Mental illness thread

Mental illness thread.

C’mon. I know most of you suffer from mental health issues, and I would guess a significant minority of you take psychiatric drugs. What are they? How do you cope? Has it affected your life, goals and/or dreams?

In the words of my silly, dumb dad: “being a little weird in the head is a price you pay for being one of the smart ones.”

Don't listen to your dad.
The trick is pretending to be normal.
Don't get over-crazy, it will ruin you.
Use anti-depressants and stimulants if you like but dont fucking think youre supposed to be the way you are if you know you arent normal.

I know I’m not normal, but I hide it pretty well. My family didn’t have a clue until I was admitted to the hospital, and even then they still had trouble understanding

look, the same thing happend to me.
I'm probably more normal than you could ever hope to be but I'm smart enough where i can seem kinda crazy.
The trick is just knowing when to shut up. Life is crazy and sometimes you just gotta keep the ball in your court. People won't understand because they're as scared as you are.
This is one of those times.

listing out diagnoses is banal and makes you feel like you're inviting scorn. but anyway: depression and ocd. was originally on lexapro, was switched to pristiq. didn't complete last year of high school, though still graduated due to medical exemption. didn't do exams for uni placement. haven't gone to any higher education. never employed. 2 years on. nothing. decline socialisation, haven't been to a party in 2 years, have a circle of friends. reading, good, though sometimes victim to neuroses - tune stuck in head, indecisive habits, indecision about what to read. writing is hard, hard. a writer is someone for whom writing comes harder, t. mann. yes, and yet, they must write. writing is difficult, sometimes comes in flurries, ecstasies, sometimes patient meditations, other times only with sweating and tortured effort, or minimal little lines, breadcrumbs. lots of thinking. sex sex sex. no addictions, except to a general recourse to pleasure. milquetoast browsing, punctuated by occasional swells of emotion and philosophy. always a thought for the inner nature, the essence, the noumenal. disdain for moralism, the jailor of my soul.

Youre normal but don't know how to control yourself.
That's my diagnosis.
Try being creative/crazy and maintaining this sort of boring outlook, then maybe i'll give a shit.

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I just have depression and panic disorder. It’s just been really hard on me over the last year. I was always able to hide it, but it all collapsed in on me one day—and nothing has really be the same since that day.
I’m afraid life will never be the same

I always had anxiety but at a certain point obsessive thoughts and paranoia got sprinkled in. Later, I got obsessed with death and existential fears. While trying to hyper-organize my life to feel more in control, my girlfriend left me and one of my good friends betrayed me. Then some PTSD. More than anything I need to reinvent myself. Whether that is some kind of pseudo-spiritual ritual, or coming to better terms with things. Maybe both. There's lots I'm proud of doing, but right now... life's in shambles. Absolutely disgusting. I've tried meds but I just get hypomania and feel like I'm the chosen one or something.

Name a writer who wasn’t mental ill

dull prophet and peddler of "truth". the unsolicited friend who hangs around, fiddling, anxious to get a comment in, yet feigns some sort of detachment, carelessness. provokes anger and resentment in others so that they punish him with hostility. slinks away, sad and satisfied. must always demean another, try to invalidate him, appropriate some agency for himself.
that's my diagnosis.

I’m currently obsessed with death and plagued by existential fear. It’s what got me into philosophy; I’m trying to “figure it out.”

I'm all of those things but sad and unsolicited.
I'm the angel of truth descended upon your woe-is-me naievete.

Tough love

Schizoaffective bi polar type
Aripiprazole and Duloexetine

unsolicited is precise and correct here. there is no outlook, merely a mood and a bored, running description. what exactly do you think you are offering? hard words with little meaning or application, simply (easy) knives to drive into the confidence of another. what do you expect me to be offering you? as if the intention had been for you to give a shit.
dull, dull, dull.

Nutters, please don’t have kids.
It always amazes me 1. That the government doesn’t sterilize you as soon as you are diagnosed. 2. That you are able to find a woman mentally ill women crazy enough to breed with you.

If I can’t convince you nutters to stop the cycle, plan B is convincing the government to forcibly sterilize.

I should be sterilized for depression and anxiety? We should sterilize half of the Western world, then.

*irrevocably eliminates thousands of traits conducive to fitness in a sweeping collateral damage*

There's plenty of us who don't want them... but it's not like all of it is a genetic predisposition. Hope nothing traumatic happens to you dude, because none of us are wise enough to pick and choose what traits are best for future survival.

Generalized anxiety disorder I suppose, I don't know for sure. I used to get panic attacks at night, although they have gradually disappeared. Some kind of social anxiety where I'm not comfortable eating in public places/ in front of other people combined with an irrational fear of choking on food and dying. Never took any medication though, daily exercise, strength training, getting enough sleep and eating well have helped me a lot. Also I suppose I have mild OCD and paranoia, but i keep it in check somehow, not really a problem desu. Does anyone have any similar fears? I've always wondered.

OCD user with something similar here. I have an extreme fear of being seen barefoot by other people. Odd, but it's the domestic nakedness and vulnerability of it.

Surprisingly yes. Didn't choke, but incident where I almost passed out over lunch. Spent a long time disassociating and panicking that it might happen again. Still prefer eating alone.

I am glad to have no mental illnesses. Most of you seem to be proud of having them and positively form your identity off of them, rather than viewing them as things that need to be overcome and expelled.

Anyone would be glad

It's a thing that losers do.
It's a form of persecution that they can feel they earned.

>because none of us are wise enough to pick and choose what traits are best for future survival.
Depression certainly isn't one of them

>Despising yourself instead of recognizing flaws and approaching them realistically

>Not all of it is genetic predisposition

can you say that with enough certainty to enact widespread sterilisation? if depression is such a negative trait, why is it so prominent?

since society is now at the point where it is constantly experiencing rapid changes, a thousand years in a century sort of shit, perhaps its best to hold off on trying to eliminate "defective" genes until things settle down a bit. genes lose prominence in times where they make the individual less fit for their environment. if you decide to destroy everything that doesnt suit an environment that might not even be recognisable in 50 years, you're being stupid and rash.

Hamsun
Ibsen
Goethe
Zweig
Joyce
Camus
Tolstoy
Goncharov
Lermontov
Pushkin
Hugo
Montaigne
Bulgakov
Beckett
Chekhov
Calvino
Dumas
Dante
Wilde
Knausgård
Delilo
McCarthy
Pynchon
Orwell

I'm disgusted by myself and everyone I see and meet, but I'm trying to justify it by assigning some aesthetic potential to this state.

Yes
Yes

Inability to hold a job is a pretty clear sign of inability to raise a kid

I actually hate having mental health issues and wish it didn’t significant affect my life. Trust me, if I could take it away, I would. Just looking for others who have similar issues as a way to cope and continue to fight through this.
You just don’t know what it’s like and make up these things in your head to place yourself above other people.

>Hamsun
>Zweig
>Joyce
>Chekhov
>Knausgård
>not mentally ill
is this list a joke...

You’re dumb
You’re unsmart

I just got prescribed Alprazolam because of my anxiety. Yesterday I was too scared to take public transport to go to the dentist.
The doctor wanted to prescribe me tavor, but I'm never taking tavor again. I already went through tavor withdrawal once and fuck me if I ever do it again.

I'm in a strange siutation right now.
I've kind of given up trying to solve my problems but at the same it's like I'm waiting until I have enough motivation to try to overcome them again.