Saturday night feels

I know this is going to sound dumb, but it doesn't have to be good. A cheesy cringe worthy selfie is good enough. Just gotta get your foot in the door man. Doesn't have to be the world's most epic photo.

Also, skim women's profiles, then make custom banter based on them. Hellos don't get replies, they like puns though. Reminds them of dad or some shit. You can apply this same logic to irl encounters too.

Yeah it just sucks going out to somewhere that isnt the boxing gym. I cant even go to the grocery store anymore without having the urge of drinking or popping a couple downers. Anxiety gets through the roof since i quit and hasnt gotten any better

literally me
also, op pic is literally my phone background

getting literally paranoid right literally now

See a therapist, you sound like you're depressive from the addictions. It sounds like a meme, but your perceptions are more powerful than reality, and a professional can help you shift your perceptions in a more productive way. Also it's better than going completely insane from social isolation.

You'll make it brah just don't go back to drinking and drugs

>start uni and get feels for this average QT
>remember that women will only hurt you
>will myself into not being into her before anything bad happens
>feel bad because maybe this time it would have been different

Now that I got my faggot feels off my chest how y'all doing?

>lets meet up
>message seen
>nothing

go outside man
it's important

>Saturday night feels

Oh you have no idea the feels I have at this moment. The fucking feels I have. The fucking rage that is building up inside.

I fucking hate myself, I fucking hate my fucking ugly face and I hate that I'm on the fucking autism spectrum. It's bad enough being an ugly fuck, but no, let's make this one a fucking social retard. Let's give him no fucking chance at being good with women. Let's just fuck his shit up. Oh and by the way, no talents either. You're gonna have to work hard for everything as well, if you even manage to dig into your soul and find out what it really is you fucking want to do with your shitty, boring, apathetic, failure ridden fucking life. Every single fucking thing your try to do will be a gigantic failure because you're too fucking weak to actually stick with it.

I seriously feel like punching the fucking wall right now. I have nowhere to discharge this fucking shit. I'm so fucking mad at everything right now I don't even know if I should be fucking alive. This world was not made for me. I'm fucking weak, ugly and mentally disturbed. I'm fucking sick of this fucking shit. And no I don't care that other people have it worse. This is me right now, this is what I am. I'm fucking

SICK OF ALL THIS SHIT

I TRAIN FOR 6 MONTHS AND MY ARMS ARE ALREADY FUCKED UP
I DIDN'T ASK FOR THESE GENETICS. AM I NOT ALLOWED TO EVEN BE RIPPED? IS THIS MY FUCKING DESTINY. YES I'M MAD AS FUCKING HELL.

>not at least trying
The end result of rejection is the same as what you're getting now so what do you actually have to lose?

This meme that women are out to get you has gotta stop. Women won't fix your life, that shit's up to you, but everyone deserves a romantic partner at some point, including autists like you.

pics with animals

>woman I love hates me
>is fucking another dude as we speak
>won't even talk to me
>thinks I'm trash
>literally changed myself for the better mentally, physically, and financially just so she'd talk to me again
>still won't even give me time of day

what do I have to do lads? I've spent the last two years trying to forget her, but it jsut won't work. Every tim ei fuck anyone I just lose it because i think of her. I've tried drugs, drinking, hobbies, bitches, lifting, hell even almost dying like twice. Nothing gets rid of her, and I hate it. I hate her, but love her, it drives me insane.

You sound like you can do better than her bruv

Doing great, still trying to move up from a DYEL normie. I'm less than a year into lifting and am close to 1/2/3/4 except my bench because I need to suck it up and lift harder. My squat/dead is higher because I fell for the memes and because I've been running for a few years so I had reasonable calves.

My bf% is probably higher than 20% though which is a bit unpleasant. I'd never bulked before and I probably overdid it.

If you're still obsessed with her, you've clearly not completed your quest for mental gainz

You're clearly trapped in your perception, because otherwise you'd see that you're acting like a fag. Do psychs or find a shrink, and don't forget to be proud of all the progress that you've made without her

Senpai I don't know if I can or not but that's not the deal. This bitch has been stuck with me for fucking EVER. it drives me crazy how many random mixed emotions I get from her, and the only thing that calms me down is drinking heavily or talking to her.

I use the rage that I get from knowing she's fuckin a dude or ignoring me to pick up everything I have. I hate this.

Tell me what I must do user. I want to be cured. Save me from my chains or give her to me. I'll burn this fuckin world down for either.

why am I so bad with girls?

I don't even try hard, I have plenty of hobbies and interests that fill out my day. Shit isn't even something my life revolves around. I just cant connect with people.

>birthday is tomorrow
>broke up with 9.5/10 i was seeing
>wont talk to me
>blocked on every social media possible
>wont answer calls
>have no friends
>every girl i message doesn't respond
>only look forward to pinning my tren and lifting every day
>been 4 days, havent received a single snapchat or facebook message from anyone
>have done absolutely nothing for my bday
>no one has mentioned a single thing about it

why do i even live?

