Lads

>Lads

Things are going great. Could really use a good feels thread

Anyone else has some good things to share with the group?

This morning I watched an episode of Star Trek: The Original Series with my mom and then we played Bananagrams. That was nice.

Been bulking towards my goal weight of 145 (manlet) and then probably going to cut down to 140. This is the first time where I've been able to make good progress. I was 115 in September, now I'm a little over 130. When from complete gym newbie to somewhat knowing what I'm doing.
Outside of my lifts though, nothing is working out

that feel when my mom died suddenly almost exactly a year ago. death anniversary thing is on the 11th of this month. she was 47

damn, thats young. How did she die?

>Anyone else has some good things to share with the group
Nope. I'm a big social autist with girls and it hurts

>Go to subway at night after gym
>cute, short blond girl with blue eyes is there
>she's jokingly messing up my order, we both poke fun at each other
>she's cool as fuck and has wicked dark sense of humor like me
>i feel pretty attracted to this girl
>same thing next day, she seems happy to see me
>ask her when she's working next
>when she tells me, i tell her that I'll make sure to stop by everytime she works
>she says okay while smiling, kinda giddy about it

>come by today, I've been looking forward to seeing her face
>some other guy takes my order
>near the end she walks to the register from the back
>guy says "hey your boyfriend's here" under his breath
>i hear her say "don't even say that"
>bluntly tells me to have a nice day looking annoyed after i pay
>i gave half a smile and say thanks
>now I'm sitting in my car in the parking lot feeling sad and wondering why I felt so much for some random girl I just met and talked to who works at a fucking subway

This is not a good feel. It sounds really dumb, but following up with me fucking up every other chance I had with a different girl because of how fucking introverted I am. This is hurting a lot more than it should

Can't wait for my tren to come in though

You know i always tell /pol/ about this picture, I spam it every day, all the day on /pol/, I go around telling them how White and pretty north Mexican girls are, the truth is they’re not, I live here, they do not look like this, but I want to think of it this way, at least I would have been rejected by women that are genuinely pretty, and that in certain way, this unreachable woman would be the standard here so I could tell myself that yes, I did not deserve any gf love or anything.
Today I finally accepted it, I have zero worth for women, and you know I feel alleviated, no more pressure for being the kissless handheldless dateless virgin, I just want to masturbate now to hentai or Overwatch SFM, whatever, I just don’t want to be reminded of my failure as a man, I want to live in a fantasy world, where women don’t exist, only the idea of them, visualized in a videogame.

I, for one, really enjoy these poorly drawn pepes

same. i can't remember her birthday but i remember the day she died. day after st pattys. was up all night partying. woke up with 20 missed phone calls hung over. had to make the call to my old man. feels like it was another lifetime and i was a different person. life is strange.

Left obese mode and into overweight mode. A little over 50lbs down 30 ish (maybe) to go. I dunno what my goals should be before I try to intentionally gain weight for the first time.