades, countless nights spent gaming, etc.
>so I start working out to win her interest back
>went from being that guy who constantly clung to his gf, to the guy in class who works out

>part 2/3

>felt like things where changing for the better
>start getting some confidence for once in my life
>me and my gf had arguments frequently about this new guy who she was obviously into but refused to admit it
>used the anger and sadness to fuel my workouts, never skipped a workout
>it was the only time I felt at peace
>finally our relationship ended
>at first I felt empty, went home and cried for 2 hours
>I felt a clarity like no other, and understood how self-destructive my relationship had been
>things feel better
>not surprisingly she gets together with the new guy in our class, so I have to see them everyday
>luckily our friend circle were total bros and decided to stick with me instead of her
>started hanging out with them alot more now that I wasn't locked to my gf all day
>eventually forget about my ex and her new bf
>continue working out, getting bigger (158lbs at this point)
>occasionally get mires for the first time at the gym
>huge confidence boost
>start talking to other girls, not autistic anymore
>feeling like this is the start of my new life, feels good
>meet this hot qt3.14 asian from school, start talking to her and things are going fucking great
>quit smoking
>start hanging out, watching movies, kissing etc.
>lots of grinding and fucking in bed while her parents were home, turns out she's really kinky
>do this for a couple of months
>we become a couple and everything felt amazing
>my life had turned around
>she was the opposite of my ex, everything I had dreamed for
>age 19
>finish high school
>get into college
>move into apartment with my new gf
>still working out
>reach 180lbs
>I wouldn't recognize my old self at this point
>mires keep coming
>I have a steady relationship with this girl
>on really good terms with her family, relatives and friends

>part 3/4

>age 22
>this is where my problem is
>I just graduated college
>have a good job
>living in a nicer apartment with gf, close to work
>reached 230lbs at most while trying roids, mires and attention in general was insane
>got felt up by and hit on 8/10+ girls at parties, clubs, and college more than once
>all while having a nice gf who I love
>for 1.5 years now I have started noticing how she doesn't have any goals other than "to be with me", no interest in work or education
>also my standards have risen tremendously since I got fit
>she has a nice body but doesn't workout, probably never will, and shes been getting chubby
>I feel an urge to reclaim my would-be single years as I feel like I missed out dat prime teen ass
>I was only single for 2 months because I jumped in a relationship too quickly
>I don't regret it, but I want more
>feel like an asshole for thinking like this
>almost broke up with her one year ago for this very reason
>she insists she loves me, which I believe (allthough she has come close to doing some dumb shit)
>know for a fact that she loves me more than I love her

>part 4/4

I started as a lanklet loser and changed myself for the better, reaching my goals time and time again. I am getting less and less attracted to my gf who refuses to improve her life
(i.e putting her back into finding a job, or pursuing an education). I catch fit girls checking me out all the time during workouts, and I'm losing control over the situation.
There's this girl with 9/10 body who I chatted up at the gym yesterday, and if I wasn't in a relationship I would smash her in an instant. But I'm too comfortable with my current life situation to go single,
even though I know there will come a point when I have to end it because of how different we are. I've thought about cheating numerous times, but know that I would never be able to apply myself.
I have alot of confidence now, and hen an opportunity presents itself I get strong urges to go for it, but I just can't do it.

TL;DR
>went from being shit to having good chances in life
>now have loving gf and good living situation
>feel like I missed out during teenage years
>gf getting lazy, out of shape
>have urges, can't act upon them because relationship
>feel like an asshole for having everything I initially wanted, but I'm not satisfied

Getting fit has made me wanting more, what the fuck do I do?

sorry for blogfagging

yes
you should be sorry

but you're not even NATTY

if you're not happy don't stay with her you can't go through your life trying to please others and not yourself

Stick with the sure thing you utter fool

not fit related, sage

dont be an animal, dont follow your dick.
but if shes as terrible as you say then kick her out of your life
>unless youre forcing these thoughts into yourself to justify cheating - then youre bad person

Stay with the woman who loves and cherishes you.

You gotta do what works for you. Don't hold yourself back for anybody. If she's not going to improve with you, she's going to drag you down. Either tell her to get her shit together or move on, unless you're okay with going back down.

