H...How are you holding up, Veeky Forums?

what is really going on user?

The light inside has broken, but it could be worse.
Having decent success with antidepressants too.
Seriously slacking on self improvement.
Thanks for asking.

>Slowly losing my personality and individual spirit to the all consuming demands of my profession

I am just another drone

Cosey as fuck. Watching the sopranos with some soup,. Hobbies and gains are hitting the groove and flourishing. Got a potential gf on the slow burn.

NEET on savings though. Probably gonna be in for some tough years if I can't find work soon.

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i thought so, hang in there buddy we're all gonna make it

West coast, gonna go to Vancouver and Seattle

shit depression is coming back, no gf.jpg for 2years, no job for 1.5 years, friends feeling sorry for me makes it worse, no i need to change get focused but too much of a bitch to commit to self improvement, 4 months since my last real workout

>Half way done with grad school
>Got 2nd place in BJJ tournament
>Nogf virgin

I'm cruisin'

I live in Seattle, brah. If you like hipster girls, it's the right place

Honestly I just want to do a bunch of drugs and have fun. Would love to give stuff like mush or acid a try, dmt too if I can find some

I know a good hook up down there. You're bound to find someone

Are you waiting for something else after death or just the neither?

That wasn't me. Everything is just going well for me right now. I'm working and saving money, I'm lifting, I'm looking good, I've got a gf that I love, we adopted a puppy, we're going on vacation to Colorado over the holidays, and I just had a really nice day yesterday and a comfy morning this morning.

I mean, yeah, I suffer the existential pain of existence every day just like everyone else. But I can't really complain right now.

lucky bastard that is all i want simple comfortable, well done user you've made it

I am pretty sure that I have narcissistic personality disorder

really badly - decided last week that i'll kill myself in like a few months. made me feel less shit knowing that is all temporary.

been hitting the gym hard though been going everyday since the 30th of November. Had a sick 2 hour session today.

Welcome to the machine, bro. You'll always be yourself even if you're just a number. But even drones can make it.

you know what you can do about it

but all fun asides, you need to find a purpose in life. Not THE purpose, but your own one. Di something you enjoy (I know it's easyer said than done). What have you to loose?

good how about you

i just want my current life to be over. if there is something else after it, great, if not that's also fine

why?

>do things where I meet cute girls
>get too anxious because I have no experience with women
>leave without any new experience
>repeat ad nauseam

How do I break this cycle Veeky Forums? I just turned 21 and I still haven't had a serious girlfriend, just a few dumb high school romances that didn't last

Pretty good actually. Living my life how i want it to be in the meantime i'm looking forward to the day this one girl, not the "one" mind you, and i get back in touch and can start something new and fresh. Exciting.

Mexican NEET here, i'm actually qualified for a good range of jobs since my English is around 95%, From shitty call centers all the way up to an English teacher (for an actual English school, not just some guy teaching 2 year olds how to say apple) And my dad is pretty much the best friend of someone who can get me into college as long as i say yes.

But i still prefer to stay home as NEET, i don't know why, i just feel burnt out, a year ago i'd ride the bus at 4 am every single day to go to work and i did that for almost 2 years, nowadays i cant even fathom waking up that early just to ride a bus full of people for 45 minutes.

As a side note, is 21 still young enough to not be one of the old fucks in college or am i fucked?

sup gringo que pasa

not too good.

>Had a sick 2 hour session today
fuuuaaark keep up the good work
strong people are always happier

i am strong - i am not happy though.
been doings this for a while
girl in math class even told me my ass is amazing

feeling really shit mate, gym only thing that makes it durable

Haven't been to the glory halls for over a month now.

Again.

Fuck.

Stressed to the point of physical illness over my gradea. I'm going to lose my scholarship, I'm so scared of what my mom is going tomsay

I hope you proof read your homework better than your shitposts you goober.

Had a leisurely weekend. Will be my last for a long time to come.
>med student in my last year, so running full time clerkships
>tomorrow getting a huge task for my part time job i expect to be about 100 hours of labor if not more that they expect me to finish ASAP.
>start up a research leading up to a possible PhD next week, need to prove myself to the people in charge so I have to put in as many hours as I can spare.
Lifting has been going well but with all this coming my way I hope I can at least stick to 3 times a week lifting.
Prioritizing everything I'm gonna cut out time to relax and time for social life first.

