Is everything okay with you today, Veeky Forums?

Czech

I'm leaving Poland and sad that I won't see this guy again till he's an adult.

tell them you found something you enjoy doing more for 4+ hours out of your week? it's not like you stop existing after you stop having game night with them

i finally got my shit together and showed up early for saturday night game night and my entire group is miffed that i'm trying to get their attention because they were prepared for me to be held up by work as usual and not make it until like 5+ hours from now. so now i'm sitting here and watching them not want to play until the time they're used to rather than the time we originally tried to set up for. fun!!

Veeky Forums related:
I'm playing an online game with my long-distance friends, and although it's fun I seriously miss playing with them in the same room. Something is just missing otherwise.

Not Veeky Forums related:
My fiancée suffers from a chronic pain condition, and she went through an episode at a party. Poor woman was so embarrassed with how she scared everyone, it convinced her to request a medical marijuana card to better manage the pain.

Not really sure, then, dude. Maybe work on your music during the weekends until you can release some independent stuff, then see how that does before you decide what to do from there.

I have an amazing campaign with a great world, great players and great characters, but I haven't played in three weeks and won't play for three more weeks. And even before that, we only played every two or three weeks, because university is just sucking away every second of my life. For four months now, all I do is get up at seven, go to campus, go home, learn until 1:30 am and go to sleep, barring the few weekends I took out to play. Seven days a week, no free day.
It'll easy up in three more weeks, but fucking hell, it's getting to me. I just want to DM.

I've got a lump in my intestines that's interfering with my appetite. Hopefully it's not something too major, but since there's been no serious stool or vomit problems it should pass.

Also I really hate painting tanks, and need to finish three of them.

I'm kind of irrated about how little we know about Mortasheen's progress, or even how the game works.

Just give us something, fuck.

Set down and talk to them. Maybe they would be fine with going along with your idea of fun, maybe some other arrangement can be found.
Playing when you don't have fun isn't helping anyone.

So what, the entire group is there but no one is willing to play because they're used to starting later? That sucks, user

Do they not like you or something?

As the end of the year approaches I am doubting myself as a teacher. My students are far less inclined to complete work in these last few weeks, and many of them do not arrive to class regardless.

I have a great passion to instill a love and understanding of the English language to students for whom reading is the most awful punishment, and I cannot help but to feel that I have failed.

Everyone in my gaming group has a crush in one of the girls and this has made her unsufferable. Unfortunately I'm not blameless on this myself. Worse part is, she's the best roleplayer, probably why people crush her. But i feel that kicking her would sorta be like taking the heart out of the group.

had another slow day at my store, been open for just over 3 weeks, slow days kill me because I just feel like I can't do anything to fix it

Let me guess, double major? Music major? Or even post-grad?

Don't see how you could be so swamped otherwise, I would give anything to go back to my college days. So much free time, everything I would ever need within walking distance, I could meet people without too much hassle... Christ, working in a cubicle farm sucks.

my girlfriend sleep's and loves 2 other men and i knew this when i entered the relationship. She told me this before i entered the relationship but i did it anyway, being young at the time.

years pass, we grew together and I want to be together but we always fight and she stills loves the other two men. I feel like my love life is going to be a failure, that although I have goals, I don't enjoy working towards them and although I'm a hedonist (i believe my only point/reason to live in life is to enjoy myself) I feel that I've been through too much shit to be totally happy.

I've been off my 12 hour factory job for 3 days now and my dreams have been nothing but me working since it no longer feels right not to since I know I need money. Especially for my goals.

In the end I'm not happy although I'm trying to do what always makes me happy.

I could list my relationship problems, the lack of respect i feel from work and my friends, etc but it all just boils down to this:

I'm not happy and being happy is my only reason for being alive.

Let me explain.

No, there's too much. Let me sum up: I'm human refuse circling the drain As a kid I was wrongly medicated in a way that drove me insane, then sent to an alternative school circumstantially run by tough love fundamentalist christians who would throw me to the ground, twist my arm behind my back, and sit on me to where I couldn't breathe routinely, because I was effeminate and they thought I was doing it for attention. This lead to my first psychotic break at the age of 15 and my expulsion from public school. I was enrolled in community college but was so fucked up I didn't get anywhere with it, and failed to take ownership of myself which lead to a lot of irreparable damage.

