Mental health thread

Whats a good mental heath workout anons?

On the topic of mental health, i went to a psychologist 9 years ago due to self harming and trichotillomania.

She suggested I try exercising and cold showers as alternatives.

Now, I don't self harm, but I am feeling just as miserable. Does the pain ever go away?

Am sorry user you need to learn to live with that pain and the pain will be smaller i promise

Not to jack your blog, but I have a serious issue.

I am going down to Kentucky with my mate and we are going to drop some acid in a cabin on some camping grounds. What can we expect? Is 100ug really a good starting level? We were thinking 200ug each. Of course we'd come prepped with water, food, etc.

>posting a fucking essay on 4hcan

you're pathetic OP

The pain has not been getting any smaller though, after such a long time.

Basicallly, now I can act normal even when I am feeling so empty inside. It's even worse considering I am living a pretty great life compared to the majority of the population.

It seems like that because it is like that.

> 29
> homosex
> degree in SE
> got wealthy older partner who is a lawyer
> be frequent traveler IT consultant in Europoopooland
> our friends are all doctors, lawyers and consultants
> we are living the high life and everyone looks up to us
> DINK couple making mad dough living in a decently penthouse in a good district
> work out every second day with great personal trainers (and "doctors": dat little extra testosterone), decent body, visible abs

> mfw I overuse sleeping pills
> mfw I need tranquilizers to hold presentations in front of hundreds of stakeholders
> mfw my pills make me so tired I need cocaine to focus on work
> mfw my morning ritual on work days is sobbing in the shower
> mfw I just want to sleep on weekends but my partner forces me to have crazy drug orgies with other rich guys and to work out
> mfw I am mostly unable to do work myself and just delegate it to my desperate juniors who'd lick my ass to get a promotion and they are doing better work than I ever did
> mfw I need to get up in 4 hours to fly to my customer company and I am on /v/ instead

I want to play video games instead.

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I met mine at a ESL class (spicfag here) when I was your age. I've been with her for 8 years now.

>dont talk to girls in the gym they dont want to talk to guys there
>dont talk to girls on a train they dont want to talk to guys there
>dont talk to girls at work thats a bad idea

One word... delegate. Move shit off your plate.

faggot

Kys fag

I had a friend group but I was always anti socoal and missed out on a lot of invites because I was a shut in. I got invited to go to a rave on the night England's opening match in the euro's 2014, met a qt virgin and stayed with her till last October.

You gotta get out there and make an effort if you want to meet people, have friends and meet women. I've felt very lonely and had barely any friends Since HS and the key if to do thing and by out there. Stop being afraid of how people might view you and stop being horrible to yourself mentally. You can do it.

1x noose pulls

Don't really suggest dropping in a super unfamiliar place if you've never done it before. If you're with a good group of friends you'll be fine though. 100 is pretty standard from what I recall. 200 should be fine if you're comfortable with who you're with and you're in a good state of mind when you start

pics ?

>I only jerkoff once a week now, but by the 7th day i can feel my frontal lobe activity.
>Feeling goes away the second i cum

I relate to this

lets break this down OP
>the hoe kept squirting and squirting (at least 15times I swear to god), rolled her eyes and shaking

so a prostitute literally peed on the bed multiple times and faked orgasms, congrats

>>she even took me on the balcony at -20 degrees celcius and fucked her doggy and she squirted

so you fucked her dog and she peed too, so what

>>at the end, asks me for my phone number and she will lower the rate because she won't deal with the agency

yes OP because surely she liked it so much that she got your phone number just to "charge you less'. you act like she wanted your phone number to fuck you alone because of how good you wree, she obviously say you werent some neckbeard so she felt comfortabkle going outside recourse with the agency

>I paid 420$ CAD with cum in mouth and I could do anything with her, it was insane

>PAYING LITERALLY 400 DOLLARS TO HAVE SEX

WEW

You really need to put your own happiness ahead right now. Do you really want to start your days off crying in the shower everyday? Make a change, my friend. You need to be happy with your life.