>I'm so scared of what my mom is going tomsay

like rich piana always says
>as long as you lift and sleep enough, there is no such thig as overworking

I believe in you brah

kekked and then felt sad because its literally same thing i say to others

why do we need threads like these? why is society becoming less and less pleasant? or is it just me

Spending new years eve alone again.
Plateau on all lifts because can't eat enough.
Still an annoying cunt that needs constant attention.
Still no personality to make up for my 3/10 face.
Still hate myself.

Pretty good other than that, thanks for asking.

a good friend of me asked me for the last weeks what I am doing at the weekend, mostly did nothing axcept training and vidya. told him I'm doing nothing much just organising stuff and chilling. He asked me if I'm not concerened that I still don't know much people in my city (moved here 2 years ago).

Man I really don't know many people around here so I don't ave anybody to do things with at the weekend. Most times I don't have the energy to do something outside.

But I lost 10kg in Autumn through keto and now I'm lifting heavier weights every session so I got that going for me

I really hate these new years eve "what are you doing" shit. new years eve is the night of dissapointment, because the partys are never as good as imagined.

Where do you live?

>no gym because studying abroad and dont speak language
>no gf
>no one here cares that im leaving in a few days
>no one except my parents care if i come back
>feel like im just breezing through life even though my major is supposed to be hard

I've been chatting with someone and feelings have gotten deep. We do so many things that we wouldn't with another person. I'm the first girl he's had feelings for in over a year and that is because he is severely depressed. Last night he told me that his feelings aren't getting deeper, towards love territory, because of this. He was sobbing. I'm heartbroken. I want to stay but theres always the chance that he will just never love me.

So, I'm not holding up very well.

Cried last night before bed and I don't really know why. Just feel lonely and like life will never get better.

Lifts have been plateaued, and it doesn't feel like I've made much progress anyway. I guess I just don't feel like I have any purpose or passion in life, and I don't know what will fill that void. I'm not ready to kill myself quite yet, but it's feeling increasingly like that's going to be what happens.

None of my matches on tinder talk reply back.

I'm not even THAT ugly

Tfw I'll never get coffee with chubby tinderella

Practice more, you'll die less and less.

Had another dream I was cuddled up to a qt all night. Mayb 1 day

lol skip vidya fag

>dont speak language
you're lazy. lazy people are not gonna make it

you could help him with his depression maybe get him to see a professional? I believe that trying and getting hurt in the end is better than supressing feels

find a spouse

>I'm not even THAT ugly
you're delusional

just my opinion guys

>lazy
>implying i didnt sign up a few months before the program started
>implying its possible to learn a new language in that time

sure keep telling that yourself and avoid responsibility

not good mane

looks like I'm gonna drop out of college after 6 1/2 fucking years of a 5 year course. I was scared of my parents' reaction and I acted more depressed to get their pity but now it seems like I overdid it and my dad is literally worried sick. At this point I'd be ok with flipping burgers for the rest of my life if it meant I could move out and never see anyone who knew me before I became a loser

/blog

This is me. I need to disappear.

A few months before and then spending several months abroad is more then enough to at least get the basics of any language if you put some effort. No wonder you feel like breezing through life. You don't have friends, don't have a gf, don't lift, all signs of you just taking the easy way out, staying at home not socialising not putting effort. You're obviously the person that doesn't challenge themselve, that has a lazy as shit attitude towards life in general. Your major is too simple for you? Where are your extracurriculars or second major? You're a fucking pussy man.

Ive done a kind of similar thing. I used to really hate life and wanted to die, but once i accepted the fact that im gonna die one day anyways it made me enjoy life more for some reason

oh wew lad you really figured life out
sounds like momscience to me
fuck you I've been there

this is a reply for
The whole reason why he hasn't had romantic feelings is because he has had depression and got his heart broken very badly and then swore off everything until he met me.

I just don't want to play along and then never get a result. I know he cares about me, but if he is never going to love me or want to be together then what is the point? I love him. I love him a lot. And after he cried we fell asleep cuddling. I want him to feel better and be happy but if he can't be where I am then that's such a. fucking. shitty. feeling. for. me. I know it's in there somewhere..... I just don't want to feel like I do today again.

wow sounds shitty
so atm you're more into the idea of leaving him?

well yeah. i dont see the point in staying and then getting even more hurt in the end. i'm sure admitting / talking / crying / how much we mean to one another will help him, but like what's the point of staying with someone that can't love you back?