She's gone senpai, forever. It seems impossible but you need to accept that. Once you do, you'll realize that every thought that you have about her being gone is unproductive, and hopefully you'll start to be conscious about when you think about her and start to change.

As I said to your perceptions are stronger than your realities, and you're clearly boxed in by the thought that you'll never escape her. A therapist has studied people's thought patterns for years and can help you learn to control your thoughts and emotions to becoming more productive and eventually accepting the fact that she's gone. People also say that psychedelics help with perceptions, but I don't do drugs so I can't speak from personal experience.

I've given up on getting her back man, I know she's gone forever. I've ignored the idea of her for as long as I ever can and even told myself countless times that I'm done. Yet here I am again, fucking dragging myself back just to hear anything.

I wish i could just get a lobotomy desu or something to help me forget the past five years of my life.

Thanks brah, I don't like therapists so maybe I'll just try to focus more on my boxing. The idea of competing again is the only thing that keeps me somewhat sane

>I just cant connect with people.

I know that feel.

I seriously recommend that you get past any biases you have about therapists. They're the only ones who've studied how people think, and the only ones who can help you change it. If you've had bad experiences in the past with them, then keep looking, because there are ones out there that can change your life.

Happiness isn't an emotion, it's a skill. To be happy, you need to train yourself to process information in a way that's productive and healthy. Learn how to do this, or I guarantee the depression will start to eat away at all of your hobbies until you don't enjoy them anymore.

holy fuck. i lost it senpai sorry 'im saving this shit

i feel you though

At least you aren't a manlet

I'm 6'1, so what? Plenty of handsome manlets are destroyed pussy out there. Meanwhile, I'm shitposting on Veeky Forums and watching music videos.

Same here, do you at least have a job/study where you can focus on? I mean if you work hard or study will and good to the gym often while training with a good plan your effort will pay off.

Betray it from this perspective:
For normal people saturday night is their best night because they can party, but on the other hand they are messed up for the rest of the week.
For us every day should be our best day, love lifting weights love eating, and you will have sucess you can do it user!

If it helps you feel better I'm 300lbs and just ordered a pizza and wings. Saturday night, no friends, no self control.

Lets make a suicide pact senpai a lam

And you realize you were fighting against yourself the entire time because you were dealt a really shitty hand while everyone else has pairs and flushes and they don't even try to bluff..

*need to bluff

>300lbs and just ordered a pizza and wings
mirin that bulk

you must be strong as fuck, though

Just went to a party last night and got drunk for the first time in a year and a half.
First time I've ever been drunk with a gf in my life, and the guilt that I'm feeling right now is killing me.
I'm too flirtatious for my own good. Too many times last night I had to inform other women that I have a girlfriend after I'd spent 5 minutes tuning them. Is it Alpha to feel guilt when you're not 100% by your woman?
sorry if typing is fucked up i just woke up.

Nope. 1Plate bench. Not even joking.
Can't squat without tipping like the kool aid man.
I can deadlift 180.

Just a pos.

Nah, first year dating my gf at a party I wouldn't shut the fuck up about her, dropped my phone in the grass and passed out in my van.

It's normal. Lol

Count your calories. I bet you're only eating like 1900 calories a day

it was super difficult at one stage.
I spoke to this Middle Eastern girl for a bit, and shit was kinda nice, she was easy 10/10.
Her friends got in the way to 'protect' her from me.
Couple minutes later while I was dancing with some buds, she comes over and asks to dance with me.
We danced for a while and then she started gettin all up on me, booty and all.
Then I told her I had a gf.
Then she stormed off.
Cant even explain the feels that put me through. 7 months ago I would have fucked that.

No that's great. Looks like you have good time to meditate.
Wish I didn't have these fucking loud monkeys as roommates so I could meditate everyday. It's driving me crazy

My mother that I haven't talked to since new years has been messaging me on fb for months, blocked her so I shouldn't be getting any message notification but I got it today for some reason. Read through all of it, and the more I read it, I learned that the happy mother and families that I used to have is gone.

I'm surrounded with good people now with my two hedgehogs so I'm aight, but made me have the feels.

>gym bro and I went for workout tonight
>neither of us have gf's
>see gym is empty
>poke fun at ourselves
>"Why would anyone with a life go to the gym on a Saturday night haha"
>"Haha..."
>we both suddenly feel down
>we both work out without saying anything

how is this a struggle

This makes me want to have a gym bro. Hung out with a girl today so possible gf tho so pree good

>And no I don't care that other people have it worse.

Your problems are real.

Your life, the shit you endure, is one of the hardest things for me to wrap my mind around. How can any one person be dealt such a shitty hand while others have enough good looks, talent, and wealth for five separate people? There can't be a god because why would they curse someone so harshly?