This is the life you chose when you went gay
>the absolute state of homos

Ah, traveler... you're still young, naive... Let this ancient Veeky Forums wizard give you some advice. Turn back. Never return here and never venture further. As you walk back, do not even think about turning your head to check over your shoulder for what glory you think is found here. There is nothing. It's been plundered. What you seek, you will not find here. You will only become a trap-loving, fat, autistic, cynical piece of shit. Heed my words. If you are foolish enough to venture, however, always remember this post. Remember that this kind Veeky Forums wizard gave you, an underage faggot, some much needed advice and words of warning. This place only takes souls, user. While you're still young, do not let it take yours too.

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We were going to rent a cabin on a lake. Seems like it will be chill and it is just me and my close friend. We could do it here at home, but we wanted to kind of "get away" from it all to see if we can find something in ourselves as gay as that fucking sounds.

Keep telling yourself that

>so a prostitute literally peed on the bed multiple times
This

>to see if we can find something in ourselves

the only thing youll find in yourself is your friends dick in ur ass

Nice bait faggot

Imagine you were dating a girl and she claimed to be a virgin. Only after you marry her she decides to tell you that she has had sex, but only with male hookers (over 300 of them).

Would that be a non issue for you?

cuck logic

Yolo.

Oh no OP, you have indulged in one of the most addictive drugs out there...

sometimes this place posts good shit. this is it right here.
also this board is mainly closet fags

> closet

Have some gatorade on hand.
Hopefully your friend is extremely chill, if they start panicking or getting stressed, it can easily become an ordeal.
You're probably going to want to sit around more than anything, as opposed to walking. Having a phone on hand with funny pictures and interesting images helps.
Be prepared to be stupefied for quite some time.

Just fought badly with my old man. The old fuck was drunk and in the middle of a discussion said i wasn't a man.

nothing has ever hurt me as much as this guys,
all i have done in life so far was to get acknowledged by him as a man,an adult and an equal, he's my fucking hero. now i'm just sitting here alone crying with a gun on my lap. i just want to be good enough

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You only need to be good enough for yourself user. You don't need to prove shit to anyone.

Op here. Pic related is the girl

Thanks for bringing me back to earth, I was starting to think too much about myself. Serious question, what the fuck is squirting? Is it really peeing or something different? It was odorless and colorless. If it's pee well, she peed a shit lot because it happened about 15 times. I'm not feeling too bad about the 420$, I had the time of my life. Then again, I don't travel, don't drink, don't smoke ad take no drugs so to each his own sins

I was doing some work for my local fire department, checking smoke alarms and stuff. I had one cutie but I didn't ask her out so I promised myself if I ever meet another one, I'll do it. And that's what happened, went to her house, cutie with fat ass answers me, tell her if I can come in to check her smoke alarm and she kept asking questions about my job, gave me food and water so I kinda had a hint she was into me. I wrote my number on a leaflet and that's how it went. Just ask girls out and keep improving yourself, statistics are on your side

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That picture was posted a day or two ago, was that you?

ive never even slightly cared about my dad's opinion, like I think he's a good guy and all but I have just never cared. I surely can't be the only one

Yes it was. She really looked like that, it was crazy. Not the type of girl I'll every score with

By the way, for the faking orgasm part, I made sure to pin her hard to see her reaction. She really pushed me hard and was beginning to cry a little. I'm not trying to look cool or anything, I just want to learn

>Im 21 years old and i let my 30 year old brother beat me.
>He has been beating since i was 8
>I have the strength to fight back but i always just take the beating
>I cant afford to move out
>He has threaten to kill me multiple times.
>Today he after a few hits to the face and body he choked me for 30 seconds and i went into a panic attack.
I dont let anyone else treat me this way,

dude wtf find a psyc and call the cops.

>Call cops
and tell them my big brother beats me? Get laughed at by cops? they do nothing because its a small town and this isnt an issue to them? Get kicked out the family because i brought the cops into a family situation?

i feel bad for my father because his (and my mom's) only child turned out to be a completely worthless human sack of shit. but at the same time he's kinda been an angry selfish narcissistic asshole my entire life so i kinda get the feeling that any child of theirs would have turned out like me

Nice buddy, proud of you

I know that feel user, the best thing my dad has said to me was "he likes to work with his hands like you and me?" That was last month.

