How's you hanging Veeky Forums

>injuried again
>gain like 30 lbs on a year of recovery
>became a chubby depressed faggot
>nice job became shit since bussiness is going to shit
>thinking of starting my own bussines
>get invaded by fear of failure
>get nothing done and life goes by

Don't fuck fat girls

that's a no you orbiting faggot

Keep up the good work!

>it's nerve racking

How so? She already rejected your sorry ass

Koko from that show Golden? I forgot about that show.

>any tips?
Don't

>3 years of hard work
>finally have a stable job, insurance, apartment, new car
>fight my way out of depression over the course of the last year
>start running 6 months ago, start lifting 1 month ago
>keeping the house spotless, cooking healthy meals, staying motivated
>find over the course of the last three weeks that I actually have free time now
>actual, guilt-free free-time
>realize that I've neglected friends, hobbies, and other personal interests to get to this point
>having anxiety about this

I'm just venting a bit. I don't have anyone to tell this to.

Golden time, yes

>not lifting for the best girl, Linda
Faggot.

She's not that fat, her silhouette is still concave inward instead of a rectangle or oval. She's "thick"

there's nothing wrong with putting off bullshit to get your life together, don't feel guilty about it. take a deep breath my man

Perfect advice

Linda is shit and tried to make MC her beta orbiter. But when he finally started getting Koko to bend over and take his fat cock she wanted him back.

>Linda best girl
>wanting to relive your fantasies of being an orbiter

Pick both

Thank you.
I'm on the way to making it, I just need to get used to it.

You're her beta orbiter lmao

Recommend me some moeshit pham
All I've ever watched is mainstream anime

I like to think I have a pretty open mind, but in no way can I see Linda ever being even marginally better than Koko.

Golden time, it starts off a little slow but you'll soon warm up to it, Umaru-chan is pretty standard moe stuff and I recently finished Konosuba which I liked. I also heard K-On is pretty good but I've never seen it.

Ika Musume is actually good moeshit.

I'm stressing about finals. Also going to a community college is so depressing when all of your friends are at a university having the time of their lives.

Hate fuck her

Last fattie I lowered my standards for to get it
Out of slump made me lose my boner halfway through.

Told her that we were done and she left so fast she forgot to put her bra back on.

Was bad times desu... Regret doing it

strong mood changes the last couple weeks.

I turn 21 soon and I'm still a virgin, don't really give a fuck about sex but I feel lonley and unwanted.
I thought about suicide for fun the last days and it makes me feel warm and calm.. won't happen though.

> school was supposed to hook me up with a job for the next 8 months
> they ran out of work
> I'm now scrambling to find a minimum wage job outside my field so I can pay rent
> dark souls 3 doesn't run on my pc
> no gf

Feeling drained from permacut. (34 lbs since Sept) Wanna bulk but my BF % is in the high teens and stomach still sticks out further than chest...

Don't even look forward to lifting anymore, only enjoyment I get out of the gym is improving my running time now...

>tfw no strength gains for 8 months

>finals week last week
>exams on grad level diff geo and CFT
>did pretty well on CFT
>thought I did well on the diff geo exam as well
>lift, go home, shower
>trying to get comfy but exams problems keep popping up in my head
>realized that I've done several problems wrong on my diff geo exam
>mfw
>anxiety kicks in, heart palpitations and cold sweat
>distract myself with a bit of porn
>get results back
>got A- on CFT and B on diff geo
>feels like a rock has been lifted off of my chest
>fapped again

>she broke up with me on Wednesday
Feels bad man...

>lost job
>been applying places but no one is calling me back
>about to run out of money
>probably gonna an hero if i'm not eligible for unemployment
>will probably drown myself, hopefully it doesn't suck too much
>think i might start maining guile in sfv

we're all gonna make it brahs!

