I just dreamed with my first love, we spent almost all the college live as a best friends, eventually we drifted apart and the last day of college, she came to say bye and shit, I just said OK with a grimace and went to my home. I never had the guts to confess my love. It was like 10 years ago, when I falled in love of her and even today I can't even forget her, probably because when we used to speak I felt so happy so I never stopped smiling, also, I never knew why just by seeing her I started smiling, even she noticed it and asked about it...
Plot twist : everyone told me she was kinda ugly, I don't find her ugly even today by looking at her photos I'm a reformed fat so by that time I wasn't very popular, also she rejected someone "popular" who asked her to be his gf, as I know she rejected a lot of guys in college and never got in a relationship Few minutes ago, after dreaming with her I looked at her photo, started smiling again.. Can't stop crying so I decided to do my first feels thread..
Camden Sullivan
that's literally me but this happened 4 years ago in high school, the weird thing is that i completely forget about her when i'm meeting/dating another girl, but when i'm done my fucking oneitis comes back to invade my mind, the weird thing is that I've had 4 semi serious relationships since high school but she's the only one i can't forget
>tfw she got me into music but i can't even listen to it without getting depressed
[spoiler]rly makes me think[/spoiler]
Parker Smith
Why you broke up with her?
Nicholas Richardson
> gf laying on bed stomach down, feet up > Smiles at me across the room > Butterflies.mov > 'Why haven't we really talked these past 2 months?' > Confused I make my way over to her on bed > She goes in for a kiss > Wake up > It's been 2 years since she broke up with me
When does this feel fucking stop, I can't seem to fucking man up and get it through my head that she's long gone.
I have no idea what to do with my life, I have an exam tomorrow and I haven't even opened my books yet. All I can do is drink. I haven't even been to the gym in a month.
I have 0 interests/dreams for the future, going to drop out of college and start working I guess.
I wish I want to wake up and start living, not wake up and wonder when I'll finally be able to kick the chair from under my feet when I have my belt around my neck.
Evan Howard
Damn dude, why did she broke up with you?
Adam Adams
Don't leave school You will regret it forever I did
Charles Carter
Don't really fully know, she said she couldn't handle a relationship and her studies at the same time. But this was after a couple weeks of what americans call college (it's a bit different here i guess) and she got a new boyfriend about 4 months later so it doesn't seem like she was telling the whole truth.
I already spend 2 years studying and now I'm failing again. I don't know what else to do except to go find a job so I could at least give some money back to my parents for these 2 wasted years.
Camden Butler
You're a spaniard aren't you?
Aiden Campbell
>tfw went back to school and forgot earphones >tfw the people in the room beside me can hear me watching anime
William Kelly
I know that feel man. 1 year later I still dream of her and just feel like shit when I wake up.. I can't even imagine having a new gf cause she won't be as interesting as my ex. I miss her and really miss the friendship side too. Now I'm all alone cause I was with her during 3 years and it kinda turned me into a pussy, I feel like I suck at talking to girls and shit... Also have a lot of shut on my mind and feel lost carreer wise but we will make it bro, trust me, it just takes time. Feels good to know I'm not alone dealing with all that shit, and we're probably millions in that case