My mother is a goddamn hoarder, and it’s killing me. I live at home but have a decent job, just graduated last spring, and live in a very high price real estate area. The lady is goddamn insane. She keeps telling me my anger toward her is caused by a lack of satisfaction with my own life (says shit like I’m just angry because I don’t have a girlfriend and I don’t work out. Then I tell her I do work out and fucked some random chick two weekends ago, and then she’s just silent and walks away), but where I live is part of my own fucking life, and I live in a shit hole. Then she says I should move out. Maybe this isn’t true, but I tell myself that the main reason I’m still here is because if I leave with the way things currently stand, my relationship with my mom will be irredeemably broken for the foreseeable future, and I know that would break her heart. Before I recently started to actually get really fucking angry at her about her hoarding she would constantly tell me shit like I’m the most important person in her world, etc, etc. Normal only child stuff. She’s really been a pretty good mom overall; she also just happens to be totally sick in the head when it comes to hoarding.

Put up a fight, honestly.
I used to get bullied by my brother until i clocked him and put him down once. Now he doesn't fuck with me but at the same time he respects me.
It might be too late for you now since hes 30 and set in his ways but god man do something.

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Why can’t you afford to move out?

Why did he say that? Obviously because he’s a dick, but why do you think he thinks he said it?

Yeah man, she gave you her number so she doesn't have to cut in the agency. She probably did enjoy the sex because you aren't old and gross, but she's a pro, literally a professional. Lawyers and accountants don't write contracts and do your taxes for fun. It was probably like 80/20 theatre/enjoyment vs the normal 90/10. Fuck it man, do it if you want or don't, your life. Don't let a bunch of teenagers whose only sexual experience is fingerbanging a slutty fat girl on a band trip last year(pic related), on a Burmese photography board no less, bully you in to decisions. Also more pics, or start a /b/ thread and dump.

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I dont have very much money and i dont get very many hours because im stretched thin with college. Between school, gas, insurance, and other shit im pretty low at the end of every month.

I plan on getting a second job after this semester and start saving up money. Hopefully i will be out by November or so.

That fucking sucks. I'm just dealing with a classically overbearing mom. You're an only child so that makes it extra hard on you. Try talking to her about the hoarding and going to see a professional. Just make that your goal and it may take a lot of time but you can actually see progress. Oh and honestly the only thing that helped me with my anger with my mother and blowing up at her was to visualize and game out conversations with her so I wouldn't just lose my shit and start yelling. It is hard and you won't always be successful. But, it helps a lot.

false

>never got over the abusive parents thing, haven't communicated with them in 7 years
>nothing I do is ever good enough
>desperately try to outproduce everyone I'm working with combined
>eternal self-hatred when I can't meet those absurd standards
>employee of the month for 13 months in a row, 14 is likely coming up
>hate everyone I work with for congratulating me on work I feel is inferior
>no one produces anywhere near as much as I do and I feel contempt for them slowing down my work because I have to constantly catch up on their work so I can progress with mine
>binge drinking to deal with stress and constantly on stims to get through the day
>waiting for the day my heart gives out or I develop an aneurysm
>everything I can do is never good enough, but everyone else is a failure for producing less than I am
>lifting is the only thing that calms my mind, but not going up 10lbs ever work out on full body 6 days a week makes me hate myself for being weak
>the self deprecating thoughts are on an endless loop in my head
>therapists have no clue what they are talking about, prescribe meditation and "just don't worry about them lmao"

If anyone has any advice, I'll listen

I know she is a pro, it just felt absolutely raw and primal. But again, what's the consensus on squirting? Was she just peeing? Because every time she was tensing up, eyes rolling and crying. Maybe it's just some damn good acting, idk. Here's another pic, those tits were amazing

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Why don't you start your own biz or branch off with whatever you do so others aren't holding you back? Also, get off of alcohol and stimulants. Find a good therapist. If one orientation doesn't work (e.g., cognitive behavioral) try something different. Don't say "I've already tried that route" because there are so many different paths to go. Try church. Try AA. Find an interest outside of work and meet people who share your interests - a fitness group maybe.

