Do you guys ever wonder during your lifting sessions, why are you doing all this crap...

I want to reach the epitome of my body limits and see them myself, finally feeling satisfied I had done something to better myself and maybe just maybe finally get mirin by girls and not get a disgusted look from them.

260lb to 209lb wish me luck brothers.

Parents are severe alcoholics and are low class, they make less than I do and I make 9 dollars an hour

...

If I had the guts to do it I probably would have by now.

it's incredibly immoral to store children in salted water

kek.

Look man, one day sure I may have lost the intestinal fortitude to prevent swallowing a hot chunk of lead out of depression. However, today is not that day and honestly lifting helps it keep being not that day. Because that's the day I lose to my disease, and I'm fucking tired of losing.

Somehow this is motivating. Thanks breh

I know God is real because he's the only one strong enough to ruin the great hand I was dealt.
Let me make a summary of my life
>6'1
>Ottermode
>top 1% rich
>6/10 or 7/10 face.
>very generous with my wealth
and I can't get any sex and it's all I want. I've been rejected by 400 girls on Tinder. Girls who know me in person just tell me "you're a nice guy or a good friend" I get rejected at bars and even double dates that my friends set up always end in nothing

My life is one big cosmic joke. At least lifting makes me feel better.

your face is ugly and you smell
>very generous with my wealth
that's SO fucking dumb dude, don't do that
Out of curiosity are you wealthy enough such that you're financially secure for life and don't have to worry about working a mind numbing job etc?

Please don't go Elliot Rodgers mode..stay with us.

Yes. Though I work anyway because my family told me if I don't work they won't support me. My job is pretty good though since I'm a medic and I get to save lives. Ugly face, I'd probably agree. Though I have a friend who says I'm better looking than him and he fuck af different girl every week.

Do I smell. No lol, I shower everyday and wear cologne when I go out. Girls have told me I smell nice before when I was in the car with them.

ONE DAY YOU MAY

No, I'd rather save lives then end them. Except maybe my own

sounds like you need to get some game then, you must come across as needy/desperate

I may kill myself, if I do oh well might as well look good while doing it

I've been messaged first on tinder a bunch of times. I talk to a lot of girls on tinder too. I get nudes and numbers and once I schedule a meet up. I get ghosted. No response no nothing. I only get blue balls. Just to fill you in. I've got to 3rd base a couple of times and I've hooked up with a handful of girls at clubs and bars. It's just no sex ever.

I'm beyond poor and ive had a gf for 5 years now, she makes 5x as much as me

>tfw 12k per year

you know user, sometimes i do. but life grants me faith sometimes.

>be out last saturday
>hot club PR girl hits on me
>i go back to hers
>we get naked and begin the sexy times
>gains have been going great
>"you're really hot"
>"you have such a nice bum!"
>"you're so built"
this kind of thing really helps to push me forward. it can be overwhelming if you get no recognition, because lets face it its a hard fucking thing we do day in day out here on Veeky Forums, athletes and shit get recognition of it, they can beat their peers and be looked up to by others, but us guys on Veeky Forums don't always get that all the time, or any glory whatsoever (especially if you spend a large amount of your time indoors). we kill ourselves in the gym for what sometimes feels like no reason, but user, those reasons do exist. all it sometimes takes is a compliment or two to remind you that you are undertaking and succeeding at something that most people consider impossible for all but athletes.

what's the problem? why didn't you take it further with any of the girls you hooked up with?

Usually I push for more as I try to undress girls but they say stop, I usually take the first stop as them being play but when I hear the second "no stop" I'll stop undressing them. I'm too afraid of being falsely accused of rape and having my life ruined.

These feels i will never lift

Good luck, user.

This is exactly how i feel. I never choose to be here but now i have to. My parents knew they couldn't afford three children but they wanted another one and thought love was all you needed then we lived in miserable poverty eating one meal a day until i got a job and left.

Not the 3 suicidal siblings dude

My parents love me. They care so much, they have given so much, and they help me so much. And i hate it. Cause i cannot kill myself. It would destroy them. Im chained by their love. If i was an orphan, id have killed myself at 13 or so.

Nice. Coming home from lifting, i feel great. But it soon passes away..

so when do you get over being insecure about your body?

former fatass here, 12% bodyfat now, but still I dont feel it's enough

when u stop caring what others think of you ;>P

this

Ur doing nihilism wrong, OP.

I just lift because people think I'm attractive but I think thats just because they haven't seen me naked. Really I'm almost 20% BF and have trouble benching anything over a pl8. My looks are probably only a bit above average (among people in their 20s at least) but they're still the best thing I have going for me.

Gotta make sure I wont be a COMPLETE disappointment.

normies said that i had to love myself first before i could have friends and gf

now i love myself so much i became gay from self-mirin and i lift to fuel it

I'm doing all this crap so that when I go back to the sandbox I can die in violence and be with my brothers.

>fuck this gay earth
>valhalla awaits me

>tfw you realize that you get happy when someone has kids because unconsciously you have this kind of dettached happiness where you know someone will be in this big ass game called life

>that dettached happiness is the same happiness when you see schadenfreude

life is a big joke

prostitutes?, honestly if you have a lot of money they aren't that bad

Think about it all the time, only reason I don't is because on paper I have a fantastic life and i'm scared to be re-born worse off or something.

