>apply for a game on roll20 that seems to have a really good DM advertisement
>see some really good player applications
>the likes of a Warlock, who was once a Paladin that was brainwashed as an orphan child to do the church and state's bidding before breaking free of her vows after realizing her freedom is important, forced to become a Warlock and ironically serve a patron to defend herself now that she's wanted
>a Halfling Barbarian who grew up among humans and was always bullied as weak. Became tough and strong simply because he hated being pushed around and was soon kicking the shit in of tall humans. Became a gang leader and then accidentally killed an innocent bystander in a turf war. Realized how immature he was being, began adventuring to fix wrongs
>get excited, make my nobleman Fighter who was once a naive, arrogant, proud man. Was so overzealous he led a charge in to the enemy ranks despite advice from his closest friend it was dangerous. Led in to an ambush, has his entire squad slaughtered, has to be saved like an ass. Gives up being a soldier after realizing what a shit he was and is doing some mercenary work and traveling to grow up
>I get in
>but not the player applications I really thought were good
>instead, some fucking furry Tabaxi monk raised in the wilderness by other animals and now trying to get in to society
>a generic Rogue guy who was rich but became a thief for the shit and giggles
>a Cleric who worships something and bio is basically she wants to do good and save everyone
What a motivational killer. I mean, I'm still going to play and not be a flake. Any moments like this with you guys where potential good players and characters are dropped and you feel really bad because you wanted to play with them?
