Friday Night Feels

Never do any drugs but friends assume I'm a hardcore drug user. Wtf lads I've not even done ket but everyone assumes I'm some sort of drugs guru???

>never used to care whether I was alone or with people even though I had friends
>acquired cute gf that I really like over the summer
>up until classes started we hung out 24/7
>now whenever I'm not with her I feel lonely
Help

I used to tell myself that if i lifted enough this music major I know would go out with me or maybe just talk to me more but now she's dating a skinnyfat DYEL ginger who wears cargo pants and I don't even know who I'm doing this for

That's how I felt when I had my girlfriend sleep over a bunch. After passing out with her x amount of times it was really fucking hard to sleep alone, but then we split and I relaized the beauty that is your own bed.

>tfw you can roll around
>tfw you can spread your limbs starfish style
>tfw can spread your cheeks for the holy ghost

GFs are a meme

> Born indian
> Shit genes, ugly face
> Low test 315 UI
> Cunt parents
> No GF because ugly face and confidence is a meme.
> Contemplating how I am going to kill myself.

...

yeah, tonight was a good night for gains

realistically, i dislike being out with people, generally... i always wind up feeling slightly disconnected and just want to go home and be alone after an hour or so

i just cant tell if thats because i genuinely enjoy being alone or if theres something broken in me that prevents me from enjoying other peoples company. i think i used to enjoy it, but its been so long that i dont know if i can ever get that feeling back

at least i hit 155 x 5x5 on OHP

do it for the next girl, user. the girl youre gonna bump into next week, next month, maybe next year, who is gonna make you so fucking glad you stuck with it through all this

>fail intensity day squat on the 5th rep because of a shitty week of sleeping
>get home annoyed at myself
>decide to eat more and try and recover enough to have another go tomorrow
>making shake
>go to put milk back in fridge
>knock shaker
>milk all over the floor
>steak goes cold while i clean the floor

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i literally have no concept of what this must feel like... i used to, but ive been so emotionally isolated and guarded for so long that having anything more than a superficial, passing relationship with people is completely foreign to me

enjoy it, friendo

At a hotel, in a city I have never been to, eating almonds and chugging milk, with no commitments or responsibilities for the next 2 days.

>work at gym
>lifting for 5 months
>little to no gains except on chest
>suck at squats and deads but still do them every workout because ICF
>starting to hate working out because I work at the gym
>no gf
>no gains
>not gonna make it

I'm afraid of the vulnerable position love will put me in.

>go to qts place all last week
>sleep and cuddle with her everynight
>sleep unbelievably well
>wake up she makes me eggs and bacon
>currently 8:06pm just got out of the shower
>laying down in my bed all alone watching catfish and on fit
>probably going to fall asleep here around 9 - 9:30ish
>know I'll sleep like shit

Wtf why do I sleep so much better when I'm at her place cuddling her?

I know that fucking feel user, the only people I talk to are a few guys at the gym other than that I spend it staring at my monitor wondering where life went wrong. If I didnt have lifting I probably would have put a bullet thru my head long ago.

>mfw I get this, but only with positive comments

>broke up with controlling gf
>she is still texting me funny memes
>feel bad for not responding to her

She is kinda sweet but very manipulative and controlling. And I hate making people feel bad. I know I did the right thing

forgot to add

>skinny fat to extreme
>love handles even tho I'm skinny
>6'2 but life not easy mode

>lifting
>getting swole
>getting fit
>getting more handsome and catching more girls checking you out

You just want HER to regret the break up

Kek
That feel when you can't fart into your hand, catch your lover off guard and make him/her eat your fart

>haven't been to the gym in 5 months
>was making good lifts but scared of having to start over

>taking a fifth year of uni
>all my friends are gone

>trainerfag
>have client, best client for 1 year now
>starting to fall in love with her
>trained her on a friday night
>she asked what I was doing after
>"work"
>I continually get her hotter and hotter and making a move or telling her how I feel is...not a good idea
>life is suffering

>My boyfriend has been in a mental hospital for 3 days now
Homosexuality is a mental disorder, nothing weird about that.

honestly, this

>ive been so emotionally isolated and guarded for so long
Does it really damage you like that? Six months since my relationship ended and I feel like I cannot trust any woman anymore I've become kind of misogynistic and bitter, the feeling will eventually go away r-right?