I quit doing heroin and dumped all of my friends and even my brother because they all do drugs and I don't want to be around it. So now I have no friends and it's lonely.

at least I'm diesel and still lift regularly and even built my own home gym so I have some things to make me feel better.

>skip vidya
yeah obvious but I didn't think of it really. For most parts I just think, yeah what else would I do, I don't know people to do stuff with so I'm just sitting in my mancave and playing all day. But by that one never finds other people so yeah thanks for the advice I needed it

I understand sounds like a hard but the right choice then

>but like what's the point of staying with someone that can't love you back?
hits me right in the feels bc I'm this guy wich means I'm unable to love in the original, romantic sense myself. fuck I hope there is a girl for me out there

keep up the good work

there is. there are a lot of people in the world. don't give up hope. a lot of time people fall into your life when you stop looking.

What this picture means?

thanks

parents see you as a extension of themself (put you on a pedestal or put the pedestal on you) and next to your original personality comes the sadistic superego that hates you. to protect yourself from it you invent your imaginary friend, the false but it needs fuel from outside (attention, affirmation,...)

examples are trump, american psycho, fight club, schwarzenegger, zyzz, hitler, elliot rodger, all those fedora faggots, all the hardcore gamers, all traps, all the tripfags here... the list is long. narcissism is the very cancer of the 21st century

I read his book, was the big turning point in my life
youtube.com/user/samvaknin

>that guy who shitposts in feels threads

>break up with gf of 3 years, 3 months ago
>madly in love, plans to marry, still not sure where it all went wrong
>2 months ago get dinner, basically prostrate myself and beg to fix it
>she leaves me hanging
>a month later i show up at her door and make a fool out of myself
>gives me closure and i've been slowly moving on

I took up piano again, learning spanish for work (medical) and I'm 20 hours away from my degree. After that I'm going to transfer to another state's department or something, see where life takes me. My lifts are back up to 1/2/3/4 and I'm shredded as shit again.

One goddamn day at a time. It's so tragic and disappointing what happens between lovers. So much fear, anger, and negativity get in the way of what really matters. God fucking dammit, I know i'll be a better man for leaving the man I was at the end of that relationship behind, but being in the crucible is fucking HARD. It fucking SUCKS and I wish I knew why she has no empathy for what happened between us. Selfish bitch.

I had an interview for an intership I really want on friday, they'll have an answer tomorrow

I'm fucking nervous, if this doesn't work I will have a shit internship fuck fuck I hope they call me back

So what would a picture without the false self look like? Just a circle?

I don't understand your question

You already know that he doesn't love you? What?

Referring to the original picture

He told me last night that he doesn't love me and doesn't know if he ever could.

Oh okay

I believe he's just scared to hurt you because otherwise he's clearly considering you by telling the whole "doesn't know if he ever could" stuff

Maybe take it slow and see where it takes you?

I just don't get it? Like he came over to tell me he doesn't love me and depression and how he normally loves someone by the time we have talked and stuff, but still tries to see me all the time, in constant contact, was fucking sobbing while saying so... Like, you don't love me? You really don't love me? What does it mean when you do love someone?

I don't know him but i'd say he might need some sort of push maybe?

How do you even push someone to do something like that. Love is organic

Then push is not the right word here meant talk to him and tell him that you should give him and you a chance and just take things slow

Today I'm bad, hangover accentuates my usual sadness and loneliness. It's been nine months since I was with a girl, I feel so lonely and horny. I just want someone to love me and want me.

Also I'm currently unemployed and for the moment I have been rejected to all he jobs I've applied to.

Fortunately I've gotten back in touch with an old friend who's going through some rough shit, we support each other.

I need this right now

Study the test, pupper

Study the test, pupper

>tfw philosophy exam tomorrow

Study the test, pupper!

>in medical school
>has part time job while in medical school
>gonna get a phd too

wow youre just so fucking smart arent you

oh wait,youre ying

Study the test, pupper

Study the test, puppwr

Study the test, pupper

Study the test, pupper

>tfw I have a Statics, Physics, and Business Law final tomorrow

STUDY THE TEST, PUPPER!

>be me
>meet this girl
>hook up 3 times in the past 2 months
>3rd time we talk for a while, we both really like each other
>text a little bit the next day
>doesn't reply to texts or snaps all this week
>always see her on IG and facebook
Wtf

>being a guy
>having a snapchat
>following instagram

you sure you arent gay?