After bouts with homelessness, alcoholism, and an attempt to get my life back on track, I would up with 6 associates degrees because reasons, but can't find a job because reasons. I'm currently a year away from finishing my bachelors and not sure if I'll be able to because of issues with depression and psychosis. The fucked up thing is, I LIKE being psychotic. My brain has carved a hidey hole for me away from reality, and crawling into it is one of the only things that makes me happy anymore. I've literally been using stimulants/attempting magick/exposing myself to stressful situations to try and trigger psychotic thinking, because apparently I'm such an addict to my own abnormal psychology that I'd rather talk to a hallucination of a dragon in my head/feel like I'm possessed by her than, I dunno, graduate, function, not spiral recklessly towards certain disaster.

Oh and I own and carry guns.

Opened your own business?

I wish Quest people weren't so obnoxious about not having their threads on the /qst/ board. They're the Furries of Veeky Forums with how they clutter things up.

You know your own life user but I'd not be in a relationship like that. Not because of the polygamy but because it feels toxic to you. Working that much, you need someone who's mora avaible, I think.

You sound like you teach in an inner-city school, user. Which can be damn tough, but don't let it get you down. You can never get through to everyone, but the ones you do have an impact on will remember you for the rest of their lives.

yeah, it's been fun and exciting but some days I just stand in my store for like 11 hours and do basically nothing, it's days like those that you have all the time in the world to tally up just how much money it costs to run a store

From experience I can tell you that a teacher's biggest mistake is to become too idealistic and fall in love with the idea of teaching.
All you can do is give opportunity to learn. If you are fair, give them opportunity to apply themselves and don't orbit around dusty old shit nobody care's about, you've done your job and failed no one.

I'm trying to figure out how to kill myself before my parents realize that I've dropped out of college after six years of struggling towards a degree that I've found out I'm not smart enough to hold.

I highly reccomend you see a professional. If not for your own safety, but for the safety of others. You don't even need to stop fantasizing; you jsut sound like you need someone to talk to who actually has some idea of what you're going through.

you have one of the hardest teaching professions since english is bullshit. reading is one of the only things you might actually succeed in getting them to do. You just have hit them with something in their interests. high school: gossip, sex, drugs, music, games, sports, cars and/or fantasy.

I just don't think some of these guys are going to learn from all this social interaction and simulated scenarios. They're going to be asocial losers for the rest of their life. And I'm kinda worried they'll rub off on me.

No, I am irritable and full of regret.

Thank you for asking.

Former teacher here, that is normal regardless of subject you're teaching. You either get used to it or quit to pursue another, presumably better paid and less stressful job.

I have a psychiatrist and a psychologist. I have for a year and a half or so. Thanks though.

IT, the workload is part of the screening process.
First comes the qualification exam, then comes the cutting. Gotta break those 1000 down to 200.

What do you sell?

Have a laptop?

LEARN SOMETHING

ocw.mit.edu/courses/economics/

I just bought nearly fifty pounds of meat for my son's graduation party that we are sharing with my brother's son since they're both graduating at the same time. Today I found out that my brother's son may not actually be graduating and only half the expected people are going to show up. What am I going to do with nearly 25 pounds of flesh?

It's a UPS Store, shipping, print, boxes stuff like that, I am hoping of opening about 3 eventually, the shipping and printing from it would seriously reduce costs for a Game store I dream about opening one day

This is the problem. I understand why they don't go to quest, but I disagree with the reason.

Quest doesnt have enough 'foot traffic' for new quests to bloom, and even though anyone going there is going there for quests, there's really not as much movement as Veeky Forums. So holding a quest there is less appealing then here. They are not wholly welcome here but not wholly shunned either, so they still figure that it's cost benefit better to stay here.

That said, having a board wholly dedicated to your interests and still refusing to use it for the purpose it was created, and instead using another board, is really obnoxious and annoying. The fact that is somewaht Veeky Forums related make it less bad but still feels like someone is making threads and posting pictures of cars in one of the porn boards, you know?

Don't have kids. They suck out all your free time.

