About to finish stretching

>about to finish stretching
>cute girl comes in, sits down opposite of me so she is directly looking at me then starts stretching
>look up and see her looking me
>she smiles
>nod at her, give out some halfassed affirmation smile and then look at the floor instantly
>get up and walk past 5 squat racks and take the last one
>start squatting
>when i'm doing my last rep i notice her in the mirror watching me again
>sit on bench behind squat rack and browse Veeky Forums while i'm resting
>as i'm about to do my second set i catch her looking at me in the mirror again
>she stops stretching starts to walk towards squat racks
>goes past all free ones and occupies the one next to mine
>she starts to squat
>perfect ass
>she sees me watching at her in the mirror
>she smiles again
>look down immediately in shame and start browsing Veeky Forums again
>even though there is tons of free space on the bench she decides to sit literally next to me
>get up and do my last set
>as i'm done and i turn around she is looking at me again
>sperg out hi
>her eyes get big and she genuinely looks excited
>she says hi back
>tells me she never saw me here and if i'm new
>a few seconds pass and she keeps looking at me
>pressure becomes too much, i tell her i have to use the bathroom
>literally shaking, don't even want to go back
>left my towel and water bottle up there
>leave the gym
>didn't even finish my workout because i was too afraid to talk to her again

how can i kill myself? everything in me was screaming to talk to her but the fear was too strong. no matter how much weight i can lift, i'll never be able to lift my autism away. just fucking kill me already

kys

>typing out all that shit
kys

pathetic

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>mfw these autists cockblock themselves

Man it feels good not to be socially retarded

go out to parties and drink
fake it till you make it brah
it will come eventually, though you have tough months/years ahead of you
at some point you will miss the excitement you once felt

You are right, you can't cure autism by lifting. You cure it by starting to defy your fears by talking to people. It's harder to talk to cuties in the beginning, but the lesson is that everyone is the same. A perfect looking babe may be just as insecure and autistic as you, and a less-than-average girl may be a total bitch.
Don't let looks fool you, start talking to people! Everyone! The end goal is to be comfortable striking up a conversation with anyone for any reason. If you do this, you have cured your autism.

you do know that your suggesting somebody to drink and consume poisonous substances on a fucking fitness board right?

You do know that being this autistic will never get you anything in life right?