What city user? I'll be your bro

Manhattan, Kansas

>come back from gym playing in an indoor soccer league
>literally suck complete dick at the game to the point where it stops being fun
>teammates start shit talking you when you fuck up
>tfw the only thing I have on some of these dudes is size and muscle

Shoulder check them by accident, teammates are supposed to give each other banter but not shit talk.

sure, if you work at it, meet new people, have friends to keep you grounded and somewhat open, but like anything it atrophies with disuse

Might as well cycle test as you already have no regard for life. Srs.

hang in there, brother.

ive been going to my current gym for 4 months, and have had exactly 5 conversations: 1) when signing up; 2) when someone asked me to critique their deadlift form; 3) when someone asked for a spot; 4) when i had my headphones off and walked by the receptionist on the way out; 5) when i asked the receptionist what their hours were for labor day....

i never make eye contact with anyone there and really only notice people to the extent that i dont steal their equipment, bump into them, and give them space when theyre mid-set. occasional eye contact and gesture at a piece of equipment to see if i can work in or use it.

next monday is my bday and, like every year, the only people who i'll hear from are my parents

i literally have no idea how i let it get this bad

At the beginning I was playing the ball and getting up close but then they told me to stay forward. I'm autistic when it comes to soccer so I took that as play something like a zone defense like in basketball only around midfield. Instead guys were left open all the time.

Thanks famalam, and happy early birthday.

Were all going to make it

Ain't no thang if you got a long-term plan, senpai

>tfw binge drinking again
>tfw the loneliness is gonna come back

Why do I do this? I have my shit together mentally the other 6 nights a week; if I just didn't drink, I would be in total control. But for some reason, I have to get hammered drunk one night every week and be a sadsack motherfucker

>come home from the gym
>Chad roommate has his girlfriend over, they're going to "watch a movie"
>will probably hear them fuck in an hour or so
>tfw no gf

>having your own apt
>not going out after you hit the gym
Cmon lad it's literally as easy as dressing up somewhat nicely and going to a decent bar nearby.

Having to live at home because your religious parents pay for your ridiculous tuition fucking sucks.

Good bbq down there?

There is a Famous Dave's which is alright you would have to go more towards Kansas City to get really good bbq.

is it normal to go to a bar by yourself? seems weird to me but i've never gone so idk

thanks user

>come home from thesis seminar
>roommate asks when we're gonna start boozing
>"shit why not now?"
>"I like what I'm hearing"
>booze for a few hours watching Firefly
>go out and smoke Montecristos shooting the shit
>come back and continue boozing watching Halo montages
>turn all semi-drunk any comfy

Feels good to have friends, maybe not deep childhood friends, but friends you know you can always chill with no matter how many months have past

> overweight, almost over 200lbs
> start running and lifting
> lose 25lbs, but still a ways to go.
> fuck up shoulder
> gain the weight back, lost so much progress
> finally can lift again
> lose 15lbs, but feels like i'm stuck
> start reading Veeky Forums for motivation
> remember I'm 5'10''
> develop manlet complex
> never going to make it

Feels like a never ending grind.

I can't do it, because I wind up getting bored and getting blackout drunk and waking up at home without knowing how I got there and being scared. If you have good self-control, you should be alright

Its ok op i feel you're pain were all going to make it bruh

if i did, id just be sitting at the bar drinking by myself and staring into my cell phone until i have to piss, at which point id leave

if i was socially confident and energetic enough to engage people at a bar, id probably have already been on meetup or something by now

I mean it's certainly better than nothing. If you truly know nobody to go with you just go and say you're new to the area and looking to meet new people. You just can't get blackout drunk obviously since you're not with anyone who can take care of you.