Right now? He's out on a bike-ride with the mother. I've got a blesses 10-20 minutes.

>don't orbit around dusty old shit nobody care's about

>care's about

They need some understanding of the underpinnings of Western literature before we can do anything exciting in class. The reason many of these students hate reading is because many of them are ignorant of the historical and literary sources from which many of their required readings are inspired. The dusty old shit is quite fascinating, and you can imagine my surprise when my student's became excited as they read The Metamorphosis.

More than half of my students do not read at grade level.

Over the last year or so, I've learnt two things about myself:

1) I feel horribly inadequate. In all things. Hobbies, creative skills, my relationships... everything. I feel like I can't acheive anything worthwhile because I lack the necessary skills or talents.

2) I am so throughly and absolutely anxiety riddled that I'm too afraid to try and improve myself for fear of failure.

The result is an eternal spiral of self-hatred for failure to "pick myself up by my bootstraps", or whatever the phrase is, and being so utterly terrified of humilaiting falure that I can't correct it. Which, of course, makes me feel even more worthless.

Oh, and my SO is suicidal. So I feel like I'm a failure there too.

i have been doesn't solve the problem of nobody coming to the store, I have read like 3 novels, listened to a bunch of lectures and podcasts, but none of that helps the business

Can't say I know that feel, bro.

I basically stole my store away from my dad when I got out of college, he started it but it was one of many for him and more like a hobby that bled money. It's been hard getting it back on track, but it's mine and only mine, I hate it and I love it at the same time.

I'd probably have given up on it if I didn't have my college sweetheart waiting for me at home, doing the housewife thing.

Surround yourself with people that support you and your goals. Best of luck to you, bro.

its a curse, an addiction, and love. Its not fake or skin deep but its faulty as hell. A painful, toxic love.

If a man who only knew how to walk on his hands, tried to walk on his feet, it would be weird.

I do not know how to have a 1v1 relationship anymore. nor one with less strife or arguments. But i refuse to leave, because we have both tried, but can not.

A vicious cycle but we are unable to leave each other so the only other course is to get so good together that we can leave the other two.

I sometimes (very often) forget that my goals exist to make me happy. Or, they were suppose to. Now they feel more like responsibility or requirements to live.

Ah, thanks for clarifying. I've been considering doing some studying for certifications on the side, but maybe the barrier to entry is higher than I thought...

Nah, I'm pretty good. Pretty pleased with myself, everything's turning up my way. Lost weight, got a job, making money, moving out, baked some cookies, really enjoying Super Mystery Dungeon I am shipping Ampharos and Mawile so hard, so hard, and started hammering out a new character to rejoin an ongoing campaign I had to drop out of awhile back.

Life's going the right way for the first time in years and man does it feel good.

Depends on where you live, I guess. I'm sitting in the middle of Europe here, system and setup is completely different and everything.
The merits and problems of free education, I guess. Still, I'm taking this over having to take out a huge loan any day of the week.

The Czech guy here, Kafka was a hack and The Metamorphosis is Whizzard-tier Magical Realm wankery.
You want good stuff? Try Capek.

Ah. I can imagine. There's a general-purpose mail store pretty close to my house and it seems like it's always empty when I go there.

I'm sick of my gm canceling every other week. I love the campaign but I don't put up with that shit after I had a gm fuck over 4 games in a row with cancellations and not showing. I love the guy but he's starting to piss me off with this shit.

Going on a trip overseas with my classmates. While we're going there to work, we're supposed to hang out a lot and whatever.
I like my classmates and they like me as well but I'm the guy that everyone knows and likes, but that nobody is friends with. I fear that I'll spend my breaks working alone in my tent or sulking instead of hanging out.

>A vicious cycle but we are unable to leave each other so the only other course is to get so good together that we can leave the other two.
Is that what you two have agreed on, or what you hope to one day convince her?

Watched a man die the other day, apparently it was a suicide.

You're here for such a short time, don't check out early.

They're 16. They don't care about epistemology.

>care's
I'm German and it's one in the morning here, so whatever.
Just pick and choose the actually interesting shit from the list and prepare it in an interesting way.
Nibelungenlied can be cool story to experience, but if you have to read the entire thing in Old High German it murders any enjoyment you might have.