I empathize hard with you bro.

>TFW gymbro quits because of GF

Why does everything tie back to God? Why should I have to submit myself to God while other people just get everything without it? They don't have to. Why do other people seemingly have all the things I don't and no real problems? They don't have to think about it. It just happens. Why do I have to work for it? They're handsome. They've been given girlfriends and are slowly chipping away at lucrative careers.

Why can't I live a life without begging and bargaining? Why can't I escape all the indignation?

Why am I constantly at odds with my shame and my anxiety? My ugliness and sloth?

Why haven't you acknowledged my work and suffering? Why can't you open just one of the countless doors that could help me escape from this?

What is wrong with me?

>115 out of 125lbs lost
>Will get to my goal weight before new years
>Booked a consult with a specialist for excess skin removal
>No matter how many people tell me how much better i'm looking, I still don't see it
>Think people are making fun of me for working out so much

I think I need to work out what drove me to over-eat in the first place, it still seems to be causing problems.

Bro, you have to look at old pictures and a recent picture of yourself. I had the same problem when I was 60 lbs overweight. I lost it all and ended gaining it all back plus 20 more lbs. Thankfully I'm 50 lbs down right now, and I just need to lose 30 more.

>have longstanding crush on guy at gym
>we see eachother all the time but never really talk
>I'm friends with a very cute, outgoing girl who just started going to my gym recently
>today she told me the guy asked her out

She has no idea I've had a terrible case of Oneitis for this guy. Idk if she's gonna go out with him, I didn't ask.

The pictures are a nice reminder of how far i've come, I just can't help but cringe when I look at them though. I suppose more time at my goal weight would allow me to adjust.

>tfw in love with a woman who has a kid

fuck me. I'm so shallow, but its a big deal to me. She treats me like a fuckin king, the sex is literally incredible, perfect personality, shes fuckin beautiful... but fuck me..

Kek

Hey, at least you did a great job writing this post.

>down to 270 from 333
>bumped into a friend from HS (was like 310 back then)
>hey man you look different, not thinner or fatter but you look taller or something
>tfw

Welp i know i'm still a lardass but i was at least expecting a "hey man u lost some weight?" or something

> Move from a third world shithole to the US for college
> Dont have any friends because I dont know how to small talk
> Couldnt make friends despite playing intramural soccer
> Only non soccer,lifting interest is anime
> Cant make any friends in Anime club because I dont fit in there
> Literally 0 friends in a whole fucking new country
> Girls have come on to me but I cannot hookup because it doesnt feel right (ty conservative society)
> This girl I have a huge fucking crush on has a girlfriend (Hope its a phase)
> Today my mum sent me a text asking me how I was doing
I dont think I can hold on any longer

How the fuck do you will yourself to not like somebody?
As a homo, I try to keep myself from getting attached to straight guys but it happens time after fucking time. I tell myself "this will be bad. You're gonna be upset you fucking retard" and soon enough I'm thinking about him every day, even after I hear about the multiple bar sluts he fucks on the regular. What's your secret user

What uni / area?

hey, at least the little dude is smiling in that pic

UMN twin cities
The Minnesota nice thing fucks with my brain senpai

I go to UW-Whitewater in Wisconsin, would kick it with you if I lived a state over mate.
What part about it fucks with you? I grew up with this shit so maybe I can give you some advice

I bet you aren't even ugly, user

breh, I had oneitis for six fucking years on this chick.
it gets better i promise.
you should take shrooms.

Fuck that dude.
There is nothing wrong with raising that child if the woman is good.

By being a father to that child, you are DIRECTLY changing that child's life for the better.
Children raised by single mothers are way more likely to have awful lives, to get into drugs, crime, to have mental issues, to go jail.

While I understand the whole "cuck" worries about raising another mans child, providing for and raising a child who would otherwise not have a father is an incredibly positive thing to do.

Okay
so a bunch of stuff
When girls smile at you does it mean they like you or is it just courtesy? where I am from its the former,you dont smile if you dont know them/are interested
Why does everyone say thanks? Why cant I just show gratitude non verbally? would that be rude?
Small talk is a problem too and I just sperg out I dont know if you can help me with that

not him, but its most likely just courtesy.
Its a cultural difference, people in that area are overly polite for the most part
you come to either coast, people wont smile at you

Smiling is common courtesy but it depends on the context. Usually we only smile at each other if we are passing by in a hallway or on a street. Just joke around with her a bit and see if she laughs and is open to the idea of you.
Saying thanks is just a social convention and it wouldn't necessarily be rude to show your gratitude without saying anything, especially if it looks like you are a foreigner. It's just something you get used to if you grow up in it and it's a way of humbling yourself.
Small talk I don't quite know what advice I can offer you there, just remember that there is really no difference between people based on gender. Pretend you are talking to one of your male friends and you'll do just fine. Loosen yourself up and joke around.
Do you live in the dorms? Talk to people on your dorm floor or go hang out in the rec room. If you drink you can also go to bars; people in Wisconsin are very friendly and open to meeting new people and I'm positive it's no different in Minnesota.