Drink to loosen up a bit and just start chatting people up if it's a good bar. Guarantee it'll make you feel better user.

literally every party ive ever been to i have, sooner or later, become acutely aware of how little i fit in and feel compelled to leave

if i did have the energy and confidence to meet people, it would have to be an activity-based, ideally non-boozing, endeavor with a smaller group of strangers

i appreciate the suggestion though

Know why you have no plans?
>You didn't talk to those chill dudes in your class or ask that dude at the gym for a spot
Know why your bed is empty?
>You didn't approach that cute girl at the coffee shop

What the fuck do you expect? A 10/10 blonde won't knock on your door ranomly at 12:00am because she knew you were lonely. Study successful people, then surrender yourself to the winds of change.

MAKE A MOVE LAD

pretty good parody of "motivation porn", dude; i lol'd

>He never played FC3

no because video games are for loser virgins

Strap on the bomb vest

>Friday night gym
>come back to lonely home
>play rainbow six

>non-boozing
Do you not drink or something? Respect if you don't, but even just sipping on 1 or 2 beers will be fine, you don't have to get shitfaced. Point is to meet people and be more social. You're almost too aware of your surroundings and too concerned about fitting in that it's hindering your progress.

>literally every party I've ever been to
Be honest (imagine not being honest on an anonymous Afghan goat milk curdling forum), how many parties have you actually been to? This shit doesn't just happen overnight. Prepare to spill your spaghetti and completely splurge your autism more often than not. But sooner or later you'll get better.

Like when you first started benching and had to do the roll of shame or have someone run up to you and pick the bar up when you had no spotter. Shit makes you feel embarrassed but that doesn't keep you from lifting and eventually you start seeing the gains.

Just ignore her user. It might be hard but it is worth it.

I quit about a year ago. Yeah I kinda agree... I mean were on a Senegalese birdwatching forum so IDK...

Xbone?

Try being sober. Shit is tough. All my friends moved on. Girls think it's nice at first but eventually want someone who can party because they're in their 20's. Just want an ex-junky gf.

>friday night
>climb hard at gym until 930
>meet 2 qts and connect with a bro I played table shuffleboard with at a bar
>make seared tuna and veggies for dinner
>play hitman
>flirt with girls on snapchat and tinder
>might get an easy blowie from a young college girl

What the fuck is wrong with you guys?

Oxytocin

>girls think it's nice at first
So use that to your advantage and just hook up with some dumb sluts while also improving your ability to socialize. When that dream gf of yours, or at least someone who truly respects and likes the fact that you don't drink, comes along then you'll be happy you didn't waste your time moping over tfw no gf.

Crippling depression

choose to stay at home tonight actually, i'm trying to head to the gym in the mornining so we'll see if i will make it

It'll be okay, user.
You'll do better next week.

i drink on occasion; what i meant was an activity where drinking is the primary catalyst of the event

party-wise... i mean, i went to college. i rushed a frat freshman year (partied in general every Thurs-Sat, went out more casually beyond that), lived in a suite the remaining years where my roommates were tight with others in the building (similar overall situation to the above), went to house parties, etc. i have no idea how many in total, just that i dont meet people well in those situations and dont like clinging to the people i know because they gotta do their thing

ive always been an introvert and those situations only magnify it.

you are, however, completely correct about being too aware of my surroundings and being too concerned with fitting in. its really gotten a lot worse over time; in college it was at least manageable

>He hasn't even done ketamine

Try it bro

social anxiety

I was a lot like you chap. Being in my late 20s now makes me upset how much I blew it when I was in college.

You really have to stop giving a fuck about what others think of you. Fake like your not self conscious, nervous, or lacking confidence. If you keep faking it it'll just become part of you and you will be confident any scenario. I still get flustered at times with women, but by applying a not giving a fuck attitude you can move past it very easily.

Find people you can connect with in any way possible and don't be a shitter and things will open up for you.

