what are you retards even talking about?
bruhh I took lyk 4 drugs and now it's like WOWZA I don't identify wit myslf?!!1 :) XD XD ;)
are you not then that which is choosing not to identify with his cartesian ego?
"I choose not to identify with my thoughts, therefore I am" "I am not a self (therefore I am that which is making that non-identificatin with self)"
yu can't escape being a self. all your expeience has bult into it this sens of 'happeneing to me' 'mine' 'being felt by me'. your visual field is notjust free floating in some void, experienced by nothing, no it's YOUR visual field, looked at by your eyes, attached to your body, embedded within the YOUR specific socio-historical context (your own past, your families past, your countries past, the history of the human world , the scientific history of the world, etc)
I doubt I am a self, therefore I am that which doubts
you can't not be a self, well, at least you can't express it coherently to others.
maybe there are sefless experience such as when lost within a good taylor swift song (for example: goregous), or being completely observed into a movie, or completely droppedlost into a deep psytrip. but you can't then reflect on this experience without doing it through the mode of a self. it's some experience that happened in YOUR past
think of the self like an eye, that cannot look at itself, it is always behind that which is identifiying or in this thread not-identifying (which is still identification)
tldr I have taken over 35 drugs you can learn nothing from them you couldn't learn through basic philosophy