I'm going to sleep now, but good luck and I hope at least one part of that response helps you my friend.

I really needed to hear this man, thanks a ton.

I grew up without a father so I get it. Honestly besides that, my big fear is I wont "love" the kid, and not only that, but I dont want to be a father, I guess I want that "Go out whenever want/ spend nights alone at the beach" type of relationship as well.

But i really do appreciate the words. And youre right.

Thanks familia

no problem.
How old is the kid?

Yeah it makes for a totally different dynamic, but you got babysitters and stuff for the occasional night out.
If shes worth it, shes worth it.

Oosh that's harsh lmao

somewhere between 7-9? Hes older, and I think thats better, but its just I dont know how to do that ya know.

Oh damn, that is older.

Its a big decision man but in the end its your choice, and I wouldn't fault you for bailing.

If you decide to stay, just focus on treating him with a level of respect that you probably wouldnt show your own child. I am not saying kowtow, but you arent suddenly his dad and building a relationship of mutual respect takes time.

smile at any one who simles at you or looks into your eyes

Do you think thats worse? I think I kind of prefer it to an actual baby. That would seem so fresh or something.

I'll think hard about it. I feel terrible because I have strong feelings for her, and she for me and its at the point where she is so emotionally invested in me that saying I wouldnt want a relationship would be terrible for her mentally... Although Ive said its not what Im looking for.

I just dont want to waste her time.

>worse
no, its just different.
If the child is under three, then you pretty much become dad via default because they dont know another father, or lack thereof.
It does mean you get to sidestep a lot of the more annoying phrases of infants and young children, and hes not old enough to be angsty just yet.

I totally get that but its life man. Sometimes things dont work out and sometimes they do.

I fell to temptation and called my ex. We thought of maybe going to the movies or something. Did I fucked up? Please help.

Well that depends. How was your relationship with her? And how did it end?

Thanks man, I appreciate the talk. Its been eating at me for a few months now.

No problem dude.
I wish you luck.

>4 years since highschool ended
>still have a weird crush on that one girl in highschool that I eventually embarrassed myself in front of
>no new friends and almost no social life
>no girls I meet these days interest me

I think it was a good relationship, we never had fights, maybe a little passive on her side and insecure on mine.

Brake up was sad. I told her I didint love her anymore. I was lost in emotions and chased after her, we had sex and we tried again, but it kinda didint work and we both ended really sad.

I'm afraid to do the same again, I know I want sex but i'm afraid of being rejected, or if we do, I'm afraid of fucking things up all over again.

Then it can't be that bad user

Just try to play it cool and go for it

Yea doesn't sound too bad, may as well give it another shot. Just try and be more mature about it this time

nigga are you serious? that's the exact same thing that happened to me that i did. 6 goddamn years, then i took some shrooms and figured it out. must've been how a turd feels when being unleashed from the asshole.

to be completely honest, the shrooms helped but were not the primary factor there.
But yeah, freshman year of highschool all the way through till 2nd year of college.
shoot me in the face.

Yeah, maybe you're right, thanks

man you're free now, and you had 2 years of college. mine sucked up most of that :S

and yeah, shrooms are the catalyst that allow you to figure the shit out. they're not the thing that fixes it, you just see it from a different perspective on shrooms that really helps you get through it

it was community college, and then I dropped out after year 4, so never really got that college life.

psychs are actually the best though.

>Be 22
>Dating a qt3.14 for over 3 years
> I was her first sexual experience
>Bedore her I had only gotten blowjobs
>She's pretty awesome, decent body, nice face. Sex is meh.
>My family adores her
>Her family is kind of damaged, so she lives on her own.
Even though things are perfect all I cam think about is fucking other girls.
She's wife material lads.

>start new job
>thought a coworker was into me
>her car breaks and she mentions her boyfriend is picking her up (aloud, not just to me to ward me off)
>she draws a happy face on my hand with a sharpie randomly

I just want a girlfriend.

women aren't like guys.

You know how you can befriend guys and pal around with them?

Women are women. You have to learn to bullshit with them so they suck your pickle.

>Meet some chick
>The literal epitome of everything I want from a woman
>Women are my kryptonite
>I can no longer hide under the veil of self-confidence I throw up to hide my autistic self

WHY HAVE THE GODS FORSAKEN ME?

it's a false sense of confidence

God-tier women are hard to come by but you feel that since you secured this one you can just happen to stumble across many more.

Protip: You won't and she'll have upgraded to a new dick within 2 weeks max. Women are ALWAYS in demand. Men are not.