OP, I think you are legit retarded. I just want you to be very, very aware of this. I am also fairly certain that most of the posters in this thread also believe you to be severely disabled. On top of this certainty is another even more likely certainty, that your own mother also feels that you must be, in all likelihood, diagnosably handicapped, even if she can't bring herself to buckle you into your car seat and drive you to the local pediatrics to get a professional's opinion.
OP, a recipe is the most necessary thing in the world of cooking if you do not know how to cook a dish.
Do you know how to prepare hawaiian style macaroni salad? Most people don't, so I'm going to assume the same of you. If you wanted to prepare hawaiian style macaroni salad but you do not know a recipe... then what the fuck are you going to do?
You can spend incredible amounts of time and money making the dish over and over and over again, changing ingredients along the way in the hope of getting closer and closer to what you were wanting. Literal dozens, possibly hundreds of hours and dollars.
Or! Or you can look up a recipe. And then you can make that recipe, exactly as it appears. You have only had to make the dish once. You've only had to spend half an hour making it. You've only had to spend $5 in ingredients.
And the best part! Now you know what this recipe tastes like! Which means, and follow me here, OP... you can adjust it.
You want more of this seasoning, less of this veggie, add this other veggie, maybe a bit less of this, more of that, whatever your heart desires!
Because you now have a fucking baseline to work from.
I'm pretty damned certain you're just really upset that your mom told you to clean your room or else you won't get any dinosaur shaped chicken tendies for dinner, despite you knowing that there is a dirty dish rag on the counter next to the sink! Scandal!
Your mother deserves better than you.