>
its worse to keep having that guilty free time with friends, now that you have acknowledge it go enjoy yourself

Look up borderline disorder

I wish i knew what it was 2 years and 3 dysfunctional relationships ago.

fuck moe shit, watch shoujo
either will fill your lonely feels or make you crave someone

> Sukitte Ii na yo
> Ao Haru Ride
> Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun

>Finals week
>Friends birthday was last friday, so planned learning around it
>Drink a lot
>Girl I have a crush on is there
>She just started dating my best friend
>He's also at the party
>We're chilling around a fire with a pretty large group
>Best friend, crush, crush's friend, another good friend of mine and I decide fuck it and pop some 2CB
>Chill some more at the fire
>Drugs start kicking in
>Me and crush decide to walk for a bit and sit somewhere not to far from the party
>Tripping balls at this point
>Have endless conversations about absolutely nothing and continiously laughing our asses off
>Go back inside eventually
>Go to someones room with the other people I took drugs with
>Never have I tripped so hard in my life, feels like things are going back in time, can't tell what's real anymore
>Suddenly awake from the void and everything feels clear again
>Chill some more and eventually go back home
>Sleep for hours
>Wake up
>Take train back to my own place near university
>Take some ritalin (kinda like adderall)
>Prepare for exams
>Can't stop thinking about crush
>Know that she likes me, told me she finds me attractive multiple times
>Keeps kissing me on my lips whenever we take molly together
>Know that I can't keep hanging out with her even though we're very close friends
>Tfw just turned 21, never had a gf and still a virgin

Fuq the feels are killing me but I still have so much to do to prepare for exams

If she's your best friends girl and she is doing this, trust me from one user to another she us absolutely not worth it, talk to your friend and tell him what is going on, no girl is worth ruining friendships

>Got really wasted with good friends friday night
>Went to see a German comedian on Sat with my dad (it was a birthday present)
>cleaned my flat on Sunday
>Master thesis going well
>Signed up for a lmao5k in 2 weeks with colleagues
>going to a spring beer festival with a qt next weekend
good feels breh

I got to work in the Psych ward at my hospital yesterday. Those people have it worse than all you guys

$mh, i been in there twice 2bh pham

He knows what's going on, he doesn't really seem to mind other than me feeling like shit. But I guess him not caring to much also gives me mixed signals. I have talked to both of them about it to some extent. We were planning on going on vacation with just the three of us, but after friday I told him about how I feel about the situation and that I don't think it's a good idea and he respects it.
I hate the thought of not being able to be friends with her

>did well on all my finals I've gotten back
>got 92 in genetics so incredibly happy
>finally got my average to above an 80

But

>grill I went on date with was fucking another guy the whole time so that wasn't to good for my self-esteem
>realized one right that I'm never authentic around my friends and that they're not really my friends, I'm just the runt of the group
>Prof fucked up my mark in an easy elective course, saying I had zero on the final and later realized he was wrong, now I'm waiting for him to change my grade from a 54 to whatever I actually got and it's stressful because it could bring down my average if I did somehow blow the final

>best friend of many years just got arrested for multiple counts of weapons, drugs, and paraphernalia charges
>i now have literally no friends or know anybody
>the only reason i leave the house now is to go to the gym and get groceries
>i am legitimately considering blatantly breaking the law in broad day light just to see him again

senpai don't.

>Six years of being friendless finally ended,have a fairly normal social circle now.
>have a job although a shitty one

Bad stuff

>virgin
>no gf
>poor

If I could fix my inability with women,everything would be awesome

you ain't knowin what we mean by starin through the rearview
So since you ain't knowin what we mean let me break down understandin
The world, the world is behind us
Once a motherfucker get an understanding on the game
and what the levels and the rules of the game is
Then the world ain't no trick no more
The world is a game to be played
So now we lookin at the world, from like, behind us
Niggaz know what we gotta do, just gotta put our mind to it and do it
It's all about the papers, money rule the world
Bitches make the world go round
Real niggaz do what they wanna do, bitch niggaz do what they can.

>we'll all make it

Not even the right quote faggot, kys.

>it's "We're all gonna make it"

You can visit people in prison without being incarcerated yourself, you know.

been putting off going to a psychologist for my potential schizotypal PD and can't really find the motivation to go. I'm sure that i have it though because ive had what could be considered delusions since 9th grade, things like remembering my life as a spirit before i was born, actually being hermes and his analogues in other mythologies and things like that. that and my beliefs about the universe really affects my day to day because i cant really find the motivation to do anything but skate by in life because it just doesn't seem worth it until we get to the singularity.

feels bad brahs

I-I think I got mired by my moms former co workers (aged 24 and 33)

>at cousins wedding at local country club with my parents
>mom used to work with a couple of years bartenders there
>both solid 7-8/10s
>I vaguely remember them when I was in high school (8+ years ago) but don't think I'd actually met them
>mom introduces all of us
>don't think anything of it
>during the reception, my mom goes out to have a smoke with one a few times
>mom comes back to the table after one of the smokes and says when anonette and her got outside, she said "that's user?! God I don't remember him being so tall and handsome. Younger anonette said the same thing!"
>did some Facebook creeping and discovered the older one is single but the younger one has a BF
>mom talked to the older one across the room a couple more times and I'd occasionally look over and see her smiling at me
>tfw my mom might end up being a better wingman than any of my friends have ever been.

