Is your decision truly yours?

Is your decision truly yours?

>“What is it, what nameless, inscrutable, unearthly thing is it; what cozening, hidden lord and master, and cruel, remorseless emperor commands me; that against all natural lovings and longings, I so keep pushing, and crowding, and jamming myself on all the time; recklessly making me ready to do what in my own proper, natural heart, I durst not so much as dare? Is Ahab, Ahab? Is it I, God, or who, that lifts this arm? But if the great sun move not of himself; but is as an errand-boy in heaven; nor one single star can revolve, but by some invisible power; how then can this one small heart beat; this one small brain think thoughts; unless God does that beating, does that thinking, does that living, and not I. By heaven, man, we are turned round and round in this world, like yonder windlass, and Fate is the handspike. And all the time, lo! that smiling sky, and this unsounded sea! Look! see yon Albicore! who put it into him to chase and fang that flying-fish? Where do murderers go, man! Who’s to doom, when the judge himself is dragged to the bar? But it is a mild, mild wind, and a mild looking sky; and the air smells now, as if it blew from a far-away meadow; they have been making hay somewhere under the slopes of the Andes, Starbuck, and the mowers are sleeping among the new-mown hay. Sleeping? Aye, toil we how we may, we all sleep at last on the field. Sleep? Aye, and rust amid greenness; as last year’s scythes flung down, and left in the half-cut swaths—Starbuck!”

no but i should still be punished if society thinks i should. i cant go around nilly dilly just killing people, although what i think is myself shouldnt really be blamed.

Why do you care faggot?
Do you control your emotions?
Can you control how you care about things?

Do you know how to care about caring?

Seriously, what does it matter to you?
I'll answer OP seriously if you answer the above questions. (Notice these answers are up to you individualy, and may not be true for me)

If you are serious, I wont judge your action but I'll judge you in to different ways
Either;
> actually thinks this way
>is in denial about him self (creates a 'demon')
>casts blame onto others by not owning his own self
>shows a split in personality, IE he think his ego is seperate from his being

Or
>is bait

Depend of what u think u are, i can say yes if i accept to be a context, a situation with multiples factors not isolable

everything I will to be, is

Oh guts, don't let them stop you, your cause is just, you are the hero.

Who else but yours would they be, and do you have single reason or piece of evidence to suggest your decisions aren't your own?

Not at all.
>you speak words
>english words
>mouth movements and guttural muscle activity
>you never have invented a single word
>all words come from before you
>they change meaning all the time
>they're attached to an image--that image might not be the same for you, as it is for someone else
>they just arrive in your head
>you use them to convey what you mean
>you might have never actually really communicated how you were feeling to any human being ever