Solid bro. I'm in the nyc manhattan and the bbq options are severely limited

With ex for 10 yrs with kids. She left with her new rich man. Been single for almost 10 yrs. Nvr cared about bitches until i came to Veeky Forums. now. Hv the hottest gf with the hottest body. I still prefer to go to gym on sat night or stay home alone. Some times it feels better to be alone.

Friday night. Not going out anywhere. Feeling lonely. Get email notifications. "Batsinthebarbell has uploaded new video ". Comfy.

You may be an introvert, as am I and pretty much everyone else on this board, but being alone is no life for anyone mate. Our brains weren't made for that shit. As the previous user said, force yourself to get out and stop giving any fucks, not to appease others but for your own sake.

Hell I wish I had as many social opportunities as you did. Being stuck at home during college with crazy religious parents fucking sucks. I don't hate them for it, but hell, I just wanna live my life a little. Just can't wait to get into a grad school where I'll finally have an excuse to move out.

In all seriousness if you're over 5'8 or something you shouldnt worry too much

Yes you're objectively shorter than the ideal man but there's a whole pool of girls that would gladly take your dick provided you're a bit handsome and a lot of fun

So keep working on those 2 factors and you'll be absolutely allright my man

I have a couple solid social circles in my uni classes. We chat and joke and get along fine in class. But we never do anything outside of class. I kind of joined their circles after they were already formed, so it just seems more normal that they would invite me along with them than for me to ask about hanging out. Is there anyone here who is either not an autist or at least thinks like a non-autist with some advice?

say "hey what are you guys doing friday night?"

This will open up their turn to ask you.

Just because they are a group, this does not make it some super entity that will make a decision to invite you once you earned enough points.

They are individuals that have bonded.

You should become close friends with 1 of them and he will sooner or later invite you to something. Because he is an established member of the group others will accept you more easily. If you fit the bill, you will slowly be absorbed.

TLDR Just focus one becoming good mates with one of them, have a lot of patience and all will be well

>July is one of the worst months of my life
>Girlfriend dumps me
>Get super low, drink a lot, puke from heartsick
>Finally get to a more stable place where I'm not crying every day
It's been pretty crap lately, but on the bright side there's this really cute girl who works at this pizza place and I talked to her today, made me feel all warm inside

Are you that user from the thread the other day?

Did you get her number

Yeah I am, didn't get her number but found out her name and also that she goes to the same college I do and around the same time
Since it was a Friday night it was really busy so I didn't want to talk to her for super long so I didn't ask for her number, but I'll be looking for her at school and I think I'll go back later this week and ask for it if I don't see her at school

Depression and social anxiety are memes. Take control of your situation and do something about them.

>Friday night
>working, only making $19/hr but the easiest job I've ever had
>gonna get home at 0600, take a nap, and meet up with some friends and go to an art show and a German themed beerfest
>feels pretty good

Kek, social anxiety is a meme unless you actually have some diagnosed disorder causing it, but real diagnosed depression is most certainly not a meme. It can completely alter the chemistry of your brain. It's a very real thing.

But I do agree that most of these fags are just self diagnosed losers looking for excuses.

Ann Arbor?

I don't think depression is a meme, but social anxiety is for sure. I know so many people who are scared to do things because muh social anxiety. You just gotta face your fucking fears, which shouldn't be fears at all (seriously what the fuck? talking on the phone scares you? kys), you'll be cured in no time

Switch up your routine bro
Try a hypertrophy one

>tfw no qt lolita gf

>Friday night
>didn't get much done because I felt like shit after my night off
>couldn't get my oil changed because I couldn't find the right socket or any fucking wrenches
>laundry didn't get done because my downstairs neighbor started her dryer and tripped the fuse for both of them (fusebox is in her laundry room and she left after starting it)
>couldn't wear my comfy compression sport boxers because they're damp as fuck
>at work
>wearing uncomfortable boxers
>balls feel extremely uncomfortable with every step
>next night off isn't until Friday
>won't be doing anything then because I plan on going out for Grouse opening weekend of small game season that weekend

Could be worse I guess.