Feels thread

>Feels thread

>23 years old
>Working out for a year with minimal progress, but have lost 60 lbs
>Now 6'4" 195
>Severe gyno, b to c cup
>Jawlet and recessed chin
>Badand an incisor growing in upper gumline
>flat footed
>Kissless virgin, never even asked for a girls number
>Too afraid to even flirt with girls who are obviously mirin due to crushing self consciousness
>Still living at home
>Live with huge family in cramped apartment
>Too afraid to even be alone due to being harassed by spectors and spirits
>Low paying job, no car, but I do have a degree from a university
>No real friends except a poo in loo and a delusional Tyrone who thinks he's gonna be the black spike jonze one day
>Don't even see them, just talk

All this and yet people see me as an charismatic, driven individual who's going to succeed someday.

Days till death I think....

>already made it by Veeky Forums standards
>girls love my body
>men ask me for tips/routines
>old people setting me as an example to kids
>too autistic/afraid to initiate a conversation with oneitis

kill me

>second year of medical school
>slowly going insane, anxiety through the roof, periods of deep depression
>constant stress
>lifting is suffering
>social life suffering

Carry on in my stead Veeky Forums, medicine may just consume me

Sorta similar

>have good voice
>can sing for anyone and everyone, anywhere
>except for the girl I'm actually trying to impress

What is this voodoo magic?

>nobody ever invites me anywhere or asks me to go out
>if I do go out with friends,which is very rarely, its because I invited them

Why? It seems like other people are always asked to go hang out or go to parties or whatever, why doesn't anyone ever think to include me

Not even sure why I'm posting this but I found something on the internet which sent me down a thought experiment and seriously life is amazing never forget that and if you need help you should talk about it.


Like most people I " hang" out on another forum once in a while, and checked it out today. Found a post from two weeks ago where a guy was looking for his friend mentioned she is missing, she told her mom she headed to the woods in denver, as most know in colorado it is very east to get lost out there especially in the hard upper elevation areas of colorado, well I'm reading the post about her, her car, where she was last seen and her family's missing person report is online, as i scroll down to the last post, i see OP saying he has lost a friend and she was 30 years old., no other information, for some reason I wanted to see what had happened and maybe find a news story or something, there is no news story but I found something else, a post from her family on facebook. At 30 years old she drove out tothe mountains and took her own life, this just bumped me out quite a bit, she looks like a normal woman, she looks like someone who we see in our daily life, but she was struggling with some demons, her family mentioned she struggled with depression for years, and at 30 years old she killed herself two weeks ago in the mountains. After reading through the posts, I wanted to just check her name on google, and she has a facebook, she has a linkedin, which has information where she worked, where she went to college from 04-08, , she lived in denver, co and she took her own life.

I do not know this person or what she must have went through to take her own life when looking from her photos, she smiled so much and looked so happy, I just don't know senpai,

the thing that killed it for me, was her pictures, she looked so happy in them and they are recent, sometimes you just never know what someone has on their mind...

RIP senpai

I'm the same way actually, my own friends actually joked we don't want to hang out with him, or in a group chat they said ohhh he's going, well im out and than smiley faces etc.. we still hanged out after that, but it feels like they don't actually care about me as a person you know

tfw, third wheel feels

>qt3.14 gf
>with low sex drive
>loves me a lot and puts out once in a while to keep me happy
>I masturbate to progressively weirder and weirder things, like texting escorts from backpage and getting them to agree to do weird shit like golden showers and stuff

brehs, is this making it

its brutal man

all I can do is ask myself why

>She has a boyfriend
>Every cool girl who I can see myself with is already in a relationship
It's bullshit, all I can do now is wait for some to get out of a relationship, I shouldn't be in one at the moment anyway so I'm content with waiting to see if her status changes but it's still annoying

Already posted this, but I'll post it again because it still fucks with me:

>Uni student
>Walking back to apartment
>In front of me, I notice a group of girls walking towards me
>One of them yells "Stop!" really loud
>Ignore it because I assume she's talking to someone behind me
>She says it again and I look behind me
>There's no one there
>ohshit.html
>Even though she's talking to me, I ignore her and keep walking
>Eventually, the group is now right in front of me, and the girl tells me to stop again
>Grabs me by shoulders and asks me to be her boyfriend
>tfw I said absolutely nothing and walked away