I don't think my mom would lie about that. And if she didn't, it made me feel kinda good, kinda nice to know I'm not totally invisible to attractive girls. Might have to pursue this and see how it goes. And for the bad feels

>strained my lower back doing absolutely nothing last night
>have to wait til it stop hurting to lift again

>a couple of THE bartenders there. Dunno where "years" came from.

feeling strength gains, not seeing them because of fat. been watching my calories and all, and taking diet pills (for about a week) but they don't show too much a difference. is it a bad idea to try to get gains when you only have meal replacement shakes??

This nigga knows the good shit

THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO

>Please explain

THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO

THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO

FUK U LIL BITCH

dry spell or not don't settle for a fatty, you'll regret it srs and will feel ashamed after

Watch your lie in April senpai

Will cure ur depression or something

>dated a girl for 1 month
>everything was amazing
>she ends it cos I'm leaving the country in mid June and she "doesn't want a relationship"
>a week later, we're all out and she flips her fucking shit cos i was 'grinding' with a female friend
>we were literally dancing alone for ten seconds
>worst part was all her friends backed her up
>at the end of the night, she gets ready to leave with her friends
>ask her if she wants to get coffee the next day
>no
>dinner?
>no
>ask her if we're just friends then
>yes
>cue me feeling like absolute shit for the next few days
>few more days go by and i text her asking how she is
>say to her that we should get a drink, catch up etc
>she goes on about how it's not necessary cos we already caught up when we were all out
>ignores my last text
>fast forward to the saturday night that just passed
>come home at like 2am after being out in a bar
>phone flashes
>messages from the girl
>"ohhhhh X made me think of you"
>"your new whatsapp picture is awesome!!"
>read them and haven't messaged back

Legit, just wtf lol. Wtf is she playing at ?

Sounds unstable, probably better to stay away from

Sounds like a psycho chick I dated briefly. She didn't wanna date anymore and had a new man friend but was legitimately getting angry because I would go drink with a female friend who she hated. I didn't understand it.

red flags all other the place mate
cut contact subtly and get with the femanon from before
you better than that

>lost 100lbs last year
>ended in Anorexia
>became binge eater
>gained back 35lbs
>have to cut again

Just fucking kill me now. IT NEVER ENDS.

>did exercise for the first time in over 3 weeks
>didn't even do my full routine
>don't know if I'm going to exercise again tomorrow
>i feel dead inside
I don't know what's going on with me. I have no motivation to do anything recently. I just want it to end.

Her ex cheated on her, so she has some trust issues which I can understand but I just don't get what she tried to achieve by messaging me the other night. Like we haven't even spoken since she ignored me the last time.

Go to bed early, get up early, eat a good breakfast and workout. That always helps me when I feel like dying. You can do it user!

How do you deal with the anger Veeky Forums?
It's been over three months since my best friend fucked me over repeatedly, and the anger, if anything, is getting worse by the day.

Had to unfollow her on facebook, but if she pops up on the chat list or messages my house chat my mood immediately plummets. I wake up angry and miserable, I go to bed angry and miserable. I don't even think lifting has helped as a release, all it's done is increase my test levels.

She's just insecure dude

good form, pupper

Will most likely be put on academic suspension for next semester and I don't know what the fuck I want to do with my life, all I wanna do is work and get decent pay I hate school

1. Cut off all contact with her. Block her. Move on.

2. Forgive and talk to her about how shitty whatever she did made you feel.

3. Don't let another person determine your emotional state. You're in control.

What did she do?