Also, if you don't address the family thing, you will only be addressing symptoms and not the root, which will probably be ineffective in the long run. This might be the most difficult thing you have to do, but without this step you will be lost. It doesn't mean you have to break down to them and tell them your every thought, but you do need to seriously go over your past with them and consider making some sort of amends.

>
you still eating hair bro?

Squirting is real. Did she squirt that many times? Who knows and who cares? You had fun man, mission accomplished. Did she squirt at least once? Probably. Don't ruin a good memory by overthinking it.

I assume you have an anxious-avoidant attachment type. Regardless of the root of the problem (your parents) this is the problem you now have. It will be very hard for you to ever have meaningful relationships. Have you considered looking more specifically for clinical psychologists? That may help more. I really hate watching people like you destroy themselves due to the way someone treated them in their development. It's so tragic. Sure you get some benefits but they aren't worth it, and it seems pretty clear you feel the same way. I can say the words to you but actually fixing yourself is a whole other process. You need to let go. I hope you get the help you need, and can return to your natural state of being.

Maybe you're right, I just don't want to make mistakes or be taken for a fool. I wish I didn't need to do this but now, I'm glad I did. I have some bite marks scratches on my back but they feel good, lol

>first weekend of week-long spring break
>live in a small college town
>most of my friends are leaving back to hometown
>i didn't want to go back because it's annoying and expensive traveling (plane tickets etc)
>only sunday and I already feel that dread of not really having anything to do

I can only play video games in my room for so long. Thank god the school gym is close but that's only an hour or two out of the day. I'm blowing up tinder but I'm getting almost 0 matches, really depressing stuff.
I wish I had people to hang out with, or a car to go do stuff even if it's solo. When i was younger I could play vidya all day and never get tired, but now I have that itch that tells me I need to go out and do shit, be productive. This next week is going to suck but I'm also trying to view it as one of the last times I will have this much "freedom" before I graduate in the summer.
I also broke my nofap/noporn and jacked it twice today, and I feel so defeated. When i'm sitting in my room at my computer all day, it's just too hard to resist especially since I have no girls to hit up

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>mfw going through a mood swing rn

I went from feeling alright to full blown depression mode again, I try to write down whenever this happens and try to keep a positive mental attitude and remind myself that I'll feel better again but sometimes I end up withdrawing into it.

Anyone else get this? Maybe I've been alone for too long (most of my life)

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That actually sounds nice. Take advantage of your free time while you have it. Don't think "how will I get rid of this free time" but think "how can I expand all of these hours to increase productivity." Surely you have studying or reading for pleasure on the side? I have the opposite problem. I work and go to grad school and actually get irritated when people invite me to shit too often because I don't have time and don't like saying no to people. Plus I feel way under-read both in my field and in my own interests and there will never be enough time for it all.

I get the anxiety your feeling, and I had it when I was younger too, but try to take advantage of this time while you still have it... before marriage, kids, career, etc.

I used to be like this. I was weaker than you though, which actually helped. I broke pretty quickly from harassment and bullying from my father and brother which felt like every day. I'm probably over exaggerating it in my head. But I found some old hidden "diaries" that I would write about my rage and feeling of helplessness, because I was conditioned into being a scared and weak punching bag. To wrap things up I was pathetic and broke, and a split personality emerged that was not only able to take it, but much more ferocious than them. I was obsessed with wolves at that age so I think that influenced it a bit. It didn't turn me into a fighting god or anything, but it did let me fight back. Until my line was crossed that triggered it, the fear and weakness was still there. I don't remember much of when I switch after feeling too weak and helpless, it's just bright light in my memory. But that was the thing that got them to leave me alone a little bit more often, and i was able to capitalise on that, even though i was terrified to challenge the hierarchy, i mad myself fight back in my normal state of mind and now they don't try shit. Honestly meditating helped me the most, even though I don't show my personality or emotions around my brother or father, so they still have some power over me I guess, I still can't just ignore them. Sorry, this turned into a proper blog post. You need to sort yourself out and stop him from beating you before you can ever respect yourself and be a well rounded person. Meditation and self cultivation is the key here. Just wanted to tell you I was in the same boat, and it does get better, you just need to take control of your life and yourself. Also you sound like an abused wife. If you need to, call the cops like the guy said, this isn't just two kids fighting, this is constant assault. He's even threatened your life. They won't laugh at you. If you can't do this on your own, you need help.