Well I'm a dick and used to be a very rude guy, so once you fuck up it is over, i had a group of friends who where dicks to each other and we were idiots, but you can't carry over that relationship to every other you might have with people, they don't really call me anymore, and they act like i don't want to do anything with them, but the funny thing is when i ask hey when are we going to ... they act like they didn't hear it or don't give a fuck, ahhh welll

i'm making new friends anyway, so fuck them

you ruined her life and yours

fuck man

>be with qt gf for 6 months
>pretty much perfect, cute, intelligent, and nice. everybody loves her
>she's conservative as fuck, considers touching a dick as losing her virginity, so obviously been in a mind-shattering dry spell (I've fucked like 10 girls prevously, 30 y/o so this has been hell)
>can't handle this and rage today, it seems we're on the verge of breaking up

FML lads, FML

lol because a girl like this is someone you should be clamoring to associate yourself with.

>feel like shit a lot

end of story

jerk off like four times and go back to her saying if she wants to wait, you'll wait. It's better having a girl like this (my wife was like this) than a club slut that smells like other guys cum when you first meet.

>not greentext
>expecting me to read it

She seemed pretty insane, but she had a solid 8 body, and I don't remember her face.

This was kind of depressing to be honest, are you an autist or something??

Jesus, christ if she was at least of age i would've laughed and asked her out...

>have never kissed anyone

Yeah, I've done this before, but it is unbearable brah. I can wait with actual fucking, but no handjobs or blowjobs is just too fucking much

this. no matter what feminism will have you believe, women are less after they've been tossed around. They get filled with other dudes shit opinions and develop all kinds of garbage tier habits, then when they hit 30 they get some beta to come along and marry them and pump out a few genetically second-tier kids.

Women that were instilled with strong values at a young age grow up to be top notch women. All these girls with daddy issues are already trash. Keep your conservative gf, m8. She's one of the last.

>post hilarious greentext story on Veeky Forums
>nobody responds

see my post I'm in a similar boat except I've been smashing side chicks once in a while.

One night in bed I put in my head phones and put on a song and just snapped at her, rolled over and was like "WHY AREN'T YOU FUCKING ME" - we had a little argument and she cried, but she can cry at any time as a distraction..

Anyway, we bang and stuff but its like once every couple weeks.

Great girl though, great wife / mother type

Lady in the streets and lady in the sheets

better than marrying a sloot tho. Just low key get a side chick and marry your conservative girl like the high powered politicians do

how old is she? i would kill for a girl like this right now

good wife material, but if you stop giving her the dick when she is ready and wants it she will find someone else

yeah, wrong image

I know. If you're not going to marry/have a future with her then end it. But if this is the one don't let her slip away because of lust.

>tfw I haven't had a standard 1on1 conversation with a female that's not a family since high school and I'm 21.

Can it even get worse then this brahs?

>once every couple weeks
I could never accept that

hahahAHAHAHA
That was a real hoot, user.

>saw big black round booty across the street
>couldnt cross the street because of the cars
>see her slowly walk away into the distance
>tfw no big black round booty in my bed tonight

hold me, bros

I'm not autistic, but I have social anxiety. It was much worse when this happened though.

on the upside, you're still HIV negative

She's 29

I'm no christfag (like her), but I'm still too much of a moralfag to have affairs (>my dick when my ex fuck buddy texts me out of the blue)

How should I know if we have a future if she shows no interest in any sexual contact? Imagine getting married and then having awful/no sex

makes me feel bad, man

but at least she's not a ho and she tells me she loves me multiple times a day and wants to have my kids

starting to watch weird porno's to cope though and its messing with my head

>Scared a qt i met online with my autism

yea don't take to heart what i said, if some chick out of nowhere started yelling i would just think damn crazy bitch, could've used some good pipe though amirite

bruh you don't want some street trash slobbing your knob. You may have perceived it as beta to say nothing but it was definitely alpha.

When women ignore weird dudes that holler at them on the street it's not because they're so nervous about the attention, it's because the dudes are beneath them.

This was me for a while. Think about this, though. There are people who didn't even talk to a girl in HS, so there's that.

I don't know why you can't have sex with her. Like, have you kissed her or anything?

thanks bros

>finals week 2 years ago
>have 8 inch cock
>have S&M relationship with girl
>madly in love/obsessed with chick
>be lonewolf OCD
>she lures me into her room and tells me to "come and get it"
>open the door
>she's riding my roommates bigger cock (harder than she ever rode me)

>run out of the room
>have a crying episode and my first panic attack
>study in school library all night
>pack my bags without saying anything to roommate

>dropout of uni the next day after finals
>masturbate almost every night for 2 years to the thought of it
>the last 3 months I have nightmares and shout in my sleep

Going back to a different public uni this winter.