Made a suicide attempt a week ago, clearly didn't go very well. Took a handful of aspirin, waited about an hour, slashed the shit out of my wrist and arm with a razor blade trying to hit something important. Turns out, not as easy as it looks. Could not get to a vein despite my best efforts. I blame the shitty razor blades.

Tried to donate plasma a few days later for money to get a quality box cutter and maybe convince a friend to part with his dead grandmother's half-full Coumadin bottle to try again. My resting heart rate was 133 BPM. Turned away. Those damn aspirin.

Now I'm depressed that I don't even have the option of suicide. Any time I get close to happiness, the fucking rug gets pulled out from under me. Like there's something saying, "You are so stupid. You fell for it again. It's never going to happen, so why do you keep trying?"

Nothing I do is for me, it's all directly or indirectly for someone else. I try to help everyone I can in any way I can. Karma is horseshit.

>Flirting with girl at work
>she flirts back
>don't know what the next step is because I wasted my youth indoors playing video games
>keep going back and forth for months
>stuck in limbo and have most likely already entered the friendzone

I should probably have asked her on a date or something, but I'm a boring fuck who doesn't talk much.

>Long time gf and I had trouble maintaining a LDR after graduating, decided to say fuck it and go our seperate ways
>Was going to ask this other girl I liked for a long time out since she broke up with her long time bf a few months ago and seemed to be single every time our friend group would hang out
>On the night I was going to ask her I find out that she and my best friend have been dating for 3 months but they kept it under wraps so our friend group wouldn't freak out
>Only I know they're dating
>I'm currently seeing another chick who is great but not nearly as cute/attractive
>Would drop her in a second for bro's girl

I was salty as fuck, but he really is my bro of bros, which is probably why he only told me. I just told them that's great while figuring out what the fuck I was going to do because I didn't know any other girls I wanted to go out with. Sucks even more because even if it doesn't work out between them, I can't just go swooce on in since they're both long time friends and we hang out all the time. Dating your bro's ex is not cool.

I shoulda just been faster with breaking up with my girlfriend at the time. Oh well.

>What did she do?
One day I'll drunkenly greentext it, don't worry user

>1
I can't, she was my housemate until two months ago, all of my friends are still outwardly friends with her, though their relationships are mostly very strained, I was incredibly lucky that she had to take a year out from uni, but I'll be seeing her regularly next year, nothing I can do about that.

>2
I will not forgive her, nobody expects me to whatsoever and she doesn't deserve it. The only reason I would ever talk to her about it is in the hope that it would make her as miserable as I am, and that's not really going to happen

>3
>You're in control
Nope, I've tried to the extent I can manage while working my way through the hardest year of one of the hardest degrees at one of the hardest universities in the world.

A-at least I have lifting, r-right?

Ask her out you fucking dingus. Anywhere. Coffee, music, food festival, what the fuck ever. Just ask if she wants to do something with you that isn't netflix.

>stable, decent job the past 9 years
>Started going back college this past fall
>struggled to keep up with all my classes, 45-50 hour work weeks, And lengthy commute.
>barely passed them all
>Spring semester, family shit gets dumped on me as well
>I broke, going to fail the last 2 classes I didn't withdraw from

I feel like I will never get my degree. Behind on some of my bills, cutting it real close on paying my rent this month. Fuck, I woke up at 1am and just laid in my bed for almost 2 hours stressing about this shit.

>h-hold me pls

Good form, pupper

>Gym closed today for no fucking reason
What can I do at home to preserve gains? I think I'm just going to jump rope and cry. All i have at home are useless 30lb dumbbells.

>>I'm currently seeing another chick who is great but not nearly as cute/attractive
>>Would drop her in a second for bro's girl

How? I don't think I can be with someone while I secretly like someone else. I feel like this keeps me from asking girls out.

