Mental fitness yo

I don't know where to put this, but I might have a big problem.
So, about 2 years ago, something happened, pretty bad. I do not doubt some of you, if not most, would pass a similar event by without any issue, but I believe I am pretty weak when it comes to this stuff. Anyway, will elaborate if asked.

Anyway, today I passed by a grandma with her bratty child in my building, and he wanted his/her??? phone back or whatever, and I stopped a bit, trying to calm the brat.
I got this sudden urge to hit him, right then and there, but hard. Not in the "it's inappropriate you shithead" but in the "I'll fucking put you in the hospital, dumb kid" way. And then my adrenalin was roaring while going to the store and back.

I've seen it happen in other settings as well. Whenever I see violence with intent in real life, I get this urge to act/protect/punish.

How can I stop this? I don't think it's helping me at all.
Or if you have any other ideas, I am willing to listen. Putting it to good use might be better than just trying to stop it.

Thanks in advance, Veeky Forumsizens.

>tfw this gal got juicier 'cep than you

you're just an angsty 19 year old virgin with too much pent up sexual energy, get laid autismo

tell me about it. But why cry like a bitch when you can look at her to get an idea of what it would look like on you.
Don't be sad you're not at the top, be glad there's where to climb.

I'm serious with this thing. I also get panic attacks around large groups of noisy people or at night. Gotten so bad I get panic attacks sometimes if I hear footsteps after dark. Not even talking about being out late at night.

Fucking kys now you degenerate faggot.
You can't function in society so you don't need to be alive.
I hope someone caves your skull in.

Projecting much?
I'm asking how I can become a better human, and you're acting like 30 year old edgelords who thing they're hot shit because they have a stable job and 2 minor accomplishments.
Help others up, don't try to put them down, you mongoloids.

You can't be helped you loser.
We are Better and more successful than you ever will be. Why? Because sending have toxic-man-child temper tantrums.
Why should anyone help you? You are a degenerate who belongs in jail.
You have no redeeming qualities

bumperrino

You do realize I can control these urges, right?
I have no problem with NOT acting on these things.
I am just asking if anyone has any tips on what can I do to stop this or deal with it better.
I hope you don't go through stuff like this as well.
Not trying to be edgy, just genuinely asking for help.

I fucking swear, crabs in a bucket on this board.

>Whenever I see violence with intent in real life, I get this urge to act/protect/punish.
Nothing wrong with that, I get the same feeling when I see retards abusing dogs/cats or shouting over nothing. Just as long as you don’t go apeshit over little things like a nigger you should be fine

I have the same problem. My puppy plays with me and some times she bites me on accident. I have this fast rush of "killer instinct" and I ended up hurting her. Idk if we can train or mind in this area

>crabs in a bucket on this board.
Take a hike than faggot. We arent hear to be your council.
Go back to b where you crawled out from.
Faggot

You are a psycho and you belong in a cell

What do you mean by ‘hurt’, user?

Thank you for not being a troll.
I don't act on it, of course. I had temper tantrums as a kid, I realized at one point (about 12) that it was fucking retarded and not helpful at all to act like that, and learned to stop the impulse. It goes away fast, no longer ruins my day, all good.

I get that too, read above, about temper tantrums. You can indeed train yourself to not act in these situations. Especially with animals, they don't mean it.
You can train yourself as follows:
Every time it happens, stop and think, and act as if you did not feel that way. Eventually it will become a habit and allow you to not do that.
It will also give you the ability to discern your actions better in moments you feel stress/danger. It helps a ton, and also you can practice it with most cases.
The thing people say about only how you feel being the important part in these scenarios is correct. But if you witness injustice, don't be a cuck.

We're all gonna make it one day bros, bless you.

Op, someone said something to me years ago that really stuck with me. I was hanging out with one of my best friends and his little brother was annoying as fuck. I asked how he doesn't get driven crazy by that crap.

"kids don't know any better, man. They're just being kids".

I work with kids a lot and I tell my staff that when they start getting rattled.

I used to be a pretty angry person and now I've realized how stupid it is. If you see a true injustice being committed then step in and assert yourself. But most of the time shit can just be reasoned out.

Does that help at all?