I haven't been in school or seen any of them in 2 years. Deleted and blocked everyone I met on Facebook and social media.

>unblock girl
>be last week
>she asks to be my friend again on Facebook
>accept
>she sends me this message: "I miss you and still think about you a lot"

How do I respond? I still love her after all this time

yeah there's a weird balance between family values and christ-induced brainwashing into thinking sex is sinful and bad. If she's 29 she's probably too far gone into the amorality of pleasure argument, but it's possible that she's holding out. If you're at that stage yet I would just ask about it and gauge her opinions. If she's holding out for jesus, whatever, but if she believes sex is the devil entering your body you might wanna bail.

Broke up with my girlfriend of two years about four months ago. All friends moved for work at the beginning of the year. Cant close the deal on tinder or other sites. They always seem to loose interest after talking to me. Ex is catching dick left and right. Looks like Im gonna be alone for awhile. Welp.

She claims her virginity is special and that she will only lose it once she is married. This apparently also includes HJs and BJs

Tease her about it, and hope she drops it one day. Does she drink?

She seems like a quality girl, which is why you WANT it to last, but is once every couple of weeks worth it?

if they see you like that when you don't feel you are even close to the person you want to be, just imagine how great you will be when you make it. Its easy to look at faults, we all have them but if other people see you in a different light just imagine how you could fool the world when you fool yourself into believe how good you are!

Sounds like she may have just misread the relationship. S&M and cucking aren't really in the same boat, but I guess they're both kinks. I would just explain my feelings rather than pretend everything is fine and have that bullshit holding you down.

Say you were hurt by it because you HAD (past tense necessary) strong feelings for her. See where it goes. If she's a cunt, let her be a cunt, but you don't need that cuntass bullshit in your life so drop a bitch.

Not much. The best I've got is her dry humping my belly with no top on, which is pretty pathetic for 6 months

This is bait

Right there with you, just without the medical school. Therapy and medication has helped temporarily, but I don't know how much longer I can hold on. Feeling like I am losing my sanity is the most terrifying feeling.

Hang on man, I'm here for you.

kek. I don't care how responsible she is, but this is horrible. You guys are supposed to be in a sexual relationship, this is fucking absurd.

chances are they're doing it on purpose

my friends do it to me because sometimes i can be really boring and quiet which isnt always fun for some people but its just how i am and i cant change that not to say thats how i am all the time.

I do feel bad though when all my friends always get together to throw parties for each other and plan out stuff but when it was my 21st a couple of my friends showed up but only cause i told them too and yeah my 21st sucked :/

Just go to /soc/ and get some whores Kik and chat her up. They're used to autists, just tell them what's up and you just want to have normal conversations for practice. Boom.

tinder is for fucking. They lose interest because you're talking for too long. If you know their favorite color, middle name, favorite food, opinion on diet sprite, you've been talking for too long. Anyone would lose interest. If you haven't arranged a meet for coffee type thing in the first 10 messages, its not happening.

That's whatever. I would just push the subject a bit and ask her about what she thinks sex is going to be like/etc. If she's really prudish about it just say you think physicality is important in a relationship and it's important that you two (once married) have a healthy sex life. Nothing earth shattering here.

That's why I exploded today. Still feel like shit tho...

We've had that conversation before, still doesn't change much

when the pussy is being handed to you and you sperg out nice one keep it Veeky Forums brah

>joined facebook
>painfully aware that I actually have no friends

>was a stallion in high school
>passed around in the volleyball team
>college continue this trend
>get the "one" beautiful black and blue eyed doll.
>I study every night, fore go the gym.
> eat bad but I have her support
> she graduates before me.
>stops texting me after 7pm
>breaks up with me, saying we are too diffrent.
>25 cant get girls
>everyone uses me as a, "how the mighty has fallen meme."
> no one will talk to me.
> everyone says I'm bitter.
>I...I am alone.
Never get in a state of comfort

the once every couple of weeks thing is fukking awful. Especially last month when we went on a road trip and I got us a cool hotel and she didn't wanna bang that night
I got pissed and started ignoring her and texting my friend and eventually she clibed on top of me so I wouldn't be mad at her

Ugh.. best looking girl I've dated, but it's like walking through a desert with a babe

Something very similar happend to me a couple weeks ago:

>Walking through gym hallway
>grill coming from the other way, towards me
>she takes out her headphones and and says "Hey how are you!"
>PANIC.EXE
>"Uh fine I guess... do I know you?"
>"No, I was just being friendly thats all"
>"haha okay"
>continue walking
>ruined my workout because I was too busy kicking myself over it
>she probably thinks I'm weirdo, or that I didn't like her
>mfw she was actually pretty cute
>mfw coulda gotten qt3.14gf right then and there

WHY AM I SUCH A PATHETIC FAILURE!?