>tfw when 6'3, great facial aesthetics, ottermode, well- family, hot gf, very active social life and lucrative profession
> doesn't matter, despise life and only pretend to be happy

Depression isn't uncommon in my career but i'm permanently unhappy and can't explain it Veeky Forums. Probably the only reason I visit this board sometimes and can relate

i know that feel bro

i wish i had shit parents so i could end myself without feeling guilty

I lift so prostitutes can mire me and hopefully i can find a gf there

i'm not even joking, i'm at this low right now

to leave a Veeky Forums body of course

try pornstars then. they're known to date normal people irl

So I can attracted all the bitches to my sick bod then take them all with me when I die! >:)

only if you're not a faggot and lift

You got this brother.

You can do it.

but I am

Perspective is a wonderful thing.

You slack jawed faggots lmao

I'm an attention whore seeking validation because I was always a fatass when I was a kid.

I lost the weight and am starting to put up decent numbers, but my face is ugly as fuck and is round/fat unless I get down to like 10% BF so I'm fucked in that regard, but it doesn't bother me anymore.

My validation-seeking tendencies are so bad that whenever I post a message under user or in one of my chatrooms and don't get a response I start to feel like a worthless piece of shit nobody likes. I get such a high when somebody responds to me or asks me something since I'm so used to being ignored.

My mood is literally made or broken every single day depending on whether or not I get ignored when I post on Veeky Forums/chatrooms. I'm so fucked mentally but I don't know how to fix myself.

I lift so I feel like I'm making progress towards at least one thing in my life and I for the fact I'm not constantly fighting a mental battle when I'm lifting weights.

here is your (you)

You need some art in your life.

Aesthetics, when consumed correctly, can pull you out of the shit and lift you to the transcendental plane. Lifting is one way to acquire aesthetics, reading is another and so is meditation, travel and prayer. If you feel aimless it's because you've given up the search for a purpose: It's all we can do, rise brother and join me in Valhalla.

ya'll need cats

Do you guys think you will really kill yourselves in the future? I keep saying I'm blow my brains out when I'm 30, but I don't think I could really do it. I really don't want to hurt the small amount of people that love me.

>No, I'd rather save lives then end them. Except maybe my own
> save lives then end them.
>then

FUCKING KEK

I just do what I like desu
>I'm a penniless grad student but happier than wagecuck friends that make 100k per year
>mfw I've convinced myself this in order to sleep at night

When I kill myself I want everyone to wonder why 'he threw it all away' and think 'he had everything' when really I've been a soulless husk that's been dying on the inside since middleschool

Same. I started masturbating to some weird shit and let everyone else run around me. Most recently I bought things I don't even want and because I have to pay for it I'm considering suicide. More and more by the day.

Gonna get an electro prostate stimulus to empty my prostate though since I'm on a 74 minus 10 day no fap no porn. Shits looking up

lol are you me

insert narcissism joke

>electro prostate stimulus
Stay safe, I've heard once you get into prostate/anal stimulation especially vibration stuff(not sure about electronic) that normal stimulation is pretty permanently fucked. Just get a new fleshlight or something dude.

one day i hope to earn a gf. coming up on 4 years of natty lifting. t-the wait will just make it all the better when she finally comes into my life. r-right?

That would make sense. Haven't had a good stiffy in a while.

Also a thing that is very real about buttsex is the anal tearing. I just got through a bleed because of vibro stim without medical attention. Pretty sure it's fucked with my blood because I'm having weirder thoughts now.

Homosexuals should be put down

Can't you just buy some dickpills and go crazy for a day or 2 on fleshlights and then be good? Stop being such a degenerate retard.

I haven't had female contact for over 5 years and I just bought a fleshlight. Every month or so when I get really horny and my hand isn't enough anymore I just fuck the fleshlight for an hour and then I'm good for another month or so.

Why is it that 95% of homosexuals are just extreme sexual deviants instead of people that are genuinely attracted to the same sex and relatively normal sexually?

did you buy a regular fleshlight? i've never used one but was thinking about getting the stoya destroya one since that one seems to have the best reviews

I actually bought 1 and then 3 on that buy 3 for $100 or w/e it was, one was the stoya. I don't like it that much the design just feels weird to me and not 'super intense' like people say. Could just be me though

The other 3 were heavenly>lotus>tornado in that order

Isn't the answer obvious? I'm not planning on killing myself soon so there's a good sixty years before I die.

Shit your parents must've been horrible. Truly horrible. White trailer thrash or ghetto single mothers don't make their kids commit suicide .

What happens after that?

Well that just describes the gay culture as a whole.

Normal people who fell for the port meme really early and took it way WAY too far.

Just about to burn bridges with family because I had shit while living with them. Most assuredly straight now but I don't want anything to do with my past.

*porn

This pic is really accurate

Lifting is precisely what's keeping me from killing myself. Since it's one of the few things that makes me feel good. Keeps me away from the thought that I might have wasted 4 years at university when I drop out.

well sure, but until then I can at least get strong n shit

You are way to dependant on other people's attention, I kinda know what you are talking about since there was a time I was always looking to get in some dumb online argument on youtube. It get's a lot easier if you force yourself to take a break.
Also most posts on Veeky Forums never get a reply.

I don't understand how someone with all those things can be unhappy. Also what's your profession? Lawyer? Psychologist?

In this picture I can't find a box to categorize myself in. I am like gindola. Ever observing. I never post memes or contribute or talk about them yet I understand meme culture and occasionally can get a giggle out of them.

Fuck being a wagecuck.
adventure poorfagging is literally where it's at.

>100k per year
>wagecuck

lay down and rot with the rest of them

youtube.com/watch?v=3NfA0_K1r9I

They won't think that, they'll just say 'goes to show money/status/muscles won't make you happy!' and use it as an excuse to keep being average joes

Because i want to make the funeral as irritating as possible by being big as fuck.

Rich Piana is that you?

>get big and kill yourself
>literally leave humanity behind