By any chance, do you get a “high” when pissed, usually imagining beating the person you’re angry at? Curious because I had from since I was a child to now, though obviously I don’t do it

Need a name

>”kids don’t know any better, man. They’re just being kids”
Nah, most of them in my experience are spoiled little runts, and unfortunately the good ones have shit parents

There's nothing wrong with you, most people have similar urges.
It's your animal side calling from the deep within, don't acting on your urges and bitting your teeth while waiting for it to pass is what makes you human my user.

Yes, thank you. Though this is why I know I can't work with kids until this is ironed out.

In my defense, though, he was trying to bite the old lady and kicking her. Not just being a brat.

With normal kid tantrums and stuff I have no problem staying calm, and even in this case I did stay calm (outwardly only).

Thank you very much for your input, it is valuable. And that someone was right.
Double-thanks user.
Here's a thicc girl

No. It's a visceral urge to do it, but imagining it only provides self-flagellation that is just toxic.
At least with my personality. It would create in me a slight illusion that maybe I could take on anyone, which might put me, or even worse, those around me, in danger, in the future.
I do know what you're talking about, though.
Used to do it as a kid, too, so I understand. You should stop that by occupying your mind with something else. Eventually the habit will fade.

I got'chu senpai, kikivhyce
Next time zoom in the picture. I had to see her pics multiple times too till I found her watermarks, lel.

Thank you for reminding me stoic-user.
Then would you recommend putting these urges to good use in some way?

Dubs and you have forced sex with them all

Eh, whatevs, op-rolling.

>Then would you recommend putting these urges to good use in some way?

I can't tell you exactly, you need to find yourself what makes you calm and gives you peace.
Since we're on Veeky Forums I guess puting your anger into lifting is good start.

rolling for dubs

>Dubs and you have forced sex with them all

How would I even force 5 women with bigger arms than me to have sex?

You know what I mean

THEY force YOU

You're not the one forcing.
Creatine. Not even once.

The thingamajig is that it's not anger. Sure, only then, but most of the time I'm chill/depressed.
I relish a bit in these moments, so they can bring me a bit of joy, as I forget about the depression, but most of the time I'm not angry anyway

>You should stop that by occupying you mind with something else.
Oddly I was trying to increase my high because it felt so good, and I started to get used to it (felt nothing when imagining it) I thought I was getting emotionless due to lack of testosterone or something. Started getting the highs after working out and drinking filtered water though I need someone to aggravate me in real life rather than imagining it out of nowhere

Roll’n for dubs or 5

cool. I think it's the same high you get from endorphins though, since your brain might send out the same signals as it actually happening, and when you do physical activity endorphins are released as well.

Their role is to calm pain. That might be way, since calming drugs give a similar high, although heavier, kinda.

go to a psychiatrist
any other advice people give you is wrong

Depends on psychiatrist though
>Oh user you’re not supposed be to mad at all, you supposed to be happy all the time, now take these estrogen pills!

Those stay on-record if I recall. I'd rather go through the trials of finding a psychologist that's not a fucking retard like my last one(depression hit hard at that point and couldn't handle it myself, bitch made it worse)

is right
In my current city there's a bunch of these fucks, I swear. I want to have a human experience, not be a self-flagellating "always happy" hippy faggot that can't do shit properly and lives a life not worth remembering.

>The thingamajig is that it's not anger. Sure, only then, but most of the time I'm chill/depressed.
>I relish a bit in these moments, so they can bring me a bit of joy, as I forget about the depression, but most of the time I'm not angry anyway

Wait, so you actually enjoy these little moments, but you want them to stop?

>A psychologist that’s not a fucking retard like my last one.
Was your psychologist a woman by any chance. I’ve heard they preform badly when diagnosing patients at the jobs due to how men and women think differently.
Voluntary death by snu-snu.

She's probably 5'3" and you're looking at then like she's 6'1"

You got a deeper issue. user get some councelling. Learn to meditate. start a (contact) combat sport to learn what it is to get hit.

Well, on one side, I'm depressed, and have come to fetishize any moment in which I don't feel depressed, usually getting joy. "feeling alive" so-to speak.
I won't lie, I enjoy any moment in which I feel something other than grief or numbness. For example, was trying to go on a date with a girl, she said no, she was hanging with some other guy, I felt sad, but it felt much more relieving than the usual numbness of depression or my usual sadness.

I do meditate, and do know what it;s like to get your shit stomped, trust me, I know. That's why I don't go around starting shit and try to resolve conflicts before they happen/escalate, or keep them from escalating.

