>tfw

I just keep working out hoping someone will love me.

Think I can get a pretty girl I just met.

i prefer running desu. lifting makes my flexibility turn to shit, for the day of, and the day after.

after that im good, but then its back to the gym.

im half tempted to make lifting a obnce or twice a week thing

learning to cope slowly.

seasonal affective disorder maybe.
I called a local mental health center and got some cbt workbooks sent to me.

That, and I convinced my doctor to prescribe me modafinil (it's like adderall, but not a stimulant) by showing him a few studies where it treats the fatigue and lack of motivation associated with depression

Lifting doesn't really do anything for depression to me lately, it's just a routine that occupies enough time so I'm too busy to kill myself with drugs and alcohol. I still fuck up and get drunk about once per week though.

>needing drugs to cope.

ill admit, i do a lot of drugs. but it isnt healthy to address your problems WITH drugs. how cna you expect to get old and cope well with your own body, if your coping method is to introduce an outside substance?

get a hobby. thats the only drug you NEED.
working out is not a hobby

who doesnt?

A lot of people just do either lifting or running. Being as varied as possible, feeling alive, participating in many different events or races or sports however, is always a good way to beat depression. I was admitted into a psychiatric hospital against my will and am successful so far in not returning because it's summer and I was seasonally affective and also I have more options to spend my loneliness into learning to love myself.

Go to bed early. Keep yourself busy. Get a job, a new hobby, study, eat better, and make sure you're getting at least 10 minutes of sunshine a day. I can't stress how important that last bit is.

I drink two pints of beer a night to sleep for my soul crushing job. On weekends I go to 5 pints. Also I use snus. Basically I rely on drugs and heavy workouts to numb the pain of knowing my existence is completely meaningless.

You need a sense of purpose comrade, help me build communism and together we may free the world.

Also cardio, literature, friends, family, and a meaningful career you enjoy. Develop intimate relationships with the people you love.

trying to consume less and create more after realizing my life has amounted to a mental library of references and memes

>Glance at a qt mirrin hard at noob gains
>feel on top of the world for a couple hours
>get home get into argument with dad calls me a loser and berated me for an hour
>feel like shit and the little confidence I had was shattered
>24 yr khv feel the bitterness consuming me

who /breakingpointhere/?

Get a job then get another job. Then you'll only have time for lifting, food, one hobby, and rest. Do this until you die

>other peoples opinions swaying your self-image this much
you need to nut up and take the time to establish standards for yourself. otherwise, get used to the perpetual anxiety of wondering how others measure you

I'm there personally. Did your dad really call you a loser literally? This sounds like a situation you need to escape. What's your plan?

he did

my plan is
>just lift
>get job (I've had a few already)
>save every last penny
>move across the country and leave everything behind
>lift more

Good plan. Where are you and where do you want to move, if I may ask?

In IL

might go to texas. tired of damn snow.

Do it m80. I believe in you.

I understand and relate. I'm from swamp ass Charleston, SC and want to see the west. Suerte my brother in arms.

thanks brehs

/depressed/ for 4 years now

>be 21
>fucking 17 year old coworker
>she wants to be my gf
>tell her not until she turns 18 in the summer, until then we can just fuck
>she says ok.jpg
>Fool around for a couple more weeks
>one night she randomly drunk texts me saying she's done seeing me, "have a nice life"
>I say okay, be that way cunt
>dont talk to her for a week
>just yesterday my friend tells me she hooked up with my other friend that same night she texted me that

I know I wasn't dating her but I feel like I got cucked by my own friend. I didn't realize how much I cared about her and now it's all over.

sorry for blogpost but i feel like shit.

>fellow 843 fag, reporting

No need for apologies, that's fucking brutal. Are you still continuing a relationship with the friend? That sounds pretty shitty.

My brother, what a rarity to be from the lowcountry and be on Veeky Forums on a summer night and not gigging for flounder. Beaufort, Charleston or Myrtle Beach?

Bro you did this to yourself.

Charleston. North Charleston to be exact. And you friendo?

bro you gotta lift those feels like no tomorrow. You have to rebuild that heart.

City of Charleston, downtown specifically. What a small world.

I will probably never be able to talk to him the same way. I just don't know anymore.
I know man. Can you blame me for not wanting to publically date a 17 year old kid though? I already have a reputation for dating younger girls, I didnt wanna be the creepy older guy to all my friends and family. I mean shit, im a man and she's a kid by law.

Often times depressed people will seek out the same type of behavior, repeating it as often as possible, be it net browsing, shopping, etc.

In certain cases, the depressed person will succeed in channeling their depression into a constructive outlet, such as exercise or writing.

