Who else here /happy/?

Yeah well I'd forgo every other emotion if in return all I felt was happiness

This. Also happiness is a choice, and learning to develop a positive perception on the weird is something everyone is capable of with enough time and energy (and cocaine)

I don't know man, happiness is weird. My life is a mess right. I'm often anxious about not having a job or a career prospect, my relationship is in a weird, stressful state, my migraines have become worse and my doctor suspects I might develop schizophrenia since my grandma had it and I'm showing a few symptoms.

Yet I'm pretty cool because my new routine is fun as fuck and my bench went up to 180lbs.

probably you finally hit rockbottom and things no longer matter to you. Like they said "If everything is shit then why worry?"

>attended uni for two years, somehwat an accomplishment, planning on studying more
>Have a loving, qt gf
>Have a nice family
>Job with nice income
>do oly liftan 3 times a week, qualified for nationals and going the next month
>have friends who i talk to every day

Still i feel like a fucking piece of shit why
I mean i feel like depression is being a little bitch with nothing to do and is easily fixed with forging an identity through function, as a matter of being someone. Having a function to society or to a loved one usually is whats missing in depressed people. Basically bragging rights.

But why? Why am i still neutral?

>had nice highschool gf
>dumped me after 5 years
>tfw 23, dyel, no game
>start lifting, improving myself
>don't get laid for 2 years
>eventually get out of dyel mode and obtain a good job
>finally get laid but with 6/10's
>eventually get shitty mean 6/10 gf
>erodes my self esteem
>eventually work up the balls to dump her
>worst breakup ever, she won't leave me alone, tells me I'll never find anyone
>depressed for a bit, but shake it off
>start not giving a fuck, having fun, not worrying about embarrassing myself
>suddenly start banging 7's and 8's
>fuck 3 different girls in 1 week
>eventually meet my current gf
>legit 9/10 Portuguese girl with amazing body
>wants to fuck all the time
>will do anything sexually
>likes to lift
>she's so kind and sweet to me
>in a doctoral program for counselling psych
>feels so good to be wanted by someone so desireable
>for my birthday yesterday she makes me toast, eggs, bacon, w/ homemade jam while in a sexy maid costume
>at night she takes me out for dinner and I ask her to move in with me
>says hes, she's so happy
>I'm so happy
>I've never been this happy
>I know it won't last

Feels so good bros, lifting played a big part in it, keep improving yourself.

kek

write a book about your slow decent into schizophrenia

lift big and write a best seller I think it could work

credit me when you're on the NYT best seller list

Congrats buddy!

>Have gains
>Have money
>Have friends
>Have dream job
>gf recently left me, still working through that

Bouncing back and forth between hating women and their collective bullshit and trying to defeat a crippling anxiety of never spreading my seed and dying old and alone.

halp

I had this weirdly spiritual run today
>tfw I'm sick, stressed about school, and jealous for some reason cause I saw my ex got a new bf
>go for a run
>fucking miserable, stomach hurts, heartburn
>run on my unis trails up until a topednof section. There's a controlled burn apparently.
> due to exasperation I drop to my hands and knees and look to the sky. I'm all alone on the trails.
> "god I don't know what you want with me, but please, make me stop feeling this miserable
> get up and run to the open trail.
> get all these thoughts To my head unbidden, passing my tests, talking to my exs mom and then my ex.
> the thought of me talking to my ex combined with a thought of me holding my current gf in my arms in bed.
> "she loves me more than you ever did" i tell my ex in my thought.
> get out of the trails and start running back to the gym
> feel this weird calmness over me. >Don't really feel that bad anymore with the exception of still a little heartburn

I feel like everything is going to Be alright lads, despite how uncertain the future may be. Have faith, cause we are all gonna make it

>no gf
>no gains
>no hobbies
>failing courses left and right

How did I fuck up this badly? It was going so well, bros... I know I can achieve anything in life if I just try but there's this part of me that says I'm going to feel this emptiness no matter what I accomplish. Who else here /shell of what once was a human being/?

I'm jelly brah. And sorry for that shitty girlfriend you had, that would probably had pissed me off a lot

m-me

>biked 20km today
>tired and happy
>took a shower, had my protein shake
>gonna have a delicious dinner later
>gonna sleep like a baby

I'm happy overall but when I think about how hard it's probably going to be to get a job once I finish grad school I get really pessimistic. There are so many hurdles to go through to land an actual professional career position.

>hours spent browsing job boards
>actually being qualified
>writing a cover letter unique to each position
>tweaking resume unique to each position
>painstakingly submitting all that bullshit online
>chances of actually getting invited to an interview out of hundreds of applicants
>going through a panel interview
>going through a second panel interview
>actually getting hired and put on a probationary period
>making it through probationary period

Good, stay that way as much as poss

Just try to be able to distinguish reality from fiction and enjoy the cool hallucinations you get to see.

it's a downward spiral mate, been there.

try to break the spiral by recognising 'triggers' to behaviours that enable the outcomes you're experiencing right now.The best way is to be mindful about yourself.If you practise it enough, it becomes a protective coating that watches everything you do without judgement.It helps you see what you're doing in a 3rd person view.

read this if you're interested. Good luck mate :)

vipassana.com/meditation/mindfulness_in_plain_english.php

>on the path to being Veeky Forums for the first time in my life, gonna make it
>classes aren't looking to good
>bad at interviews, severely autistic, so no idea if I'll get dream job
>don't talk to qts because those damned robots have made me hate them
>pretty sure I'm gay
>best friend coming home for the summer havnt seen him since last august
>still have bad procrastination and vidya playing habits

My life is pretty meh desu, couple changes and I could finally be /happy/

nice, my 19 yr old 9/10 porteguese gf of 2 years left me 3 months ago for another guy lol, he's 26 im 20 fuuuuck

isnt this true, like all the most intelligent in the people in the world are the saddest

and almost all intellectual child prodigies commit suicide or get bullied every day and live miserable lives

Sounds like hell

Because your seanzie

...it's not true

Intellectual child prodigies are just like any other type of child prodigy. So much attention at a young age isn't good for you.

Appreciation for life and the world has nothing to do with intelligence

>vipassana.com/meditation/mindfulness_in_plain_english.php
>purchase the text at amazon.com

KYS shill

The happier you get the more it hurts when it all erodes away.

cheers for the link, it's good.

>manlet gains
>can't eat 2000 cal a day
>recovering depressed gf
>engineer studies goes to failure, unmotivated
>best friend became an asshole, storming shit inside our group of friends
>family is worried about me

I'm not in a so shitty situation, I just can't make it better. I'm trying so hard tough. The only times I feel free and happy is when I'm riding my bike in the middle of the city, flipping off all the cars at like 35 km/h.
Dat feeling that any mistake could cost my life is maybe the only current thing that make me feel alive

check the link retard, you can read it for free.

We're all gonna make it

Good job bro! I admire you :)