Why can't I stop thinking about it?
Frustrated and sweaty, I shove my blanket unto the floor. Who needs that anyway when it's so stupid hot in here? I must have forgotten to close the window this morning too because everything smells of smoke and makes my nose itchy! But that's not what's wrong. I need to...
I don't know. I just don't understand at all. I KNOW the kiss was just a silly mistake, and that's okay. I'm not really bothered by that. She was just confused, thought I was someone else. Funny, not a problem!
I still don't know who she WAS thinking of, but I told her she didn't have to tell me if she didn't want to. So obviously she didn't tell me anything. And that's... Well I don't LIKE not knowing, but I know Amalia wouldn't tell me. I've tried it before. Not EXACTLY like this, sure, but I know that when I try to make her tell me something she doesn't want to she just disappears completely. Sometimes for days! Wherever she used to live she must have played hide and seek -all the time- because she is just impossible to find when she's hiding!
But it's not a problem. Well I REALLY want to know, obviously, but I can totally wait until she's ready to tell me, give her some space. As long as it's not too long.
But when it happened, when we... I kinda liked that feeling. But then why do I..?
Gah!
I'm never going to sleep like this! I need to... to do something! I don't know, just something! Everyone's probably already asleep though, just like I should be. But I can't figure this out in here!
I'm going to...
>Go for a walk around town. Maybe some fresh air will help me sleep?
>Go wake up Sis. Maybe she can say something helpful? Maybe.
>Go wake up Papa. He probably won't mind... too much?
>Something else? (Write-in!)