In crypto since 2015, help me

>wake up to the sound of my alarm clock at 9 AM
>send message to gf saying I love her and pretend I'm going to uni
>fight sleepness till she answers something
>collapse in my bed until 22h
>get up with sore throat/nose due to the constant heat generated by my mining rigs
>send gf some good night messages
>listen to messages from my parents asking if I'm still alive
>consider calling them since it has been two months since the last time
>mfw it's 22h, I'll call them tomorow
>remove my earplugs and listen to the monotonous sound of 18 HD 7950's fans spinning at full speed
>hear my polish neighbor screaming her lungs at her 4 y/o child
>put earplugs back and enjoy the little hum of everything working perfectly
>drink 1 L of tap water to recover from all the sweat I've lost during my sleep
>open laptop and check miner stats, stacking wallets and masternodes
>boil water for instant ramen bowl
>Open btcktalk to check for new projects, airdrops and read some whitepapers/yellowpapers
>"Really convincing project, great team I'm 100% behind you guys!! When airdrop coins to my wallet when sir?"
>open Cryptotwitter to feel the tendance from the pros
>cryptoeconomist wannabe tweeting BS about how blockchains are value-neutral and not political
>drama about the trve vision of Nakamoto ensue between BTC maximalists and Bcash tards
>reflink spamming by bots
>Vitalik Buterin post something I can't understand because we don't have the same kind of autism
>open Veeky Forums
>pink wojacks and braaaaposts everywhere
>rageclose Veeky Forums and fap to traps on /gif/
>open Kraken, Bitmex, Cryptopia, Bittrex
>REEEEE at the endless captchas and 2FA
>work on tradingview on several pairs then place orders
>re-boil my now-cold water for ramens
>re-log in on exchanges
>REEEE at 2FA, mail confirmations and captchas
>7 AM, close my positions and go to sleep with 1% in my stack of fiat
>drink 1 litre of water and cry myself to sleep

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>wake up at 9AM
>text BS to gf
>consider calling parents but too tired plus I don't know what to say since I've not seen the daylight for one month
>hear Polish cunt screaming at her kids again, so we might be saturday or sunday
>drink 1 L of water
>nose bleeding from constant soreness
>get down the stairs and pick my mail up
>my aliexpress package was sent back to shenzen because I failed to pick it up on time
>mfw I had 23 days to pick it up and it was sitting there, 5 minutes from home
>take a look at the street through the half open door
>mfw it's winter already
>get back to my cryptocave before coming across one of my neighbors
>sleep until 22H
>text gf
>try to fix some PCIe riser
>order a new one on aliexpress
>trade
>update wallets/mining softwares
>consider suicide, check if I can buy an helium tank with bitcoins
>mfw it only accept bcash
>cry myself to sleep once again with 1% more cash

I've hoarded 200k€ in crypto or in fiat on exchanges and I own 20k worth of electronics. I survived some of the worst crashes, scams attempts, dramas, forks, hacks... I'm knowledgable to most blockchain protocols, memes, trading strategies, ICOs...
Did I make it guys? If so, why is it harder and harder to wake up everyday?

fuck man, are you me?
even going on gif
i also think im going mental over constant noise of my rigs and browsing exchanges and hanging out on discords
ive hoarded 50k in crypto and 50k in gear
about 3% in fiat
i havent left feedback on 40 alixpress orders even tho they spam 3x/day
a guy from another part of the world is my man in the mirror
this is the most surreal moment
is this real life?

You have a gf that you never see?

that's one way of looking at it

Reflection op man, come back and say something.

>is this real life?
I don't know anymore.
I've ordered 10 Obelisk DCR1 ASIC from the first batch and I don't how I'll get them with electricity, space and fresh air.
I'll probably die in a house fire along with my polish cunt neighbor. That will give her a good reason to scream for once.
She works for a charity in Nepal. She came back for christmas and I rented a storage unit for one week to hide most of my mining gears, only kept my quiet and cold Blake256 rig for her to see.

i am enjoying this, please continue

i dont know either. i was skepcital about bizposters who had like 2mil and complaining about life and happiness ...
I cant even read a book anymore, my brain is probably fried from trans porn dopamine rushes and i am looking for normal job on the side even tho i actually dont need one.