>be me
>wake up at 9 or 10 am still feeling tired
>read 40 pages of Atlas Shrugged but it's a bit boring and I feel like a consumerwhore
>start going through an engineering maths textbook to stop feeling like such a pleb
>the maths book is starting to get really boring and I just do the exercises without gaining a lot of understanding- a side effect of setting myself the goal of going through some of it for no reason and without real interest
>go through a tiny bit of SICP and am bored by it
>see review of it online saying how incredible it is
>suddenly get overwhelmed with the feeling that I have so much boring work to do in the future
>don't have the balls to follow my own preferences and intuitions
>too tired to go to the gym today so I leave flat at 3 pm to walk around central London and feel sad about life
>told myself yesterday was the last day of binging and coffee but decide today will be the last day- will go to McDonalds later today (and will inevitably have a second binge like I do on most Saturdays as I go home with ice cream and chocolate as I realise what an ugly beta loser I am)
>was going to borrow a book from the library about Romans to have something more entertaining to read but postpone it to later- the thought of walking through the streets as an ugly male holding a book while surrounded by normies feels overly affected and insincere, which could cause people to think I'm deluded with a false hope (same reason I don't do arm isolation exercises in the gym)
Be me
Just be yourself, bro!
What are you trying to say get to the point
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What type of music are you into Londonfrog?
It is the life of a beta ugly loser in 2018. The facts are below but I leave them out now for conciseness
>be me
>be an ugly beta 27 year old male with no friends or social experiences since school, no female attention ever, never been to pub, club or party
>too ugly and not normie enough to pass job interviews for better jobs
>become the ugly loser loner nobody talks to within one day of all my jobs
>have fully taken the blackpill / lookspill and know I will have a life ten times harder than any normie's
>feel like a cuck when working hard because women and Chads get everything handed to them
>being outside is demoralising because people seem disgusted by me but being inside makes me feel like my youth is gone
>get lied to by a society that wants to use me as a disposable battery
>have job in London that requires zero work but still feel bad
>know that 9-5 wageslavery will feel worse
It’s your own fucking fault for falling for the STEM meme
I was just at the British museum, feeling sad about seeing all the normies studying what they love during the primes of their lives
I just walked through the University of London area, feeling sad about seeing all the normie etc
Congrats on living a non-authentic life.
Either drop the "non-authentic" part or the latter.