It was a perfect opportunity and I just threw it away because I got scared. How do I fix myself?

But I suck m8. Terrible progress and diet, not attractive facially. I have nothing going for me. My life is pretty terrible. There's nothing worse than when no one has called or texted you to do anything for weeks. I have no friends or anything. I went to a huge state uni and yet made absolutely no friends.

Not having any sexual contact with the opposite sex during your formative years causes you to never get going. My peers are in 5th gear while I never got going. My gyno and teeth are my two killers personally.

I'm 30 and dating 18 - 21 year old babes

at 25 you're still a baby, you need to realize that and also understand that women will flock to you over the next five years, but not if you're a sad cunt

OK guys I'm not saying any of this to toot my own horn but I actually need some fucking help
>smart
>handsome, get laid easily
>have a body even 95% of Veeky Forums would mire
>people assume I'm successful
>reality is I've been NEET for 3 years and I am on the verge of suicide
>Decide to fix my shit and get my life on track to where I want it to be
>fix my sleep schedule
>learn to drive
>now to decide what the fuck I want to do
>Look at uni courses for countless hours
>cannot find a single thing that I actually give half a damn about
I mean the only reason I'd go to uni is to get a good qualification so I can get a good job in order to get a good income, but that seems like such a rounda-fucking-bout way of doing things
But I don't have the leadership skills/confidence/abilities required to be an entrepreneur
What the fuck do I do? Just go to uni to study something I don't give two hoots about?
I wish I'd just gone along with the ride like everybody else out for high school
But nooo I couldn't understand why everybody wanted to go and study random shit so they can get some random ass job with a nice title to impress people they don't give a fuck about
Maybe they were right
Maybe that's what you have to do
Any oldfags here? Can anybody help me?

Oh god I feel that. I had a really hard year about 3 years ago, amidst that I did meet several new people and one said something to me that Ill never forget.. she said; "how is it you are so happy all the time?!". I mean everyone in another thread mentioned that people can smell the defeat on you, but i don't think they can always see it, not if you really don't want them too.

why university? Why not a trade?

I'm the guy you responded to, and something also happened to me at uni.

>Girl comes up to me and starts talking
>Can't think of anything so I just repeat her questions back to herself
>Conversation ends within 2 minutes and we're stuck sitting together for an hour in complete fucking silence

Thankfully I only have 2 instances of extreme autism.

>My friends invite me but only to hang out alone or with other mutual friends
>Almost as if they like my company but don't want to be seen with me

Sex generally declines over the span of a relationship, these are supposed to be your glory days. If you're questioning it now, how about in 6 months time? You think this is somehow gonna get better? You think the resentment you are already showing isn't gonna grow?

T-thanks

You've got a point. Looking back at a couple conversations guess I mightve missed some windows. Was never good at flirting, but the art is lost on me at the point.

bomberman feels

No it is not

Like the other guy said, consider a trade. If not, think about what type of job you'd like to have. I was in that same position, and now I'm pretty sure what I'm going into.

this. become an electrician or a plumber or something. You can work your own hours, make fucking bank and live a life outside of work.

This coming from someone 2 years into a 5 year PhD program in a science. It's not worth it m8

fuck, this terrifies me for my future

What the fuck brah, people don't change, especially women. DON'T DO IT.
There are other women out there, why drop so low, you are better than that.
She cheated on you, and she did it in a way that attacks you directly as character.
OFC, if it's only for fuqqing then go for it.
(Remember, she probably fucked shit ton of chads over 2 years of period, and when they left her she comes desperate to you, your choice breh)

I was lying, that was p. mundane

give it a go then fampai. See if you can swoop in on the booty tonight

A lot of it has to do that my face, carries a lot of fat. Once I get back to low body fat I will start acting like my old self

Do computer science. You'll have a nice job, with nice pay waiting for you after. If you don't like it, chill on /g/ until you do at least a little, plus its pretty cushy as far as jobs go and not the worst work out there. Take it from me, im almost done with a useless psych degree while my roomate just graduated comp sci and moved to cali with his girl for a fat paycheck.