Though a contact combat sport sounds nice.
At least I'd get to fight people who know what the fuck they're doing and could learn a thing or two. I just hope if I do that I don't encounter assholes, which is the norm around these parts.

Just count to ten and get on with it faggot.

Oha homies

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>Well, on one side, I'm depressed, and have come to fetishize any moment in which I don't feel depressed, usually getting joy. "feeling alive" so-to speak.
>I won't lie, I enjoy any moment in which I feel something other than grief or numbness. For example, was trying to go on a date with a girl, she said no, she was hanging with some other guy, I felt sad, but it felt much more relieving than the usual numbness of depression or my usual sadness.

I can understand this. So why don't you try to find yourself in more situations in which you would feel something?

Exactly. So if their parents are shit then they don't know better. It takes time to become a proper human being. In many cases, the moments when kids are good are purer than most adults. So at the end of the day, "They [still] don't know any better" I'm not saying they aren't being bratty - I'm suggesting looking at it a different way so it bothers you much less.

Then that's a situation where you can ask the lady if she wants you to step in and help. Because not everyone should assume that you can touch their kids. If it were the other way around (she was beating him) then fuck permission.

From all the people telling you to kill yourself, you seem pretty level-headed though OP. So what gives? Are you just being harsh on yourself?

NVM you sound like me. I'm very grounded and level-headed but recently this instinct to fight has just appeared out of nowhere. I'm quitting my job to fight full time/do gymnastics for a bit in Ukraine.

Tbh honest you sound a lot like me like me when I was 20. Life was objectively decent but it didn't feel like it. I was numb to shit and it bothered me that nothing bothered me. Sadness was a welcome break from nothing and I rarely felt happiness. Go do shit that stimulates you. For me, it was travel and that lasted 5 years

I can't help, but recently sperged out at the pharmacy and scaring the staff, so I feel you

What happened user?

5 GET

Long story, and bedtime soon. Another time.

ways to improve mental fitness:
>don't oversleep. between 6-7,5 hours.
>wim hoff menthod.
>yoga.
>fasting (intermittent fasting).
>ketogenic diet.
>long distance cardio.
>lifting.
>healthy fats like walnuts,avocado fish etc AND green leafy greens.
>limit sugar, weed and alcohol and any complex carbs.
>nofap.
>socialize.
>spend time in nature.
>stop watching porn.
>be active healthy and social.
>learn dicipline,and stick with it. good results don't come easy,but they come hard and will last.


there you have it. do this and cut ur fucking teenage rampage crap

rolling

Come on user-senpai, I want a bed time story!!

how do I stop hating people? I fucking hate normalfags with a deep passion, it is the one thing that drives me in the gym after all these years

I'll make a greentext one day, it will be my first. Thanks for asking.

I do try to be rational, thank you.
I did ask her, he chilled down a bit, still a piece of shit kid, the only thing I did was keep my hand in his way when he tried to run in my direction(down the stairs) because they were going upwards.
The 3 people that intimately know me have noticed I am a bit harsh with myself, keeping even stricter standards than what I judge others on. I'm trying to become stronger. I want to have kids one day, have a happy family, have friends, get by. At the moment I feel like this depression shtick is my main issue. Leaves me feeling numb, unmotivated.
Schizophrenia is present in my family too, and from what I've seen, it's like the "motivation circuits" in the brain are turned off, literally, nevermind the voices and sounds.
This thought scares me, deeply. That I might lose control over my own mind.
Though years of keeping control over yourself you gain mastery of this. Still, fucking hard to do normal everyday stuff.

I did reach a point in which being intoxicated does not stop me from thinking straight.
I've been many times to the normal limit of alcohol induced coma, yet acquaintances around me noted how I still seemed sober and alert.
Not even drugs like weed, x or speed have influenced me. Sure, I do feel them, and what I would think like, and sometimes my flatmate and I do joke around that if I lost control either I'd kill myself or light the world on fire.

I deeply miss waking up and looking forward to spending my day in any way.

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Fuck you too user, but that checklist is the best checklist one can try apply in such a case, as it would literally fix every environmental factor that could cause depression/instability. 10/10 for that one

Well then, I guess I'l go to sleep sad and storyless. Goodnight.

>he thinks being angry at brats is edgy
You have go back