What keeps you from killing yourself Veeky Forums?

For me the question is, why would I have any reason to kill myself?

It's perspective. Guess I'm basically a slightly nihilistic optimist-realist. I don't give a shit because I feel sad I do it more to feel happy. And it mostly works.

This scene:
youtube.com/watch?v=piQ2-mNeTZM

After seeing what it would do to my parents I just can't do it.

My sweet ass gainz

The love of Jesus and the hope that someday I'll be someone worth loving

This guy.

There are a few times where life isn't completely awful.

German volume training

I dont want to kms.

because sometimes a little glimpse of happiness shines through in my life.

I want to feel that happiness all the time.

I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I just wish someone would kill me.

No idea. I go through every day, doing the same shit, expecting this to change, but they never do.

Don't wanna hurt the few people who still care.

Lithium Carbonate

nice

Drive to be successful. I am poor but can appreciate the smaller things. obtaining an entry level position will have a massive quality of life impact for the better.

Fear of hurting others and waking up alive but paralyzed or unable to move or think.

There is one other thing.
New experiences and hopes. But I can't continue to fool myself into thinking that those things,women money drugs cars success the occasional cock thirsty reversetrap a wife and children meeting famous people and completing things will make me feel better or change my life.

I'll continue to put these things off because deep down I feel that I don't deserve them, self sabotage, and know that once I achieve most of it I'll realize nothings changed, the black dog is still there and I have no more reason to live.

This desu. And pron

I have stage 4 chronic kidney disease due to taking lithium carbonate a few years ago. Be careful.

My dog and my birds.

After they die I'm out desu.

Sh-she's beautiful

>birds
Pics?

My mom, and a very small piece of hope that I will actually be able to be happy someday.

I teach a class of autistic teens and they'll ask what happened to me tomorrow.

It's always been this.

I only have one photo of him on my phone.

Until am hour ago, my pup. Since he was just put down, I literally serve no purpose.

Purpose? Nigga get a new pup. I make myself do stuff all the time, just to give me shit to do. And when I'm done I do it again. Get involved with other human beings, you'll stay busy

Cute. I fucking love birds.

Cancer/ the pain of being old and having spent 11 years of his life being mistreated

Oops, there's one more.

That's pretty neat. What does he sound like?

Cute bird

Bro I had Cancer. I've buried family and friends. Take the scars as they come and go until the final cut leaves you dead. Life is pretty simple.

How does one acquire a bird? I've never seen one in a store. Did you just use a net to catch him?

Just to see if it will get any better.

>MFW I read this as what keeps you from keeping yourself Veeky Forums

tell me more, my psych plays down the risk

Not much more to say. I stopped taking it 2 years ago next month. Last September I did a renal function panel and it showed that I had 27% kidney function. After months of tests my doctor determined the cause was the Lithium I used to take.

Thanks!
They're pretty loud, it's conure. Pretty cute senpai.
Honestly, I got him at a flea market, go to a high end one and there's bound to be a pet store. It really depends on the sellers themselves/how they keep the store.

Just pro tips if the store is no good
>Beaners
>Old, wooden cages
>Cages are gross and dirty
>Water seems old
>Not decent size of cage for x number of birds
>Overall area is bad
>No fans or shade directed at the birds in middle of summer

Also just make sure you get all of pic related checked every few months.

Not him but you can buy birds at pet stores. There's also breeders you can go to. Nice thing about birds is they can be very long lived. A cockatoo or macaw can like to be 60-70 years old. My uncle has a cockatoo that's 35 ish.

morphine

Honestly, since you seem like you have no experience bird wise.

Go for parakeets, or budgies as you call them.

They're tiny, low maintence compared to parrots, super cute, trainable and loads of fun.

Also very cheap.

Thanks man
I appreciate it

No problem. Hope you find one that doesn't have a personality of a diva. Just sayin'

I can't die a virgin, I'll probably (hopefully) replace that with another goal

>implying user won't be a virgo forever

Don't bully

Cute. I got a Rosella as a gift year ago. Parakeets are bro-tier pets!

My girl and the gym. They're the things keeping me going

my addiction to drugs, alcohol and sex.

I just want to get some passive income and live the most enjoyable life possible

>German volume training
>Muh 10x10 Meme

Germans are autistic fucks.

My great grandfather went to a War for a Lunatic, leaving wife and children back at home, knowing he will die for nothing.

And I complain about how hard the 21 century is.

He is adorable! Or she.

Did you buy a mate for it or is just your bro?

I did that for my quaker and it ended up just ignoring me completely.

Then it died, so I bought this Nanday conure (not the one in the photo) and tamed it, introduced it to my quaker thinking I would have two tame birds.

Nah, they just ignore me now.

Which is why I got my recent

This so much

The dream of going to medical school and having $200k+ in debt, depending on where I go.