I'm pretty sure they designed their schedule around him so they probably do enjoy his company.

Better than most of the thread I assume, but still sad. We went to our career wizard's funeral today. Some Punk-ass 16 year old decided it would be hilarious to see how fast her family's car could go. Apparently she pancake'd the car against a brick wall and got admitted to the ER. Our friend never made it that far.

> feel inadequate
> have an SO
Choose one and only one

already happening.

we love each other, try to be together (1v1), argue, fight, get mad, decide that this will never work, try and leave, fail, calm down, realize/remember that we love each to bits, repeat.

we have both tried to leave but it doesn't work.

We have semi-agreed on the last bit. we both agree that their needs to have a lot done before that will happen and that this cycle needs to end. but, alas, i know that neither will happen.

We've reached an emotional stalemate. We care too much to leave even when we try our hardest, but are too argumentative and angry to justify her leaving two other people she cares about that don't fight with her.

I like a girl at my university but she's about to leave and I've still got a couple of years. Guess I just don't know if I can nut up enough to tell her before she goes or even if it's a good idea to do so.

You can do what I did. Change my name and leave town before the questions set in.

I've had an immensely satisfying couple years since building a life up on my own terms. Worked warehouse for awhile, saved up some money and took night classes and became a structural welder. I make better money than I would have with my fucking useless degree.

I even have a dog! He's the best!

Fellow code monkey here - the way people go around the workload in my college is teaming up.
Say you have three projects in three classes - Vanilla C pointer mess, Assembly for embed device and some C# graphic bullshit. You get three people and each does one project three times. The point is that half the challenge is understanding the principle, once you have the principle, writing the same code again, even in a completely different way that could be never tied to the first version, is a piece of cake. Obviously you need trustworthy people.
Or you outsource the projects, I've been doing this (as in, writing projects for other people) ever since I graduated.

This depends on the level of pain you want to risk, and the chance that you won't be successful.

I'm trying to figure out a gift to buy my long distance girlfriend before I visit her for the second time.

Also I'm considering either IT or becoming a radiology technician.

Shit, didn't know you're European. I'd take the crazy hours over the lifetime of crippling debt, too.

War With Newts? What 16 y/o wouldn't love the story of underwater nigger nazis?

>The Czech enters the thread

out of my depressed way, this guy is currently winning at the shittiest life. I feel for you.

I've got some stuff about which I could complain, certainly, but this thread's getting awfully negative.

I've been going to an open mic night occasionally. I went a few weeks ago and then again last week, and both times I was very well-received and the emcee singled me out with some very kind words.

It's not gonna be my career, not least of all because my stage fright makes it so 3-5 minutes on stage is about all I can take, but it's a pretty fun hobby and it's always a warm feeling to know you've got a talent.

On a more speculative note, the guy who went right after me was supar cyute, like, omigaw (and also funny, of course). I wanna find out what his deal is.

Don't cheat yourself out of the rest of your life. You owe yourself more than that.

There's this book. Reportedly it's pretty good and info is accurate. But AFAIK it's not available in English.

Veeky Forums related issues: so i've gone through the nearby stores for anything tabletop related and the situation looks dire. All the mtg and yugioh tables are THE epitome of stereotypical cancer native to them. I wish i was kidding but its all googled up decks that win in a few rounds and no one plays casual. The rpg scene is either kids in highschool and i feel massively out of place as a 23 year old when i play with them and every group that does shit through the stores are either complete creepers who desperately want people to play their super original setting using highly modified systems that are either so convoluted you can't touch them or so changed they're essentially an entirely different system you could have just used or its just terrible players who either can't RP or play shit like rape loli's (4 different people over the years tried this i shit you not), dumbarians that kill literally everything robbing everyone a chance to RP, or paladumbs who also kill anything before we get a chance to RP. Because its through the store these people tend to flow between groups so i plain just can't get away. 5 years i've been looking for a group to call home and its killing me. Apparently the city has a huge scene but its a 3 hour drive away and parking is literally impossible i've tried and the damn metro transit system dies at 6pm so if i don't bring my car i'm trapped and have to pay an $70 cab fare.

