>make good gains throughout the year
>stay with parents over summer
>instantly restricted to 20-30g protein a day max because mum is a vegan
>diet and gains crippled
>cannot buy food with my own money because """we have enough"""
I want to fucking murder the person who invented salads
How do I turn my self esteem around? Recently I had something good happen to me, and I was only in a good mood for a couple of hours before I started shitting on myself again and ended the day just as sad as usual.
Rember, user, that anything you do every day is a sort of a habit and there is a sort of inertia in your system that causes you to feel like that. You can't expect that having one good thing happen to you can undo all the days, and possibly years, of being sad and sorry for yourself. Take your win as proof that good things CAN happen to you and work on your mental and emotional state incrementally.
>Take your win as proof that good things CAN happen to you
That's the thing. I know good things can and do happen to me occasionally, but I always view them as a matter of luck rather than a product of anything I do.
Lets say I get a nice job. Rather than thinking I was hired because I worked hard and impressed them, I would think I was hired out of pity. Somehow I became convinced I can't do anything right.
>tfw intermittently ghosted by new girl
>tfw intermittently spoken to by ex
honestly just fucking wish i was some total loner who didn't need to talk to people sometimes. fuck me, this shit is an absolute chore that just fucks with my brain.
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That Veeky Forums goat's bar positioning gives me anxiety.
>drinkin
Water buddeh
>eatin
cheese, lots of it
>smokin
Weed most days of the week - don't feel like it's messing with my goals yet
>studyin
driving, guitar
>readin
Musashi - shit's cash as all hell
>watchin
Nothing really
>listenin to
Nothing, taking a break from podcasts/music
>liftin
Upper day today, smashing chest
>playin
Bloodborne and Titanfall 2
>creatin
Jack shit, do want to tho
>doin
Saving up for an apt, not drinking
>hopin
To diddly 5pl8 by the end of the year, squat bodyweight comfortably for reps
>drinkin
Water
>eatin
Tuna
>smokin
Nothing. I called it quits this year. Gave myself 3 grams to smoke this year but I smoked it all on sunday. Rest of 2018 ill be sober
>studyin
Not my type of thing
>readin
Xd
>watchin
Nah
>listenin to
Pic related
>liftin
Only doing cardio atm but i do pushups
>playin
Im having nofap
>creatin
Bruh
>doin
I aint
>hopin
Shit
Ever heard of rackin shit? Soyboy
Why do you think you don't deserve anything?