Writing and antidepressants

Any writers here have experience with antidepressants? Did they affect your writing at all?

Right now I'm "self-medicating" to get myself through the day. But I'm still pretty prolific as far as writing goes. Everyday I write 1000 words minimum, and have a pretty good backlog of stories to revisit. I've recently published 2 stories in small literary journals.

I just relapsed from a 3 month period of sobriety. Getting off pills and booze, running 6 miles a day, and eating healthy didn't seem to help me. I felt the same then as I do now. I feel everything very intensely. It's like I have paper-thin skin. Getting drunk or high helps me "turn down the volume", so to speak.

I scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist, but that's a month away. I'm thinking of going to a GM and getting a script for Zoloft or something. All this drug abuse is taking a toll on my health.

From my own experience;
> Try to go to a counsellor before seeing psychiatrist, if you haven't already
> Everyone's creativity is affected differently on ADs; I became a lot more productive, for example
> And of course, if you find that you don't like how the ADs affect you, you can always go off them/try a different medication (I'm on escitalopram now)

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Are ADs useful for dealing with internet and porn addiction?

this isn't a self-help board

go to /r9k/ to discuss prescription psych meds

Holy shit OP. Are you me?

I wanted to make this same thread but didn’t have the balls. Glad you did.

I’ve begun feeling that I might even be bipolar. I had been self medicating with weed, smoking all day. It was the only I felt happy.

I too feel everything so deeply. Any word a person says to me can ruin my entire day. Even a weird look can send me into a spiral. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me.


I also run every day and eat clean as a whistle. Some days my run takes me to a state of nirvana - other days it does nothing.

Tomorrow I’m seeing a doctor and a therapist. First time sessions.

I write much better now that I have motivation to get myself out of bed.

Best of luck my dude.

OP here

I'm not sure. My mood fluctuates too quickly to be considered bipolar. I also don't have the sort of manic states that compliment the bouts of severe depression associated with Bipolar disorder.

Borderline Personality Disorder, on the other hand, seems to resonate with me more than any other sort of psychological disorder I've read about, mainly because of my impulsivity and fluctuating personal relationships.

I don't think it would be a good idea to bring this up during my first session. Or maybe it would. I don't know.

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The antidepressants make it harder for me to write. My attention span is terribly on them, and my motivation doesn't exist.

On the other hand, I am completely incapable of writing when I'm actively suicidal, so I just work harder to write.

I'm most prolific right before I crash at night time, in the couple of hours after I take zopiclone, when I can churn out a couple of thousand words. Decent editing can be accomplished around midday.

You should mention it, man.

Pete Davidson on Marc Maron’s WTF talks about his experience with it. That would be a resource for you, I bet.

And I unfortunately do have the manic phases. The entirety of my mother’s side of the family has bipolar, so it wouldn’t surprise me if I did as well.

What AD did you get on? Are you clinically depressed or something else? Did it affect your dick?

It'll eat you up, Suraj. All the greats had to suffer for their art; the prayer is that you can make the art before it kills you.

thanks dude

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I would think so, since they kill your sex drive. They also are effective for obsessive-compulsive behavior.

Once I survived their curses and got off of them, went through severe withdrawal from psychiatric malpractice, they gave me an endless well of creative insight to draw from.

As Tolstoy once said, "happy people have no history"

Stay off antidepressants, as someone with mdd with psychotic features, talking to a therapist and adressing my problems did a lot more than the medications that zombified me. Trust me, I'm experienced in this subject. If I could turn back time and tell myself not to start medication, I would.

We Veeky Forums now.

It's about CBT (which, for better or worse, does not actually stand for cock-ball torture).

CBT >>>>> drugs

thanks my dudes

I got put on escitalopram. I wasn't diagnosed with anything, but I was incredibly suicidal; hence why I was put on the meds.
It did affect my sex drive, but nothing too debilitating. To be honest, I had a lot more sex after going on ADs