Well it's fine since you're going to be young for hundreds of years and live forever can't see how any of this is a problem

Holy shit. I think this was the first girl I ever saw in porn back when I was 12.

It is. Holy fuck I just realised why I'm really into tan blonde bimbos

I hear you. She's only where she is today because I've pushed her to take action. It fucking sucks that everything else is so great, like her family--which almost cares more for me than my own family. Or our cat, and the apartment we share.

>it feels like I made it, but she didn't

>trying roids

At 30 I'm on a similar situation. Took a month off her (still a formal couple to the outside world, but she moved out of home) No fucking is allowed and I can trust her on that. She is a great woman and we love each other, but sometimes she behave like a fucking child. So I told her to fix her shit, I intend to have a partner in this relationship not a fucking daughter. once the month is done, we will see again and decide if thing go on or not.
Anyway, I'm not saying that this should be your solution, what I'm saying is give her the chance to improve and be on your level (if you love her) talk to her, just be cautious on "how" you said it. If things don't work, there's a big world out there

>implying it wasn't great

That's exactly where I'm at right now. Sometimes I feel more like her parent than her partner. Good luck user, I hope she comes around.

>No fucking is allowed and I can trust her on that.

zoz

chad is probably stuffing her turkey this very second

OP you sound like a fag but I won't hate. I'll give you my $0.02 because I had a very similar situation.

I played wow and smoked when I was young, almost identical to you, from 15 to 18. My gf was my right hand though.
When I was about 20 I got a gf who fucking adored me and did everything for me. She was so devoted that a guy hit on her when she was out one night and apologised to me for the rest of the night.
No ambitions, no motivation, just wanted to be us and nothing more.

If you're a normie that's great, but I feel it's shit for a Veeky Forumsizen. To keep it short and sweet brother if she's not doing it for you don't be afraid to cut your losses and move on. Just remember a few things though.

>A girl doesn't have to be "holding you back" to stop you from moving forward
>You can find better, but only if you try. If you think it will just turn up you're wrong.
>A lot of people will look down on you for giving up a good thing (who gives a shit though)
>Intermittent pussy doesn't compete with a relationship. The sex isn't as good because there's no emotional connection.
One night stands give accomplishment.
Relationships give contentment.

When I broke up with my girl I felt like I was missing out too. Everyone told me "do it bruh sleep around and get it out of your system. "
I've only slept with 10 birds since breaking up and I feel I'm content. Not because I've 'slept with enough' by any means, that's fuck all.
Nowadays my life is just so on track towards what I'm trying to achieve that I am just not concerned for that shit and I love what I do each day. That overrides the sense of pussy for me.

Long story short.
>I was in the same situation, I broke it off, it was hard at the start but I keep pushing towards my goals and don't fucking slow down for any one or anything. I'm getting closer each day. I've been single since 2014 and to put it simply, I'm
>So
>Fucking
>Satisfied with where I'm heading.

Not giving it up for anyone.

Go kill it

OP here,

Real talk, thanks my man. I’m taking this one to sleep.

>not even the TLDR I skipped to, contained anything of value.
Get the hell out of here, all the way to

No worries brother hope it helps.

I'm just a firm believer in doing what's best for you and you only. You can't help people very well if you're not 100% yourself. So follow your own best interests and become the sick cunt you want to be and then you can do what other people want you to do.

Just remember as much as people are willing to give you advice and tell you how to act, the truth is you don't owe anyone a single fucking thing. Gotta look after number one brother

Your whole faggot life revolves around having a fucking gf. I never understand guys like you. God forbid your single for more than 6 months at a time. Break up with her fuck hos and do what u want to do. Figure out who u are as a person. The only way u can do that is alone. Your like a child who needs to be hand held through life. Girls never fix your problems they just create more.

keep on dumping bitches below you, until you are slamming a perfect 10 on the daily, realize that you are to joocy for homo sapiens women, and jettison yourself into space. Then you can continue your life as a spaceage sickcunt, slaying alien pussy and annihilating any orifice of any intelligent life you find on your travels

This is the word of the Lord.