I'm a fat fuck

Then don't. Just get rid of it.

Seriously? It's quite a bit of money man.

Yes, but I have a no grey shortcuts philosophy for success in life. The more I take them, the less capable I feel. Most people aren't this extreme, I suppose.

I either need to sell it or use it because it REALLY feels like a waste otherwise

I understand the sentiment. But efficiency is more often than not a big picture issue. I lose battles to win the war, so to speak, from time to time.

Your life, though.

but it's right there...

You'd honestly throw away several hundred dollars worth?

what exactly do you have why are u being a vague faggot for

Yes. And a lot more. There are benefits to this mentality that more than offset the loss. But you'll be considered a sucker by most people's standards, I guess.

wouldn't that make one a cuck then?