I lift because I'm sad, but I'm not sad because I lift. Lifting, for a moment, takes my attention away from the fact that I am sad and gives me something to feel at least a sliver of meaning in an otherwise meaningless life.

You're 21. I remember being that age, I know it seems weird now but at that age it's really not that strange and depending on your state, entirely legal.

Well sir, small world indeed. I graduated from CofC and I miss living downtown
North Chuck/ Hanahan is pretty boring (minus the shootings and murders of course)

>tfw had 4 days off work in a row
>tfw lifted and slept for 14+ hours all 4 days
>tfw you know you're going to end up committing suicide
>tfw that realization no longer scares you
>tfw fall asleep every night comfortable with that fact
>tfw this will probably be my last summer

I can't handle another winter all alone in this state Veeky Forums. Until then work, gym, eat, sleep.

Good lord, CofC class of 13' here, bachelors in socialist propaganda. We might have known each other.

>sliver
man this was a fucking useful comment and input i really feel ya but kek'd at sliver

are you going to make a grand exit or quietly slip away?

Thanks user, little posts like these do make me feel better. I will place my feels upon mt. olympus
I guess. Maybe im better off, he had major daddy issues and cut marks all over her body. But her ass was so fucking high test ;_;

2012 here. And probably not. I was a business major and a NEET. Being a fat chick in college wasn't a great way to make friends. Veeky Forums was my escape. Thank God I escaped that life after graduating.

How about you? You stayed local, did you go to school down here?

>he
i meant she. no homo

what state user? if mnbro we can get a drink and talk about feels

>Veeky Forums
>No homo

R-right brehs?

OR, thanks for looking out though.

Like I said, yeah I was CofC class of 13'. I haven't moved far, now I work as a GIS analyst locally. I took some business classes for shits and giggles even though my major was poli sci (pls kill me) so we may have met.

Jesus, you're definitely better off. Always hold out for quality over quantity, that may sound cruel but you have to protect yourself user.

I meant high school brehs lol.

That would be pretty insane. I lurked mostly around Liberty Dorms and the ones over off Calhoun St above the bagel shop.

asdasdsa

Oh shit, I was McConnell actually. I lived on based Bee Street when I moved off campus. Shame the bars are closing, we could have a mini meetup.

where in OR? I'll beer you

School and extra school stuff takes away the little energy I have left. Bad marks and social problems cause further problems and fuel it. In such a scenario I don't like going to the gym, but I force myself to. I see progress with gains, but that doesn't really make me happy and I don't care.

I sought professional help. Now I'm doing better

Thanks user. I think you're right. I gotta find me wife material with some self confidence.

Make no exceptions (within reason). As an older dude with friends and family getting married, I see so many people settling for partners and it's disturbing to say the least.

p-portland

>smoke weed daily
>depressed and anxious as hell
>just dropped out of college a second time
>also dropped out of the army
>decide im gonna turn shit around
>stop smoking weed
>start lifting consistently
>start doing cardio
>take st. john's wort daily
>meditate every once in a while

I- I think im getting better bros. I did all these changes over the last week. Im just trying to stay motivated. Trying to meditate more because of noise constantly clogging my anxious brain, but it takes so much time and my attention span is garbage.

>also dropped out of the army

Not a bad idea. As someone with "ADD" i can empathize. What is your plan?

Honestly, weed is amazing. Without it I wouldn't get nearly as many calories as I need. You should find something else to do with yourself in between

You're gonna make it bro just hang in there.
Also, remember that women are cunts and if you become alpha mode you'll notice a sudden change in the way they approach you.

bummer, central OR here. rooting for you, homie

You can't just wish away a mental disorder, m8

>home from college for the summer
>piss drunk at this moment
>alone
>girl i'm in to is 2,000 miles away
>no job
>weed is what calms me down, but can't smoke until I get a job
>just trying to take it one work out at a time
hold me brehs

Yeah, my doc diagnosed me with inattentive ADHD so that explains a lot I think. I didn't used to be this way, I used to be smart.
My plan is to keep working out on a regular basis, get sunlight, take my supps, and get a full time job so i can stay busy instead of thinking about my feels all day.
I know user, i smoked it daily for 2 years straight. At least im savin a lot more cash now and my brain isn't as foggy.
Thanks user. im turning things around now, i knew when i was a kid i was gonna be successful so im not gonna let my old self down.

Thanks anons.

I swear ADD/ADHD is a bullshit diagnosis. Some people, including myself, don't like to learn by sitting and looking at tutorials or watching a teach write on a dry erase board. It has no bearing with regards to intelligence. Keep doing what you're doing, be hungry for success and you'll make it.

>be hungry for success and you'll make it
this. keep going, and you'll find a way that works for you

I only feel better WHILE lifting.

thanks guys. we're all gonna make it.