>thesis deadline on friday
>I'm making it up as I go, taking whatever sources I can that seem passable
>started yesterday

Kill me already

>be me
>2015
>not getting fit
>decide to change for 2016
>make physical, mental, and social gains
>break up with toxic ex of 5 years
>women are starting to show interest in me
>people saying "wow user you look good are you lifting/dieting"
>mfw I visited my parents and my mom asked if I'm on steroids
I'm making it Veeky Forums, baby steps. Every aspect of my life has improved since finding this board. Thanks guys

Very good
I haven't gotten closer to fixing my current problems but at least I don't let them bother me too much right now

Had a great workout, might be hanging out with the qt from the office on wednesday

>Ran into a girl that cucked me over about a year a go whilst out for a drinks.
>Cross her on stairs in bar
>Didn't realise it was her and she didn't recognised it was me at first.
>Notices me (I've made a lot of gains in the past year)
>Awkwardly throws her hand on my chest and runs it down my back
>Just keep going knowing once a whore always a whore

It really hurt to ignore her cause she's hot but fuck her

>dad has been an alcoholic for 40 years of his life (he's 63)
>he tried checking into rehab 1.5mos ago to clean up
>a friend of his died of a heroin OD after he got out and he relapsed into drinking 2 days after getting out
>all the health complications from drinking for 40y straight added up after he drank vodka for 2-3 weeks straight
>broke his wrist and split open the top bridge of his nose while waiting to check back into rehab, he started drinking even harder because of this
>he went back to the hospital on thurs because all the wodka he drank gave him a G.I. bleed so he's got bloody polyps in his esophageal tract
>his platelet count is dangerously low (38/ml) and I'm not an oncologist but apparently that means something in his body is shutting down
>preparing myself for the inevitability that he's most likely going to die very soon
>all the while I'm taking care of a new puppy and helping a friend of dad's who just got out of rehab too (also for booze)

>wondering when the wild ride ends and I can get a life

Just keep at it. I did the CC thing and then transferred to UC Berkeley. Just focus and stay on track, get good grades and then transfer as soon as you can, then enjoy the university life. If I could do it again, I would also have taken an extra year at my university instead of graduating after two years.

I respect my bro more than I want to be with the girl. It doesn't really "hurt" to be around them, you just put an off limits veil over them and continue functioning like nothing changed in your friendship.

Always be looking out for more potentials then you won't get stuck having a crush on a girl for 10 years only to have them date some other guy.

This only shook me when I didn't have options.

Even though I know on average I have a few decades left, I feel like the end of my life is rocketing towards me. Why can't my brain chemistry or whatever be normal?

>Taking 5000 IU of Vitamin D a day for a few weeks to see if it gets better

I know it won't help but I already bought the vitamin bottle, so...

Too much stuff to do, too little time, struggle with sleep and eating and I don't know if I'll make it how I wish and have to. Feels are either fuck it I'll die before I give up and despair and resignation. God damn it. At least I'm somewhat healthy and haven't completely lost my mind.

why not post
>moved to a new place out of the city, sharehouse with some 49yo complete failure
>whatever it's cheap rent
>work new job at minimum wage ( in aus so it's still like 700AUD a week )
>put uni on hold for this year so I can work, get a bit of money behind me and work on my side business
>was meant to cocoon mode; Save money, get it, put on muscle, work on things like style and social skills
>have hardly any time for anything. all I do is work, gym and home
>it's kind of a part of cocoon mode but I feel isolated as fuck.
>barely have enough time for business aswel
>no gf, no sloot to bang on the side because no time, I go alright for a few weeks then have a day where I'm completely incapable of work because I'm fucking horny af and try and find loopholes to get cheap hookers.
>triggers a bit of depression now and again, but I am improving on that regard

I need to do cocoon/monk mode properly. but god if I don't feel isolated.

>3rd injury in 3/years
>Doc says 'IDK, Ibuprofen, rest, come back in a month'
>regretting career choice
>family has major problems

Decide to get my shit together
>start reading 25 pages a day for myself.
>start tracking my studying using pomodoro technique
>get diet in check, bulk cook healthy meals
>start going for leisurely walks in the nearby countryside
>Get second opinion from amazing doctor who identifies the cause of my problem, and tells me what to do about it.
> I can still lift
I think I'm gonna make it brahs.

Take a week off and then get back at it.

>finally get My head str8 and start liking life again after a year of depression.
>10/10 dream girl shows me interest out of nowhere.
>we talked for two hours today.
>tfw too socially inexperienced to show any kind of sexual interest back.
>Didnt even manage to give her a hug before leaving even though i knew i had to do something
>tfw she probably lost her interest now since i didnt do my part.

I just couldnt make a Move. The regret hurts so Much. Will see her at uni 2mrw (same class). We will both be with our own friends. Wat do?

it'll happen bro, same thing happened to me, and after a few months, she asked me out.