r u me? this shit sucks. for me it is social anxiety, depression, isolation, (in the past a nasty drug addiction + too many cigarettes/day). I feel I have missed out on so much life due to my fears and anxieties... high school sweethearts, prom, dances, school clubs, planning to go to a decent school instead of settling for the bottom of the pile because it was cheap and convenient (and not applying or even looking anywhere else), getting addicted to heroin, weed, drugs in general, totaling my car. I hate my life and want to die

>be me
>17
>fatty, not super overweight, but 194 at 5’8” doesn’t look good on anyone
>decide to get in shape
>fast forward 9 months
>18, fit as fuck
>still too autistic to go after girls
>developed bulimia, now can’t stop thinking about food
>also body dysmorphic most times

Is this what making it is like lads?

Bruh, just think of it like a stripper or a really hot but not competent bartender. No one fell in love, no lives were saved, but you had fun. And get tested, 99% you're fine, but check to be sure.

If you dont wake up with a smile on your face you gotta make a change dog

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I'm Canadian. What "trust worthy" website did you use?

>Decent life, no student debt and am not a virgin
>Mild assburgers, symptoms of ADHD, family history of depression, bipolar and insomnia (which I used to have)
>Great great gramps killed himself after WWI and Uncle admitted to suicidal thoughts
All things considered, I'm relatively normal. But I try really fucking hard to make sure I stay that way.

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I'm 26 year old virgin who has never had a gf

What is even worse is that I'm fucking STILL dyel so I may as well not even try

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>degree in SE

Sexual Engineering?

I'm currently losing my shit. I think seeing shredded sick cunts on this website all day has fucked my mind. Now I think I'm fat and I honestly can't tell if my standards are too high or not.

Let me tell you what user.

I just "dropped out" (left with a Master's) of the best PhD program in my field in the country.

I saw what I needed to do to be the world's best at something, it was a life similar to the one you're living. I decided that I didn't want to do that.

I'm going to graduate with my masters. I'm going to get a nice 40 hour a week job in engineering. Maybe I'll marry my engineering girlfriend and we'll live together in a cheap house in the Midwest. On the weekends we can go hiking and have our friends over for dinner and sit by the fire pit outside together.

Maybe I could actually afford a little pole barn out here, to set up a home lab to do all the shit I wanted to do in my PhD program, but without the bullshit.

I finally feel like I grew the fuck up. I don't want to be some celebrity scientist, I don't want to chase Fame in my field. I just want a house and a wife, and to be comfortable and to put food on the table. I want to have kids one day, and I want to be a part of their lives. I don't want to work so much that they grow up without a father. I want to set an example of a balanced life, where you work hard at what you do, but you don't forget about the community you live in.

But I think most of all, I don't want to put anything, not wealth or success or luxury, before my family, friends, neighbors, and community

>masters degree/best PHD in country in engineering on fit

par for the course

Im so pathetic.
>Really want to fuck one of those pale Korean qts
>Know that doing so wont solve any of my problems
>Still irritates the shit out of me when Im at the gym

I cant score with them. Its so fucking hard and I know its a stupid thing to get angry over.

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>escort
>squirt

Expensive escorts are sex actors. Performers. She peed on you.

are you not asian
prob not
well i think u could score on those psycho hapas or really slutty azns

I dont even know where to meet those in Toronto. All I fucking see are international qts. Is Tinder/Bumble still a thing?

Special Ed

>19 and /fat/ but trying to work on it
>addicted to sex
>in a college I despise
>parents won't let me leave and go to community college
>stuck in shitty liberal arts school
>can't afford to leave
>parents are straight-up manipulating me to stay
>feel like I'm ruining my life

I don't think I'm asking for much. I want to be Veeky Forums, want a comfy job and a nice group a friends, and a qt wife to have a family with. Is that too much?

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I've got a psychiatrist appointment today.

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