OK. You're halfway there which is good, but you have to find out what you like. Make a big fucking list of things you might kinda could possibly maybe be interested in, then go to some sort of meetup and try it. Watch a documentary on it, read a book about it.

Ask yourself questions. What can you see yourself doing, desired lifestyle, deskjob/manual labour, salary range etc and combine it with what you like from above.

>Do compsci
As a comp sci major, please don't.
This is totally not me shilling to avoid extra competition.

nah you'll be fine man
get some mass on you and maybe learn another language and spend some time travelling around other countries. You'll be Veeky Forums and interesting and girls will be callin you daddy

Kill her, only option

I've considered that but I feel like it would be a huge waste of my brain
Like I was known for being one of the smartest kids in my school and in 5 years when we have a high school reunion and I have to tell everybody I'm an electrician I'd feel like a complete failure
Maybe I need to get over that, IDK I don't think I'm being irrational
What did you decide to do?

Whoa, is this plastic surgery?

Have never really seen it done so it isn't obvious, but that dude turned out pretty gorgeous, no homo. And you couldn't tell he's had the surgery in the first place if you didn't know it. Good for him.

I literally need to be drunk to interact with girls at all. Actually, girls really seem to like me around 3-4 beers.

But when I'm sober I'm boring, awkward, scared, and never have anything to say. am I just stuck with bar sluts for the rest of my life?

>competition
tech companies will suck your cock if you pledge to be their code monkey for a cool $80k. What competition are you on about?

>she lures me into her room and tells me to "come and get it"
>open the door
>she's riding my roommates bigger cock (harder than she ever rode me)

Well she's a manipulative cheater and should be dropped from your life immeadiately

>waste of your brain

That line of thinking is why I became an accountant and not a day goes by I wish I wasn't so damn stuck up about my decision - also, looks like the PhD guy feels the same

Get a trade and own your own business and life if you have the guts for it

I'm just being a cunt, mate.

Nah man. Part of it is getting older. My examples happened a few years ago, and now I'm nowhere near as "autistic". The main thing is realizing how little each interaction matters. That's what's holding you back. Unfortunately, you can't just consciously loosen up. You have to grow and get older, but it'll happen so long as you lift, read, and learn.

What this guy said is right, don't bother with dipshits.

>26.5 y/o
>Army, live off base
>95kg, 6ft
>Mentally and physically exhausted, lifts stalling and losing motivation due to a six-week survival course starting soon
>Muscle mass will return but will lose gains over that six-week period, right up until I need them mid-December
>Four girls in as many weeks though
>Developing feels for one
>She's Army, lives 2000 miles away on a different garrison
>Know she's going to be getting what a woman needs
>Know I am going to be getting what I need
>She wants to go to Europe together at the end of the year
>Trying to stay stoic/passive towards her so I don't end up being a faggot-beta-bitch
>Could see myself leaving Army for her
>Know I will lose her, no matter the effort I commit
>mfw internally

my sister got bitten by a spider, and she got hospitalized

today i visited her, and while she was in a high mood, she was found that she had less red cells than yesterday so either the venom is still wrecking his body or the antibiotics are killing the red cells

if the venom is still active it means that she could potentially die because there is no antidote at all, she can just have a life support until the body stop getting wrecked

hold me brehs, tomorrow in the morning i will know what is going on with my sister, but now i feel like shit, i'm scared and i want to cry

Same here bro.

Don't be such a fucking faggot user.

Naa man, you simply don't understand what I mean, I am getting fit now, and women are starting to ask, if i am single, if i have kids, if i am seeing anyone, The problem is i am 28 years old and headed towards a future of making 125k+ sometime in the next 2-3 years if i stay on my path, i now make 80k and i know one day i will have the money to buy a house etc..

This is the thing about young women, so many of them haven't made it and don't know what to do in life, they are fucking NEETs looking for a man to settle down with, senpai i don't play that shit a chick recently asked me if i was planning to buy a house etc. ahhh. no i don't have time for some 25 year old trying to take my semen and my bank account, fuckouttahere with that shit. i have worked far too much and hard to earn where i am in life as a man. I'm not looking to settle down with the first female that honestly comes into my life right now, i am just not looking for some young bunny looking for a sugar daddy...

Its getting harder and harder though, most women want to know what you do and how much you make, the last time i had someone at my current place, they couldn't believe how nice everything was in my place, and thats because most young people in their 20s, don't want to live well. but i do, i have a very nice place and i try to keep it private.

not trying to get robbed you know