Non/tg/ related: the pain, depression, and migraines have gotten a lot worse recently, i've started coughing up blood again, and its getting harder to move each morning. At first chalked it up to weather change as that always happens but the weathers normalized and my shits not going away. Not sure how much more of this i can take.

I remember being jazzed as hell for King Lear and Hamlet back in school but despising the rest of the Shakespeare we had to read. Seriously fuck Romeo and Juliet, Mercutio was the only good person in that play.

I don't think anyone in my class read The Invisible Man for AP English, we just all spark noted that shit because OH WOE IS ME THE BLACK MAN is fucking tiring when that's been the only narrative about black people we've ever heard across any form of media.

I can't even remember any of the other books I was made to read through school except Slaughterhouse Five which was actually very good. Oh yeah and Wuthering Heights, I remember that one suddenly in a fit of fury. Goddamn that shitty ass fucking book and the amount of papers we had to write about its godawful fucking characters.

>OH WOE IS ME THE BLACK MAN
>Loved Hamlet, which is literally OH WOE IS ME THE DANISH MAN

A close friend killed himself about 4 weeks ago, and I've been struggling lately.
I've got two research essays due in the next ten days, one of which I haven't even started. But I'm having such trouble with focus that I'm really struggling to do more than an hour or two of work in a day.
I'm also playing in a dnd 5th game and to be honest I don't give a shit about dnd. It's being run by a literal autist who keeps on going on about 'muh sandbox' while we are clearly on extremely tight rails.
I'm considering holding a coup and running either runequest 3rd, delta green, whfrp2e or rogue trader. I like percentile systems get off my case because I'm a better gm and I'm SUUUUUUUUPER fucking bored with dnd 5th.

or King Lear
>OH WOE IS ME THE OLD MAN

Macbeth

> OH WOE IS ME THE MENTAL SCOTSMAN

There was a good bit more stabbing in Hamlet and it was a gateway to enjoying Rosencratz and Guildenstern Are Dead, which was a case of actually using the reference material to better understand/enjoy a derivative piece of work. You know that thing that they always harp on about why you should read the old stuff about?

Invisible Man doesn't have any derivative media to enjoy that you wouldn't already understand from having been forced through a decade of american education.

The funny thing about classic literature. I've read Les Miserables back at the elementary (didn't have computer until highschool so I read a lot back then). I watched the movie (musical) adaptation recently to see how much I remember of it. I recalled pretty much everything except I completely forgot about Eponine, like not just her part in the story but that she exists at all...

Do what any adult does when that shit happens. Shut your emotions down and shove them in a deep dark corner of your mind you'll never visit, withdraw from the world and into yourself just enough to function but also not be phased by anything, and finally toughen your skin a bit so when shit gets bad real quick you won't be bothered as much.
Now you're insulated from the long hard grind of day to day monotony AND the sharp pain of sudden tragedy.

Midsummer Night's Dream
>OH WOE IS ME THE HORNY FUCKWIT LOST IN THE WOODS

Guess who probably has major depressive disorder!

Welcome to the club user.

>Midsummer Night's Dream
Fuck the fae, like seriously, man, they're such a dicks!

come to think of it, many Shakespeare plays can be reduced to a central character or pair of characters dealing with their shitty self-inflicted or otherwise inevitable problems

Twelfth Night

> OH WOE IS ME THE CROSSDRESSERS

The only difference between Shakespearean comedy and Shakespearean tragedy is how many people die.

Henry IV

>OH WOE IS ME I'LL NEVER BE AS COOL AS FALSTAFF

A Comedy of Errors

>OH WOE ARE ME, MY TWIN, MY SERVANT, AND MY SERVANT'S TWIN

Not exactly Shakespear but The Sun Also Rises

>OH WOE IS ME THE ALCOHOLIC EUNUCH

I've been reading a bit of Marcus Aurelius and Seneca and those other Greeks and Romans who were keen on killing themselves.
Live a virtuous life, right?
And one week a year to spend on the kitchen floor wrapped in a blanket, eating and drinking only bread and water. Because hey, shit, things could always be worse.

At least there are two old men saying that.

Also a little bit of OH WOE IS ME THE GULLIBLE MAN for Edgar.