Its a female. I have only him for now, might get him a partner later, but I would need a bigger cage. As I read on net, they are aviary birds so keeping two in a medium size cage is prob not a good idea lol.

So you say yours started ignoring you after you got him a friend? Like they only socialize with each other and ignore you? Never heard of that happening, that sucks

In no particular order

Music. I love playing it, listening to it and writing it. Sadly I hate concerts and festivals because there's a metric fuckton of idiots and stoned assholes being assholes instead of loving music.

Lifting and fitness in general is a giant fuck you in the face of the majority sack of shit standard that society is nowadays.

Making money off of those same sack of shit majority.

There's probably some other stuff, but as it doesn't touch on my misanthropy it doesn't count for this

I live to avoid criticism

one of the criticisms of suicide is it's a form of cowardice and weakness

>not having the balls to kill yourself
What are you afraid of, you fucking wimp?

>What keeps you from killing yourself Veeky Forums?

Beer, Porn and the Internet.

but mostly the internet.

I am 30.

anime

You're like me!

Beer, porn, the Internet, and keeping Veeky Forums. Beer doesn't help that, but.

Less and less, erry day.

>I wouldn't want to hurt my family and loved ones

>I genuinely enjoy life

>I like the challenges that come up

>I'm afraid of missing out on new experiences; seeing new things, sleeping with new women, traveling to new places

>I love eating and cooking, drinking and fucking

>I've found friends who share a worldview I do

>I don't want to disappoint people who might have looked to me for leadership, friendship, companionship, or love

>there are literally hundreds of people who I would miss out on meeting and enjoying the company of

>there are hundreds of people I will miss out on meeting and enjoying the pleasure of absolutely despising/holding as rivals

>the world is in a crazy place, historically, and I want to see how it all turns out, or even be a part of it as it changes around me

I guess that's it. Oh wait

>I'm not a defeatist little bitch

Lots of cardio

My imagination of the future, mostly from reading too many books.

I don't want my life to end on a low point and go out with a whimper to the tune of nobody giving a fuck.

As many times as I've thought about dying, the idea of giving up and admitting to everyone that I couldn't hack it is worse than the prospect of the thousands of bad days that might be coming. If I fight to make my life better then it will get better. If I burrow into a depressive hole and wallow in it to the point of killing myself, that makes me a failure. What the fuck excuse do I have to be a failure when so many people can bumble their way through life and be successful?

I hate successful people. I'm bitter and jealous of people who've somehow found normality and happiness. I got a shit start and didn't know what I had until late in my youth. I've tried to shed some of that toxicity over time, but I have to admit that part of the reason I carry on is out of spite.

My ambition for success is greater than the pain of my defeat.

we're all gonna make it brehs

I want to see Trump as president for the next level of ULTRA DANK MEMES.

Not much anymore. Only thing left is the slowly fading hope that life might get better.

Reasons not to kill myself

>My two sons
>Don't want them to grow up without a father like I did
>My gf who believes in me and loves me
>Don't want to let anymore people down

Just trying to believe in the future, sometimes it's really hard and there are days when I just can't stop thinking about how easy it would be to just quit life, but I just soldier on.

If I disliked my current circumstances enough to kill myself, it would make more sense to go and do something else instead and see if I like it better.

my crippling depression actually. Doing that would require getting out of bed.

Fucking this.

So I can get a qt red head.

if im dead, I cant prove people wrong

especially the ones that doubted me, or ignored me

I wanna keep enjoying life

The 1.3 million dollars in my bank account

Can I have some please

If I kill myself, they win.

Gross. I'm astounded at how often people on the most alpha image board on the Internet are attracted to gross woman

Because i'm slightly more scared of death than of living, only slightly.

>the most alpha image board on the Internet

LOL NIGGA WHAT?!

Also fuk you mane
I like red headed bitches

Not much lads

keep the Faith and know that good will come your way eventually, and eternally, no matter what the Evil Ones try to do to you.

My life is 100% work and lifting, then every few weeks I hit a music festival and roll/trip balls and fuck some slut who's on too many drugs.

I just keep looking forward to the next rave during my depressing monotonous life.

My mother. I wouldn't want her to go trough the pain of loosing a son.

That's literally the only reason I haven't killed myself.

Very wise man

If i knew you were a fitizen and i knew you in real lyfe and i knew you werent a cunt, then yeah id write a check of 20k or 10k to yah, it depends how id feel that day no questions asked.

Like how this one time my cousin was doing really bad so i went to my car and wrote a check of 50k to him, he got himself a car and a house shorlty after that, im tired.

Also fuck the little shits nephews who think ima give them my shit , ima outlive all their asses

Olympic lifting

the mentality that 80% of life sucks, so you have to really enjoy the 20%

"There will always be a better reason to do it next year"